“I asked some of the regulars at the bar if they knew you,” he said in that sexy scratchy voice of his. “Some guy named Kip knew exactly where you lived. Do you want to tell me how he knew that, because I didn’t give him time to elaborate?” His tone didn’t sound happy. I narrowed my eyes at him.
“Not that it’s any of your business, but I used to date his brother.”
Kane lowers his eyes and just shakes his head. He raises them once again towards me and asks, “Are your parents’ home?” I have no idea why I did not lie because I really do not know him, but I shook my head no. Looking up into his eyes, he steps up to me, “Why didn’t you come meet me tonight?”
“Yesterday was just too intense for me. Right now is almost too intense for me. I really don’t want to deal with whatever this is right at this moment.”
I hear him chuckle and I feel it all the way down to my toes.
“I love an honest woman. Hell Jay, you think I want this right now? You have no clue where I’m coming from. I’m trying to build a company with my brother down here and working two jobs. I barely have a moment to breathe. It’s crazy because I’ve been trying to figure out what the hell I am doing in my life when suddenly, I spot this girl who in an instant makes me laugh and I haven’t done that in a long time. I’m not looking for anything serious, but I couldn’t concentrate last night or today wondering what would happen when I saw you next. I dreamed of you all night long and I woke up needing to see you. If I would have known where you lived I would have been here this morning.”
He lifts his arms and cradles my face with both of his strong hands. I close my eyes and let his voice pour over me. “I’ve never burned for a woman before and all night I burned for you.” A full tremor shook my body. I didn’t have to open my eyes to know that he felt it. “Look at me Jay, if I could walk away I would. I need to walk away, but I can’t. Nothing in this world could make me. Shit, it’s only been twenty-four hours since we met. This is crazy. You don’t know me, but I know you feel this.” His eyes plead with mine.
I’ve lied to everyone these last two years. I’ve lied to lifelong friends and to my family, but as much as I know that I needed to lie to this man and back away from him, I just couldn’t. I grab the back of his head and pull his lips to mine and in that instant we both went up in flames. I actually swore I heard him growl. Our hands were everywhere and he kisses me as he walks me in the door and shuts it behind us. He backs me up to the round table in the middle of the hall and lifts me up to sit on it. Not once did his lips leave mine. He kisses a trail from my ear to my neck while I rub my hands up and down his back and then to the front so I can unzip his jacket.
Kane removes it and I push my hands underneath his shirt to feel his skin. Sucking in air he moans and I pull his shirt up and off. God his chest was beautifully ripped. Grazing my fingers across his nipples, his head falls back and I immediately start kissing his neck. He is so yummy, tasting salty and sweet as I lick from one side to the other. Yanking my tank top over my head he stares at my breasts.
He glances up from my chest into my eyes with a look of appreciation on his face. He kisses my mouth with a chaste kiss and repeats that kiss to each nipple. Now it was my turn to moan as he then feasted on each one. Slowly he pushes me down with my back on the table and he follows on top of me. Kissing me like there was no tomorrow. I was rubbing my hips with his and my body was strung so tight. Our bodies were so in tune to each other and he sensed what I needed and ground his hips hard into the vee of mine and I shattered. He did that a couple of more times and I felt his body shudder as he moaned then rested all of his weight on top of me.
I’m not sure how much longer we lay like that. It took a couple of minutes for our breathing to slow down. His body was still on top of mine and as far as I was concerned, I never had to breathe again because I loved his weight on me. His head lay right on my chest and his hand rubbed circles on my stomach. I looked down and he looked up at me.
“I haven’t done that since I was a teenager,” he said and laughed. “I think I would have went down in flames had I actually been inside of you.”
Oh my God, my body lit up again at his words. He finally climbed off the table and grabbed my hand to pull me up.
“Baby, where is the nearest bathroom?”
Pointing him to it I just sat there grabbing my tank top off the table and slowly put it back on. My head lowered into my hands and everything that just happened crashed over me. What the hell am I doing?
I hop off the table at the same time he walks out of the bathroom. Grabbing his shirt off the floor I slung it at him. Embarrassed, I couldn’t look him in the eyes knowing I just made out with him like that. I can handle one night stands but this was different. He was different.
“Um, you have to go. Like right now. I have school in the morning.”
I notice him smile as he slides his t-shirt on.
“What time is your first class? I could meet you for lunch.”
What the hell was he talking about? I snapped at him, “The same time it starts every morning and we can’t leave campus for lunch.”
At that moment I seen him flinch and his eyes got a little bigger.
”Aren’t you at the University?”
Looking at him I roll my eyes. “No I’m a senior at Jackson Heights High School.” Oh no. I watch him step back and his face looks a little green.
“How old are you Jay and please don’t lie.”
Okay that last part pissed me off, I’d been more honest with him tonight then with anyone else in the last two years. My lips snarled as I said, “You weren’t too worried about that when your mouth was all over me a minute ago.” I hated to sound crass, but damn, now I was hurt and pissed. “You need to go,” I almost shouted at him. He grabs me around the waist and pulls me to him.
“Look I’m sorry if that hurt your feelings, but this is important. Almost everyone I talked to tonight trying to get info on you said how you hung out at the bar. I know your friends with Jill. I just assumed you were at least twenty-one. My bad, but God Jay, this is so important. I don’t want to go to jail if you’re a minor.”
Looking at him I asked sarcastically, “So If I told you I was under eighteen you would just leave? No matter what your feelings, you would what, walk away?” I had to ask, “Even if I begged you to take me upstairs right this minute?” He looked in pain for about a second, but then glanced into my eyes.
“Yes Jay, I would walk away.” He rubbed his hand over his head and said, “God I would hate every single minute, but yeah, I couldn’t be that type of guy.” I knew he meant it. With a huge sigh I looked at him.
“I turned eighteen last July. My parents held me back a year so that I could go to school with their friends’ kids. I have a fake ID that helps me drink when I need to.” He looked a little relieved.
“But you’re still in high school huh?”
“Yes Kane, is that a deal breaker for us?”
He smirked, “It should be, but thank God you’re at least legal and right now that is good enough for me.” He leans down to kiss me, but I pull my mouth back.
“Kane, we need to slow down just a little. We don’t know each other at all and I must seem like a super slut to you after knowing you what, maybe a day.” I bowed my head into my hands and continued, “If you want only one night and that’s it then we can go upstairs, but if you really want more, then I need to slow everything down. I need to think about this.”
“I get that. I’m not looking for anything serious Jay, but the thought of not seeing you again, honestly, it’s not sitting well with me. How about I take you to dinner tomorrow? I’ll pick you up around seven?”
“Yeah”, I replied. He leaned to kiss me again and I turned my cheek. “Kane, I’m not that strong. If you kiss me I’m not sure I can let you leave,” my eyes plead with his. He shook his head and followed me as I walked to the door. Nothing else was said. Nothing had to be. After he left I climbed the stairs and went straigh
t to bed.
I opened my eyes to the bright light again. My body is so cold from laying on what seems to be a steel table. My arms and legs are so heavy and I can’t seem to move them. A man’s voice is coming from the end of the table discussing about what golf course he plans to play this weekend. Suddenly, the bright light above me is blocked and my beautiful dark angel leans down to me. His lips are inches from mine.
“Are you comfy my love?” He gently kisses my lips, “Your being such a good girl. Just lay there my beautiful whore.” A sob is retched from my body and tears trickle down the side of my face. “Hush no tears,” he whispers, “Your just taking one more step closer to be with me,” his tongue sweeps out of his mouth and it’s black and forked like a snake. I can feel it as it traces my lips, trying to invade my mouth.
I wake up screaming sobbing into my pillow. It is hours before I finally fall back asleep.
Chapter 3
Waking up before my alarm clock goes off I decide to get an early start. I didn’t think much about my situation with Kane last night before bed. Honestly, I can’t think about it right now either. One day at a time is all I can do and I need to get through another day of school. The home phone rings and I rush to answer it knowing it’s one of my parents.
“James, I just wanted to check on you sweetie.” It’s my Dad.
“Hey Dad, I’m fine. Everything is good here.” The lies roll off my tongue.
“Good. Your mother and I both might be another week getting home. We are taking some time for a little vacation. I just wanted to see if you needed anything.”
“That’s fine Dad, I am so busy with school anyways.”
“Great James, we’ll call later this week.”
At last there is silence as he ends the call the same way he ends all of his phone calls.
“Love you too,“ I tell dead air.
Rushing to get dressed, I decide on my regular school attire with a white denim skirt, light pink tee and matching converse shoes. Looking at my hair in the mirror I use my big barrel curling iron to style it. It turns out super cute. Mentally I know I’m dressing thinking about Kane, and a thread of excitement runs through me. I have chosen for the past two years not to have any long term commitments. For the first time in a long time, I’m thinking about letting someone close and it scares the hell out of me, but I am starved to hold someone for longer than an hour.
With my ear buds in, jamming to my music, I go to get into my car to head to school. When I open the car door, I happen to look up and finally notice the motorcycle parked behind me. The sexiest man is still sitting on it. Just looking at him I feel a peace that I haven’t felt in a long time. I know in that instant that maybe I don’t know him, but it feels like my soul has known his forever. Does it really matter that we don’t know everything about each other? The truth is that evil can reside in anyone and most of the time, it is in those we least expect it. Those we are closest to. Staring at Kane, I think to myself the hell with it. I’m going to live my life for me now.
We are both drawn to each other. Ripping the music from my ears, I toss my book bag into my car and put a little extra swing in my hips as I walk towards him. He smiles at me and slides off his bike. I don’t hesitate, once I reach him, I jump up and wrap my long legs around his waist.
“Miss me,” I ask?
“All night,” he says as he kisses me like a starving man. He tastes like orange juice and I could have kissed him all day. I finally broke away.
“I’m going to be late.” I went to put my legs down and he grabs my legs tighter around him.
“One more for the road,” he whispers. “Get me through the day.” His lips are so soft and I swear his tongue is so smooth. We kiss like it’s our last and we both moan. I finally pull away and this time he lets me go.
“I can’t believe you’re here. I wanted to see you this morning.” My eyes grow wide because I cannot believe I just said that out loud. He grabs both of my hands and looks into my eyes.
“Jay, you can’t say that to me and expect me to let you walk away.”
“Don’t leave then. Let’s go inside and I’ll play hooky for the day. I want to be with you.” I see how much he wants me.
“Jay, there is nothing I want more, but I have to work. My brother would kill me if I didn’t show up. He’s going to be pissed that I’m late. It’s a big job and huge for our business.”
I could tell he was torn about it so I put the tip of my finger to his mouth.
“It’s okay. Really, I just wanted you to know how I felt.”
“God Girl, you’re going to kill me.” He said as he tugged me to him and kissed me once more.
I was late to first period, but well, it was worth it. Once I was seated I looked up and Cal was staring at me. He just smiled at me and leaned closer.
“Wow, there’s the girl I used to know. I haven’t seen you smile like that in years. Whatever it is, keep doing it every morning. Let me know if you need any help making you smile.”
The fool actually wiggled his eyebrows at me. I couldn’t help but laugh out loud at him. The silence was the first thing I realized before I looked around and noticed the whole class staring including Mrs. Davis. Geez, these people need to get a life. Mrs. Davis started talking again to the class and Cal leaned close again.
“I need to talk with you after class,” he said. I nodded and turned toward the board.
I forgot about talking to Cal when he was held up by some of the football players after class. Rhye glared at me all second period like he was pissed, but at least he left me alone. By my third period I realized that something was definitely up and I kept getting the feeling that I was also the center of it. I finally caught up to Cal at the beginning of lunch.
“Do you know what is up with everyone?” Cal hung his head down and before he got his chance to talk, I heard a high pitch scream.
“You Bitch, how dare you he’s mine.” I turn just in time to see Cal grab Stacie and pull her back. “You can’t have him back.” Coach Sanders grabs her from Cal and proceeds to lug her to the front office.
“What the hell Cal? What is she talking about,” I yelled.
His cheeks redden and he said, “Listen, I tried to tell you this morning. JT broke up with Stacie last night and told her it was because you two were getting back together. Everyone was hanging out last night and of course it was a super public break up. So pretty much JT told the whole school you both were back together. Then you come in smiling this morning and well, you can guess what everyone thought.”
Speak of the devil, at that moment he walks into the cafeteria. Marching straight up to JT, I said harshly, “We need to talk,” and turn around hoping he follows me. I didn’t want to have this conversation anywhere near school so I walk to my car and unlock both doors and sit down on the driver’s side. JT sits down on the passenger side.
“What the hell JT?”
He turns toward me holding both his hands up, “Just listen to me for a second, okay? I deserve for you to hear me out. When I talked to you the other day, I could see in your eyes that you still loved me. I don’t care what happened in the past, I just know that I need you in my future. The past two years have been the most miserable years of my existence. You left me and God Jay I was broken. I thought I could drink the pain away and I tried to replace you. I loved that everyone else started to hate you too. Lately I’m starting to realize that this whole time, I haven’t been moving on, but been waiting for you to come back to me. I know now I can’t live without you.” His voice breaks and tears roll down his face.
Hearing his words killed me. I have loved this boy for most of my life. Pulling JT into a hug, I let us both cry for what was and what I knew could never be again.
Lifting my head I say, “JT, I’m not that same girl you once loved.” He tries to interrupt me, but I continue, “I heard you out so now it’s my turn. I’ll always love you, but right now I can’t be with you.”
He grabs both of my arms and w
ouldn’t let go, “Just tell me why? I deserve to know what took you from me.” I shake my head no.
“Damn you,” he said. “Just tell me the truth, was there someone that you cheated on me with? I need to know Jay, don’t you dare lie to me.”
I look into his red rimmed eyes and whisper, “No JT, I would never have cheated on you. There was no one I loved more than you.”
At that point he tried to pull me to him and at the same time his door was jerked open and Coach Branch leaned in, “Problem here guys?” He notices JT’s hands on me and glares at him, “Higgins maybe you need to head to class son.”
I jump out of the car before JT has time to get out of the car and head for the doors. Coach Branch calls for me, but I do not listen. I only turn back for a second when I reach the doors. JT was walking beside him and neither were talking.
Running to my locker I grab my books and head for the front office. My parents had spoken with the school and because of their work schedule I was allowed to check myself out if I didn’t feel well. I didn’t do it very often because I didn’t want my parents to revoke that status, but today was that day. Driving home I notice I had missed a text message.