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  but did madigan tell u her new idea, about cumberland island? it’s way closer than busch gardens, and once we got there we could take a ferry to the island itself and camp out. it wld just be us and the park rangers, so our parents wouldn’t have to worry about us partying or anything.

  zoegirl:

  yeah, we talked about it in homeroom. jana whitaker was listening in, and she said beach camping is really fun.

  SnowAngel:

  *jana* said that?

  zoegirl:

  uh huh. the whole time we were talking, jana was like, “road trip. yeah. that’s cool.” maddie acted as smooth as ever, but i could tell she was pleased.

  SnowAngel:

  GOD, that makes me sick.

  zoegirl:

  why?

  SnowAngel:

  cuz it’s soooo not maddie—or at least it used to not be. these days i’m not so sure.

  zoegirl:

  what do you mean?

  SnowAngel:

  i don’t even wanna get into it, cuz it’s like the more we talk about jana the more power she gets.

  SnowAngel:

  but today in math, maddie was chatting with eric craver, and i heard her say that once she got her license, she was gonna “cruise the back roads and blast some totally cream music.”

  zoegirl:

  blast some totally cream music???

  SnowAngel:

  it’s her new jana-ism. it’s just so wrong how she’s gone from hating her to, like, worshipping her.

  zoegirl:

  “worshipping” may be a little extreme. anyway, maybe jana’s changed. maybe she’s gotten better.

  SnowAngel:

  i can’t believe u wld say that!!! do u know what jana said to me today? DO u?

  SnowAngel:

  i was doing my nails during my free, and jana breezes up and goes, “saw u at carl’s party with rob. did you getcha some?”

  zoegirl:

  get you some what?

  SnowAngel:

  what do u think?!

  SnowAngel:

  and then she goes, “or was it tonnie who got lucky?” then she fake-laughed and said, “just kidding. honestly, i think it’s so big of you not to care that he flirts with other girls.”

  zoegirl:

  oh, that’s bad

  SnowAngel:

  do u think she knows something that i don’t? do u really think he’s flirting with tonnie?

  zoegirl:

  i don’t know. i hope not. but i wouldn’t worry about anything jana says.

  SnowAngel:

  i know, cuz jana is NOT a nice person.

  zoegirl:

  agreed.

  zoegirl:

  here’s what i say: go to bennigan’s. try to have fun, and DON’T obsess about rob. he’s not worth it.

  Fri, Oct 1, 9:45 PM E.D.T.

  zoegirl:

  maddie! you there?

  mad maddie:

  um, yeah…

  mad maddie:

  where’s the fire?

  zoegirl:

  it’s angela. we need to go over and be with her—NOW.

  mad maddie:

  ???

  zoegirl:

  she’s been crying to me over the phone for the last hour. she went out to dinner with her mom and chrissy, and while she was there, guess who she ran into?

  zoegirl:

  TONNIE AND ROB. as in, on a date. she said they were snuggled up in a booth sharing an awesome blossom.

  mad maddie:

  christ, that sucks.

  mad maddie:

  what the hell is an awesome blossom?

  zoegirl:

  u know, those fried onion thingies with the dipping sauce. and what’s worse? angela and rob shared one on their first date too.

  mad maddie:

  is bennigan’s the only restaurant rob goes to???

  zoegirl:

  not the point. angela is devastated, so i told her we’d come over and spend the night. watch movies and eat tons and tons of junk food, that sort of thing.

  mad maddie:

  sounds good. i’ll see if mark can give me a ride.

  zoegirl:

  on the phone, angela kept saying, “is it cuz tonnie’s prettier than me? IS it?” i feel so bad for her.

  mad maddie:

  did she say anything to rob when she saw him? and did he see her?

  zoegirl:

  he saw her, all right. angela said he stared at her for like ten seconds, and then he turned to tonnie and started talking really animatedly, even though a blush had spread from his neck all the way up his face.

  zoegirl:

  angela grabbed chrissy and her mom and jerked them out the door, and then she burst into tears.

  mad maddie:

  that asshole

  zoegirl:

  and then apparently her mom made some super-supportive comment like, “just let it go, angela. he’s obviously the type of boy who only cares about appearances.”

  mad maddie:

  good lord

  zoegirl:

  so we should get over there, because she’s totally a mess.

  mad maddie:

  gotcha. i’m on it!

  Sat, Oct 2, 5:22 PM E.D.T.

  mad maddie:

  hey, poor sad angela. your tweet made me want to hug you. r u really at krispy kreme, or was that another “walking the lonely train tracks” fake-out?

  SnowAngel:

  i really am at KK. I walked here, hoping that getting off my butt wld help, but it didn’t. so now i’m expanding my butt with donuts.

  SnowAngel:

  i hate myself, basically.

  mad maddie:

  don’t hate yourself. hate rob. have u talked to him?

  SnowAngel:

  no

  mad maddie:

  well, good. he’s not worth it.

  SnowAngel:

  i TELL myself that, but that’s not how it feels.

  SnowAngel:

  i need u and zoe. ur the only ones who understand. you’re coming back tonight, right?

  mad maddie:

  ouch. that’s actually why i texted. i want to—i do—but i can’t. i’m scheduled to work, and i can’t find anyone to trade shifts with.

  SnowAngel:

  no! u HAVE to!

  mad maddie:

  but zoe’ll be there. u’ll be fine.

  mad maddie:

  i’ll call u tomorrow!

  Mon, Oct 4, 5:25 PM E.D.T.

  SnowAngel:

  hey, mads. hey, zo. i had a totally crappy time at school today, just so u both know. *sniffle, sniffle*

  mad maddie:

  ah, shit. i’m sorry.

  SnowAngel:

  i didn’t wanna go at all, but mom made me. how unfair is that?

  mad maddie:

  terribly unfair. those damn parents, always wanting their damn kids to go to school. i say we revolt.

  zoegirl:

  how was french? did u and rob talk?

  SnowAngel:

  yes. he said that tonnie was the one who asked him out, and he didn’t know how to say “no.”

  mad maddie:

  that is the lamest excuse i think i’ve ever heard. please tell me u told him to go to hell.

  SnowAngel:

  i told him it really hurt my feelings.

  zoegirl:

  good for u

  mad maddie:

  what?!!! he treated u like dirt, angela. telling him he “really hurt your feelings” isn’t gonna do it.

  SnowAngel:

  he also said that tonnie is just a friend, even if she wants to be more, and that he’s sorry if he ruined something good just cuz of her.

  zoegirl:

  IF he ruined something good?

  mad maddie:

  he’s a dick. and he looks like that weird brother guy on “arrested development.”

  SnowAngel:

  he does not!

  mad maddie:

  zoe? back m
e up?

  zoegirl:

  well, not EXACTLY. but kind of. just a *teeny* bit, if he were way older.

  mad maddie:

  ok, he’s the young version of the weird bro on “arrested development.” it’s still bad!

  SnowAngel:

  maybe i’ll email him. shld i email him? cuz he acted like things were over b/w us when he was telling me about tonnie, but maybe that’s just cuz he’s afraid i won’t give him a second chance.

  mad maddie:

  ANGELA. STOP RIGHT NOW.

  SnowAngel:

  but what if it’s true love? i can’t walk away from true love!

  zoegirl:

  do you REALLY think it’s true love?

  SnowAngel:

  it MIGHT be. and i don’t wanna be the kind of person who’s not willing to put in the work, u know? love takes work. it’s not all cake and ice cream.

  mad maddie:

  all right, i can’t deal with this. bye, ladies.

  SnowAngel:

  maddie?

  SnowAngel:

  zoe, did maddie really go away?

  zoegirl:

  looks like it

  SnowAngel:

  maddie doesn’t get it, cuz she’s never been in love. but it’s better to have lived and loved than never to have loved at all.

  zoegirl:

  i guess

  SnowAngel:

  it’s TRUE. and now i’m gonna email rob like i said i would, cuz u’ve made me feel so much better.

  zoegirl:

  i have?

  SnowAngel:

  yeah. thanks for the pep talk, i needed it.

  Mon, Oct 4, 5:59 PM E.D.T.

  mad maddie:

  zoe, angela is her own worst enemy, you know.

  zoegirl:

  i love her so much, but i do kind of understand what you’re saying. but i don’t know how to tell her that to her face. i don’t even know if i want to say it to her face.

  mad maddie:

  i do. i just wanna shake her shoulders and say, “GET A CLUE! HE IS A LOSER!!!”

  zoegirl:

  i know. it’s so sad.

  mad maddie:

  yeah, but it’s also just ANNOYING.

  mad maddie:

  i didn’t wanna mention it in front of angela, but can i tell u what a great time i had at work saturday night?

  zoegirl:

  with ian?

  mad maddie:

  we splashed dishwater at each other—it was vair vair flirty and fun. and get this: he asked if i wanted to hang out with him next weekend, after our shifts r over.

  zoegirl:

  no way!

  mad maddie:

  way!

  zoegirl:

  you said yes, i’m assuming?

  mad maddie:

  oh, i was very coy as i turned bright red and mumbled, “uuh, sure!” i was quite the vixen.

  zoegirl:

  oh, maddie, you are going to have an awesome birthday weekend. you’re still going out with me and angela on friday, right?

  mad maddie:

  ack—i totally forgot. actually, the rents have had a rare moment of parental affection and wanna take me to that brazilian restaurant where u get heaps and heaps of meat. sounds like my kind of place, baby.

  zoegirl:

  this friday? they’re taking you to Meat Land this friday?

  mad maddie:

  uh, yes, since that would be my bday…

  zoegirl:

  but you said u’d go out with us!

  mad maddie:

  so we’ll go out saturday instead, only it’ll have to be in the morning since i work that night. ooo—we could do the all-u-can-eat breakfast buffet at shoney’s!

  zoegirl:

  yeah, but angela had her heart set on being with you on your exact birthday. i don’t mean to make a big deal out of this, but she’ll be really disappointed if we don’t get together.

  mad maddie:

  that’s ridiculous

  zoegirl:

  i know, but still. she’d be really, really disappointed. she’s just so fragile right now.

  mad maddie:

  fine. i’ll tell the rents to take me out another time, i guess.

  zoegirl:

  excellent idea. maybe THEY can take u to shoney’s.

  mad maddie:

  whatevs

  mad maddie:

  welp, time to bounce. mark is gonna take me driving in a minute here, and i must do my limbering-up exercises. rotate the wrists, rotate the neck, practice my patented scan for dogs and small children…

  zoegirl:

  have fun.

  mad maddie:

  only four more days!!!

  Mon, Oct 4, 7:45 PM E.D.T.

  SnowAngel:

  i wrote rob that email. i’m not gonna show it to maddie cuz she’d just be mean, but do u wanna read it?

  zoegirl:

  angela. are you sure rob’s really worth it?

  SnowAngel:

  here’s what it says:

  Dear Rob, I just wanted to say that it’s totally cool if you want to hang out with other people. Obviously Tonnie is just a friend, because why would anyone choose her when they could have me? Ha ha, just joking. But anyway, we shouldn’t let her come between us, because I think we have something really special. Call me, ok? Love, Angela.

  zoegirl:

  oh. well, that’s… very nice.

  SnowAngel:

  do u think it’s too much that i said “love”? cuz i DO love him. but i don’t wanna scare him off, especially when he’s already feeling guilty. i don’t wanna overwhelm him.

  zoegirl:

  don’t take this the wrong way, but are you absolutely positive you want to send it? maybe you should just give it some time.

  SnowAngel:

  what good would that do? anyway, i already DID send it.

  SnowAngel:

  omigod, why? do u think i shouldn’t have?!!

  zoegirl:

  i didn’t say that

  SnowAngel:

  u think i shouldn’t have sent it.

  SnowAngel:

  crap. crap!

  SnowAngel:

  u think i’m a freak, don’t u? is HE gonna think i’m a freak? oh no, this is terrible!

  zoegirl:

  hold on, angela. just wait and see. there’s nothing more you can do.

  SnowAngel:

  i cld write him again. i could try to be more low-key!

  zoegirl:

  NO, angela. just wait and see.

  SnowAngel:

  right. ok.

  SnowAngel:

  but i’m gonna go check my email in case he’s already responded

  Mon, Oct 4, 10:51 PM E.D.T.

  SnowAngel:

  he didn’t write back.

  zoegirl:

  oh, angela

  SnowAngel:

  but maybe he hasn’t had time to read it. maybe he’s been super-busy.

  zoegirl:

  maybe so

  SnowAngel:

  i’ll check first thing in the morning and tell u what he says!!!

  Tues, Oct 5, 10:01 PM E.D.T.

  SnowAngel:

  zoe, i need u!

  zoegirl:

  i’m here, i’m here. what happened?

  SnowAngel:

  I HATE TONNIE WYNDHAM!!! *clomps about in a flying rage*

  zoegirl:

  what happened?

  SnowAngel:

  i called rob—just to talk, cuz he never did email me back last night, and in french he was all weird—and he hemmed and hawed and asked if we could do this later.

  zoegirl:

  “can we do this later”? that’s what he said?

  SnowAngel:

  he said he was playing Call of Duty. i was kinda hurt, but i was like, “sure, whatever.” and then over the phone i heard this voice whining, “ro-o-o-ob, look behind you! don’t die!” TONNIE WYNDHAM WAS AT HIS HOUSE!!! THEY WERE PLAYING CALL OF DUTY TOGETH
ER!!!

  zoegirl:

  NO. WAY. what a loser.

  SnowAngel:

  i know! i HATE her!!!

  zoegirl:

  actually, i meant rob.

  SnowAngel:

  it’s not *his* fault. she probably showed up unannounced. he doesn’t know how to say no to her, remember?

  zoegirl:

  angela, can you hear yourself? ROB IS A LOSER!

  SnowAngel:

  but he’s so cute! and i miss him so much!

  zoegirl:

  yeah, but he’s treating you like dirt.