“Enjoy yourself, Elena,” Dr. Kriloff said sharply, and walked away. She gave a jerky nod in response, her gaze fastened on Audubon’s hand as if it were the most enticing object her lowered eyes had ever beheld.
And he stood there, forty years old, a veteran of seductions he had always controlled, and felt helplessly enchanted by a woman who was shy, plain, laughably dressed, and incapable of communicating in his own language.
Gently he led her to a small teak parquet dance floor in front of the orchestra. Everyone else was in line to meet Kriloff; the floor was empty, the chamber music wrong for dancing, and Elena Petrovic looked even more out of place under the glittering chandelier. She kept glancing at Kriloff with obvious worry.
“Am I bothering you? To dance?” Audubon asked in his inept Russian, facing her as they came to a stop. “Embarrassing you,” he added in English, as if it might help. “I don’t mean to.”
“Bother? No,” she answered in Russian. “I will dance with you no matter what anyone else wishes. You’re special.”
She said it without coyness, as if it were simply something she had recognized and accepted immediately. Her voice made goose bumps rise on his flesh. He was enormously pleased at the same time that his sophistication shrugged off her flattery. He looked down at their joined hands, surprised to feel her hand trembling. He was shocked to realize within seconds that it was only his imagination, because what he felt was the fascinating, invisible vibration again, as if she’d surrounded him with an aura of welcome.
“You’ve been touring America for two months. Am I the first American who tried to speak with you?” he asked gruffly.
“The first who didn’t give up quickly. No one has ever made Dr. Kriloff uncomfortable before. I could tell from the tone of his voice that he finds you threatening, even though you’re a stranger. You have a sense of your own importance. People watch you, to see what you’ll do next.” She added grimly, “Now they are watching me, too, unfortunately.”
“Then we’ll shock them together.”
“I know I’m ugly. I don’t mind, if you don’t.”
“You’re not ugly.” The most gallant lie I ever told.
She held up her other hand, found his with a sureness that seemed to come like an inner radar, and warmed him again with perplexing ideas about communication and desire. She’s not ugly, he concluded, and it was a staggering leap of faith, but no lie.
“You are a kind liar, Mr. Audubon, and you like to cause trouble. Is that why you asked me to dance?”
“After you talked my ears off and threw yourself into my arms, what else could I do?”
Her startled gasp became a soft, musical chuckle. The light from the chandelier flickered on her glowing cheeks. The reaction of his appreciative masculine impulses signaled she had just redefined ugly once and for all.
His next step brought his torso close enough to touch her floppy jacket lapels. The top of her head was level with his nose, and the lanky hair had a clean, sweet scent that made him forget its looks. She stared fixedly downward, as if hypnotized by his pleats, pearls, and the rosebud boutonniere. “When I remember America, I’ll remember tonight most of all,” she told him. “Meeting you … I mean, being asked to dance by such an interesting American is worth everything.”
“We move like this,” he told her in Russian. “Only a little. We can’t do anything important to this music.” If we were in bed we could, but that’s a different dance.
“Important?” she asked.
He searched for a clearer word and sighed with exasperation. Muttering under his breath in English, a distracted part of his mind noted that she was swaying with him more gracefully than he’d expected. In fact, when he put one hand against the small of her back, she came alive like a willow, and he felt as if she were bending against his palm.
Then he realized he’d been thinking out loud, saying flexible, but in English. Audubon tucked his chin and studied the camouflaged face behind the glasses and hair. “Do you speak any English?”
“No.” She darted a glance toward the receiving line and Audubon’s gaze followed. Kriloff looked up from shaking hands to glare at them. “No,” she repeated firmly.
Audubon took in the exchange with great satisfaction. She speaks English. But why would Kriloff be so determined to keep her quiet?
“I speak such bad Russian,” Audubon told her, sighing. “I give up. Talk to me. Tell me about yourself, and I’ll try to translate.”
Her hand curled more tightly around his. She had rested her other hand on his shoulder; now it crept higher and slipped around his neck. He could tell exactly where her fingertips were, even through his jacket. It was odd—they made tantalizing hot spots at the top of his spine. The nagging twinge from an old muscle pull faded magically. What seductive distraction!
“I cannot talk to you very much,” she whispered, her eyes still lowered. “It wouldn’t be wise. You talk to me.”
“Why are you afraid?”
Her hand cooled inside his. The heat of her fingertips disappeared. “I cannot,” she repeated, sounding angry and sad.
“Are you afraid of Dr. Kriloff?”
“I’ll have to leave if you don’t stop asking me questions like that, Mr. Audubon.”
“No, don’t leave. I’ll talk to you in English, even if you don’t understand. I like to talk.”
“I noticed. Good. I like your voice, Rhett Butler.”
He chuckled. Her hands warmed again. The startling temperature changes, the sway in her body, the lithe feel of it, and the feminine scent of her hair made him giddy. He tried to remember the last time giddy had described anything about his emotions, and concluded that he had probably been in grammar school. “All right, English it is, then. Here goes.” He cleared his throat dramatically, and one corner of her mouth drew up in amusement. It was the only sign that she was listening, as her downcast eyes continued to explore his shirtfront.
“You’re the most unique woman I’ve ever met, and I suspect you’re hiding a great deal about yourself.”
Her expression was as unchanging as the Siberian tundra, but there was a tiny quiver in the upturned corner of her mouth.
“You remind me of a pigeon that’s had its wings clipped, Elena.”
The orchestra’s strings swelled to a throbbing, plaintive melody. She and he were barely moving, the dance a pretense for closeness. A nervous patter of Russian burst from her. “When I was a little girl, I saw a silver fox outside my bedroom window one night. You remind me of him, with your white hair. I used to make up stories about him. I thought I could trust him.”
“If you’d speak English, we could discuss your fantasies about me in greater detail.”
“I wish I knew what you were saying. Anyhow, silver foxes are very rare. Sometimes I wonder if I didn’t just imagine I saw one. He never came back after that night. Foxes may be handsome and smart, but they aren’t very reliable, are they? Even the most unusual ones.”
“I wish I knew what you were saying,” he mimicked. “Something about wanting a silver fox to visit your bedroom at night?”
“This is a very strange conversation. Anyone who was watching wouldn’t guess we’re speaking different languages. They would even think I understand what you’re saying.”
“You do. What little I can see of your face is scarlet. And believe me, Rhett knows what scarlet means.”
“Here are simple questions you can answer in Russian. How old are you? Are you married?”
“Sohrak. Nyet.” He continued casually, but in English, “Although I’m forty years old and have never been married, I’ve enjoyed the company of several wonderful women. I’m a connoisseur, you see, and connoisseurs need variety.” He chuckled at his excuses then lowered his voice to a brocaded, teasing drawl. “I’ve never met anyone quite like you, though. I think you agree, even if you don’t understand English, that we could improve international relations immensely if we were alone in a private room right now.”
Her
stoic facade never cracked. “How old am I? I’m twenty-nine.”
“After we made love, we’d lay close together and talk. I’d run one hand over you very slowly while I told you about myself. Then you could return the favor.”
Russian ice. “Here’s another question you should understand in my language. What is your first name?”
“You’ll have to make love to me if you want to find out. I’ve never told anyone, but I’d tell you.”
“Why don’t you answer in Russian, so I can understand you?”
“You understand me.” He stopped moving and held her still.
“I have to go. Good-bye.”
He brought one hand up swiftly, hooked a forefinger under her glasses, and swept them into his hand in one neat move. Her head jerked up and she made a startled sound, then looked around quickly to see if Dr. Kriloff was watching. He was. “Pazhahlasta!”
He held the lenses up for scrutiny and nodded. “Fakes. This pigeon has terrible taste in glasses but excellent eyesight.”
“Pazhahlasta,” she begged again, her voice trembling.
Audubon rebuked himself for complicating her unpleasant situation. “I apologize, Elena. Here.” He slipped the glasses back into place, pushing her half curtain of hair aside with his fingertip. He caught his breath at the full sight of her strained, upturned face. The strength and balance of cool, unadorned porcelain presented themselves as a backdrop for a tempting but disciplined mouth and light blue eyes under the dramatic wings of coppery brows.
Those eyes, covered with the awful glasses once more, troubled him. He’d seen trapped, wary hope too often not to recognize it in her searing gaze. “If you want to stay in America, I’ll help you,” he whispered.
He still held one of her hands as he had while they were dancing, but the wonderful warmth was gone. She stiffened, withdrawing. “I do not understand English.” It was an angry, mechanical defense.
“I’m not with the government—either yours or ours. This isn’t a trick. I enjoy helping people in, uhmmm, problem situations.”
“Speak Russian!”
“I want to help you. I think you want my help. Here.” Turning her so that Kriloff’s view of their hands was obscured, he slipped a hand inside his jacket and quickly produced a pale gold business card bearing only a phone number. Pulling her close and smiling pleasantly for anyone who might be watching, he brushed his mouth over hers while his hand darted inside her jacket. Deftly his fingers slid between the plain white buttons on the front of her blouse and tucked the business card between her bra and the luxurious swell of a breast.
Just as quickly he stepped back, feeling confident, aroused—and worried. She looked shocked and upset, her chest rising and falling swiftly. The magnetic blue eyes stared at him, analyzing and assessing. Her hand rose to her throat, fumbled, grasped the front of her blouse over the spot where he’d inserted his fingers, then flattened. She looked to Audubon like a kid in grammar school who was trying to find her heart for the pledge of allegiance.
Audubon sensed the KGB agent before the man stepped between them, nodding to Elena Petrovic and speaking in low, urgent tones. She shuddered visibly and looked toward Kriloff. Her hands fell to her sides. Her head sank and she leveled her gaze at the carpet again, becoming the meek pigeon from before.
Audubon fought a reckless desire to snatch her away, no matter what the consequences. It was possible he’d made a mistake in judging her, but he was willing to take that chance. He stepped forward, began to raise his hand, then halted.
How could he risk a scandal that would endanger his work, as well as all the people who worked for him? Raging inside, he forced his face into a pleasant expression. He would have to find a way to help her that was not immediately confrontational … or perhaps even obvious.
“Da svidahniya, Mystyer Audubon,” she said in a subdued voice.
“Good night, Elena.”
The man escorted her across the ballroom and out the doors. Kriloff still stood at the head of the receiving line, pumping hands and glaring over people’s heads. Audubon met his challenge with a cold smile, letting seven generations of blue-blooded patrician arrogance rise to the surface to help make his point.
He wondered what the crowd’s gossips were whispering about this scene. Then he laughed at their overt stares and plucked the boutonniere from his lapel, jauntily twirling it by the stem as he walked from the dance floor. The silky petals brushed the tops of his fingertips, and he looked down in surprise. “What the hell?” he asked out loud, and stopped in his tracks.
The tightly furled little rose bud was now in glorious full bloom.
“You shouldn’t have done that.” Sergei moaned, wringing his big hands as he walked down the hall with Elena. “Now we probably won’t be allowed to go shopping for souvenirs tomorrow. You’ll be confined to your room until we leave for home!”
Sergei was as fussy as a grandmother. When she was little, Elena had even called him babushka, to his chagrin. Ordinarily she would have patted his arm in sympathy, but she was in a daze over the amazing Mr. Audubon.
His card lay smoothly against the top of her left breast, as if his fingers still coaxed her with their secretive, rebellious, and probably deceptive touch. Who was he, really? What was he? The Americans had spies and agents everywhere, according to Sergei. And Kriloff had warned her repeatedly not to trust anyone they met in the United States. Because she’d been sheltered from outside news and information all of her life, she could only believe what she was told.
She clenched her fists and wanted to scream from a lifetime of frustration. It was maddening to be kept so ignorant and helpless. Even a hostile American world was better than a future without even a taste of freedom. Back at home, Kriloff’s newest research project was waiting for her. She’d rather die than return to that. The two-month American lecture tour was almost over, and her chances of escape were dwindling. All of the groveling she’d done to win her place on this trip would be for nothing!
Elena looked around the hallway desperately. With Sergei beside her every minute of the day and another bodyguard by her door every night, she had no opportunities. She’d been such a fool to jeopardize everything by dancing with the American!
“Why did you do it?” Sergei asked, as he lumbered ahead of her and punched the elevator button. “Why did you let that smug American cause trouble for you?”
Elena stared hollow-eyed at her humiliating gray image in the mirrorlike surface of the elevator doors. I couldn’t help myself. He was wonderful. “I’m a grown woman who has never been asked to dance before.” She raised knotted fists and begged, “Sergei, why should I live like this? No one should live this way. I want to be treated like an adult. Like an ordinary woman.”
“You had Pavel. He didn’t treat you like a child.”
The shame and fury that rose inside her made poor Sergei look guilty and nervously stroke his thinning gray hair. He’d made a mistake by bringing up the most painful reminder of Kriloff’s manipulation. In a low, trembling voice Elena said, “Mr. Audubon wasn’t hired to service my romantic needs. He offered of his own accord. Forgive me, but I was overwhelmed by the novelty of it.”
“Oh, Laney-kitten, I’m sorry to see you so unhappy. I understand, really. But we must do our duty—”
“I’ve been dutiful all my life!” She looked around again, then grasped his hands. “Please, Sergei, help me live a real life, like everyone else.”
The elevator arrived and the door began to open. Sergei put an arm around her shoulders and hugged her awkwardly. “To your room now, Laney-kitten. No more rebellious talk.”
She stared into the elevator’s shining hull. It was a casket. If she went inside, she’d be burying herself and her dreams. Call Mr. Audubon tomorrow. No. He must be a trickster. American men were self-serving playboys, weren’t they? She couldn’t trust him any more than she’d trusted her childhood faith in fairy tales.
“What’s wrong, Laney-kitten?” Sergei tugged on he
r elbow. “Come along. Into the elevator with you.”
Oh, she was going crazy, caught in T. S. Audubon’s spell. She’d seen a silver fox outside her window at the institute one night more than twenty-five years ago. The stories she’d dreamed up about him rescuing her had only been a child’s way to battle grief and loneliness. Why did they pull at her memory now? Because he’s finally come back to help you.
“Elena!” Sergei was angry and worried now. He pushed her forward gently, but with a firm grip. She dug her heels into the hallway’s Turkish carpet. All was lost, but she had to fight. Even futile rebellion was better than meek captivity. “Elena, I’ll have to report this!”
His next sentence was drowned out by the sudden shrieking of alarm systems. Elena clamped her hands over her ears. Down the hall, people hurried from the ballroom. “What is it?” she yelled to Sergei.
“Fire alarms! Stay here! Right here! I’ll be back!” He galloped toward the crowd. Elena gaped at his retreating bulk. Could it be possible? The alarm seemed to be screaming inside her head. Now! Run! She pivoted blindly, searching. Beyond the elevators was a door marked Emergency Exit.
Five seconds later she was headed down a stark, concrete stairwell, her feet racing to catch up with her heart.
When the alarms sounded, Audubon skirted the panicky crowd with a calmness borne of his work’s routine brushes with chaos. He managed to get out before the throng of people completely blocked his way. Elena Petrovic’s stocky, aging bodyguard rushed toward him, headed back into the ballroom. Audubon grabbed his arm. “Where is Miss Petrovic?”
“Waiting by the elevators!”
As the man continued past, Audubon’s shrewd gaze shot to the elevators. Elena Petrovic was gone. Beyond the elevators the emergency door to the stairwell was swinging closed. Audubon glimpsed an unmistakable flash of gray. So the pigeon had flown the coop.
The crowd surged out and surrounded him. He cursed eloquently under his breath as he dodged around people. By the time he reached the stairwell, he could only hear the faint patter of feet below him. When he reached the basement parking garage, he swung toward the unmanned exit booth and saw her running past it toward the darkness of a deserted city street. The sheer beauty of her long-legged stride made him want to cheer; her speed made him groan with dismay.