Once they’d staggered up the five flights to their dingy little apartment where Mary had always planned to put up curtains but had never had time, Don suddenly caved in with fatigue and threw himself on the couch and fell asleep without taking off his clothes. Mary tried to rouse him but gave it up. She unlaced his shoes for him and threw a blanket over him and got into bed herself and tried to sleep.
She was staring wide awake, she was counting old pairs of trousers, torn suits of woolly underwear, old armyshirts with the sleeves cut off, socks with holes in them that didn’t match. She was seeing the rickety children with puffy bellies showing through their rags, the scrawny women with uncombed hair and hands distorted with work, the boys with their heads battered and bleeding from the clubs of the Coal and Iron Police, the photograph of a miner’s body shot through with machinegun bullets. She got up and took two or three swigs from a bottle of gin she kept in the medicinecloset in the bathroom. The gin burned her throat. Coughing she went back to bed and went off into a hot dreamless sleep.
Towards morning Don woke her getting into the bed. He kissed her. “Darling, I’ve set the alarm for seven. . . . Be sure to get me up. I’ve got a very important committeemeeting. . . . Be sure and do it.” He went off to sleep again right away like a child. She lay beside his bigboned lanky body, listening to his regular breathing, feeling happy and safe there in the bed with him.
Eddy Spellman got through with his truck again and distributed his stuff to several striking locals U.M.W. in the Pittsburgh district, although he had a narrow squeak when the deputies tried to ambush him near Greensburg. They’d have nabbed him if a guy he knew who was a bootlegger hadn’t tipped him off. The same bootlegger helped him out when he skidded into a snowdrift on the hill going down into Johnstown on the way back. He was laughing about it as he helped Mary pack up the new shipment. “He wanted to give me some liquor. . . . He’s a good feller, do you know it, Miss Mary? . . . Tough kinder . . . that racket hardens a feller up . . . but a prince when you know him. . . .‘Hell, no, Ed,’ his name’s Eddy too, I says to him when he tried to slip me a pint, ‘I ain’t goin’ to take a drink until after the revolution and then I’ll be ridin’ so high I won’t need to.’” Mary laughed. “I guess we all ought to do that, Eddy. . . . But I feel so tired and discouraged at night sometimes.” “Sure,” said Eddy, turning serious. “It gits you down thinkin’ how they got all the guns an’ all the money an’ we ain’t got nothin’.”
“One thing you’re going to have, Comrade Spellman, is a pair of warm gloves and a good overcoat before you make the next trip.”
His freckled face turned red to the roots of his red hair. “Honest, Miss Mary, I don’t git cold. To tell the truth the motor heats up so much in that old pile of junk it keeps me warm in the coldest weather. . . . After the next trip we got to put a new clutch in her and that’ll take more jack than we kin spare from the milk. . . . I tell you things are bad up there in the coalfields this winter.”
“But those miners have got such wonderful spirit,” said Mary.
“The trouble is, Miss Mary, you kin only keep your spirit up a certain length of time on an empty stumick.”
That evening Don came by to the office to get Mary for supper. He was very cheerful and his gaunt bony face had more color in it than usual. “Well, little girl, what would you think of moving up to Pittsburgh? After the plenum I may go out to do some organizing in western Pennsylvania and Ohio. Mestrovich says they need somebody to pep ’em up a little.” Eddy Spellman looked up from the bale of clothes he was tying up. “Take it from me, Comrade Stevens, they sure do.”
Mary felt a chill go through her. Don must have noticed the pallor spreading over her face. “We won’t take any risks,” he added hurriedly. “Those miners take good care of a feller, don’t they, Eddy?” “They sure do. . . . Wherever the locals is strong you’ll be safer than you are right here in New York.” “Anyway,” said Mary, her throat tight and dry, “if you’ve got to go you’ve got to go.”
“You two go out an’ eat,” said Eddy. “I’ll finish up . . . I’m bunkin’ here anyway. Saves the price of a flop. . . . You feed Miss Mary up good, Comrade Stevens. We don’t want her gettin’ sick. . . . If all the real partymembers worked like she does we’d have . . . hell, we’d have the finest kind of a revolution by the spring of the year.”
They went out laughing, and walked down to Bleecker Street and settled happily at a table in an Italian restaurant and ordered up the seventyfivecent dinner and a bottle of wine. “You’ve got a great admirer in Eddy,” Don said, smiling at her across the table.
A couple of weeks later Mary came home one icy winter evening to find Don busy packing his grip. She couldn’t help letting out a cry, her nerves were getting harder and harder to control. “Oh, Don, it’s not Pittsburgh yet?” Don shook his head and went on packing. When he had closed up his wicker suitcase he came over to her and put his arm round her shoulder. “I’ve got to go across to the other side with . . . you know who . . . essential party business.”
“Oh, Don, I’d love to go too. I’ve never been to Russia or anywhere.” “I’ll only be gone a month. We’re sailing at midnight . . . and Mary darling . . . if anybody asks after me I’m in Pittsburgh, see?” Mary started to cry. “I’ll have to say I don’t know where you are . . . I know I can’t ever get away with a lie.” “Mary dear, it’ll just be a few days . . . don’t be a little silly.” Mary smiled through her tears. “But I am . . . I’m an awful little silly.” He kissed her and patted her gently on the back. Then he picked up his suitcase and hurried out of the room with a big checked cap pulled down over his eyes.
Mary walked up and down the narrow room with her lips twitching, fighting to keep down the hysterical sobs. To give herself something to do she began to plan how she could fix up the apartment so that it wouldn’t look so dreary when Don came back. She pulled out the couch and pushed it across the window like a windowseat. Then she pulled the table out in front of it and grouped the chairs round the table. She made up her mind she’d paint the woodwork white and get turkeyred for the curtains.
Next morning she was in the middle of drinking her coffee out of a cracked cup without a saucer, feeling bitterly lonely in the empty apartment when the telephone rang. At first she didn’t recognize whose voice it was. She was confused and kept stammering, “Who is it, please?” into the receiver. “But, Mary,” the voice was saying in an exasperated tone, “you must know who I am. It’s Ben Compton . . . bee ee enn . . . Ben. I’ve got to see you about something. Where could I meet you? Not at your place.” Mary tried to keep her voice from sounding stiff and chilly. “I’ve got to be uptown today. I’ve got to have lunch with a woman who may give some money to the miners. It’s a horrible waste of time but I can’t help it. She won’t give a cent unless I listen to her sad story. How about meeting me in front of the Public Library at two thirty?” “Better say inside. . . . It’s about zero out today. I just got up out of bed from the flu.”
Mary hardly knew Ben he looked so much older. There was grey in the hair spilling out untidily from under his cap. He stooped and peered into her face querulously through his thick glasses. He didn’t shake hands. “Well, I might as well tell you . . . you’ll know it soon enough if you don’t know it already . . . I’ve been expelled from the party . . . oppositionist . . . exceptionalism . . . a lot of nonsense. . . . Well, that doesn’t matter, I’m still a revolutionist . . . I’ll continue to work outside of the party.”
“Oh, Ben, I’m so sorry,” was all Mary could find to say. “You know I don’t know anything except what I read in the Daily. It all seems too terrible to me.” “Let’s go out, that guard’s watching us.” Outside Ben began to shiver from the cold. His wrists stuck out red from his frayed green overcoat with sleeves much too short for his long arms. “Oh, where can we go?” Mary kept saying.
Finally they went down into a basement automat and sat talking in low voices over a cup of coffee. “I didn’t want to go to yo
ur place because I didn’t want to meet Stevens. . . . Stevens and me have never been friends, you know that. . . . Now he’s in with the comintern crowd. He’ll make the centralcommittee when they’ve cleaned out all the brains.”
“But, Ben, people can have differences of opinion and still . . .”
“A party of yesmen . . . that’ll be great. . . . But, Mary, I had to see you . . . I feel so lonely suddenly . . . you know, cut off from every You know if we hadn’t been fools we’d have had that baby that time . . . we’d still love each other. . . . Mary, you were very lovely to me when I first got out of jail. . . . Say, where’s your friend Ada, the musician who had that fancy apartment?”
“Oh, she’s as silly as ever . . . running around with some fool violinist or other.”
“I’ve always liked music. . . . I ought to have kept you, Mary.”
“A lot of water’s run under the bridge since then,” said Mary coldly.
“Are you happy with Stevens? I haven’t any right to ask.”
“But, Ben, what’s the use of raking all this old stuff up?”
“You see, often a young guy thinks, I’ll sacrifice everything, and then when he is cut off all that side of his life, he’s not as good as he was, do you see? For the first time in my life I have no contact. I thought maybe you could get me in on reliefwork somehow. The discipline isn’t so strict in the relief organizations.”
“I don’t think they want any disrupting influences in the I.L.D.,” said Mary.
“So I’m a disrupter to you too. . . . All right, in the end the workingclass will judge between us.”
“Let’s not talk about it, Ben.”
“I’d like you to put it up to Stevens and ask him to sound out the properquarters . . . that’s not much to ask, is it?”
“But Don’s not here at present.” Before she could catch herself she’d blurted it out.
Ben looked her in the eye with a sudden sharp look.
“He hasn’t by any chance sailed for Moscow with certain other comrades?”
“He’s gone to Pittsburgh on secret partywork and for God’s sake shut up about it. You just got hold of me to pump me.” She got to her feet, her face flaming. “Well, goodby, Mr. Compton. . . . You don’t happen to be a stoolpigeon as well as a disrupter, do you?”
Ben Compton’s face broke in pieces suddenly the way a child’s face does when it is just going to bawl. He sat there staring at her, senselessly scraping the spoon round and round in the empty coffeemug. She was halfway up the stairs when on an impulse she went back and stood for a second looking down at his bowed head. “Ben,” she said in a gentler voice, “I shouldn’t have said that . . . without proof. . . . I don’t believe it.” Ben Compton didn’t look up. She went up the stairs again out into the stinging wind and hurried down Fortysecond Street in the afternoon crowd and took the subway down to Union Square.
The last day of the year Mary French got a telegram at the office from Ada Cohn. PLEASE PLEASE COMMUNICATE YOUR MOTHER IN TOWN AT PLAZA SAILING SOON WANTS TO SEE YOU DOESN’T KNOW ADDRESS WHAT SHALL I TELL HER. Newyearsday there wasn’t much doing at the office. Mary was the only one who had turned up, so in the middle of the morning she called up the Plaza and asked for Mrs. French. No such party staying there. Next she called up Ada. Ada talked and talked about how Mary’s mother had married again, a Judge Blake, a very prominent man, a retired federal circuit judge, such an attractive man with a white vandyke beard and Ada had to see Mary and Mrs. Blake had been so sweet to her and they’d asked her to dinner at the Plaza and wanted to know all about Mary and that she’d had to admit that she never saw her although she was her best friend and she’d been to a newyearseve party and had such a headache she couldn’t practice and she’d invited some lovely people in that afternoon and wouldn’t Mary come, she’d be sure to like them.
Mary almost hung up on her, Ada sounded so silly, but she said she’d call her back right away after she’d talked to her mother. It ended by her going home and getting her best dress on and going uptown to the Plaza to see Judge and Mrs. Blake. She tried to find some place she could get her hair curled because she knew the first thing her mother would say was that she looked a fright, but everything was closed on account of its being newyearsday.
Judge and Mrs. Blake were getting ready to have lunch in a big private drawingroom on the corner looking out over the humped snowy hills of the park bristly with bare branches and interwoven with fastmoving shining streams of traffic. Mary’s mother didn’t look as if she’d aged a day, she was dressed in darkgreen and really looked stunning with a little white ruffle round her neck sitting there so at her ease, with rings on her fingers that sparkled in the grey winter light that came in through the big windows. The judge had a soft caressing voice. He talked elaborately about the prodigal daughter and the fatted calf until her mother broke in to say that they were going to Europe on a spree; they’d both of them made big killings on the stockexchange on the same day and they felt they owed themselves a little rest and relaxation. And she went on about how worried she’d been because all her letters had been returned from Mary’s last address and that she’d written Ada again and again and Ada had always said Mary was in Pittsburgh or Fall River or some horrible place doing social work and that she felt it was about time she gave up doing everything for the poor and unfortunate and devoted a little attention to her own kith and kin.
“I hear you are a very dreadful young lady, Mary, my dear,” said the judge, blandly, ladling some creamofcelery soup into her plate. “I hope you didn’t bring any bombs with you.” They both seemed to think that that was a splendid joke and laughed and laughed. “But to be serious,” went on the judge, “I know that social inequality is a very dreadful thing and a blot on the fair name of American democracy. But as we get older, my dear, we learn to live and let live, that we have to take the bad with the good a little.”
“Mary dear, why don’t you go abroad with Ada Cohn and have a nice rest? . . . I’ll find the money for the trip. I know it’ll do you good. . . . You know I’ve never approved of your friendship with Ada Cohn. Out home we are probably a little oldfashioned about those things. Here she seems to be accepted everywhere. In fact she seems to know all the prominent musical people. Of course how good a musician she is herself I’m not in a position to judge.”
“Hilda dear,” said the judge, “Ada Cohn has a heart of gold. I find her a very sweet little girl. Her father was a very distinguished lawyer. You know we decided we’d lay aside our prejudices a little . . . didn’t we, dear?”
“The judge is reforming me,” laughed Mary’s mother coyly.
Mary was so nervous she felt she was going to scream. The heavy buttery food, the suave attentions of the waiter and the fatherly geniality of the judge made her almost gag. “Look, Mother,” she said, “if you really have a little money to spare you might let me have something for our milkfund. After all miners’ children aren’t guilty of anything.”
“My dear, I’ve already made substantial contributions to the Red Cross. . . . After all, we’ve had a miners’ strike out in Colorado on our hands much worse than in Pennsylvania. . . . I’ve always felt, Mary dear, that if you were interested in labor conditions the place for you was home in Colorado Springs. If you must study that sort of thing there was never any need to come East for it.”
“Even the I.W.W. has reared its ugly head again,” said the judge.
“I don’t happen to approve of the tactics of the I.W.W.,” said Mary stiffly.
“I should hope not,” said her mother.
“But, Mother, don’t you think you could let me have a couple of hundred dollars?”
“To spend on these dreadful agitators, they may not be I Won’t Works but they’re just as bad.”
“I’ll promise that every cent goes into milk for the babies.”
“But that’s just handing the miners over to these miserable Russian agitators. Naturally if they can give milk to the children it makes them popular,
puts them in a position where they can mislead these poor miserable foreigners worse than ever.” The judge leaned forward across the table and put his blueveined hand in its white starched cuff on Mary’s mother’s hand. “It’s not that we lack sympathy with the plight of the miners’ women and children, or that we don’t understand the dreadful conditions of the whole mining industry . . . we know altogether too much about that, don’t we, Hilda? But . . .”
Mary suddenly found that she’d folded her napkin and gotten trembling to her feet. “I don’t see any reason for further prolonging this interview, that must be painful to you, Mother, as it is to me. . . .”
“Perhaps I can arbitrate,” said the judge, smiling, getting to his feet with his napkin in his hand.
Mary felt a desperate tight feeling like a metal ring round her head. “I’ve got to go, Mother . . . I don’t feel very well today. Have a nice trip. . . . I don’t want to argue.” Before they could stop her she was off down the hall and on her way down in the elevator.
Mary felt so upset she had to talk to somebody so she went to a telephone booth and called up Ada. Ada’s voice was full of sobs, she said something dreadful had happened and that she’d called off her party and that Mary must come up to see her immediately. Even before Ada opened the door of the apartment on Madison Avenue Mary got a whiff of the Forêt Vierge perfume Ada had taken to using when she first came to New York. Ada opened the door wearing a green and pink flowered silk wrapper with all sorts of little tassels hanging from it. She fell on Mary’s neck. Her eyes were red and she sniffed as she talked. “Why, what’s the matter, Ada?” asked Mary coolly. “Darling, I’ve just had the most dreadful row with Hjalmar. We have parted forever. . . . Of course I had to call off the party because I was giving it for him.”
“Who’s Hjalmar?”
“He’s somebody very beautiful . . . and very hateful. . . . But let’s talk about you, Mary darling . . . I do hope you ’ve made it up with your mother and Judge Blake.”