‘This isn’t a miss we have,’ and he wriggled fingers in the air, and I caught it, belatedly, on the third finger of her left hand, the sparkler. She looked at it herself and mock-proudly held it for display.
‘Actually,’ she said, ‘I’m separated.’
A class of dizziness palpable from the high stool the other side of me.
‘I’m sorry to hear that,’ whispered Mr Kelliher, decorous again after his cheeky intrusion.
‘Ah,’ she said. ‘It’s the way things work out sometimes.’
We nodded, the three men, sombre as owls. We nodded as though the cruel variables of love were hardly news to us. We nodded as though we’d each known heartbreak and the ache of a lost love, as though we’d each walked the Castle Walk, at four in the morning, in cold rain, with the collars turned up against a lonely wind. Oh what we wouldn’t have given for broken hearts.
‘A marriage is an old record,’ she said. ‘It’ll go around and around grand for years and then it gets so scratched it’s unlistenable.’
Stranger talk, this, and there was unease now at the counter of The North Star. Even before our stout was settled and served, she was making good progress on the second small bottle of cabernet.
‘Are ye farming, men?’ she said.
‘You’d hardly call it that,’ I said, ‘at this stage.’
‘Site farmers!’ said Mr Kelliher.
‘Don’t mind him,’ I said.
‘You take what’s going,’ she said.
‘A fool not to,’ I said.
Certainly, these had been good years for us. The land of the vicinity wasn’t great, not by any stretch, but it had fine views of dreary hills, and the rivers were swollen with licey trout, and this was enough to draw people in. We sold them what space they wanted, having plenty to spare.
A truck went past, rattling the neat stacks of glasses, and Mr Kelliher shut his eyes, briefly, in suffering, and he was seen to suppress a swear.
‘More of it,’ he said. ‘They’re using it as a rat run, d’you see? Since they got in the traffic calming up on the Castle Walk. Bastards of lorries cutting down all day, you’ll pardon my French. What way are ye over for traffic calming?’
‘Measures are in place,’ she said. ‘But if you’re asking me if any good is being done?’
She shrugged. It was an expansive movement, performed, to let us know in the cheap seats that a wry puzzlement was signalled. She was a kind of woman not entirely unknown to us. In quietish towns, there are women with a great want for drama and heat, even if it’s only trouble that can bring it. Such a woman might often be the only throb of life in a place. We were stirred by her. Mr Kelliher’s mouth hung on its hinges and waves of emotion swept over him, as though she was a sacred daughter brought back from the wolves. Thomas, by the big red face on him, was clearly subject to notions himself. And I couldn’t wait to get home so as I could dream about her.
‘Take all the cars off the roads,’ she said. ‘All the trucks and all the jeeps. Build bonfires of the things and torch them. Watch them burn, wait for the tanks to blow. Storm the county councils and rip up the road plans. No more roundabouts and no more lay-bys. Anybody stepping anywhere near a vehicle of any mechanical description is put up against a wall and shot before night. Imagine it, lads—the world slows again to a human pace. We could saunter and stroll. How would that be?’
‘A woman,’ said Thomas, ‘after my own heart.’
‘Mind you,’ she said, and she held three fingers aloft, indicated with them our glasses, and winked for Mr Kelliher. ‘I was thankful for the car under me when I was putting distance between myself and Rhino Flynn.’
‘Who?’
‘My husband,’ she said.
‘And ye’re… separated now?’
‘We are,’ she said. ‘Since about half four this morning.’
She drained what was left of the second cabernet, made a start on the fresh. From a wallet of fine snakeskin she placed a note on the table.
‘One yourself, sir?’
‘Thanks, I won’t,’ said Mr Kelliher. ‘I haven’t drank in years.’
‘Oh?’
‘It wasn’t agreeing with me. A doctor put me on the spot and said I wouldn’t see forty.’
‘And now you’ve seen it,’ she said, ‘has it been worth it?’
‘Arguable,’ he said.
We went uncertainly into the afternoon. The classical station went into its period of great torpor, to the slowest dirges and dreamiest movements. Up top of the hill, the town could be heard to go about its Thursday business. Car doors slamming was the punctuation of the place. Soon enough, they’d let out from the primary school, and quick giddy footsteps would go past outside, and sing-song taunts in unbroken voices. We knew them all. We’d watch them grow taller and leave. The years come in, the years go out. The longer you’d sit and look at it, the life of the town would contract to almost nothing, to the merest glimpse of life, the tiniest crack of light against the black. It passes quickest in the slow places.
‘You’d hear him before you’d see him,’ she said. ‘Big old lunk. Big shit head on him. Powerful build of a man but a small child at the end of the day.’
‘Would be often the way, missus.’
‘You can call me Josie,’ she said, and the name was all her, it had carnival roll to it, and more drinks were arranged.
‘I don’t know would I have a Heineken?’ she said. ‘I have a throat on me but no, listen, I’ll stick with these. Grape or grain, never the twain.’
‘Hard-won wisdom,’ I said.
‘Married at all yereselves, lads?’ she said. ‘I didn’t think so. Ye’re as well not. Less complications.’
‘I could use complications,’ said Thomas.
‘Now!’ said Mr Kelliher. ‘That’s a ripe one, Tom.’
Thomas slugged off the high stool, he was embarrassed once the words slipped out, and he headed for the gents. She watched him over her shoulder, the tip of her tongue emerging between her lips.
‘What’s with the quiet man?’ she said.
‘The strong silent type,’ said Mr Kelliher.
‘Learned my lesson about them longo,’ she said.
I felt a thrumming within myself, the heartbeat had quickened, and Mr Kelliher worked the rag with the turn of the knot and the run of the grain, and we were nervous until Thomas got back.
‘So tell me,’ she said. ‘Is it always this hectic?’
She crossed and uncrossed her legs, there was a crack of lightning, and the afternoon was in around me like redcoats with muskets primed, and I said:
‘Would you put on a pint for me, Mr Kelliher?’
‘I would, Brendan.’
‘Cuz?’
‘Would you ever leave me live my fucking life?’ said Thomas.
‘He will, Mr Kelliher. Josie?’
‘One for the high road,’ she said.
Things settled again, and cream notes mingled with brown, and though I searched for the small talk that might work as lead to weight the balloon, there wasn’t need for it, because something had given away in Josie now: she showed herself more fully.
‘Strain in my neck from the car,’ she said. ‘Driving half the night on bad roads. But I had to get away from the other bastard. The poison got into the big fool and he couldn’t let me out of his sight. The next thing I know I’m on the floor of the garage tied down with flex.’
The schoolchildren passed by outside, high and excited, the sense of release, the daily fiesta of half past three, and the town’s noises would change and quicken with the afternoon, a particular agitation would surface, the rush and hubbub of it, people hurrying home to whatever was waiting, and normally at this time the pace of our drinking would quicken also. Often, it was the hour of the firewater.
‘This is what flex does,’ she said, and she shucked the cuffs of her sleeves to show the weals and the raised welts, blistered yellow and furious red, and soft consoling noises were made. Grip her gently in the darkness, pull her tow
ards you: it would read like Braille.
‘Who were you talking to, he says. I seen you talking to him. Why were you talking to him…’ She shrugged it away. ‘I should have seen it coming.’
She finished what was left of her drink, and she regarded us with great fondness and there was an intimation that there was shared history to come, that she too would become a familiar of the premises.
‘It’s been something else, fellas,’ she said, and she carried herself to the door on careful heels, not a single step was sloppily placed.
‘I open at eleven,’ said Mr Kelliher, discreetly.
‘Good to know,’ she winked for him once more, and left.
So it was that The North Star was saved. With its five zinc-topped tables in the afternoon gloom, and the pendant flags of Tipperary, the gold and the blue, and its three high stools placed so by the bar. The turn of the dark wood’s knot, the run of its grain. The shine of the optics, the calender, the lulling music always played. The North Star is immune to all winds and complex troughs. The North Star is a safe haven.
Burn The Bad Lamp
A man walks into a corner shop. He is a nervous man, easily knocked from his groove, and it is a great disturbance to him when he is addressed by a four foot tall chicken.
‘Cluckety cluck,’ it says. ‘Try your luck?’
Ralph Coughlan and the chicken have this encounter six days a week and it’s doing neither of them any favours. He knows there is a motion sensor embedded behind the chicken’s eyes that clocks his movement. He is quite aware that it is an electronic chicken that lays plastic eggs containing trinkets and toys but even so, it leaves him a little shook. It’s got to the stage where he is trying to tiptoe past the chicken to dodge the sensor’s reach. It is a Tuesday, in March, with all that that suggests. Ralph scans the magazine racks as he waits to be served. All the magazines are about extreme sports and cannabis cultivation techniques. The shop is operated by an unpleasantly owl-faced woman. Not once in four years has he had even a suggestion of warmth from this person. He knows that ‘perceived slights’ is one of the key danger signs but there is nothing perceived about it. He is always super-friendly himself, to provide an instructive contrast with her surliness, but you might as well instruct the wall. He buys a sausage roll, a Diet Coke, and a scratchcard. She slams his change onto the counter and eyes him as though to say, more? Is there something more?
‘Ferocious day alright,’ he says. ‘But typical enough for March, I suppose?’
‘Yeah?’
‘That’s a breeze would take skin off you.’
‘Is it?’
He goes to sit on a bench that overlooks one of the river’s drearier stretches. They have some cheek putting a bench down here. It is a most exposed spot and there isn’t a day you get up off this bench you’re not red in the face from wind. There is drizzle and general damp. It’s the sort of town that would give you a chest infection. He eats his lunch. He scratches away the useless card. He wonders about the latest knot in his gut and the new tremble that’s put in an appearance on his upper lip.
Ralph’s is a hard-luck street down by the quays. There is, more often than not, a dead dog in the gutter. A man behind a pram waits for the lights and coos over his baby. Outside the off-licence, some haughty drunks contest the hold of a bottle. It is a place for connoisseurs of the forlorn and the shop fronts are painted in carnival colours. Ralph bins his trash and crosses the road to his place of business. He is subject to seething monotones and moments of glow.
Someone has left a box in the doorway. This bugs him, big time. People think they can treat Coughlan’s like a charity shop. They say hey, listen, okay, what we’ll do? We’ll drop it off with the guy down the quay, the guy with the hair. Ralph drags the box into the shop and kicks it to one side. He becomes philosophical then—at least the box can occupy a segment of his Wednesday. Ralph divides his days into segments, with each segment defined by a designated task.
The next segment is marked down for polishing. They aren’t exactly beating down the door but that’s no reason to let things go. When the customers do arrive, Coughlan’s will be looking as well as it has any right to look. Ralph has a selection of chamois leathers for polishing. He has great belief in the restorative powers of a shammy. He feels a measure of happiness as he polishes but tries not to notice it. Ralph stocks select pieces of second-hand furniture, some antiques, and smaller items that could be classed only as ornaments. He sources from auction rooms, clearance sales and the more distant coves of eBay. Ralph’s shop is in the wrong part of town. It has dawned on him that there isn’t much of an incidental trade for antiques and ornaments down here. He polishes a brass monocular that has been in the shop since day one. It is an excellent monocular, in fine working nick, and well priced. What could be more convenient for the casual birder out for a peep at the oystercatchers in Crosshaven of a Sunday? But there’s a problem, Ralph realises, with monoculars. People feel stupid using them. They feel like they’re playing at being Jack Palance in a pirate film.
Ralph polishes a vintage dairy urn. He is having his doubts about the vintage dairy urn. His initial feeling was that it might appeal to sentimental people who had background in the country, that it would make a talking point in a hall, but there aren’t many sentimental people on the ground lately. He runs a cloth over a very nice telephone table. It is a lovely piece, with a built-in stool and a neat slot for a phone book. It has a racy, late ’50s air, practical yet stylish. You could see an elegant lady sat down at it, with the legs crossed, taking a call. Ralph can almost hear the rustle of her nylons. She’s in a pair of kitten heels and Cary Grant is at the other end of the line.
Ralph’s polishing takes on the heat of frenzy. He does a mantel clock he bought from the tinkers in Bantry, then a selection of Ardagh crystal pieces, then some Victorian doorknobs. He squidgees the windows. He has a panic attack of middling intensity—it feels like some cats have got loose inside his chest—and he clutches at a rad for support. He has run out of things to polish. There’s nothing for it but to open the box that was left in the doorway. It is the kind of day a man is well advised to keep busy.
It’s mostly junk. A scratched magnifying glass, old paperbacks, a wooden jewellery case with carved elephants and inside a legend scrawled in black marker—‘Patricia Loves Bay City Rollers’—and he can see her, with wispy hair and a gammy eye, her spectacles held with cellotape in 1974. A figurine of a pissing boy, an imitation Wedgwood plate, more paperbacks, but then a nice old oil lamp, with a brass frame surrounding a smoky brown glass. Ralph fills it with the paraffin he keeps in the shop for just this purpose. Nostalgic people like oil lamps, and he has sold a few. The wick takes nicely but the flame shows up some smears on the brown glass. Ralph takes a shammy to the glass and polishes it carefully.
A genie appears.
The manner of the apparition is much as we have been led to expect. There is a puff of purple smoke and a male figure floats up out of the lamp in a comfortably cross-legged sitting pose, like a man who has put the hours in on the yoga mat. But then the smoke clears and the genie separates from legend. There are no tapered slippers nor flowing silks. He wears no turban, nor fathomless expression. He wears a pair of troubled chinos, an overcoat with fag burns on its lapels, a pair of scuffed Nikes and a leery, self-satisfied smirk. He’s one of those small butty fellas, fortyish, thinning up top, and the bit of hair that’s left could usefully be introduced to a bottle of Head ‘n’ Shoulders.
‘How’d you like this for caper?’ he says.
‘Listen,’ says Ralph. ‘I can’t be dealing with this kind of messin’. I’m on tablets, like.’
‘Relax,’ says the genie. ‘Just try and calm yourself, okay? The last thing we want is you on the flat of your back outside in the Regional. Have a sit down, Mr Coughlan. Take it easy.’
The genie sits at the telephone table. He primly lifts an imagined receiver, with his pinkie finger cocked.
‘Hallooo?’ he say
s. ‘Halloooooo? Coughlan’s?’
He takes out a packet of Rothmans, lights one, then lets up a terrible, wracking cough.
‘It’s these fuckers have me nearly murdered, Ralph,’ he says.
Ralph goes behind his counter and pops an emergency beta-blocker.
‘You want to clear out of here now,’ he says, ‘or I’ll call the guards.’
‘And you’re going to say what, Ralph?’
Ralph’s eyes water up. His voice becomes scratchy and gasped.
‘What are you doing here?’ he says.
‘Come on,’ says the genie. ‘You know the script, Ralph. I’m after floating out of a lamp, aren’t I? You know what comes next.’
‘But why are you here?’
The genie grins, and he begins to pace the floor, with his hands held casually behind his back.
‘It’s nearly always a lamp with me,’ he says, ‘but then again, I’m one of life’s traditionalists. There are others who have taken a completely different approach. You can understand how a young man coming into the field would be keen to adopt his own method. There’s one guy who pops up out of a toaster. There’s another fella appears like an air bag if you brake suddenly at a certain junction on a particular country road. Now if you ask me, that’s acting the maggot. You could give someone heart failure. And between myself, yourself and the wall, there’s been a couple of very sad cases.’
‘You mean to tell me,’ says Ralph, ‘that people have actually…’
‘All I’ll say, Ralph, is that our health-and-safety record isn’t all it could be.’
Ralph eyes this genie carefully. Ralph has a couple of difficult years put down, a time when his old certainties went tumbling, and anything that smells of opportunity he views balefully now, a once-bitten man.
‘Listen,’ he says, ‘do you always deal with local cases yourself?’
‘Mostly,’ says the genie. ‘The odd time I knock up and cover for a guy in Tipp. He comes down bad with hay fever around May, June, when they’re turning up fields. And I tell you, Ralph, it’s no joke dealing with the crowd up there. The country people have turned most avaricious in recent times.’