“Perhaps we should discuss this in private,” Patti said. “It’s … The board has concerns. I have concerns. Security concerns.”
“Very well.” Malcolm leveled a finger at Eve. “You have your cell phone. Use it if you need to. Don’t leave the library.” He followed Patti behind the circulation desk, and then they disappeared through an office door.
For an instant, Eve didn’t move. She touched the lump in her pocket that was the cell phone and wondered if this was a test. She looked at the windows, expecting to see Aunt Nicki watching her from outside. All she saw was the parking lot. She glanced at the office door. It stayed shut.
Quickly, she scooted into the main library, past the reference desk, past the computers, and into the stacks. Stepping in between bookshelves, she felt as if the library were enveloping her. The smell of books swirled around her.
Selecting a book at random, Eve pressed her nose against the pages and inhaled. She smelled dust and paper, a hint of coffee like Malcolm drank, a little overly sweet scent like Aunt Nicki wore. Eve pictured a woman curled on a couch with this book, her cup of coffee beside her, her perfume fresh on her wrists. Eve wondered if she left behind smells on the things that she touched too. She imagined tracing her smells out of the library, into Malcolm’s car … Her smell would be thick in the bed where she’d lain with the sheets tucked tight around her as she stared up at the ceiling and tried not to dream. She’d trace the smell back to the agency, but what if she followed it farther? Had there been books in her past that she’d touched? Had she felt safe with them? Just holding this book made her feel as if arms were wrapped around her.
“Smell okay?” A male voice. Very close.
She felt as if ice water had been poured into her veins. Freezing, she didn’t breathe. She had the phone, she reminded herself. Plus, Malcolm wouldn’t have left her if there were any real danger.
Forcing herself to inhale and exhale, Eve lowered the book from her nose. On the other side of the book was a boy her age. He had brown eyes with green flecks, and unlike Malcolm, he was closer to her height, so those eyes peered directly into hers as if pinning her to the bookshelf.
He scooped a book off the shelf next to her and sniffed it. “This one smells like bacon.” He picked up another. “Cigarettes.” A third. “Just book. I like the smell of fresh books best, especially just-processed books with the slick plastic covers.” He stuck out his hand. “I’m Zach, library page, at your service.” After a second’s hesitation, she shook his hand. It was warm and soft. “I think it’s a shame that it’s customary to shake hands upon greeting when what I really want to do is kiss your lips and see if you taste like strawberries.”
She released his hand. “I’m Eve. I’ve never eaten a strawberry.”
“Allergies? I’m allergic to cats. Not cats themselves, per se. Hairless cats are fine. It’s the cat dandruff, caught in the fur. Need serious anti-cat-dandruff shampoo.” His hair had slid over his eyes as he talked; he shook it back and smiled at her. “Glad you didn’t freak when I said I want to kiss you. I’ll wait for an invitation, of course, but I believe in being up front about these kinds of things. Prevents misunderstandings later. I don’t want you thinking that we can ever be just friends. Unless it’s friends with benefits.”
Eve stared at him. “Are you a friend of Malcolm’s?”
“Don’t know a Malcolm,” Zach said. “Not a common name. Never met an Eve, either, come to think of it. I will resist the obvious apple jokes, promise.”
So he wasn’t sent by Malcolm to watch her. “Apples?”
“Little-known facts about apples: apples are members of the rose family, it takes energy from fifty leaves to produce one fruit, and humans have been eating apples since at least sixty-five hundred BC. Bet you’re asking yourself how a handsome guy like me who can’t seem to stop talking ended up working in a library where the talking thing is not so condoned.”
She continued to stare at him, blinking once.
“Or perhaps you’re wondering about hairless cats. They’re less cuddly than you’d think. Also prone to sunburn. And oddly prone to more earwax, due to less ear hair. But I’m boring you. Cardinal sin when talking with a beautiful girl. Not to be confused with the original sin … And I promised no obvious jokes. Sorry. Don’t hate me.”
“I’ll try not to,” she said gravely.
“Now you’re just being polite.” He heaved a sigh.
Eve’s mouth twitched into a smile. “I’m not good at polite. I’m told I need to practice more.”
“You could decide to embrace a policy of total honesty, like I have. I don’t lie.”
She’d thought that was what people did. Malcolm and Aunt Nicki lied all the time. Right now, Malcolm was in Patti Langley’s office, undoubtedly lying to her. “That’s wonderful.”
“My parents think it’s annoying.”
“Do they lie?”
“It’s the only language they speak.” His voice was cheerful, but his eyes were sad. She wondered if that contradiction counted as a lie. “Hyperbole and sarcasm totally don’t qualify as lies,” he said. “There is truth in my pain.”
“Everything about me is a lie,” Eve said. She thought for a second and added, “Except my eyes.”
“You have pretty eyes,” Zach said.
“So I’ve been told.”
Sitting in a cracked leather chair in the library lobby, Eve flipped through the books that Zach had picked for her: a history of bread, a biography of a nature photographer, a book on bird migration, another on skyscrapers. Malcolm had taught her to read. She remembered him patiently showing her a few words. After that, the lessons were a blank, but they must have happened and they must have stuck. Or maybe she’d learned to read long ago, and he’d merely reminded her. Regardless, if she could remember the words, she should remember learning them. If she knew what a skyscraper was, she must have seen one. She thought of the flock of sparrows, black against the brilliant blue.
Stop, she told herself.
She couldn’t think like that. Worrying about what she did and didn’t know would only eat her up inside. She knew things but couldn’t remember how she knew them—the doctors said that was common with memory loss like hers. They said she had long-term memory loss, punctuated by bouts of short-term memory loss. But knowing it was common didn’t help. Eve stroked the book covers, their slick plastic wrapping sliding under her fingertips. She wondered how much truth was in these books, and if any of them featured girls who could change their eyes or cause birds to fly off wallpaper without knowing why.
Malcolm and the librarian, Patti, emerged from her office. “… very well, and I appreciate your frankness, Mr. Harrington.”
“And I appreciate your flexibility.”
Crossing the lobby, Patti beamed at Eve. “Congratulations, and welcome. You’ll start tomorrow.” She asked Malcolm, “Is nine to three acceptable for her schedule?”
“Perfect,” Malcolm said.
Eve stacked Zach’s books beside her and stood. “I like your library.”
“That’s nice, dear,” Patti said. “Just please remember, this is a safe haven for our patrons, and we’d like it to remain so. I will be watching.” Patti checked to make sure no one was looking at them, and then she reached up to her neck and flicked open the top two buttons of her blouse. She pulled the collar open. Two eyes were embedded on her sternum. The extra eyes blinked at Eve.
Eve clasped her hands together tightly so they wouldn’t shake. Her skin felt as if spiders were crawling all over her. But she kept her voice even and calm as she stared at the extra eyes. “Oh.”
Patti calmly rebuttoned her shirt.
Malcolm placed a hand on Eve’s shoulder. “We will return tomorrow.”
A few more words, a nod, a handshake, and then Malcolm steered Eve across the lobby. Looking over her shoulder, Eve gawked at Patti until they exited. Malcolm led her outside and down the ramp. Parked diagonally in a handicapped spot, Aunt Nicki waited in another
agency car. The motor was running. Malcolm opened the back door, and Eve climbed inside. She fastened her seat belt without fumbling, and Malcolm patted her shoulder approvingly.
As Malcolm squeezed into the passenger seat, Aunt Nicki said, “Meeting rescheduled to today. Lou wants us in. We can pick up your car later.”
Malcolm sighed. “Today?”
“Poor baby. Busy day,” Aunt Nicki said. “How did it go in there?”
“Fine. Everything’s been arranged,” Malcolm said.
“The librarian has two extra eyes,” Eve said.
Aunt Nicki raised both of her eyebrows. “She showed that to Eve?”
“She was making a point,” Malcolm explained.
“Huh,” Aunt Nicki said.
Eve looked back at the building. She bet that Zach didn’t know about the extra eyes. She imagined what he would have said about them. She thought he might recite facts about flies or other multi-eyed creatures. “Is she from another world too?”
“Can you swing by Dunkin’ Donuts?” Malcolm asked, his voice mild. “What do you know about other worlds?”
“Nothing.” She stared at the library until it disappeared behind the trees.
No one spoke until Aunt Nicki turned into the Dunkin’ Donuts parking lot. As she parked, Malcolm twisted in his seat to look at Eve. “Eve, would you like any coffee?”
“She’s too young for coffee,” Aunt Nicki said. “It’ll stunt her growth and make her boobs tiny. Get me a medium espresso, no milk or sugar.”
“She could have decaf,” Malcolm said.
“It’s a bad habit to start.”
“Smoking is a bad habit to start,” Malcolm said. “Chewing your fingernails, bad habit. Obsessively quoting eighties music, also bad. Decaf is nothing.”
“I’m fine,” Eve said. “Is she from my world?”
“You tell me,” Malcolm said.
“If I knew, I wouldn’t ask.”
Aunt Nicki laid her hand on Malcolm’s sleeve. “Just get the coffee.”
He didn’t move. “You might like a jelly donut. Remember, we ate them in the agency last week. You licked the jelly off your fingers. Lou wasn’t impressed with your manners. Said we should work on that.”
“Lou isn’t impressed by anything,” Aunt Nicki said. “He’s the only person I know who’s totally unimpressed by level five.”
Eve tried to dredge up a memory of a donut or Lou or level five. But she couldn’t. She reached inside her mind, and the thoughts skittered away like sand or mist. She concentrated harder, reached deeper … Blank.
“It’s an act,” Malcolm said to Aunt Nicki. “Thinks if he’s jaded, we’ll respect him more. Absolutely nothing wrong with displaying a little amazement or showing a little compassion. You ought to try it.”
“I am as warm and fuzzy as a kitten,” Aunt Nicki said.
“Toward her?” Malcolm asked.
“She just sits there. Doesn’t she know—”
“Don’t,” Malcolm said. “We agreed.”
“If she knew why—”
“End of conversation,” Malcolm said. “We are not talking about this here and now. Or ever, really, but expressly not here and now. Pick another topic. Weather report said it was supposed to rain, but it’s not raining yet.”
“Scattered showers,” Aunt Nicki said. “Mostly cloudy tonight.”
“See? Not so hard,” Malcolm said. “Stay here. And behave.” He stepped out of the car and went inside the Dunkin’ Donuts. Eve had thought she had all her recent memories of the agency. She should be able to remember something as specific and simple as eating a jelly donut last week. She felt her ribs squeeze tight together. Her hands balled into fists, and her nails dug into her palms. Aunt Nicki had said seven months. What else was in those seven months?
Aunt Nicki tapped her fingers on the steering wheel as they waited for Malcolm. In an overly bright voice, she said, “So, tell me, Eve, how did you like the library?”
Gulping in oxygen, Eve focused on what she could remember: the smell of the library books, the sound of Zach’s voice … He let words spill out as if his brain were a faucet always turned on. She didn’t think she said that many words in a week. But Aunt Nicki was waiting for an answer. “Fine,” Eve said.
“Fabulous,” Aunt Nicki said.
Eve concentrated on keeping her breathing even. She felt as if she were shaking inside, her organs rattling against her bones.
Aunt Nicki tapped her fingers on the steering wheel and watched the donut-store door. “You know that Malcolm is an optimist.”
“You could tell me what you think I should know.” Eve fought to keep her voice steady and mild. All the while she continued to dig her nails into her palms.
“You’re Malcolm’s case,” Aunt Nicki said. “It’s his call.”
“I don’t remember eating a jelly donut,” Eve said, her voice a whisper.
Aunt Nicki was silent for a moment. “I know.”
Malcolm returned with two coffees and a donut bag. He tossed the bag to Eve and positioned the two coffees in the car’s cupholders. He looked from Eve to Aunt Nicki and back to Eve. “What did I miss?”
Eve clutched the bag to her chest. Her hands shook.
“Trading beauty secrets,” Aunt Nicki said. She put the car in reverse, and they peeled out of the parking lot. Ten minutes later, Aunt Nicki pulled up to a featureless gray garage with a guard booth. There was nothing to indicate that this building housed a branch of WitSec, the Witness Security Program. A blue-uniformed guard checked her ID and Malcolm’s and shined a flashlight at Eve’s face, and then the garage door rattled up. Aunt Nicki drove in, and it lowered behind them. She pulled into a parking spot, diagonal again.
“You could straighten the car,” Malcolm commented.
“You could have driven.”
“Just saying, the next person is likely to think it’s straight and pull out and—”
“Maybe have to turn the wheel. Yeah, that would be so terrible. I don’t think so. Parking perfectionist. You have issues.” Aunt Nicki and Malcolm both stepped out of the car. This time, Eve didn’t get to enjoy the moment of silence when they both shut their doors; Malcolm yanked hers open immediately. She wished she had a moment to regroup. Or a day. Or a year.
Still clutching the bag with the jelly donut, she stepped out of the car. She regretted it instantly. Cage, she thought. Her eyes darted around the garage. Walls, close. Ceiling, low. She headed for the door, striding quickly.
“Look at that, she remembers the way,” Malcolm said softly behind her.
“She’s been here enough,” Aunt Nicki said.
“Not this level. Usually we park on C.”
“Whoo-hoo, it’s a miracle,” Aunt Nicki said. “You read too much into everything.”
“And you have the patience of a five-year-old.”
“Part of my charm,” Aunt Nicki said. “Just for the record, I don’t approve of any of this. You’re taking too big a risk.”
His mouth quirked. “Lou believes I don’t risk enough.”
“He just wants different kinds of risks, whereas I think you’re both insane.”
Eve halted in front of the door. She wanted in. Now! She pushed on the door. It didn’t budge. Malcolm reached around her and waved his ID card in front of a panel, and then the door unlocked with a snick sound.
Inside wasn’t much better.
Bright lights filled the hall and reflected off silver-and-white walls. The air tasted stale. She didn’t think she’d ever noticed that before, but it felt like chalk on her tongue. Outside tasted damp. Home tasted mildewy. The library tasted like warm dust.
“Let her lead,” Malcolm said.
“Lead where?” Aunt Nicki asked.
“Out,” Eve said. She counted her steps—twenty-five to the elevator. She pushed the up button, then stepped inside when the elevator opened. Malcolm and Aunt Nicki scooted inside after her as she pressed five.
“Five?” Aunt Nicki asked. “But that
’s—”
“Shh,” Malcolm said.
“Out,” Eve repeated. She was certain of it.
The elevator doors slid open. Eve strode forward, trusting instinct or memory to lead her. She turned left and then right. She halted in front of a massive steel door.
Two armed guards on either side shifted as they watched her. She touched the elaborate gears of the lock. Maybe I’m wrong. Maybe this isn’t … Malcolm flashed his badge. So did Aunt Nicki.
The guards twisted wheels on either side of the door, and Malcolm punched numbers into a keypad. The steel door rolled open. Eve hesitated for an instant and then walked inside. Immediately she felt the coldness suck against her skin. She walked through a blank corridor toward the next door.
Malcolm placed his hand on a pad. It scanned his palm, and the door slid open. The next door required a combination code, which Aunt Nicki entered. The fourth set of doors was guarded again. One of the guards radioed for permission, which was granted.
As the last door slid open, Eve prepped herself. This is it, she thought. She could feel it, her destination. Malcolm gestured for her to proceed, and she strode forward.
Inside … it was empty.
She halted in the center of the room. Spinning, she looked in all directions. The room was vast, with a silver ceiling far above them. The walls were bare silver, smooth and cold. The floor was spotless white. Except for the door they’d come through, the room was featureless.
All the certainty drained out of her, flushed away. She started to shake again. This wasn’t … She didn’t know this place. Or at least she didn’t remember it. It was just a room, an empty room.
The two agents watched her.
Eve circled the perimeter of the room. Her reflection followed her, crisp on the silver. She saw no reason for this empty room to be guarded, and she didn’t know why she’d been so sure this was her destination. This … this was nothing.
“You were expecting a big breakthrough, weren’t you?” Aunt Nicki said to Malcolm.
Eve felt empty inside, as empty as the room.
Malcolm held his hand out to Eve. “Come with me.” He sounded tired and sad. “There’s still time.”