risk of complete exposure, of course, but she'd also hoped strongly against it. Another sigh escaped her as Cade put his stuff back in his backpack and zipped it shut. Without looking up from the desk, she muttered, "Now we wait to see whether I'm going to become a TV star tonight. I've got a feeling that my privacy is about to be shot to hell." "Not necessarily. Vegas is full of great-looking, leggy blondes. If anyone says you look like you, just thank them for the compliment and move on." For a moment Mandi staringly said nothing, then she quietly asked, "How the hell did you know I live in Vegas?" "I saw you there," said Cade. "Back in 1996." Sitting up and turning around to give him an exasperated look, Mandi replied, "1996? After all these years, you're absolutely sure it was me you saw?" "Yeah," Cade said with a shrug. "I am. Mind if I make a suggestion?" Tossing the pen she'd been fiddling with onto the desk, Mandi almost shouted, "Oh, sure! Oh, hell, yes! Why not?" Thumbing at the door, Cade said, "Could be that John's people will square this away. If not, you might as well enjoy your last few hours of anonymity, right? I'm just saying, 'business as usual and hope for the best'. And we have about fifteen minutes to get to that writer's panel." Mandi almost laughed at his last words, but she realized he was probably right. What the hell; might as well. She stood up and picked up her purse, putting her sentiment into words. "What the hell; we might as well." Pointing at his shoulder holster, she asked, "Do you really think you need that?" "I'm on standby. I think John would take it poorly if I had to say, 'Wait one while I run upstairs and get my gun'." Nodding with a chuckle, Mandi said, "Yeah, I guess he might, at that." Cade got the door for her with a gentlemanly flourish and they headed for the elevator. "Ed," said Mandi, "Most people are full of questions when they first meet me." Nodding, Cade said, "Yeah, that seems likely," and nothing more as they approached the elevator. He pressed the 'down' button and stood beside her as he'd stood before; silent to the extreme. Mandi suddenly realized that she hadn't noticed his footsteps in the hallway, either. "Why are you so quiet?" she asked. "Just a habit, I guess." For once, the elevator arrived quickly and they boarded. As Mandi stepped in and turned around to face the door, a brief and almost complete silence occurred around her and she wondered if her pictures had already somehow been leaked. As the con-related chatter resumed around her, she heard two teen guys whispering in the back. "Wow! Check her out, man!" "You think I'm not?! Jesus! I'd lick my way up to her..." A woman said, "One more word, Tim. Go ahead. One more." "You aren't my mom, Jackie. I can... Ow!" "If you don't knock it off, I can tell your mom what a wonderful little gentleman you weren't at DragonCon. Now can the crap or I'll pinch your other tit, you little twerp." There were snickers and giggles and a snort of laughter. Mandi glanced at Cade with a grin and Cade returned it as the elevator doors opened and they stepped into the lobby. As the woman herded the two teens past them toward the escalators, Cade said, "There goes your adoring public." "Oh, wow," Mandi said in a flat tone. "Be still, my heart." They set forth toward the Orchid Ballroom as Cade said, "Most men never grow out of that stage, you know." Grinning, she said, "I've noticed that now and then." Sighing dramatically, Cade said, "I feel so transparent." Mandi laughed, looked at him, and laughed again. "Ed, you're probably one of the most un-transparent people I've ever met." "The word for that is 'opaque', ma'am." After a quick, sharp glance at him, Mandi gave him a wry grin as she said, "Yes, I know. I wasn't sure you would." "Gee thanks. That, by the way, was an 'antiphrasis'." Mandi stopped and looked intently up at him for a moment, nodded, then continued walking. As they reached the escalators that led to the ballrooms below, Cade asked, "You had to look that one up, didn't you?" When Mandi didn't answer, Cade said in German, "I'm very sure you have been told often that you're a very beautiful woman." Without a hint of hesitation or unnecessary modesty, Mandi replied in German, "Yes, I have." Nodding, Cade said, "Kinda thought you could do that." "Why?" "You wouldn't have been sent here unprepared." Giving Cade a sidelong glance, Mandi asked, "What makes you think I was sent here?" "You aren't a product of normal anthropogenesis and nobody on Earth could create you in a test tube. You were manufactured somewhere else." He glanced at her and added in French, "And whoever did it did a damned fine job." Mandi grinned and returned in French, "Thank you again," with no regional accent. It was schoolbook French; the precise, formal kind you learn only in classrooms from people who've never walked the streets of France. "You had a good teacher," said Cade. "Human or machine?" As they entered the Orchid Ballroom, Mandi said, "My language teacher was a computer about the size of this hotel." "I'll bet most of it was empty space; mostly just places for people to hook up to it or whatever." Choosing a pair of chairs in the third row, Mandi said, "You'd win that bet." A woman tapped on a water glass to start the panel introductions. Reps from two small presses and three self-published authors gave their names and credits, then the moderator -- a woman who'd written two PG-13 novels and self-published them -- opened the floor to questions. The first question came from a woman in row two, who asked, "Why is it that women in science fiction are always portrayed only as victims, goddesses, or demons?" One of the small-press reps, a guy named Donovan, said, "They aren't, actually. Most women in sf are used as support characters, just as they are in movies and music videos. It's a trend that should be rectified." "Rectified how?" asked a woman in the seventh row. "Even most female authors tend to use male lead characters." Donovan shrugged and said, "If you're really an author, you'll write your characters your way." "But if I buck the trend, will I ever be published?" "Ninety-nine percent of all manuscripts aren't published when they don't buck trends, so all you can do is try, like everybody else." The rest of the session was about the same. Nobody asked any questions that couldn't be answered in about the same manner, and one of the small-press guys gently ranted about how expenses and tight budgets made publishers extremely selective about what sorts of manuscripts were accepted. One of the self-published authors used the small-press guy's rant as a springboard for extolling the virtues of being your own publisher, citing total control and other aspects. Someone asked him how many copies of his book were sitting in his garage, waiting to be sold, and how many copies had been sold. The self-pubber's answer was rather vague, but it didn't actually seem evasive; in fact, it seemed to Cade that the guy had simply been unprepared for the question and really didn't have the actual numbers at hand. A guy in the fourth row asked if epublishing could be considered a valid form of being published. Donovan took that question, too, and opined that -- as far as he was concerned -- 'real' books were made of paper. It was a wholly predictable response from a guy who made his living as a paperback publisher. Cade raised a hand, and when called upon said, "Since 1999, I've paid taxes on nearly thirty thousand dollars that came from ebook sales on the Internet. How are books that people pay for and read not 'real' books?" Glancing to his left and right as if for solidarity with the others of the panel, Donovan said, "Let's make one thing clear, sir; you've been selling computer files, not books." "That's why they call them 'e'-books. My question stands." The moderator said, "This is off-topic. This panel is about 'Women of Science Fiction', not methods of publishing." "You could have said that earlier," said Cade, "When the second or third question wasn't about 'Women of Science Fiction' and before thirty minutes were spent on off-topic topics. Let Mr. Donovan answer my question, if he will." "He won't," said Donovan. "She's right; this is off-topic and we should get back to the reason for this panel." Cade's chuckle earned him a curious glance from Mandi and a few others nearby as the moderator, herself, rather ineptly tried to manufacture a topic-related question to force the panel back on track and get it rolling again. As Mandi and Cade headed back to the escalators, she said, "Only one percent of manuscripts being published doesn't offer authors much hope of making a living from their work." "Those people want to see their name
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