He pushed my legs wider apart and then brought his tongue against my nub again, teasing and tickling the delicate skin up and down before he started sucking on it. I couldn’t help the cry that escaped me as my hips raised off the floor and I undulated against him, pushing my pelvis into his mouth as he gripped my cheeks and held me in place.
“William,” I moaned, finding it difficult to even think in words.
“What do you need from me, baby?” he asked as he pulled away and looked at me with a wolfish glint in his eye.
Half his face was covered with my wetness and it glistened in the low light, exciting me to know that he loved my flavor, that the proof was all over his face.
When I felt his index finger tracing my opening, I started to moan again as I closed my eyes. “Look at me, Angel.”
I opened my eyes again at his command and faced him as he continued to trace my opening, teasing me as he pushed the very tip of his finger inside me. I bucked against him, trying to force myself down on his finger, wanting the entire length inside of me. But William held me down with his hand on my chest.
What a tease!
“Answer my question,” he insisted. “What do you want, Angel? Tell me.”
“You,” I answered immediately. “I want you, William. So badly.”
The words came out of my mouth before I even had the chance to think about them. And more than that, before I had the chance to doubt if I was saying what he wanted me to say. Surely, dirty talk was supposed to sound well….dirty.
This just sounded like a straightforward comment. Nothing coquettish, or subtle or all that sexy, but then again I didn’t know any better.
He didn’t say anything but stared at me, his eyes smoldering as his finger continued to trace my slit. “You want me where?”
My entire body was about to come apart at his mere touch, and he wanted to discuss semantics? I knew he was teasing me, and while it was sexy, the truth was that I wanted nothing more than to wrap my legs around him and make him enter me.
“I want,” I started as he pushed his finger inside me a little bit deeper than the last time.
Damn, he was making my thoughts turn to jelly and then flatline completely. It was impossible to think with him doing that. How was I supposed to think anything, let alone get my mouth to work in order to say something?
I immediately closed my eyes and started to moan until I felt him lightly slap my right butt cheek. Opening my eyes, I focused on him, not understanding what I’d done wrong.
“Don’t close your eyes,” he said as excited and nervous chills raced down my spine.
Even though I knew William to be an absolute alpha male, I’d never imagined he would be like this sexually—so very dominant and in control.
I’d never had sex before, so I didn’t have anything or anyone to compare him to, but I had a feeling that the way William was sexually wasn’t the norm. Too many times I’d heard my college friends complaining about men who didn’t bother warming them up and just climbed on top, stuck it in, pumped a few times and that was it. But clearly William wasn’t playing by that set of rules.
Even though I had no experience with that particular type of sex, I could already tell that I liked it a little rough and dirty. I liked it the way William was giving it to me.
“I want you to watch me when I touch you,” William continued as he started to push his finger into me even deeper.
Holy hell. Hearing him say that did weird things to my insides. I was definitely liking this. I fought the need to throw my head back and close my eyes. He pushed his finger into me even deeper, until his first knuckle disappeared. I watched myself rocking against him. He pulled his fingertip out of me and started rubbing my sensitive nub as I moaned out, my breathing coming in short gasps.
“Tell me you want me here,” he said.
“I want,” I started but then lost my voice.
“Say it, baby,” William demanded as he started pinching my nub softly between his fingers.
He was driving me to near hysteria because every time I felt like I was going to explode in an orgasm, he changed his rhythm, or he pulled his finger out of me.
“I want you…inside me,” I whispered, the words thrilling me as I said them.
I had never even thought about saying anything like that to a man, and for a second, I speculated about whether or not he could tell as much. I mean, I was more than sure I sounded awkward as hell, but either way, it didn’t seem to matter. Caught in the throes of passion as we were, what mattered was what was transpiring.
“That’s right,” William nodded and pushed his finger inside of me again. I watched him stick his finger in his mouth and suck it clean. “I can’t get enough of your taste,” he continued as he pushed my legs apart again and brought his mouth down to me. “Don’t hold back.”
I didn’t say anything but arched my back as soon as I felt him tonguing my nub and then I felt his finger entering me again. He pushed it a couple of inches inside me this time before bringing it out again.
“You’re so tight, baby,” he rasped. “I need to stretch you if you’re going to take all of me.”
“Okay,” I whispered, still barely able to form words. At the very thought that he was going to stretch me, my core started throbbing. I wanted nothing more than to feel him buried inside me.
A voice in the back of my head was slightly worried that he might change his mind once he found out I was a virgin, and clearly he would eventually. But I wasn’t going to say anything. I was too worried he’d stop, and not only that, but that he’d push me away for good this time.
He pushed two fingers inside as I bucked underneath him and then he brought his tongue back to my nub before burying his fingers in me again. I half wondered if he’d rupture my virginal skin with his fingers. He pulled them out and pushed them back in much harder this time and deeper. There was a moment of sharp pain and I felt myself wince in response.
“Angel?” William asked as I opened my eyes, and he pulled his fingers out of me. “Did I hurt you?” he continued as he glanced down at his fingers. Looking at them, I noticed there was blood on his fingertips. He looked up at me, his expression one of puzzlement.
“No, I’m okay,” I said as I realized what had just happened.
I sat up as he pulled away, still inspecting his fingers. When he glanced back at me, his expression had changed.
“You’re a virgin?” he asked, surprise echoing through the words.
I swallowed hard as I wondered if maybe I should have told him the truth about my virginity earlier. Was that something he needed to know? Maybe it was. I took a deep breath as I wondered if I’d just made a mistake in not warning him. I just thought that if I had told him I was a virgin, there was a good chance he wouldn’t have had sex with me.
“Yes,” I said on an exhale.
He didn’t say anything right away but just looked at me, concern echoing in his eyes. “Why didn’t you tell me?” he asked finally. There was no anger in his voice, but there was something there that I couldn’t put my finger on.
“I didn’t want you to stop,” I answered him truthfully. “I’m sorry.”
“You’ve never had a man before,” he said, more to himself really than to me. He shook his head again and then took a deep breath. “You were going to give yourself to me? You were going to let me take your virginity?”
“I want you to be my first,” I admitted, not bothering to also admit that I wanted him to be my last.
Chapter Fifteen
William
I didn’t know what to say. Angel was a virgin and she was giving herself to me, someone who didn’t deserve any part of her. But that truth no longer mattered because I’d already taken her virginity, proof being my crimson colored fingertips. Even if I hadn’t put myself in her, her virginity was still gone. And I felt like a total and complete piece of shit over that fact.
“Angel, you should have told me,” I insisted as I looked at her, and my dick continu
ed to throb inside my pants like it didn’t give a shit about what had just happened.
It should have though because it was one thing to think about having sex with Angel, but it was another to realize that I would be her first. I would get something from her that no one else ever had before. And while there was a part of me that was thrilled at the prospect, there was also another part that hated myself for what I’d just done. This was a monumental screw up.
I wasn’t just sex to Angel. And the truth of the matter was that she wasn’t just sex to me either. Now, where did that leave us? Because this just made things more complicated. Even if I stopped right now, what I’d done was irreversible. There was no going back.
“I’m sorry,” she said while dropping her gaze as a flush stole over her cheeks.
“I wouldn’t have been…the way I was with you if I’d known,” I said as I reached over and forced her chin up, so she had to look me in the eyes. As soon as I remembered how brazen I’d been with her, how dominant, I felt terrible. She’d never known a man before, and the least I could have done was shown her caring rather than force her to say things that maybe she’d rather not.
“No,” she said immediately, shaking her head. “I want you to be you, just as I said, William,” she insisted. “I don’t care if I’ve never been with another man or not. I don’t want you to change the way you are because of that.”
“Angel,” I started as I shook my head and tried to force my eyes to stay on hers. If I looked at her ridiculously gorgeous body, I knew I was going to lose this fight. I was still just as hard as I had been, and I was dying to plunge into her tightness as it was. In spite of learning that this was new to her. I wasn’t sure if this boded well for me or not.
“Please, William,” she said as she took a deep breath and then opened her legs to me again. I couldn’t help but stare at the pink folds of her beautiful flesh. God, I wanted her! I wanted her more than I could ever remember wanting anyone. But there was something in the back of my mind nagging at me, telling me I couldn’t do this to her. Not when I still hadn’t figured things out with Janet, not when my past was still haunting me. I definitely didn’t want it to also haunt Angel, and it would. Once she found out the truth about it, it would.
“I want you in me, William,” she whispered. I faced her with surprise. She just smiled at me in a knowing sort of way that made my blood boil in my veins.
I stood up and towered over her, taking in her beautiful, large breasts and the flush on her cheeks. “Touch yourself,” I insisted, my mind still not fully comprehending the fact that my body had made its own decision.
But after what she’d just said and the reaction it had on me, there was no going back now. I considered myself to be strong and able to reign in my emotions, but there was a limit to every man’s self-control, and I’d reached mine.
She didn’t respond other than to bring her hand down to her nub as she started rubbing it. Her breathing immediately hitched and the rise and fall of her chest accelerated. Her breasts stood out prominently, round and full. Her pink nipples were as hard as rocks, and my mouth started to salivate with the need to suck them.
I never took my eyes off her as I unbuttoned the first few buttons of my red and black plaid flannel shirt and pulled it over my head. I watched Angel’s eyes widen as she took in my chest and focused on the scars that littered my pecs and abs.
“Stick your finger inside yourself,” I ordered, figuring there was no use in trying to fight my dominant sexuality. This was just who I was. I didn’t know another way to act or to be. All I could hope for was that Angel had been honest when she’d said she wanted me as I came. Hopefully this wouldn’t be a case of being careful about what you wish for because you might just get it…
I unbuttoned my jeans and then unzipped them, pulling them off in record time. I watched her tentatively slide her slim finger inside herself and I felt myself strain against my boxers almost painfully. “Tell me what you feel like,” I growled, having to subdue the ravenous desire inside of me that was ordering me to spread her and thrust myself all the way inside her in one motion.
“Wet,” she answered immediately, her voice breathy. “I can’t ever remember being this wet before,” she finished before moaning loudly and rocking her hips against her hand. Watching her pleasure herself was the hottest, sexiest thing I’d ever seen, and I almost regretted interrupting her. Almost.
“Have you ever seen a man’s penis before?” I asked as I started rubbing mine above my boxers.
“In pictures and movies,” she answered, sounding slightly embarrassed as she paused in fingering herself and faced me. “But never in person.”
I pulled my boxers down as my dick sprung forward. Her eyes immediately widened when she took in my girth and length. At nine inches long, I was big. At least that’s what other women in the past had told me.
“Oh my God,” she whispered as she swallowed hard.
“Do you still want it?” I asked as I started stroking my shaft, eager to feel her wetness on my head. Even more eager to shove myself so far inside her that I could feel the end of her. I also wanted to please her more than anything. I would show her what love between a man and a woman was supposed to be like, what it could be. As soon as the thought hit me, I couldn’t help my own surprise. Love? I wasn’t able to think on it much longer though because Angel was looking up at me with imploring eyes.
“Yes,” she answered without pause, her gaze still locked on me. But I could see the fear in her eyes. She was nervous, and her timidity fueled me even more. I was a sick bastard because the truth was that Angel being a virgin thrilled me. The idea that another man had never claimed her made me want to claim her even more. I wanted to be the only man she would ever know, from here on out. I knew it was wrong to think this way, but I couldn’t help it. I was possessive of Angel. Even though I knew I didn’t deserve her, I didn’t believe any other man deserved her more. As I saw it, she was too good for anyone.
“Please, William,” she whimpered as she brought her eyes from mine to my shaft. “I don’t know how much longer I can wait.”
“Mmm, my woman is impatient,” I said with a smile as I crawled on top of her and positioned my hips above her.
As soon as I was above her, she reached out and started touching my pecs, tracing my abs and gripping my biceps. “Your body is…incredible,” she whispered, sounding awed. “You’re just…you’re so big!”
I chuckled at her choice of words but appreciated them all the same. “It’s nothing compared to the feast before my eyes,” I answered as I reached down, running my hand across her breasts, then her belly before I settled my fingers between her thighs, finding her nub.
“You don’t have to do that, William,” she breathed out as I rubbed her and she instinctively arched up against me. “I couldn’t be any more ready for you,” she finished although her tone of voice said she was definitely enjoying what I was doing.
I released her and gripped my head, positioning it at her opening. “This might hurt you a little,” I warned her as I pushed forward slightly, just enough to rub my tip against her. As soon as I touched her, I was surprised by how wet she was. I slid myself up and down her flesh, teasing her as she moaned beneath me.
She wrapped her legs around my middle and tried to pull herself up, as if she wanted to force herself onto me but I pulled back. “Slow down, baby,” I said with a chuckle. “You’ll get it when I decide to give it to you.”
“Please, William,” she begged as she rocked against me. “Please don’t make me wait any longer.”
“You want it?” I asked as she looked up at me with those wide, innocent blue eyes.
“Yes,” she answered immediately.
“Because I’m going to shove the whole thing inside you at once,” I warned her as I pushed the very tip into her and she screamed against me, pushing down on her hips again, but I was in control and I wasn’t going to give it to her yet. “I’m not going to go easy on you.”
/> “I want it however you want to give it to me,” she answered, her words barely coming out.
Briefly, I wondered if I should ignore her wishes and go easy on her since this was her first time, but that thought process was rapidly slipping away. I sat up on my knees and gripping her by the thighs, I spread her legs even wider, pulling her towards me. Holding her by her thighs and butt, I pulled her down onto me so hard, I watched my head bury itself inside of her, all the way to the hilt. She threw her head back at the same time that she gripped my arms and dug her nails into me, opening her mouth as she screamed. She started pulsating around me as she screamed again, riding the wave of her orgasm. Suddenly she was sopping wet, even more so than she had been, and she was so tight, it was all I could do to pull out of her and plunge back in again.
“Angel,” I moaned as I lowered myself over her again, grabbing her butt and pulling her up so I could bury myself inside her all the way again. I could feel my head ramming into her cervix and each time I did, she moaned even more loudly. The fact that she was so small around me made me thrust into her with renewed determination. “Tell me how good that feels.”
“Oh my God,” she whimpered back to me. “William!” she said as she gripped my shoulders and I shoved myself so far inside of her, I felt the end of her.
“That’s it, baby,” I growled at her, thrilling over the fact that I was the only man she’d ever had. But at the sudden thought that another man could know her like this, I felt fire begin brewing inside my stomach as anger started to consume me, and I pushed inside her even harder, deeper.
“Tell me I’m the only man who will ever do this to you,” I demanded, my voice coming out harsh and angry.
She looked up at me, her eyes widening with surprise, but then she nodded immediately. “You’re the only one,” she said immediately as she continued to cling to me, and I pushed in and out of her with everything I had.