I reached into my jacket pocket.
"Perhaps I'd better take a few notes," I said.
"If you want to," said Padma, unperturbed. "Out of that explosion came cultures individually devoted to single facets of the human personality. The fighting, combative facet became the Dorsai. The facet which surrendered the individual wholly to some faith or other became the Friendly. The philosophical facet created the Exotic culture to which I belong. We call these Splinter Cultures."
"Oh, yes," I said. "I know about Splinter Cultures."
"You know about them, Tam, but you don't know them.”
"I don't?"
"No," said Padma, "because you, like all our ancestors, are from Earth. You're old full-spectrum man. The Splinter peoples are evolutionarily advanced over you."
I felt a little twist of bitter anger knot suddenly inside me. His voice woke the echo of Mathias' voice in my memory.
"Oh? I'm afraid I don't see that."
"Because you don't want to," said Padma. "If you did, you'd have to admit that they were different from you and had to be judged by different standards."
"Different? How?"
"Different in a sense that all Splinter people, including myself, understand instinctively, but full-spectrum man has to extrapolate to imagine." Padma shifted a little in his seat. "You'll get some idea, Tam, if you imagine a member of a Splinter Culture to be a man like yourself, only with a monomania that shoves him wholly toward being one type of person. But with this difference: instead of all parts of his mental and physical self outside the limits of that monomania being ignored and atrophied as they would be with you-"
I interrupted, "Why specifically with me?"
"With any full-spectrum man, then," said Padma calmly. "These parts, instead of being atrophied, are altered to agree with and support the monomania, so that we don't have a sick man, but a healthy, different one."
"Healthy?" I said, seeing the Friendly Groupman who had killed Dave on New Earth again in my mind's eye.
"Healthy as a culture. Not as occasional crippled individuals of that culture. But as a culture."
"Sorry," I said. "I don't believe it."
"But you do, Tam," said Padma softly. "Unconsciously you do. Because you're planning to take advantage of the weakness such a culture must have to destroy it."
"And what weakness is that?"
"The obvious weakness that's the converse of any strength," said Padma. "The Splinter Cultures are not viable."
I must have blinked. I was honestly bewildered.
"Not viable? You mean they can't live on their own?"
"Of course not," said Padma. "Faced with an expansion into space, the human race reacted to the challenge of a different environment by trying to adapt to it. It adapted by trying out separately all the elements of its personality, to see which could survive best. Now that all elements-the Splinter Cultures-have survived and adapted, it's time for them to breed back into each other again, to produce a more hardy, universe-oriented human."
The air-car began to descend. We were nearing our destination.
"What's that got to do with me?" I said, at last.
"If you frustrate one of the Splinter Cultures, it can't adapt on its own as full-spectrum man would do. It will die. And when the race breeds back to a whole, that valuable element will be lost to the race."
"Maybe it'll be no loss," I said, softly in my turn.
"A vital loss," said Padma. "And I can prove it. You, a full-spectrum man, have in you an element from every Splinter Culture. If you admit this you can identify even with those you want to destroy. I have evidence to show you. Will you look at it?"
The ship touched ground; the door beside me opened, I got out with Padma and found Kensie waiting.
I looked from Padma to Kensie, who stood with us and a head taller than I, two heads taller than OutBond. Kensie looked back down at me with no particular expression. His eyes were not the eyes of his twin brother-but just then, for some reason, I could not meet them.
"I'm a Newsman," I said. "Of course my mind is open."
Padma turned and began walking toward the headquarters building. Kensie fell in with us and I think Janol and some of the others came along behind, though I didn't look back to make sure. We went to the inner office where I had first met Graeme-just Kensie, Padma and myself. There was a file folder on Graeme's desk. He picked it up, extracted a photocopy of something and handed it to me as I came up to him.
I took it. There was no doubting its authenticity.
It was a memo from Eldest Bright, ranking Elder of the joint government of Harmony and Association, to the Friendly War Chief at the Defense X Center, on Harmony. It was dated two months previously. It was on the single-molecule sheet, where the legend cannot be tampered with or removed once it is on.
Be Informed, in God's Name-
-That since it does seem the Lord's Will that our Brothers on St. Marie make no success, it is ordered that henceforth no more replacements or personnel or supplies be sent them. For if our Captain does intend us the victory, surely we shall conquer without further expenditure. And if it be His will that we conquer not, then surely it would be an impiety to throw away the substance of God's Churches in an attempt to frustrate that Will.
Be it further ordered that our Brothers on St. Marie be spared the knowledge that no further assistance is forthcoming, that they may bear witness to their faith in battle as ever, and God's Churches be undismayed. Heed this Command, in the Name of the Lord:
By order of him who is called-
Bright
Eldest Among The Chosen
I looked up from the memo. Both Graeme and Padma were watching me.
"How'd you get hold of this?" I said. "No, of course you won't tell me." The palms of my hands were suddenly sweating so that the slick material of the sheet in my fingers was slippery. I held it tightly, and talked fast to keep their eyes on my face. "But what about it? We already knew this, everybody knew Bright had abandoned them. This just proves it. Why even bother showing it to me?"
"I thought," said Padma, "it might move you just a little. Perhaps enough to make you take a different view of things."
I said, "I didn't say that wasn't possible. I tell you a Newsman keeps an open mind at all times. Of course"-I picked my words carefully-"if I could study it-"
"I'd hoped you'd take it with you," said Padma.
"Hoped?"
"If you dig into it and really understand what Bright means there, you might understand all the Friendlies differently. You might change your mind about them."
"I don't think so," I said. "But-"
"Let me ask you to do that much," said Padma. "Take the memo with you."
I stood for a moment, with Padma facing me and Kensie looming behind him, then shrugged and put the memo in my pocket.
"All right," I said. "I'll take it back to my quarters and think about it. I've got a groundcar here somewhere, haven't I?" And I looked at Kensie.
"Ten kilometers back," said Kensie. "You wouldn't get through anyway. We're moving up for the assault and the Friendlies are maneuvering to meet us."
"Take my air-car," said Padma. "The Embassy flags on it will help."
"All right," I said.
We went out together toward the air-car. I passed Janol in the outer office and he met my eyes coldly. I did not blame him. We walked to the air-car and I got in.
"You can send the air-car back whenever you're through with it," said Padma, as I stepped in through the entrance section of its top. "It's an Embassy loan to you, Tam. I won't worry about it."
"No," I said. "You needn't worry."
I closed the section and touched the controls.
It was a dream of an air-car. It went up into the air as lightly as thought, and in a second I was two thousand feet up and well away from the spot. I made myself calm down, though, before I reached into my pocket and took the memo out.
I looked at it. My hand still trembled a little as I hel
d it.
Here it was in my grasp at last. Proof of the evidence Piers Leaf had heard of back on Earth, and what I had been after from the start. And Padma himself had insisted I carry it away with me.
It was the lever, the Archimedes pry-bar which would move not one world but two. And push the Friendly peoples over the edge to extinction.
Chapter 27
They were waiting for me. They converged on the air-car as I landed it in the interior square of the Friendlies compound, all four of them with black rifles at the ready.
They were apparently the only ones left. Jamethon seemed to have turned out every other man of his remnant of a battle unit. And these were all men I recognized, case-hardened veterans. One was the Groupman who had been in the office that first night when I had come back from the Exotic camp and stepped in to speak to Jamethon, asking him if he ever ordered his men to kill prisoners. Another was a forty-year-old Force-Leader, the lowest commissioned rank, but acting Major-just as Jamethon, a Commandant, was acting as Expeditionary Field Commander, a position equivalent to Kensie Graeme's. The other two soldiers were noncommissioned, but similar. I knew them all. Ultrafanatics. And they knew me.
We understood each other.
"I have to see the Commandant," I said as I got out, before they could begin to question me.
"On what business?" said the Force-Leader. "This air-car hath no business here. Nor thyself."
I said, "I must see Commandant Black immediately. I wouldn't be here in a car flying the flags of the Exotic Embassy if it wasn't necessary."
They could not take the chance that my reason for seeing Black wasn't important, and I knew it. They argued a little, but I kept insisting I had to see the Commandant. Finally, the Force-Leader took me across into the same outer office where I had always waited to see Jamethon.
I faced Jamethon alone in the office.
He was putting on his battle harness, as I had seen Graeme putting on his earlier. On Graeme, the harness and the weapons it carried had looked like toys. On Jamethon's slight frame they looked almost too heavy to bear.
"Mr. Olyn," he said.
I walked across the room toward him, drawing the memo from my pocket as I came. He turned a little to face me, his fingers sealing the locks on his harness, jingling slightly with his weapons and his harness as he turned.
"You're taking the field against the Exotics," I said.
He nodded. I had never been this close to him before. From across the room I would have believed he was holding his usual stony expression, but standing just a few feet from him now I saw the tired wraith of a smile touch the corners of his straight mouth in that dark, young face for a second.
"That is my duty, Mr. Olyn."
"Some duty," I said. "When your superiors back on Harmony have already written you off their books."
"I've already told you," he said calmly. "The Chosen are not betrayed in the Lord, one by another."
"You're sure of that?" I said.
Once more I saw that little ghost of a weary smile.
"It's a subject, Mr. Olyn, on which I am more expert than you."
I looked into his eyes. They were exhausted but calm. I glanced aside at the desk where the picture of the church, the older man and woman and the young girl stood still.
"Your family?" I asked.
"Yes," he said.
"It seems to me you'd think of them in a time like this."
"I think of them quite often."
"But you're going to go out and get yourself killed just the same."
"Just the same," he said.
"Sure!" I said. "You would!" I had come in calm and in control of myself. But now it was as if a cork had been pulled on all that had been inside me since Dave's death. I began to shake. "Because that's the kind of hypocrites you are-all of you Friendlies. You're so lying, so rotten clear through with your own lies, if someone took them away from you there'd be nothing left. Would there? So you'd rather die now than admit committing suicide like this isn't the most glorious thing in the universe. You'd rather die than admit that you're just as full of doubts as anyone else, just as afraid."
I stepped right up to him. He did not move.
"Who're you trying to fool?" I said. "Who? I see through you just like the people on all the other worlds do! I know you know what a mumbo-jumbo your United Churches are. I know you know the way of life you sing of through your nose so much isn't what you claim it is. I know your Eldest Bright and his gang of narrow-minded old men are just a gang of world-hungry tyrants that don't give a damn for religion or anything as long as they get what they want. I know you know it-and I'm going to make you admit it!"
And I shoved the memo under his nose.
"Read it!"
He took it from me. I stepped back from him, shaking badly as I watched him.
He studied it for a long minute, while I held my breath. His face did not change. Then he handed it back to me.
"Can I give you a ride to meet Graeme?" I said. "We can get across the lines in the OutBond's air-car. You can get the surrender over with before any shooting breaks out."
He shook his head. He was looking at me in a particularly level way, with an expression I could not understand.
"What do you mean-no?"
"You'd better stay here," he said. "Even with ambassadorial flags, that air-car may be shot at over the lines.” And he turned as if he would walk away from me, out the door.
"Where're you going?" I shouted at him. I got in front of him and pushed the memo before his eyes again. "That's real. You can't close your eyes to that!"
He stopped and looked at me. Then he reached out and took my wrist and put my arm and hand with the memo aside. His fingers were thin, but much stronger than I thought, so that I let the arm go down in front of him when I hadn't intended to do so.
"I know it's real. I'll have to warn you not to interfere with me any more, Mr. Olyn. I've got to go now." He stepped past me and walked toward the door.
"You're a liar!" I shouted after him. He kept on going. I had to stop him. I grabbed the solidograph from his desk and smashed it on the floor.
He turned like a cat and looked at the broken pieces at my feet.
"That's what you're doing!" I shouted, pointing at them.
He came back without a word and squatted down and carefully gathered up the pieces one by one. He put them into his pocket and got back to his feet, and raised his face at last to mine. And when I saw his eyes I stopped breathing.
"If my duty," he said in a low, controlled voice, "were not in this minute to-"
His voice stopped, I saw his eyes staring into me; and slowly I saw them change and the murder that was in them soften into something like wonder.
"Thou," he said softly, "thou hast no faith?"
I had opened my mouth to speak. But what he said stopped me. I stood as if punched in the stomach, without the breath for words. He stared at me.
"What made you think," he said, "that that memo would change my mind?”
"You read it!" I said. "Bright wrote you were a losing proposition here, so you weren't to get any more help. And no one was to tell you for fear you might surrender if you knew.”
"Is that how you read it?" he said. "Like that?"
"How else? How else can you read it?"
"As it is written." He stood straight facing me now and his eyes never moved from mine. "You have read it without faith, leaving out the Name and the will of the Lord. Eldest Bright wrote not that we were to be abandoned here, but that since our cause was sore tried, we be put in the hands of our Captain and our God. And further he wrote that we should not be told of this, that none here should be tempted to a vain and special seeking of the martyr's crown. Look, Mr. Olyn. It's down there in black and white."
"But that's not what he meant! That's not what he meant!"
He shook his head. "Mr. Olyn, I can't leave you in such delusion."
I stared at him, for it was sympathy I saw in his face. For me.
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"It's your own blindness that deludes you," he said. "You see nothing, and so believe no man can see. Our Lord is not just a name, but all things. That's why we have no ornament in our churches, scorning any painted screen between us and our God. Listen to me, Mr. Olyn. Those churches themselves are but tabernacles of the earth. Our Elders and Leaders, though they are Chosen and Anointed, are still but mortal men. To none of these things or people do we hearken in our faith, but to the very voice of God within us."
He paused. Somehow I could not speak.
"Suppose it was even as you think," he went on, even more gently. "Suppose that all you say was a fact, and that our Elders were but greedy tyrants, ourselves abandoned here by their selfish will and set to fulfill a false and prideful purpose. No." Jamethon's voice rose. "Let me attest as if it were only for myself. Suppose that you could give me proof that all our Elders lied, that our very Covenant was false. Suppose that you could prove to me"-his face lifted to mine and his voice drove at me-"that all was perversion and falsehood, and nowhere among the Chosen, not even in the house of my father, was there faith or hope! If you could prove to me that no miracle could save me, that no soul stood with me, and that opposed were all the legions of the universe, still I, I alone, Mr. Olyn, would go forward as I have been commanded, to the end of the universe, to the culmination of eternity. For without my faith I am but common earth. But with my faith, there is no power can stay me!"
He stopped speaking and turned about. I watched him walk across the room and out the door.
Still I stood there, as if I had been fastened in place-until I heard from outside, in the square of the compound, the sound of a military air-car starting up.
I broke out of my stasis then and ran out of the building.
As I burst into the square, the military air-car was just taking off. I could see Jamethon and his four hard-shell subordinates in it. And I yelled up into the air after them.
"That's all right for you, but what about your men?”
They could not hear me. I knew that. Uncontrollable tears were running down my face, but I screamed up into the air after him anyway.