Page 12 of The Snow Walker


  It did not seem he was right about that. We had made the journey to the white man’s place and it had come to so little. Now we were too weak to go back to our own land. And on the second day after we three men returned to the camp, the Snow Walker came to the children Aljut and Uktilohik. There was no mourning for them because those who still lived had no sorrow to spend on the dead.

  Each day thereafter the sun shone more brightly. Spring was upon us and still the deer had not returned. One day I tried to visit my father to see how it was with him but I was unable to walk that short distance. I crawled back into my own tent where my wife sat rocking herself with her eyes closed and her mouth wide and gasping. Beside her my daughter sometimes wailed in the thin, dry voice of an old woman. I lay down on some brush inside the flap and together we waited.

  Perhaps it was the next day when I awakened to hear someone shout. The shout came again and the voice seemed familiar and the words set my heart racing.

  “Here is a deer!”

  I caught my rifle by the muzzle and crawled into the morning sunlight. At first I was blinded but after a moment I saw a fine buck standing a little way off with his head high, watching the camp.

  I raised my rifle with hands that could not seem to hold it. The sights wavered and the deer seemed to slide up and down the barrel. Clutching it tight, I took aim and fired. The buck flung up his forefeet and leapt toward the sheltering trees. I fired again and again until the rifle was empty but the shots all went wide. I could see them kicking up little spouts of snow but I could not hear the hard thud that tells a hunter when he has hit.

  The deer ran away… but just when it was about to disappear in the trees it stumbled and fell. With all my strength I willed it not to get up. The deer’s spirit struggled with mine until slowly the buck sank on his side.

  Some of the people had come out into the sunlight and with weak voices were asking each other who had been shooting.

  “Get out your knives!” I cried as loud as I could. “One has killed a fat deer!”

  At my words even those who could not walk found enough strength. People wept as they stumbled and staggered toward the deer carcass. The first ones to reach it clung to it like flies, sucking the blood that still bubbled out of its wound. They moved away after a while to make room for others, sobbing with pain and holding their hands to their bellies.

  The women sliced into the carcass with their round knives and tore out the entrails, snatching at the little scraps of white fat that clung to the guts. The men cut off the legs at the lower joints and cracked the bones to get at the marrow. In a short time the buck was changed into a pile of bones, steaming meat and red snow.

  It grew warm under the sun and some people began returning to the shelters with meat for those who were too weak to move. Then I remembered that I had seen no one from the tent of my father, so I made my way there dragging part of a forequarter. The flap was down over the door but I pushed it aside and crawled in. My stepmother was lying under a piece of hairless old hide and she was holding her child against her dry dugs. Although they scarcely breathed they were both still alive. But of my father there was no sign.

  I cut off a piece of meat, chewed it soft then pushed it into my stepmother’s mouth and rubbed her neck till she swallowed. Then I took my little stepbrother to Ohoto’s shelter, which was not far away, and Ohoto’s wife made blood soup and fed the child with it while I went back to my father’s place and chewed more meat for my stepmother. Before I left her, she was able to eat by herself but she could not yet talk so I did not know where my father had gone.

  When I returned to my own place, I found my wife had roasted some ribs and boiled the deer’s tongue. Ilupalee lay wrapped in a fresh piece of deerskin and it was good to hear her whimper with the pain of a full belly. That whole night we passed in eating and by the next day nothing of the buck remained for the ravens and foxes. The bones had been crushed and boiled for their fat, the skull had been opened and cleaned, and even the hooves had been made into soup. The strength of the buck had passed into the people and we were ready to return to our country.

  Next day when I went to my father’s tent my stepmother was able to stand. I told her that she and the child would now come and live in my tent, then I said, “One looks about but does not see one’s father.”

  “Eeee,” she replied. “He would not eat the flour you brought. He gave it to me and the child. Afterwards he went on the land to meet the Snow Walker.”

  A little while later I told Ohoto about the voice I had heard. No one else had heard it and none of the people in the camp except me had known there was a deer nearby. Together Ohoto and I followed the marks where my father had stumbled down to the river, then crawled north on the ice. His tracks disappeared at a bend where the current had opened a hole, but close by we found the tracks of a deer. We followed the tracks until they circled back to the camp and came to an end at the place where I had killed the big buck. Neither Ohoto nor I said anything but we both knew whose voice I had heard.

  In the autumn my wife will give birth to another child and then the name of him who went to meet the Snow Walker that we might continue to live will surely be spoken again by the River of Men.

  Walk Well, My Brother

  _______

  When Charlie Lavery first went north just after the war, he was twenty-six years old and case hardened by nearly a hundred bombing missions over Europe. He was very much of the new elite who believed that any challenge, whether by man or nature, could be dealt with by good machines in the hands of skilled men. During the following five years, flying charter jobs in almost every part of the arctic from Hudson Bay to the Alaska border, he had found no reason to alter this belief. But though his familiarity with arctic skies and his ability to drive trackless lines across them had become considerable, he remained a stranger to the land below. The monochromatic wilderness of rock and tundra, and snow and ice, existed outside his experience and comprehension, as did the native people whose world this was.

  One mid-August day in 1951 he was piloting a war-surplus Anson above the drowned tundra plains south of Queen Maud Gulf, homeward bound to his base at Yellowknife after a flight almost to the limit of the aircraft’s range. The twin engines thundered steadily and his alert ears caught no hint of warning from them. When the machine betrayed his trust, it did so with shattering abruptness. Before he could touch the throttles, the starboard engine was dead and the port one coughing in staccato bursts. Then came silence—replaced almost instantly by a rising scream of wind as the plane nosed steeply down toward the shining circlet of a pond.

  It was too small a pond and the plane had too little altitude. As Lavery frantically pumped the flap hydraulics, the floats smashed into the rippled water. The Anson careened wickedly for a few yards and came to a crunching stop against the frost-shattered rocks along the shore.

  Lavery barely glanced at his woman passenger, who had been thrown into a comer of the cabin by the impact. He scrambled past her, flung open the door and jumped down to find himself standing knee deep in frigid water. Both floats had been so badly holed that they had filled and now rested on the rocky bottom.

  The woman crawled to the door and Lavery looked up into an oval, warmly tinted face framed in long black hair. He groped for the few Eskimo words he knew:

  “Tingmeak… tokoiyo… smashed to hell! No fly. Understand?”

  As she stared back, uncomprehending, a spasm of anger shook him. What a fool he’d been to take her aboard at all… now she was a bloody albatross around his neck.

  Four hours earlier he had landed in a bay on the Gulf coast to set out a cache of aviation gas for a prospecting company. No white men lived in that part of the world and Lavery had considered it a lucky accident to find an Eskimo tent pitched there. The two men who had run out to watch him land had been a godsend, helping to unload the drums, float them to tideline and roll them up the beach well a
bove the storm line.

  He had given each of them a handful of chocolate bars in payment for their work and had been about to head back for Yellowknife when the younger Eskimo touched his arm and pointed to the tent. Lavery had no desire to visit that squat skin cone hugging the rocks a hundred yards away and it was not the Eskimo’s gentle persistence that prevailed on him—it was the thought that these Huskies might have a few white fox pelts to trade.

  There were no fox pelts in the tent. Instead there was a woman lying on some caribou hides. Nuliak—wife—was the only word Lavery could understand of the Eskimo’s urgent attempt at explanation.

  The tent stank of seal oil and it was with revulsion that Lavery looked more closely at the woman. She was young and not bad looking—for a Husky—but her cheeks were flushed a sullen red by fever and a trickle of blood had dried at the corner of her mouth. Her dark eyes were fixed upon him with grave intensity. He shook his head and turned away.

  T.B… sooner or later all the Huskies got it… bound to the filthy way they lived. It would be no kindness to fly her out to the little hospital at Yellowknife already stuffed with dying Indians. She’d be better off to die at home.

  Lavery was halfway back to the Anson before the younger Eskimo caught up with him. In his hands he held two walrus tusks, and the pilot saw they were of exceptional quality.

  “Ah, what the hell… no skin off my ass. I’m deadheading anyhow…”

  “Eeema. Okay, I’ll take your nuliak. But make it snappy. Dwoee, dwoee!”

  While Lavery fired up the engines, the men carried the woman, wrapped in caribou-skin robes, and placed her in the cabin. The younger Eskimo pointed at her, shouting her name: Konala. Lavery nodded and waved them away. As he pulled clear of the beach he caught a glimpse of them standing in the slipstream, as immobile as rocks. Then the plane was airborne, swinging around on course for the long haul home.

  barely two hours later he again looked into the eyes of the woman called Konala… wishing he had never seen or heard of her.

  She smiled tentatively but Lavery ignored her and pushed past into the cabin to begin sorting through the oddments which had accumulated during his years of arctic flying. He found a rusty .22 rifle and half a box of shells, a torn sleeping bag, an axe and four cans of pork and beans. This, together with a small box of matches and a pocket knife in his stylish cotton flying jacket, comprised a survival outfit whose poverty testified to his contempt for the world that normally lay far below his aircraft.

  Shoving the gear into a packsack he waded ashore. Slowly Konala followed, carrying her caribou robes and a large sealskin pouch. With mounting irritation Lavery saw that she was able to move without much difficulty. Swinging the lead to get a free plane ride, he thought. He turned on her.

  “The party’s over, lady! Your smart-assed boyfriend’s got you into a proper mess—him and his goddamn walrus tusks!”

  The words meant nothing to Konala but the tone was clear enough. She walked a few yards off, opened her pouch, took out a fishing line and began carefully unwinding it. Lavery turned his back on her and made his way to a ledge of rock where he sat down to consider the situation.

  A thin tongue of fear was bickering in the back of his mind. Just what the hell was he going to do? The proper drill would be to stick with the Anson and wait until a search plane found him… except he hadn’t kept to his flight plan. He had said he intended to fly west down the coast to Bathurst before angling southwest to Yellowknife… instead he’d flown a direct course from the cache, to save an hour’s fuel. Not so bright maybe, considering his radio was out of kilter. There wasn’t a chance in a million they’d look for him this far off-course. Come to that, he didn’t even know exactly where he was… fifty miles or so north of the Back River lakes would be a good guess. There were so damn few landmarks in this godforsaken country… Well, so he wasn’t going to be picked up… that left Shanks’ mare, as the Limeys would say… but which way to go?

  He spread out a tattered aeronautical chart on the knees of his neat cotton pants. Yellowknife, four hundred miles to the southwest, was out of the question… The arctic coast couldn’t be more than a hundred and fifty miles away but there was nobody there except a scattering of Huskies… How about Baker Lake? He scaled the airline distance with thumb and forefinger, ignoring the innumerable lakes and rivers across the route. About two hundred miles. He was pretty fit… should be able to manage twenty miles a day… ten days, and presto.

  Movement caught his eye and he looked up. Konala, a child-like figure in her bulky deerskin clothes, had waded out to stand on the submerged tail of a float. Bent almost double, she was swinging a length of line around her head. She let the weighted hook fly so that it sailed through the air to strike the surface a hundred feet from shore.

  Well, there was no way she could walk to Baker. She’d have to stay put until he could bring help. His anger surged up again… Fishing, for God’s sake! What in Jesus’ sweet name did she think she was going to catch in that lousy little pond?

  He began to check his gear. Lord, no compass… and the sun was no use this time of year. He’d never bothered to buy one of the pocket kind… no need for it… but there was a magnetic compass in the instrument panel of the old crate…

  Lavery hurried back to the Anson, found some tools, and went to work. He was too preoccupied to notice Konala haul in her line and deftly slip a fine char off the hook. He did not see her take her curved woman’s knife and slice two thick fillets from the fish. The first he knew of her success was when she appeared at the open cabin door. She was so small that her head barely reached the opening. With one hand she held a fillet to him while with the other she pushed raw pink flesh into her mouth, pantomiming to show him how good it was.

  “Jesus, no!” He was revolted and waved her away. “Eat it yourself… you animal!”

  Obediently Konala disappeared from the doorway. Making her way ashore she scraped together a pile of dry lichens then struck a light with flint and steel. The moss smoked and began to glow. She covered it with dwarf willow twigs, then spread pieces of the fish on two flat rocks angled toward the rising flames. When Lavery descended from the plane with the compass in his hand his appetite woke with a rush at the sight and smell of roasting fish. But he did not go near the fire. Instead he retreated to the rocks where he had left his gear and dug out a can of beans. He gashed his thumb trying to open the can with his pocket knife.

  Picking up the axe, he pounded the can until it split. Raging against this wasteland that had trapped him, and the fate that had stripped him of his wings, he furiously shovelled the cold mess into his mouth and choked it down.

  Konala sat watching him intently. When he had finished she rose to her feet, pointed northward and asked, “Peehuktuk? We walk?”

  Lavery’s resentment exploded. Thrusting his arms through the straps of the packsack, he heaved it and the sleeping bag into position then picked up the rifle and pointed with it to the southwest.

  “You’re goddamn right!” he shouted. “Me—owunga peehuktuk that way! Eeetpeet—you bloody well stay here!”

  Without waiting to see if she had understood, he began to climb the slope of a sandy esker that rose to the south of the pond. Near the crest he paused and looked back. Konala was squatting by the tiny fire seemingly unaware that he was deserting her. He felt a momentary twinge of guilt, but shrugged it off… no way she could make it with him to Baker, and she had her deerskins to keep her warm. As for food, well, Huskies could eat anything… she’d make out. He turned and his long, ungainly figure passed over the skyline.

  With a chill of dismay he looked out across the tundra rolling to a measureless horizon ahead of him—curving emptiness more intimidating than anything he had seen in the high skies. The tongue of fear began to flicker again but he resolutely shut his mind to it and stumbled forward into that sweep of space, his heavy flight boots slipping on rocks and suck
ing in the muskeg, the straps of the packsack already cutting into his shoulders through the thin cotton jacket.

  there is no way of knowing what Konala was thinking as she saw him go. She might have believed he was going hunting, since that would have been the natural thing for a man to do under the circumstances. But in all likelihood she guessed what he intended—otherwise, how to explain the fact that ten days later and nearly sixty miles to the south of the downed plane, the sick woman trudged wearily across a waste of sodden muskeg to climb a gravel ridge and halt beside the unconscious body of Charlie Lavery?

  Squatting beside him she used her curved knife to cut away the useless remnants of his leather boots, then wrapped his torn and bloody feet in compresses of wet sphagnum moss. Slipping off her parka, she spread it over his tattered jacket to protect him from the flies. Her fingers on his emaciated and insect-bitten flesh were tender and sure. Later she built a fire, and when Lavery opened his eyes it was to find himself under a rude skin shelter with a can of fish broth being pressed lightly against his lips.

  There was a hiatus in his mind. Anxiously he raised himself to see if the aircraft was still on the pond, but there was no pond and no old Anson… only that same stunning expanse of empty plains. With a sickening lurch, memory began to function. The seemingly endless days of his journey flooded back upon him: filled with roaring clouds of mosquitoes and flies; with a mounting, driving hunger; the agony of lacerated feet and the misery of rain-swept hours lying shelterless in a frigid void. He remembered his matches getting soaked when he tried to ford the first of a succession of rivers that forever deflected his course toward the west. He remembered losing the .22 cartridges when the box turned to mush after a rain. Above all, he remembered the unbearable sense of loneliness that grew until he began to panic, throwing away first the useless gun, then the sodden sleeping bag, the axe… and finally sent him, in a heart-bursting spasm of desperation, toward a stony ridge that seemed to undulate serpent-like on the otherwise shapeless face of a world that had lost all form and substance.