CHAPTER XIX
It was late in October and ten at night, when Leila with her uncle wasendeavouring to discover on one of the large maps, then so much indemand, the situation of the many small conflicts which local feelingbrought about.
"It all wants a head--one head, Leila. Now it is here, there andeverywhere, useless gain or loss--and no large scheme. John leftWashington two weeks ago. You saw his letter?"
"No."
"Then I may have told you--I am sure I did. Damn it, Leila! I am sobothered. I did tell Ann, I suppose."
"Why, of course, Uncle Jim. I wish I could help you. Is it the mills?"
"Yes. Your little property, part of John's--your aunt's--are all in thefamily business. Ann says, 'What's the difference? Nothing matters now.'It isn't like her."
"I'm sure I don't care, Uncle Jim."
"Don't talk nonsense. In a month we shall know if we are bankrupt. I didnot mean to trouble you. I did mean to tell you that to my relief John isout of Washington and ordered to report to General Grant at Cairo. See,dear, there is a pin marking it on the map."
"Do you know this General?"
"Yes. He took no special rank at the Point, but--who can tell! Generalsare born, not made. I saw a beautiful water-colour by him at the Point.That's all I know of him. Now, go to bed--and don't take with you myworries and fight battles in your dreams."
There was in fact no one on whom he could willingly unload all of hisburdens. The need to relieve the hands out of work--two-thirds of hisforce--was growing less of late, as men drifted off into the State forcewhich the able Governor Curtin was sending to McClellan. Penhallow'sfriends in Pittsburgh had been able to secure a mortgage on Grey Pine,and thus aided by his partners he won a little relief, while Riverswatched him with increasing anxiety.
On the 17th of January, 1862, he walked into McGregor's office and saidto his stout friend, "McGregor, I am in the utmost distress about mywife. Inside my home and at the mills I am beset with enough difficultiesto drive a man wild. We have a meeting in half an hour to decide what weshall do. I used to talk to Ann of my affairs. No one has or had aclearer head. Now, I can't."
"Why not, my friend?"
"She will not talk. Henry Grey is in the Confederate service; Charles isout and out for the Union; we have no later news of John. We miserablysit and eat and manufacture feeble talk at table. It is pitiful. Herduties she does, as you may know, but comes home worn out and goes to bedat nine. Even the village people see it and ask me about her. If it werenot for Leila, I should have no one to talk to."
A boy came in. "You are wanted, sir, at the mill office."
"Say I will come at once. I'll see you after the meeting, McGregor."
"One moment, Squire. Here's a bit of good news for you. Cameron hasresigned, and Edwin Stanton is Secretary of War."
"Stanton! Indeed! Thank Heaven for that. Now things will move, I amsure."
The Squire found in his office Sibley, one of his partners, a heavy oldman, who carried the indifferent manners of a farmer's son into a middleage of successful business. He sat with his chair tilted back, a hugeCabana cigar hanging unlighted from the corner of his mouth. He made nomovement towards rising, but gave his hand as he sat, and said: "There,Penhallow, just read that!"
As the Squire took the telegram, Sibley scratched a match on the back ofhis pantaloons and waiting for the sulphur to burn out lit his cigar.Ever after the smell of sulphur brought to the Squire of Grey Pine thesense of some pleasant association and then a less agreeable remembrance.
"Read it--read it out loud, Penhallow! It was a near thing. Wardlowcouldn't meet us--be here at noon. Read it--I've read it about tentimes--want to hear it again. I've been as near broke as you--but that'san old story. When you're at your last dollar, buy a fast pair oftrotters--one thousand-dollar pair--and drive them. Up goes your credit!Told you that once."
Penhallow looked up from the telegram. "Is this certain?"
"Yes, it has been repeated--you can rely on it."
"WASHINGTON, Willard's Hotel.
"Mr. Stanton has given contract for field artillery to the PenhallowMills.
"RICHARD AINSELEY."
Penhallow had read it aloud as he stood. Then he sat down.
"Don't speak to me for a moment, Sibley. Thank God!" he murmured, whilethe care-wrinkled face of the veteran speculator looked at him with afaint smile of affectionate regard.
"Well," said Penhallow, "is this all?"
"No. While Cameron was in office the contract was drawn in favour of theLancaster Works. We have been urging our own claims, and their Washingtonagent, your very particular friend, Mr. Swallow, would have had the jobin a week more. When Stanton saw our bid and that it was really a moreadvantageous offer, he sent first for Swallow and then for Ainseleyand settled it at once. I believe your name and well-known character didthe business. Do you know--do you realize what it means to us?"
"Hardly. I had no hope while Cameron was in office. I left it to you andAinseley."
"Well, you will see the contract to-morrow." He wriggled on to one leg ofthe frail office chair and came down with a crash. He gathered up his twohundred pounds and laughing said, as he looked at the wreck, "That's whatwe would have been tomorrow but for that bit of yellow paper. In sixmonths you will be a rich man, my friend. Cannon--shells--the wholeoutfit. We must get to work at once. An ordnance officer will be hereto-morrow with specifications, and your own knowledge will be invaluable.I'd like to see Swallow again. He was so darned sure!"
Wardlow turned up by the noon train, and they worked until dusk, when hispartners left him to secure hands in Pittsburgh, while the good newsspread among the men still at work. Penhallow rode home through the woodshumming his old army songs--a relieved and happy man.
The Doctor waited a half-hour in vain, and after his noonday dinner wasabout to go out when Mrs. Penhallow was driven to his door. Somewhatsurprised, he went back with her.
"Sit down," he said. "What can I do for you?"
"Oh, for me nothing! I want to talk about my husband. He is ill, I amsure--he is ill. He eats little, he sleeps badly, he has lost--oh,altogether lost--his natural gaiety. He hardly speaks at all."
The Doctor was silent.
"Well," she said.
"Can you bear a little frank talk?" he asked.
"Yes--why not?"
"Do you know that he is on the verge of complete financial ruin?"
"What does that matter? I can--I can bear anything--give up anything--"
"You have the woman's--the good woman's--indifference about money. Do youtalk to him about it?"
"No. We get on at once to the causes of trouble--this unrighteouswar--that I can't stand."
"Ah, Mrs. Penhallow, there must be in the North and South many familiesdivided in opinion; what do you suppose they do? This absolute silence isfatal. You two are drifting apart--"
"Oh, not that! Surely not that!"
"Yes! The man is worried past endurance. If he really were to fall ill--aserious typhoid, for instance, the South and your brother and John,everything would be forgotten--there would be only James Penhallow. Itwould be better to talk of the war--to quarrel over it--to make him talkbusiness--oh, anything rather than to live as you are living. He is notill. Go home and comfort him. He needs it. He has become a lonely man,and it is your fault. He was here to-day in the utmost distress aboutyou--"
"About me?"
"Yes."
"There is nothing the matter with me!"
"Yes, there is--oh, with both of you. This war will last for years--andso will you. All I have to say is that my friend, James Penhallow, isworth all the South, and that soon or late he will stand it no longer andwill go where he ought to be--into the army."
"You are talking nonsense--he will never leave the mills." He had calledup her constant fear.
"It is not nonsense. When he is a broken man and you and he are becomeirritable over a war you did not make and cannot end, he will chooseabsence and imperative duty as his
only relief."
As she stood up, red and angry, she said, "You have only hurt and nothelped me." She said no other word as he went with her to the wagon. Helooked after her a moment.
"Well, well! There are many kinds of fools--an intelligent fool is theworst. I didn't help her any, and by George! I am sorry."
When at twilight the doctor came home from distant visits to farms, hemet Leila near to his door. "I want to see you a minute," she said, asshe slipped out of her saddle.
"A woman's minute or a man's minute?"
"A man's."
She secured her mare as he said, "Well, come in. It's rather amusing,Leila. Sit down. I've had James Penhallow here to say his wife's breakingdown. I've had Mrs. Penhallow here to say James Penhallow is ill. Exceptthe maids and the cats and you, all Grey Pine is diagnosing one another.And now, you come! Don't tell me you're ill--I won't have it."
"Please don't joke, Doctor. I am troubled about these dear people. Italked to Mr. Rivers about it, and he is troubled and says it is themills and money. I know that, but at the bottom of it all is the war. NowAunt Ann is reading the papers again--I think it is very strange; it'sconfusing, Doctor."
"Here," reflected the doctor, "is at least one person with some sense."
She went on, speaking slowly, "Uncle Jim comes home tired. Aunt Ann eatsher dinner and reads, and is in bed by nine. The house is as melancholyas--I feel as if I were in a mousetrap--"
"Why mouse-trap, my dear?"
"It sounds all right. The mouse is waiting for something awful tohappen--and so am I. Uncle Jim talked of asking people to stay with us.It's just to please Aunt Ann. She said, 'No, James, I don't want anyone.' He wished to please her. She really thinks of nothing but the warand Uncle Jim, and when Uncle Jim is away she will spend an hour aloneover his maps. She has--what do you call it--?"
"Is obsession the word you want?"
"Yes--that's it."
"Now, Leila, neither you nor I nor Mark Rivers can help those two peoplewe love. Don't cry, Leila; or cry if it will help you. When you marry, besure to ask, 'what are your politics, Jeremiah?'" His diversion answeredhis purpose.
"I never would marry a man named Jeremiah."
"I recommend a well-trained widower."
"I prefer to attend to my husband's education myself. I should like a manwho is single-minded when I marry him."
"Well, for perversion of English you are quite unequalled. Go and flirt abit for relief of mind with Mark Rivers."
"I would as soon flirt with an undertaker. Why not with Dr. McGregor?"
"It would be comparable, Leila, to a flirtation between a June rose and afrost-bitten cabbage. Now, go away. These people's fates are on the lapof the gods."
"Of the god of war, I fear," said Leila.
"Yes, more or less." He sent her away mysteriously relieved, she knew notwhy. "A little humour," he reflected, "is as the Indians say, _bigmedicine_."
Whether the good doctor's advisory prescription would have servedas useful a purpose in the case of Ann Penhallow, he doubted. Thatheart-sick little lady was driven swiftly homeward, the sleigh-runnerscreaking on the frozen snow: "Walk the horses," she said to Billy, asthey entered the long avenue, "and quit talking."
While with the doctor and when angrily leaving him, she was the easyvictim of a storm of emotions. As she felt the healthy sting of the drycold, she began the process of re-adjustment we are wise to practiseafter a time of passion when by degrees facts and motives begin toreassume more just proportions. He had said, the war would last long.That she had not believed. Could she and James live for years afraid tospeak of what was going on? The fact that her much-loved Maryland did notrise as one man and join the Confederacy had disturbed her with her firstdoubt as to the final result of the great conflict. She thought it overwith lessening anger at the terrible thing McGregor had said, "You twoare drifting apart." This sentence kept saying itself over and over.
"Stop, Billy." She was back again in the world of everyday. "Get in, Mr.Rivers. We are both late for our Dante." As she spoke, an oppressed pinebelow which he stood under a big umbrella was of a mind to bear its loadno longer and let fall a bushel or so of snow on the clergyman's cover.His look of bewilderment and his upward glance as if for some humanexplanation routed from Ann's mind everything except amusement over thiscalamity.
"You must not mind if I laugh." She took for granted the leave tolaugh, as he said, "I don't see where the fun comes in. It is mostdisagreeable." The eloquent eyes expressed calamity. It was reallyfelt as if it had been a personal attack.
"It was a punishment for your utterly abominable politics." For the firsttime for months she was her unfettered self. His mind was still on hiscalamity. "I really staggered under it."
"Shake it off and get in to the sleigh. My husband ought to have all thebig pines cut down." Rivers's mind had many levels. Sometimes they wereon spiritual heights, or as now--almost childlike.
"To stay indoors would be on the whole more reasonable," he said, "or tohave these trees along the avenue shaken."
"I'd like the job," ventured Billy.
"Keep quiet," said Mrs. Ann.
"It is most uncomfortable as it melts," said Rivers.
Ann thought of John Penhallow's early adventure in the snow, and seeinghow strangely real was Mark Rivers's discomfort, remarked to herself thathe was like a cat for dislike of being wet, and was thankful for herprivilege of laughing inwardly.
Billy, who was, as Leila said, an unexpectable person, contributed to AnnPenhallow's sense of there being still some available fun in a worldwhere men were feebly imitating the vast slaughters of nature. Heconsidered the crushed umbrella, the felt hat awry, and the disconsolatefigure. "Parson do look crosser than a wet hen."
Then too Rivers's laugh set free her mirth, and Ann Penhallow laughed asshe had not done for many a day. "That is about my condition," saidRivers. "I shall go home and get into dry clothes. Billy, you're a poet."
"Don't like nobody to call me names," grunted Billy.
"I wish James had heard that," cried Ann, while Rivers gathered up theremains of his umbrella.
As Billy drove away, Mrs. Penhallow called back, "You will come to dinnerto-day?"
"Thank you, but not to-day."
As Ann came down the stairs to the hall, Penhallow was in the man'sattitude, with his back to the fire. Leila with a hand on the mantel anda foot on the fender was talking to her uncle, an open letter in herhand. Ann heard him say, "That was in October"--and then--"Why this mustbe a month old!"
"It must have been delayed. He wrote a note after the fight at Belmont,and that was in October. He did write once since then, but it was hardlyworth sending. As a letter writer, John is rather a failure, but this islonger." She laughed gaily as she spread open the letter.
"He has got a new hero, uncle--General Grant. John is strong onheroes--he began with you."
"Stuff and nonsense," said the Squire. "Read it."
Leila hesitated.
"Oh, let's hear it," cried her aunt.
"Go on, dear," said the Squire.
Leila still hesitated. Usually Ann Penhallow carried away John's rareletters to be read when alone. Now she said, with unnatural deliberation."Read it; one may as well hear his news; we can't always just ignore whatgoes on."
Leila a little puzzled glanced at her aunt. The Squire pleased andastonished said, "Go on, my dear."
Turning to the candles on the hall table, Leila read the letter:--"Whyhow long it has been! It is dated November 20th."
"DEAR LEILA: We have been moving from place to place, and although I knowor guess why, it is best left out of letters. At Belmont General Granthad a narrow escape from capture. He was the last man on board the boat.He is a slightly built, grave, tired-looking man, middle-aged, carelesslydressed and eternally smoking. I was in the thick of the row--a sort ofaide, as there was no engineer work. He was as cool as a cucumber--"
"Why are cucumbers cool?" asked Leila, looking up. "Oh, bother! Go on!"said
Penhallow.
"We shall move soon. Good-bye.
"JOHN PENHALLOW."
Ann made no comment. The Squire said, "It might have been longer. Come,there's dinner, and I am hungry."
Ann looked at him. He was gay, and laughed at her account of Rivers'sdisaster.
"I have some good news for you, Ann. I shall keep it until after dinner.Then we can talk it over at leisure. It concerns all of us, even John."
"I don't see how I am to wait," said Leila.
"You will have to."
Ann made an effort to meet the tone of gaiety in her husband's talk, andwhen the wine was set before him, he said, "Now, Ann, a glass--and Leila,'To our good news and good luck--and to John.'"
They followed him into the library, and being in sacrificial mood, Annfilled a pipe, lighted a match, and said, "I want you to smoke, James."
"Not yet, dear. Sit down."
"No, I want to stand." She stood beside the fire, a little lady, with anarm around the waist of her niece. The Squire seated was enjoying thesuspense of his eager audience.
"You know, dear Ann, that for two years or more the mills have beenwithout large orders. We have been in the most embarrassing situation.Our debts"--he was about to say, 'in the South'--"unpaid. I had to askyou to help us."
This was news to Leila. "Why mention that, James?" said her aunt.
"Well, we long ago lessened our force. To shut down entirely was ruin,but when we met to-day we were to decide whether it was honest to borrowmore money and stagger on, or as I thought, honourable to close the millsand realize for our creditors all we could."
Ann sat down with some feeling of remorse. Why had she not known allthis? Was it her fault? He had borne it for the most part without herknowledge--alone. "My God! It is true," she reflected, "we have driftedapart." He had hopefully waited, not wanting to trouble a woman alreadyso obviously sorrow-laden. He seemed to echo her thought.
"You see, dear," and the strong face grew tender, "I did not mean todisturb you until it became inevitable. I am glad I waited."
Ann, about to speak, was checked by his lifted hand. "Now, dear, all mytroubles are over. Mr. Stanton, the new Secretary of War, has signed acontract with our firm for field artillery. It is a fortune. Our bid waslow. A year's work--shot, shell--and so on. Congratulate me, Ann."
"My God!" he cried, "what is the matter?"
Ann Penhallow turned quickly, a hand on the table staying herself. "Andyou--you are to make cannon--you--and I--and with my money!" she laughedhysterical laughter--"to kill my people the North has robbed and driveninto war and insulted for years--I--I--" her voice broke--she stoodspeechless, pale and more pale.
Penhallow was appalled. He ran to catch her as she swayed.
"Don't touch me," she cried. "I feared for--you--the army--but neverthis--this!" Despite her resistance, he laid her on the lounge.
"Leila," she said, "I want to go upstairs to bed." The face became white;she had fainted.
"Is she dead?" he said hoarsely, looking down at her pale face.
"No--no. Carry her upstairs, uncle." He picked up the slight form andpresently laid her on her bed. "Leave her to me, Uncle Jim. I have seengirls in hysterics. Send up a maid--the doctor! No, I will come down whenshe is undressed. See, her colour is better."
He went downstairs, reluctant to leave her. In the library he sat downand waited. An hour passed by, and at last Leila reappeared. She kissedhim with more than her usual tenderness, saying, "She is quiet now. Iwill lie down on her lounge to-night. Don't worry, Uncle Jim."
This advice so often given was felt by him to be out of his power tofollow. He knew very well that this he would have now to consider was notonly a mere business affair. It ceased to be that when he heard with theshock of bewilderment his wife's outburst of angry protest. He loved heras few men love after many years of married life, and his affection wasstill singularly young. His desire to content her had made him unwiselyavoid talk about differences of opinion. In fact his normal attitude wasdictated by such gentle solicitude as is not uncommon in very virile men,who have long memory for the careless or casual sharp word. To the end ofhis days he never suspected that to have been less the lover and more theclear-sighted outspoken friend would have been better for her and forhim. He sat into the night smoking pipe after pipe, grappling with asituation which would have presented no difficulties to a coarser nature.At last he went upstairs, listened a moment at Ann's chamber door, andhaving smoked too much spent a thought-tormented night, out of which hewon one conclusion--the need to discuss his trouble with some friend. Atsix he rose and dressed, asked the astonished cook for an egg and coffee,went to the stables, and ordered a groom to saddle horses and follow him.
A wild gallop over perilously slippery roads brought him to McGregor'sdoor, a quarter of a mile from the mills. The doctor was at breakfast,and rose up astonished. "What's wrong now, Penhallow?" he said.
"Oh, everything--everything."
"Then sit down and let us talk. What is it?"
The Squire took himself in hand and quietly related his story of thecontract and his wife's reception of what had been to him so agreeableuntil she had spoken.
"Can you bear--I said it yesterday to Mrs. Penhallow--a frank opinion?"
"Yes, from you--anything."
"Have no alarm about her health, my friend. It is only the hysteria of awoman a little spoiled by too tender indulgence."
The Squire did not like it, but said, "Oh, perhaps! But now--therest--the rest--what am I to do?" The doctor sat still a while inperplexed thought. "Take your time," said Penhallow. "I have sent thehorses to the stable at the mills, where my partners are to meet meearly to-day."
The doctor said, "Mrs. Penhallow will be more or less herself to-day. Iwill see her early. There are several ways of dealing with this matter.You can take out of the business her share of the stock."
"That would be simple. My partners would take it now and gladly."
"What else you do depends on her condition of mind and the extent towhich you are willing to give way before the persistency of a woman whofeels and does not or can not reason."
"Then I am not now to do anything but tell her that I will take her stockout of the business."
"That may relieve her. So far I can go with you. But, my dear Penhallow,she may be utterly unreasonable about your manufacture of cannon, andwhat then you may do I cannot say. How long will it be before you beginto turn out cannon?"
"Oh, two months or more. Many changes will be needed, but we havemeanwhile an order for rails from the Baltimore and Ohio."
"Then we can wait. Now I am off for Grey Pine. See me about noon. Don'tgo back home now. That's all."
While the Squire walked away to the mills, McGregor was uneasily movinghis ponderous bulk to and fro in the room.
"It's his damn tender, soft-hearted ways that will win in the end. My oldIndian guide used to say, 'Much stick, good squaw.' Ann Penhallow hasnever in her whole life had any stick. Damn these sugar plum husbands!I'd like to know what Miss Leila Grey thinks of this performance. Now,there's a woman!"
When after a night of deep sleep Ann woke to find Leila standing by herbed, she rose on an elbow saying, "What time is it? Why are you here?"
"It is eight, aunt. You were ill last night; I stayed on your lounge."
Now her aunt sat up. "I was ill, you say--something happened." The thingpieced itself together--ragged bits of memories storm-scattered byemotion were reassembled, vague at first, then quickly more clear. Shebroke into unnaturally rapid speech, reddening darkly, with ominousdilatation of the pupils of her large blue eyes. "And so James Penhallowis to be made rich by making cannon to kill my people--oh, I remember!"It seemed absurdly childlike to Leila, who heard her with amazement. "Andwith my money--it is easy to stay at home and murder--and be paid for it.Let him go and--fight. That's bad enough--I--"
"God of Heaven, Aunt Ann!" the girl broke in, "don't dare to say that toUncle Jim. Are you crazy--to say such things."
/> "I don't know what I am. Oh, those cannon! I hear them. He shall not doit--do you hear me? Now send me up a cup of tea--and don't come in again.I want James--tell him--tell him."
"He went away to the mills at six o'clock."
"I know. He is afraid to talk to me--I want to see him--send for him atonce. I said at once--do you hear! Now go."
As Leila turned to leave, she heard a knock at the door, said "Come in,"and to her relief saw enter large and smiling the trusted doctor. As heneared the bed, Ann fell back speechless and rigid.
"Ah, Leila! That makes it all plain. There is no danger. Close theblinds; I want the room darkened. So! Come into the back room--leave thedoor ajar." He selected a trustworthy chair and sat down with deliberatecare. "Now listen to me, my dear. This is pure hysteria. It may last fordays or weeks--it will get well. It is the natural result of birth,education, worry, etc.--and a lot of darned et ceteras. When you letloose a mob of emotions, you get into trouble--they smash things, andthis is what has become of one of God's sweetest, purest souls."
"It is most dreadful, Doctor; but what shall we do with Uncle Jim. If shehas a mere cold in the head, he is troubled."
"Yes--yes." The doctor took counsel with himself. "I will send up oldMrs. Lamb to help you--she is wise in the ways of sick women. Take yourrides--and don't fret over this suicide of reason." He was pleased withhis phrase. "Let her see Penhallow if she asks for him, but not if youcan help it. It is all as plain as day. She has been living of late alife of unwholesome suppression. She has been alarmed by Penhallow'slooks, hurt by her brothers' quarrels, and heart-sick about the war andJohn. Then your uncle springs on her this contract business and there isan explosion."
After giving careful orders, he went away. To Penhallow he said, "Whenyou are at home keep out of her room. If you have to see her, tell hernothing has been done or will be for months. The time will come when youwill have to discuss matters."