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Contents
Title Page
Copyright Notice
Dedication
Epigraph
Prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Copyright
Dedication
I dedicate this book to my sons Brett and Wayne who finally understand why I love Australia. And to my daughter Nina, who searched for and found the hero inside herself – I’m so proud of you. Thanks to Marcus for his computer tuition, his drilling and guitar serenades, and to his sister Gemma for her support. My love to Ollie who has to put up with me when I’m writing, and last, but never least, thank you to my step-father, Eric Ivory, for his love, his humour and his ability to smell snakes. He is a true Tasmanian.
‘And his ghost may be heard as you pass by that billabong, You’ll come a-waltzing, Matilda with me’ –
Andrew Barton ‘The Banjo’ Paterson, 1917
Prologue
Churinga. The sigh of the warm wind in the pepper trees seemed to whisper its name. Churinga. A place of magic, of sacred mystery, carved from the bush and scrub by her grandparents. It broke hearts and backs but until now Matilda had been willing to pay the price. For this was all she had known, all she had ever wanted.
Her throat constricted as she looked beyond the family graveyard and out into the wilderness. She must not cry, no matter how deep the pain, no matter how sharp the loss – for the memory of her strong, seemingly invincible mother forbade it. Yet in all her thirteen years, there had been nothing to compare to this sense of abandonment, this feeling that childhood was over and she was destined to follow a lonely trail in this great, beautiful, dreaming place that was home.
The horizon shimmered, diffusing the bright ochre of the earth with the impossible blue of the enormous sky, and all around her were the sounds to which she had been born. For this vast, seemingly empty land was alive with a voice of its own, and she took comfort from it.
The fretting of the sheep in the pens, the quarrelling of the galahs and sulphur-crested cockatoos, the distant cackle of the kookaburra and the soft jingle of harness, were as familiar as the rhythm of her pulse. Even now, in her darkest moment, Churinga’s magic had not deserted her.
‘You wanna say a few words, Merv?’
The shearer’s voice broke the silence of the graveyard, jolting her back to the present and reality. She looked up at her father, willing him to speak, to show some kind of emotion.
‘You do it, mate. Me and God ain’t what you might call on speaking terms.’
Mervyn Thomas was a giant of a man, a stranger who’d returned five years ago from Gallipoli, scarred in mind and body from the things he’d seen – things he never spoke of except in the night when his dreams betrayed him, or when the drink loosened his tongue and his temper. Now he stood sombre in dusty black, leaning heavily on the makeshift walking stick he’d carved from a tree branch. His face was in shadow, the brim of his hat pulled low, but Matilda knew his eyes were bloodshot and that the trembling of his hands had nothing to do with remorse, merely the need for another drink.
‘I’ll do it,’ she said softly into the awkward silence. Stepping out of the small circle of mourners, she clutched her tattered prayer book and approached the mound of earth that would soon cover the rough timber of her mother’s coffin. There’d been little time to mourn. Death had come swiftly at the end and the heat made it impossible to wait for neighbours and friends who would have had to travel hundreds of miles to be here.
The sense of isolation grew as she felt her father’s animosity. To give herself a moment to regain her courage, Matilda trawled the familiar faces of the drovers, shearers and jackaroos who worked Churinga.
The Aborigines were clustered outside the gunyahs they’d built near the creek, and watched curiously from a distance. Death to them was not something to mourn, merely a return to the dust from which they’d come.
Her gaze finally came to rest on the crooked headstones that marked the history of this tiny corner of New South Wales. She fingered the locket her mother had given her and, with courage restored, faced the mourners.
‘Mum came to Churinga when she was just a few months old, wedged in a saddle-bag on my grandfather’s horse. It was a long journey from the old country, but my grandparents were hungry for land and the freedom to work it.’ Matilda saw the nods and smiles of agreement on the sunbaked faces around her. They knew the story – it echoed their own.
‘Patrick O’Connor would have been proud of his Mary. She loved this land as much as he did, and it’s because of her that Churinga is what it is today.’
Mervyn Thomas shifted restlessly, his belligerent glare making her falter. ‘Get on with it,’ he growled.
She lifted her chin. Mum deserved a decent send-off, and Matilda was determined she would have it.
‘When Dad went to war some people said Mum would never manage, but they didn’t know how stubborn the O’Connors can be. That’s why Churinga’s one of the best properties around, and me and Dad intend to keep it that way.’
She looked at Mervyn for confirmation and received a resentful glower in return. It didn’t surprise her. His pride had never recovered from returning from the Great War to find his wife independent and the property flourishing. He’d found consolation in the bottom of a glass soon after that, and she doubted the death of his wife would change him.
The pages of the prayer book were well thumbed and brittle. Matilda blinked away tears as she read the words Father Ryan would have said if there had been time to fetch him. Mum had worked so hard. Had buried her own parents and four children in this little cemetery before she was twenty-five. Now the earth could claim her, make her a part of the Dreaming. She was finally at rest.
Matilda closed the book in the ensuing silence and bent to gather a handful of soil. It trickled between her fingers and gently scattered on to the wooden box. ‘Sleep well, Mum,’ she whispered. ‘I’ll look after Churinga for you.’
* * *
Mervyn was feeling the heat and the effect of the whisky in his belly as the horse plodded towards Kurrajong. His shattered leg throbbed, and his boots felt too tight. This did not improve his temper. Mary had been put in the ground two weeks ago but he could still feel her presence, her disapproval, everywhere.
It had even manifested itself in Matilda, and despite his giving her a touch of his belt after that embarrassing performance at the funeral, still she eyed him with her mother’s customary contempt. Two days of frosty silence had passed before he’d slammed out of Churinga and headed for Wallaby Flats and the pub. A man could drink in peace with his mates there. Could shoot the breeze and garner sympathy and free whisky as well as a tumble with the barmaid.
Not that she’s much to look at, he conceded. In fact she was just a ripe old tart, but then he wasn’t particularly fussy
when the urge took him, and he didn’t have to look at her while he did it.
He leaned precariously from the saddle to fasten the last of the four gates to his neighbour’s property. The sun beat down, the whisky churned, and his own sour smell drifted up from his clothes. The horse shifted restlessly, jarring Mervyn’s bad leg against the fence post, and with a yelp of pain, he almost lost his balance as well as his breakfast.
‘Keep still, you mongrel,’ he growled, jerking the reins. He leaned on the pommel and wiped his mouth on his sleeve as he waited for the pain to ease. His head was a little clearer now he’d thrown up, and after straightening his hat, he slapped Lady’s flank and urged her forward. The homestead was visible on the horizon and he had business to discuss.
Kurrajong stood proudly on the crest of a low hill, sheltered from the sun by a stand of tea trees, its verandah cool and welcoming beneath the corrugated iron roof. It was a quiet oasis amongst the bustle and noise of a busy station. Horses cropped the lush grass in the home paddock which was watered by the bore hole Ethan had dug a couple of years back. Mervyn could hear the ring of the blacksmith’s hammer coming from the forge. The shearing shed was still busy if the noise was anything to go by, and the sheep in the pens were kicking up a racket as they were herded and bunched by the dogs towards the ramps.
He took it all in as he rode up the long drive to the hitching post, and nothing he saw made him feel any better. Churinga’s land might be good but the house was a dump compared to this place. God knows why Mary and Matilda thought so much of it, but then that was typical of the bloody O’Connors. They thought themselves better than anybody else because they had come from pioneer stock, which in these parts was considered almost royal.
Well, he thought grimly, we’ll see about that. Women should know their place. I’ve had enough. They don’t own me.
His belligerence stoked by alcohol, he slid from the ornate Spanish saddle. Grasping his crude walking stick, he made his erratic way up the steps to the front porch. The door opened as he was about to knock.
‘G’day, Merv. We were expecting you.’ Ethan Squires looked immaculate as usual, his moleskins gleaming white against the polish of his black riding boots, open-necked shirt crisp over broad shoulders and flat stomach. There was very little grey in his dark hair. The hand he offered Mervyn was brown and calloused but the nails were clean and the ring on his finger sparked fire in the morning sun.
Mervyn felt overweight and old by comparison, and yet there was only a few months’ difference in their age. He was also aware he was in dire need of a bath and wished he’d taken up the offer before leaving the hotel.
But it was too late for regrets. To hide his discomfort he gave a bark of laughter and pumped Ethan’s hand rather too jovially. ‘How’re ya goin’, mate?’
‘Busy as always, Merv. You know how it is.’
Mervyn waited for Ethan to sit down, then followed suit. Ethan’s greeting had thrown him. He hadn’t announced any intention of calling so why had the other man been expecting him?
The two men remained silent as the young Aboriginal housemaid served drinks. The breeze on the verandah was cooling Mervyn off and now he wasn’t on the back of a horse his stomach was more settled. He stretched out his bad leg and rested his boot on the verandah railings. No point in worrying over Ethan’s welcome, he always had talked in riddles. Probably thought it was clever.
The beer was cold and slid easily down his throat, but it didn’t quite shake the bitterness he could taste at the thought of how lucky Ethan was. Not for him the carnage of Gallipoli but an officer’s billet miles from the fighting. No shattered leg, no nightmares, no memory of mates without faces and limbs, no screams of agony to haunt him day and night.
But then Ethan Squires had always led a charmed life. Born and raised on Kurrajong, he’d married Abigail Harmer, who was not only the best-looking widow around but also one of the richest. She’d brought her son Andrew with her and given Ethan three more before she died in that riding accident. Three living, healthy sons. Mary could only manage one scrawny girl – she’d lost the others.
Mervyn had once dreamed of having a woman like Abigail for himself, but being only a station manager was not considered good enough. Money always went to money, and when Patrick O’Connor had come to him with his extraordinary offer, he’d jumped at the chance. How was he to know Mary was land rich but cash poor – and that Patrick’s promises had been empty?
‘Sorry about Mary.’
Mervyn was startled from his dark thoughts. It was as if Ethan could read his mind.
‘Still, I reckon she suffered enough. Not good to have so much pain.’ Ethan was staring off into the distance, his cheroot clenched between even, white teeth.
Mervyn grunted. Mary had taken a long time to die, but had never once complained or let that steely determination slip. He supposed he should have admired her but somehow her strength had merely weakened him. Her courage shattering his own feeble attempt to blot out the horrors of war and the pain in his leg. He’d felt cheated by the bargain he and Patrick had struck, trapped in a loveless marriage which denied him the respect he craved. No wonder he spent most of the time in Wallaby Flats.
‘How’s Matilda taking it, Mervyn?’
Ethan’s bright blue gaze rested on him for a moment then slid away, but Mervyn wondered if he’d caught a glimpse of disdain in that fleeting look or whether it was just his imagination. ‘She’ll be right. Like her ma, that one.’
Ethan must have heard the acid note in his reply for he turned and looked at Mervyn more deliberately. ‘I don’t reckon you came all this way-to talk about Mary and Matilda.’
That was typical of him. Never wasted time on trivialities when he could outmanoeuvre another man. Mervyn would have preferred to sit on the verandah for an hour or two, drinking beer as he watched the work go on around him and wait for his moment before broaching the reason for his visit. He drained his glass and dropped his foot from the railing. Might as well get it over and done with now Ethan had taken charge.
‘Things are a bit crook, mate. I don’t feel the same about Churinga since I got back and I reckon, now Mary’s gone, it’s time to shoot through.’
Ethan chewed his cheroot, gaze drifting with the smoke. When he finally spoke, his tone was thoughtful. ‘The land’s all you know, Mervyn. You’re too old a dog to learn new tricks and Churinga’s a nice little station after all the work Mary put in.’
There it was again. Praise for Mary. Didn’t his years of labour count for anything? Mervyn clenched his fists and dug them into his lap. He needed another beer but his glass was empty and Ethan wasn’t offering more.
‘Not compared to Kurrajong, it isn’t. We need a new bore dug, the roof’s falling in, termites are making a meal of the bunkhouse and the drought’s killed off most of the lambs. The wool cheque won’t barely cover the bills.’
Ethan stubbed out his cheroot, lifted his glass and drained it. ‘So what is it you want from me, Mervyn?’
Impatience welled in him. Ethan knew perfectly well what he wanted. Did he have to rub salt into the wound and make Mervyn grovel? ‘I want you to buy Churinga.’ His tone was deliberately flat. No point in letting the other man know how desperate he was.
‘Ah.’ Ethan smiled. It was a smirk of satisfaction, and knowing how Ethan had always looked down on him, Mervyn hated him for it.
‘Well?’
‘I’d have to think about it, of course. But perhaps we could come to an arrangement…’
Mervyn sat forward, eager to wind up negotiations. ‘You’ve always liked the land around Churinga, and with your property bordering mine, it would make you the biggest station in New South Wales.’
‘It would indeed.’ Ethan raised one eyebrow, blue gaze steady beneath dark brows. ‘But haven’t you forgotten one tiny detail?’
Mervyn swallowed. ‘What detail?’ he asked nervously, avoiding Ethan’s penetrating stare as he moistened his lips.
‘Matilda of c
ourse. Surely you hadn’t forgotten your daughter’s passion for Churinga?’
Relief drenched him and hastily he gathered his wits. It was all right, Ethan didn’t know about the will after all. ‘Matilda’s too young to meddle in men’s business. She’ll do as I say.’
Ethan stood and leaned against the ornamental railings. The sun was at his back, his expression inscrutable. ‘You’re right, Mervyn. She is young, but she has a feel for the land that’s as natural to her as breathing. I’ve seen her work, watched her ride as fast and as well as any jackaroo when she follows the mob at round-up. To lose that land would kill her spirit.’
Mervyn’s patience snapped. He rose from his chair and towered over Ethan. ‘Look, mate, I’ve got a property you’ve been eyeing for years. I’ve also got debts. Whether Matilda loves the land is neither here nor there. I’m selling, and if you ain’t buying there’s others who’d be only too pleased to take it off my hands.’
‘How exactly do you plan to sell the land when it doesn’t belong to you, Mervyn?’
The wind of Mervyn’s temper blew itself out. He knew! The bastard had known all the time. ‘No one need find out,’ he croaked. ‘We could do the deal now and I’ll be gone. I ain’t gonna tell no one.’
‘But I’ll know, Mervyn.’ Ethan’s tone was arctic, his pause just long enough to make Mervyn itch to hit him. ‘Mary came to me several months ago, just after the doctor told her she didn’t have much time. She was worried you might try and sell Churinga and leave Matilda with nothing. I advised her on how best to protect the girl’s inheritance. She left that land in trust for Matilda. The bank has all the papers until she reaches twenty-five. So you see, Mervyn, there’s no way you can sell it to pay off your gambling debts.’
Mervyn’s gut rolled. He’d heard the rumours and hadn’t wanted to believe them – until now.
‘The law says a wife’s property belongs to her husband. Patrick promised it to me when I married her, and it’s my right to sell it now. And anyway,’ he blustered, ‘what was my missus doin’ calling on you for advice?’