“That’s why,” Nohar managed through gritted teeth. “The hit in Lakeview. Couldn’t tell who he was over the comm . . .”
One of them addressed him in Smith’s blubbery voice. “We do not do such things lightly. We must be certain of the right when we do such irrevocable acts. A waste you must be here—”
The pain in his leg was making him dizzy. He was beginning to feel cold, clammy. In this heat? He must be going into shock. “Right?” It was a yell of pain as much as an accusation. “I talked to Smith.” Nohar caught his breath. “You were breaking your own rules when you cut him out of the loop.” Nohar wished he had one of Manny’s air-hypos.
“He is a traitor. He knows not that the mission is paramount. He clings to propriety as if we are in—” A word in the alien’s language. “And not in this violent sewer.”
Another one continued. “We do not allow ourselves to perform physical violence. The traitor does not understand our circumstance is dire and requires an exception.”
Nohar was beginning to have trouble feeling his leg. The dizziness was getting worse. “End justifies the means?”
A third one, near the cone, spoke. “It is a waste. The tiger understands.”
The first one—perhaps the leader, but Nohar was having trouble keeping track of these similar creatures—continued. “The traitor, perhaps, understands or suspects our plans when he hires you. It is intended you lead the new unrest—”
The one by the cone, “—like your father leads the convenient rebellion eleven years ago. The traitor anticipates us and hires you against us—”
“The traitor,” one of them went on, “knows what kind of resonance there is when he hires you—”
“—Datia is a useful charismatic figure to keep unrest going, Datia’s son is useful as well. A waste the traitor talks to you before us—”
The one by the cone bent—no, oozed—over to turn a valve that was recessed in a concave depression near its base. The flame sputtered out. “It doesn’t matter. We go, take our supplies and begin elsewhere. We have done well to prepare for the time the plan is uncovered—”
Nohar shook his head too quickly. He felt faint.
He couldn’t tell them apart. They all looked like Smith, all smelled like Smith, talked like Smith. “You guys blew it—”
“Who are you to judge? We achieve our end—”
“It was the vote to scuttle the NASA deep-probe project, wasn’t it? It will hit the Senate after the election and you just couldn’t wait . . .”
All the things stopped moving. They didn’t say anything, didn’t move. Nohar slowly raised the shotgun.
“Enough of your pet congressmen were supposed to win Senate seats to tip the scales on the vote. Then the shit hits the fan and MLI falls apart. You designed the whole thing to be uncovered eventually. The phony identities are just too damn phony. You want the scandal and the indictments that would follow to throw the Congress into chaos—”
Nohar paused to catch his breath. He couldn’t feel his leg at all anymore.
They were regrouping to face him. He still had the shotgun covering them, and he hoped desperately it would do some good. “The Fed was about to follow up all your false trails. The DEA was about to find its flush manufacturing center. But you blew it. Forensics was not supposed to get to Smith’s body that fast. There wasn’t supposed to be a body. You tried to have Hassan erase that mistake. It was too late. I know, and now, the Fed knows.”
That got them. They were looking at each other. One spoke, “Then we must end it—”
“End us—”
One of them headed back for the cone while another addressed Nohar. “We complete our original mission. We end ourselves. Nothing is left but speculation and pieces of paper. Without physical evidence, no probes are sent. Your violent races will not contaminate our star systems. We need those new worlds, you will not take them away—”
Nohar was leveling the shotgun at the one that was at the cone. “No, you’re not getting off that easy. No suicides. And you call us violent. How many people have you managed to kill because of those probes? A tac-nuke on the moon would have done the same thing, and not killed anyone—”
“Law requires we act indirectly in covert activity.”
Nohar gagged on that one. “Law? You screwed-up bastards—no wonder the only one of you with a shred of morality ended up a ‘traitor.’”
It kept moving. They were going to flood the room with methane. Nohar pumped the shotgun and shot the creature. Bile and ammonia filled the air, and the creature was knocked back to the far wall. A chunk of the creature’s translucent flesh splattered against the wall. But it didn’t bleed, didn’t even leak. The shot had passed right through it.
It stood up, none the worse for wear.
“Unnecessary display, such things do not hurt our kind. Useless since we end now anyway.”
The thing went back to the valve and started turning. “You, and others, may know we originate from a different biology. But without us to examine, your ethnocentric culture never accepts the idea of an extraterrestrial culture.”
Nohar lowered the shotgun.
What were they going to do, asphyxiate or ignite? Didn’t matter, he was dead either way—his leg wouldn’t let him move.
Chapter 27
The one at the valve had finished his job, and Nohar could hear the hiss of the methane.
The creature had half-turned toward him when Nohar heard a soft “phut” from the hole behind him. A small tube had planted itself in the folds under the creature’s chin. There was a bubbling groan from the creature, and it raised a flabby white arm to the tube stuck in its neck.
Three more “phuts” and similar tubes embedded themselves in the other aliens. There was a shuddering moan from the first one. Its arm had stopped halfway to its neck. There was a tearing sound as the pink clothes gave way and the thing collapsed into a shapeless white mass. There was a clatter as its eyes, fake plastic orbs, rolled off the mound of shuddering flesh. A pair of pink dentures followed.
The others collapsed as well.
They weren’t dead, so much as reverted to some natural state. They still moved, though in a shuddering, rhythmic fashion—occasionally throwing out a multitentacled pseudopod from their mass, only to be reabsorbed into the mound of flesh a moment later. They now looked like the amoebic form of life Manny had described.
Isham came through the hole behind Nohar and went to the valve on the cone, shut it off. She was talking to herself. “. . . cave dwellers, lots of heat vents and volcanic activity. Dim red-yellow sun, thick atmosphere, probably high gravity. They could survive very heavy acceleration. Could have ridden in on a nuclear rocket not much more advanced than our own. Gems are probably synthetic . . .”
Nohar hadn’t realized how tightly he was holding the shotgun until he tried to drop it. His hands didn’t want to move. “Damn it, Isham. Where did you come from, and what took you so long?”
Isham squatted and was looking at one of the quivering mounds of alien flesh. She poked it with the end of an air rifle she was carrying. The white flesh rippled like a water balloon. “We were staked out at Midwest Lapidary ‘headquarters.’ NuFood seemed too small to rate notice. Our team got word from the DEA. McIntyre and Conrad have been two steps behind the Zipperheads all night, ever since the rats jumped a cabbie at the airport. They radioed your message, and my team had to scramble all the way from downtown. I was point, got here about two minutes after you did—”
“What?” Nohar had spoken too loudly. He was suddenly out of breath and felt faint.
She activated her throat-mike. “Aerie, this is Bald Eagle—nest is clear, send the Vultures in with the cleanup. We need a local ambulance, with our own medics. Out.”
She stood up and looked into one of the niches in the wall. She reached in and took out a diamond. It glinted red facets of li
ght.
“I had to tape them just in case the drug killed them. Otherwise, their rapid decomposition would be hard to explain to Washington—”
“You were there.” Nohar was fighting alternating waves of pain and nausea. “All that time?”
She tapped a lens hanging off her belt with the diamond and dropped the gem back in the niche. “Two meters behind you. All the way through the building.”
Nohar sighed.
“That D amino acid information was vital. But you threw the tac-squad for a loop. We had stunners, but we wanted the ‘franks’ alive. And because of you, we discovered the trank we were using wouldn’t have worked right on their biology—”
Nohar looked at the pulsing forms of the aliens. “What’d you use?”
“The only thing I had access to, flush. It’s a symmetrical molecule. Probably use the same stuff, wherever they come from.”
Talk about poetic justice. “What happens now?”
“The cleanup crew’ll be here in about three minutes. They’ll pack these things up. The Fed will take over the processing plant here, keep them alive. If we’re lucky, these will lead us to any more covert cells these guys have set up in the country. You do understand this is a national security matter. These are not aliens. This didn’t happen.”
The Fed and its passion for secrets. It was becoming difficult to remain conscious. “What about the Zipperheads, and the politicians?”
“The DEA has the Zipperheads. They can have them. The MLI plot was designed to unravel, so we’ll let it unravel. We’ve done extensive computer searches into MLI’s background, much more thorough than your hacker friend. These things seeded a money trail that leads back to the CIA. It’s going to look to the vids, and everyone else, like this was just another rogue Agency operation—”
Nohar sucked in a breath. “You’re not really FBI, are you?”
Isham smiled. It didn’t look like a grimace this time. “Only on loan.”
“Just let the CIA take the heat for this?”
“That’s what it’s for. The CIA’s designed to take the heat for the NSA, the NRO, and a half-dozen other organizations in the intelligence community. We’ll gladly let them fall to the wolves to keep this bottled up. Justice will prosecute a good percentage of Congress, Congress gets to flay open the CIA. Executive hits Legislative, Legislative gets back at the Executive—”
Nohar leaned back on the curved concrete, ignoring the sudden dagger of pain that erupted from his leg. It was just too much effort to stay upright. “Checks and balances, right?”
“The way it works in practice anyway.”
“What about NASA’s deep-probe project?”
“Congress will scuttle them. The NSA will black-budget them, launch, and eventually, we’ll find out where these things come from.”
Nohar closed his eyes. It felt like he was losing consciousness. “We’re going to do the same thing to them, aren’t we?”
“Not my decision . . .”
Figured . . .
Nohar slipped into the darkness.
• • •
It was Friday, the 26th of August, and the weather was deigning to cool down a little. That, and it looked to be the first week of August with no rainfall. Nohar had just closed the deal on Manny’s house, and he was feeling emotionally exhausted.
He sat down on a box in the center of the empty living room and looked at the comm. He wanted to call Stephie, ask her to go with him. However, he couldn’t muster the courage—he’d been avoiding her ever since he made the decision to leave this burg. He knew if she said no, he wouldn’t leave. And staying in this town would kill him. Too many memories.
He sat on the box in the middle of Manny’s living room, realizing he was going to do to Stephie the same thing Maria had done to him. That decided it. He was going to call her.
He had just reached for the comm when someone at the front door rang the call button.
Their timing sucked.
Nohar grabbed a crutch and hoisted himself up to his feet. He was getting good at maneuvering with the cast. He managed to get all the way to the door without bashing it into anything. He didn’t bother with the intercom. He just threw the door open.
There she was, carrying a huge handbag, smelling of roses and wood smoke.
Nohar fell into the cliché before he could stop himself. “I was just going to call you.”
There was a half-smile on her face. “Oh, you were? I’ve been looking for you ever since you left the hospital. You moved out of your apartment—”
“Transferred the lease to Angel—”
Stephie nodded and patted him on the shoulder—the left one where the fur had come back in white. “You going to let me in?”
Nohar stepped aside and let her through. She surveyed the empty living room and sighed. It echoed through the house. “So you’re moving out of here, too—how is Angel, anyway?”
“She’s lucky rabbits are common. They had skin cultures to match her. The fur on her legs is white now, but she can walk. She got a job.”
The concept seemed to shock Stephie. “As what?”
“Cocktail waitress at the Watership Down. A bar on Coventry—”
She pulled up a box and they sat down, facing each other.
“So how are you taking things?”
Nohar slapped his cast. “They had to weave some carbon fiber into the tendons, but the cast comes off in a month, and with a few months of exercise—”
She shook her head. “That’s not what I mean and you know it. You’re still blaming yourself for Manny, aren’t you?”
That hit home. “If—”
Stephie put her finger on his lips. “I talked to Manny a lot about you. He was your father for five years, and because of school you ran away to Moreytown and joined a street gang. When your gang got involved with the riots and you found out what your real father was, you ran away from them. Now you’re going to run away from this life, right?”
Nohar shook his head. “I can’t live here anymore . . .”
“I suppose not. But you aren’t going to run away from me. I won’t let you.”
They sat, looking at each other.
“I suppose not.”
She smiled and shook her head. “At least he doesn’t object. Well, I got myself a new job, demographics for Nielsen.”
Nohar had a sinking feeling. He forced a smile. “Great. Where?”
“Santa Monica.”
Nohar was speechless for a moment, and she seemed to enjoy his reaction. “You knew I was going to California?”
“‘California is a lot more tolerant,’” she quoted.
“Where did you hear that?”
“Those rodents had more than drugs and guns at that motel. The white one left this on the comm.” She reached into the overlarge bag and pulled out a ramcard. Nohar noticed the bag kept moving when she took her hand out of it. The bag emitted a slightly familiar smell. “Seems to be a copy of whatever you had on permanent storage on your comm. I was going to give this to you when you got out of the hospital. But you slipped out without telling me. So I played it.”
Nohar took the card wordlessly.
“That Maria is one stupid cat for walking out on you.”
“No, she isn’t.”
The handbag was still moving. Nohar couldn’t hold it in anymore. “What the hell do you have in the bag?”
Stephie broke into a wide grin. “I still remember that line you gave me in the parking garage, about your cat.”
Another thing Nohar wanted to forget. He sighed. “Yes?”
Stephie reached in the bag and pulled out a small, gray-and-black tabby kitten and handed it to Nohar. Nohar had to collect himself enough to cup his hands under the little creature. It barely fit on his palm. Nohar watched as it stumbled a little, disoriented, and cir
cled around. Then, finding the new perch satisfactory, it curled up, closed its eyes, and began to purr.
Nohar stared at the little thing in his hands. “Damn it, Stephie. that isn’t playing fair.”
“I know.”
She began scratching the little thing behind the ears.
FEARFUL SYMMETRIES
Dedication:
This book is dedicated to the Cajun Sushi Hamsters, who saw the first one.
Acknowledgments
I would like to thank the members of the Cleveland SF Writer’s workshop who looked over this: John; Jerry; Geoff; Maureen; Charlie; Becky; Mary. I would like to stress that nothing in this book is their fault.
Chapter 1
Nohar Rajasthan stood still, the stand of pines giving him partial cover from the clearing about thirty meters away. His breathing was slow and deep despite the adrenaline that was tightening his perception. He could smell the musk of the deer in the clearing, and from the way the deer stood—taut, alert—Nohar could tell that the animal was beginning to smell a predator in the vicinity.
The bewildered animal had not yet figured out where the smell was coming from. Nohar moved deliberately so that when it knew, the knowledge would be too late to help it.
The wind was in Nohar’s face, bringing a light dust of February snow to his fur. He could feel his age in his joints as he raised the bow to be level with his shoulder. His arm was steady despite the ache that shot through his right knee and his left shoulder.
He could feel his pulse, as his aging metabolism sensed the proximity of combat and blood. He sighted through the bow, focusing on the unmoving buck. The scene through the eyepiece had the contrast artificially heightened to compensate for his poor day vision. Nohar placed the crosshairs over a vital spot, and drew back on the bow. A small digital readout in the corner of the eyepiece started reading off the kilos of tension he put on the composite bowstring.