Her father ignored her frantic protests.
John will come! Wake up!
The dream held her as surely as if she were bound to a rack.
The bubbling, inky water closed over their heads. Even beneath it there were noises, a deep boo-o-om bo-o-om. Was there really a sea god down there bellowing his anger?
Her head popped to the surface. She felt her father’s arms come around her again. Not ten feet away the ship slowly upended and fell backward with a tremendous explosion of foam. It wallowed, its black bottom exposed briefly to the air, and was gone.
They were swimming on the side of an enormous wall of water. And they were being swept higher. The white line at the top had grown to a maelstrom of roaring breakers.
They came rapidly closer. In them she could see fish and branches of trees and bits of wood. Her legs drove like pistons but the current grabbed at her, pulling her down and down. Her head was in a vise, her hands grasping water. She was ripped from her father’s arms. It got cold and dark. Great creatures were moving in the deep, their cold flesh sliding against her. Her arms and legs thrashed but still the powerful flow dragged her down. She was being crushed, like the death of stones inflicted on her kind by the Phoenicians.
Something had grabbed her hair. It yanked her so hard she saw flashes. The current lost its hold on her. Even though she knew she was rising — it was getting warmer and lighter — her mouth was going to open in a moment and she was going to breathe water. She would die.
She clamped her jaws shut, finally clapped her hands over her mouth and nose. Perhaps the sea-thing that was dragging her upward would break the surface.
And then she was tumbling in the white water, gasping gulps of wet air, swimming like a demon. She heard her father’s own ragged breath in her ear.
He was the thing that had saved her.
Then she was through the breakers. Before her was a limitless plain of water, rolling gently. She understood that she was now on the back of the enormous wave that had destroyed the ship. On the horizon there stood a vast black pillar of cloud full of red cracks. Enormous tendrils of lightning coursed ceaselessly through it. It grew steadily, a great dark finger poking into the sky.
“Father,” she gasped, trying to point.
She swam in a circle.
The empty waters did not look back.
“Father! Father!”
Please, gods, please, we need him. We have a whole family! Please, gods, we cannot survive without him.
You cannot kill him!
She pounded with her legs and slapped the water with her hands and spun around and around. She screamed for him.
A shadow rolled in a low wave not far away. She dove after the snatch of blue, beside herself with terror and grief.
Then she saw it, the vision that would never leave her again: his face, mouth distended, eyes bulging, disappearing into the abyss.
“Please! Ple-e-ase!”
A wind like a Titan’s breath burst from heaven and the waves came on.
The salt water made her throw up again and again. Her father, her beautiful father — the family’s wisdom and strength — was dying. She dove beneath the waves seeking him as he had sought her, swam deeper and deeper until she felt that ice-cold current — into which he had plunged without regard for his own life, to save his daughter.
She was the oldest, the others needed her now. Alone in Crete, their Akkadian barely passable, they would certainly be destroyed. Her life was precious. She must choose to preserve it. Her father would certainly have demanded it. As hard as it was she closed her mind to him.
She turned toward the dim gray light of the surface and swam. Once there she began to plan her own salvation. The very morning they left she had taken food and Sleep, so she knew that she could go on for at least three or four days.
She opened her eyes in a chilly dungeon smelling of damp stone. Her mouth tasted awful, she had vomited in her Sleep.
The dream had left her sullen with grief, remembering her father’s face in the waves. “I could have saved him,” she said into the darkness.
“But it’s too late now, isn’t it?” screeched an answering voice.
John!
Something gleamed before her eyes, then she felt the cool pressure of a blade against her throat.
“I’ve been waiting for you, my dear. I wanted you to be awake for this.”
Tom glanced at the admission recommendation on top of the pile. Dr. Edwards had quite properly marked it for special handling. Procedure required Tom to initial any priority admissions. The clinic had a waiting list three months long.
He called Sarah. “How would you like a case? There’s a lady with night terrors of adulthood waiting for admission.”
“Are you nuts?” she roared into the phone.
“Just do an evaluation and workup. It’ll take a couple of hours. Think how it’ll look with the board. Brilliant researcher, and so dedicated she keeps her finger in the clinical pie as well. That’s heroine stuff.”
“Oh for God’s sake!”
“If you will be true to this your oath, may prosperity and good repute —”
“Hippocrates doesn’t enter into this. Night terrors, you say?”
“That’s what I like about you. You’re so damn curious. I like that in a scientist.”
There was a moment’s silence. “When’s she due to start?”
“Seven-thirty tonight. She’s on priority.”
“I should hope so.”
They rang off. Tom had almost laughed aloud. Sarah was so predictable. Her willingness to pitch in tonight was typical. Complaining and protesting all the way, she went through life doing the work of three people. It would be good for her to have contact with a patient again — a real, hurting human being. She needed the perspective.
He snorted at that thought. How the hell did he know what Sarah needed? She was so complex and mercurial, with a dark depth to match every bright height. All he could really do was offer her what he thought might be appropriate. But to assume that he could ever really know her heart, even as her lover, would be very foolish.
It took him another hour to go through all the admission recommendations, initialing some, sending others back for follow-up evaluations, noting a few of special interest for routing to Hutch. But not the Blaylock case, not that one. He had a strong feeling that it would be useful to Sarah. In any case, it was hers by rights. She had written brilliantly on night terrors of adulthood and had achieved a couple of cures that lasted beyond the imposition of sedatives and tranquilizers. The case belonged to her. There was no sense in letting Hutch in on it, he would just assign it to somebody else to prevent her getting points with the board.
When Sarah appeared at seven her mood had lifted considerably. She came around his desk and kissed him on the forehead. “Methuselah’s beta-prodophin levels were dropping like crazy at the end,” she said in a voice rich with excitement. “We are on our way.”
He gave her a hard kiss. It felt good to do it, all though his body. “You’re wonderful,” he said.
“I might have that breakthrough you’ve been looking for,” she said, obviously not even aware of the kiss. “I think we just might be able to establish a viable level of control over beta-prodorphin production. We won’t be able to stop the aging process, but it’ll give us the ability to slow it down, or even turn it back.”
He looked at her, right into the directness of her eyes. He was absolutely stunned. “What are you saying?”
“I’m on the threshold. I’m going to get the key.” She tossed her head, went on. “It isn’t a matter of a drug at all. We can achieve our results by controlling the depth of sleep and the temperature of the sleeping body. Just with what we know now we could probably add ten or fifteen percent to the life-span of the average individual. With no pharmacologic side effects.”
“My God.”
“The data is falling together, I guarantee it. You were worried about the board. Don’t be. Yo
u’ll win in a walk.”
Tom was too relieved to be elated. He took her cheeks in his hands and kissed her again. This time she responded, making a pleased sound in her throat, drawing a leg up behind his, slipping her arms around him. Behind it all was this simple love, the cherishing of each other’s dreams. She was so close!
He remembered the case he had imposed on her. “I really am sorry about this patient,” he said. “If I had known what was going on I never —” She touched his lips, smiling.
“The patient needs me. I’m the best choice in a case of night terrors.” It was his turn to smile. At least she wasn’t holding it against him as she had so many other things recently, in that stubborn way he found so hard to accept.
Wordlessly, he handed her the computer printout on the night terrors victim.
* * *
Miriam’s arm flashed up with stunning speed and knocked the cleaver from John’s hand. Instantly, he realized what a mistake it had been to wait for her to wake up. He had stood here, stupidly exulting as she Slept, her body glowing softly in her silk suit. The cleaver had felt good in his hand, the blade was honed to slice deep with the lightest stroke. He could almost hear it singing through the air, almost feel the soft chuck of it connecting with her neck, almost see the awful awareness flashing and then fading in her eyes.
The hand closed around his wrist like a manacle. He tried to pull away, to pry back the fingers. Miriam rose to her feet, snatched his other arm and held them both out before him. He twisted away but she raised him off the floor. He could see her face inches away from his, her teeth gleaming, her eyes darting like a crow’s eyes.
He threw his head back and pushed against her belly with his feet. It was useless, she might as well be a stone statue. His heart bumped in his chest and pain radiated down his arms. “You’re killing me!”
Then she said something that astonished him, especially after what he had seen in the attic. He was certain he had heard the words correctly: “I love you.” She asked his forgiveness and hissed out a prayer. Whenever she was about to enter danger, she called on the gods of her species.
She dragged him to a far corner of the cellar. There came a grating sound: she had lifted with one hand a slate block right out of the floor.
He was still trying to understand what she was doing when he was tossed like a rag into the space beneath the block. He fell hard, landing in six inches of freezing water. With a crash that made his ears ring the slate block was dropped into place above him.
Absolute dark. Dripping water.
John now felt a sweeping wave of despair. He wasn’t going to be escaping from this place. She had buried him alive!
He screamed, he hammered on the slate, he cried out her name again and again. His hands clawed the cool stones until his fingers tore. Death was going to catch him here, jammed into a space barely as large as a coffin!
“Please!”
Dripping water.
Panic. Images of home. Clear sky. Spring meadows. Off to westward, the huntsman’s horn.
Hands clutching him, tearing at him, pressing his face into the muddy, stinking water. Crushing, agonizing weight. Stones. Stones and utter helplessness.
Consciousness left him. But it was not replaced by oblivion. Instead, he was back in the attic, where he had been earlier, searching for Miriam.
The terror of what he had seen there now exploded out of his unconscious into a madness of clutching, leathery fingers and ivory nails, and the foetor of dead breath. The sound that issued from him, reedy and mad, did not bring him back to consciousness.
He remained still, knees jammed against mouth, nose touching the surface of the water, back screaming with the pressure of the stones, mind dancing through the peering dark of hell.
Sarah met Mrs. Blaylock in the receiving lobby. Until recently, it had been a dreary institutional waiting room with brown walls and plastic chairs. But Tom had insisted that it be redecorated to offer the patients the kind of supportive atmosphere they needed. Now it looked at least livable with wallpaper of pastel green, easy chairs, even a big couch.
Sarah picked Miriam Blaylock out instantly. She was easily six feet tall, blond, with eyes so gray they looked white. There was a sort of fierce inquisitiveness about her face, something that made you want to look away. She sat on one of the more rigid chairs. The other patients being admitted tonight stood in a little knot near the door, like nervous mice.
“Mrs. Blaylock,” Sarah said in a loud voice.
The woman fixed her with that stare and moved toward her. Their eyes met, and Sarah found herself in the presence of something much more profound than physical beauty, and yet the sheer magnificence of the woman’s body and the serenity of her expression were remarkable. There was also a sort of wary grace about her, a way of moving that wasn’t quite right, an atmosphere of absolute — and therefore strange — self-assurance.
“I’m Doctor Roberts,” Sarah said, hoping that her expression hadn’t betrayed her surprise. “I’m going to be managing your case.”
Now Miriam Blaylock smiled. Sarah almost laughed, the fierceness of it seemed so misplaced. It was not the smile of a stranger at all, but something else, almost of triumph. Sarah was tempted to make a professional judgment about such inappropriate behavior, but she felt she needed more data. Carefully, she infused professional neutrality into her voice. “First, we’ll go on a short tour of the facility and I’ll explain our procedures. Follow me, please.” She led her into the observation room. For companionship’s sake, Tom intended to stay and operate the equipment. He slumped in a chair before one of the computer consoles. “This is Doctor Haver,” Sarah said.
Tom turned, his face registering obvious surprise when he first saw Mrs. Blaylock. “Hello,” he said. Sarah found herself obscurely annoyed at him. He didn’t have to look so appreciative.
“Doctor Haver will explain our monitoring system.”
“Will it hurt?”
“Hurt?” Sarah asked.
“Any part of it.”
Her voice seemed to fill the room with its rich, sultry timbre. Yet there was an uncanny intonation, almost childlike. “No, Mrs. Blaylock, it won’t,” Tom said. “You’ll find that nothing we do will be in the least uncomfortable. The facility is designed to insure you a good night’s sleep.” Tom cleared his throat, whipped his fingers through his hair. “This system will read and analyze the electrical impulses that your brain makes when you sleep. It’s called Omnex and it’s the most advanced computer system of its kind in the world. As your sleep progresses to deeper and deeper stages, we’ll be watching and we’ll know not only where you stand but how your sleep compares to the various models we’ve developed here at Riverside.”
“He’s telling you it’s very advanced and wonderful,” Sarah said through a smile.
“If the computer analyzes the polysomnogram, what do you two do?”
Quite a well-informed question coming from a patient. Sarah was tempted to answer with the truth — they sat around and drank coffee. “We watch the graphs and try to form an overall picture of your personal sleeping pattern. And of course we watch for signs of your problem.”
“I’m not afraid to refer to it, Doctor Roberts. It’s called night terrors. Will you wake me up when they come?”
There was a plaintive note in her voice now that made Sarah want to comfort her. “I can’t promise you that, but we’ll be here if you do awaken. Let’s go down to the examining room, then you can use the patient’s living room for the evening or go to your cubicle, whichever you prefer.”
A glance inside the examining room told Sarah that it was properly prepared for the job she had to do. “Please take off your blouse Mrs. Blaylock. This will take only a few minutes.” Sarah put on her stethoscope. It was to be a cursory examination, over in a few minutes, intended to uncover only the most gross disease process.
Sarah was astonished to find Mrs. Blaylock naked when she turned around. “Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t make myself cl
ear. I just wanted you to take off your blouse.”
Miriam Blaylock looked directly into her eyes. The moment was filled with tension. Mrs. Blaylock opened her mouth, seemed about to speak. The room was incredibly claustrophobic.
Before she realized she would do so, Sarah had herself spoken. “What do you want?”
“Want?” Miriam Blaylock parted her lips. “To be cured, Doctor.” There was something mean, almost a sneer, in her tone.
Sarah was embarrassed. “Just sit up on this table.” She gestured toward the examining table. Miriam slipped onto it, leaning back against her hands. Her legs were spread wide. It would have been obscene if the woman hadn’t seemed so utterly oblivious.
As Sarah prepared her test tubes for the blood work, she realized that she could actually smell the faint musky scent of the woman’s vagina. She turned around, syringe in hand. Miriam made a sound in her throat and moved one of her legs. The whisper of flesh against the examining table sheet was disturbing. “I’m going to be taking some blood, Mrs. Blaylock,” Sarah said in what she hoped was a thoroughly professional tone. Miriam extended her right arm.
The arm was beautifully shaped, the hand delicate and yet strong. A frightful and sensual image flickered in Sarah’s mind, so disturbing that she shook her head to suppress it.
Something made her own flesh crawl when she began stroking Miriam’s skin. “I’m trying to raise a vein,” she said. “Make a fist, please.” She inserted the needle. Miriam made another noise, one that was familiar to Sarah. It was her own little chortle, the one she always made when she was penetrated. To hear it under these circumstances, in the throat of another woman, was faintly revolting. Sarah had to concentrate every ounce of attention on what she was doing just to avoid tearing a hole in the woman’s arm. Mrs. Blaylock’s hand lay palm up in hers. Perspiration blurred Sarah’s vision as the syringe filled. She longed to be free of Mrs. Blaylock’s touch. It was undeniably pleasurable and the very delight of it was what was so awful. She looked down at the palm, noticing its bizarre preponderance of vertical lines.