I wake with my heart pounding. The dream fades but the tapping on my face grows stronger. I open my eyes. It wasn’t rain or hail, it was Digory. He’s leaning over me and patting my face to make me wake up.
“Digory!” I yelp. Jenna stirs.
“Ssssh. Don’t wake up Jenna,” whispers Digory right into my ear so that his breath tickles. I sit up on my elbows and look at the clock. Ten past six. Still dark outside. I put my finger to my lips, and Digory nods. He looks all big-eyed and scared and I wonder if he’s wet the bed, but that hasn’t happened for ages.
Digory is nearly as good at moving silently as Jenna and me. We slink past Mum and Dad’s door and down the stairs. Digory tugs hard on my hand. We go in the kitchen and Digory drags me towards the larder.
How clever he is. He knows what I didn’t discover until I was about ten: the larder is so well insulated that it’s the one place in the house where you can talk and no one can hear you. We both push in and I shut the door and switch on the larder light.
“What is it, Digory?”
“I need my violin,” says Digory in a worried voice, “otherwise I can’t show you properly.”
I sigh. Sometimes Digory can’t explain things in words and he has to do it in music. Not a great idea at this time of the morning.
“Tell me with words. You can’t play your violin, not even in the larder. Everyone will wake up.”
“I think I did something bad,” says Digory. His eyes are bigger than ever.
“What sort of bad?” I’m not worried. Loads of things seem really bad when you are little.
“I wanted to play my violin to Malin,” says Digory in a rush. “He wanted to hear it. Sea music makes Mer people strong.”
“Sea music makes Mer people strong? Digory, what are you talking about? What do you know about the Mer?”
“I do know. They play their music to me, I told you before. They tell me things in their music.”
I give him a long look. I don’t think he’s lying. But he has his own world and what happens in that world is not always connected to reality.
“What do they tell you?”
“An pobel Mer er trist,” says Digory.
An icy shiver runs all over me. “How do you know Mer language?” I demand, kneeling down on the floor so his face is level with mine.
“Don’t squeeze my arms like that, Morveren, you’re hurting!”
I didn’t realise I’d grabbed hold of him. I let go and move back as far as the larder shelves will let me, so he won’t be scared.
“Did someone teach you those words?” I ask as calmly as I can.
“No, I told you, they put them in their music, so I heard them. All the Mer are sad because they’ve lost Malin.”
“And you say you heard them?”
“I was right on the edge of the sea. They knew I was there. That’s why they wanted me to come in the sea with them, but I said I couldn’t, because of my violin.”
“Digory! You must never, ever go in the sea on your own, whether you’ve got your violin or not. It doesn’t matter what you hear. Stay on the sand. Don’t go in the sea.”
“I didn’t, Mor! You’re pinching me again!”
“Sorry. I’m just scared, that’s all. What if you went in the sea on your own and nobody knew where you were? If anything happened we wouldn’t be able to rescue you. You know that.”
He looks so miserable that I soften. “It’s OK. You didn’t go in. It’s not that bad. You know you shouldn’t have gone right down to the water, though. Mum’s told you millions of times.”
“That wasn’t the bad thing,” says Digory, so quietly I have to bend right down to hear him.
“What was it then?”
“I don’t want to tell you, Mor, cos you’ll be so angry.”
“I won’t. I swear I won’t.”
“You’re angry with me already.”
“I’m not. I told you, you scared me,” I say, trying to sound less scary myself. My heart is thumping with fear. What if the Mer steal human children? “Digory, just tell me. I won’t get angry, I promise.”
“I played my violin to Malin and Bran saw me.”
“What?”
“You said you wouldn’t be angry! You promised!”
“I’m not, I’m not. You mean you went up on the rocks and played and Bran saw you up there?”
It’s all fitting together. That’s why Bran was out in the dark, waiting. He did follow us, just as he followed Digory earlier on. But I still don’t know how much Bran knows. Digory playing his violin is nothing unusual. He goes down to the shore to play sometimes, and Mum doesn’t mind as long as he keeps away from the water. Bran might think he was a bit weird, giving a concert for nobody, but little kids play pretend games like that…
“Digory, are you sure Bran saw you?”
“He talked to me.”
“Oh no!”
“I had to talk to him! I didn’t want to!”
“And you were right by the rocks where Malin is?”
“Yes,” says Digory in a small, wretched voice.
“Don’t look like that. If he didn’t see Malin he’ll never guess,” I say, trying to reassure myself as much as my brother. “The first time I saw Malin, even though he was right in front of me, I couldn’t believe he was real.”
“But that still wasn’t the bad thing,” goes on Digory, and this time tears well out of his eyes and start to slip down his cheeks.
My mind fills with dread. “What else happened?”
“He asked me who I was playing for, and I didn’t want to say ‘Malin’ because you told me it was a secret. So I said I was playing for myself, and he laughed at me and said I was a loser and a weirdo and – and he said everybody thinks that – so I got angry and I shouted at him and said, ‘The Mer like me playing to them.’ And then he went all quiet but it was more scary than when he was laughing at me. He sort of tapped my violin but it was quite hard and I was scared he was going to try and break it. And then – and then—”
“Don’t be scared. Bran’s not here now. Just tell me.”
“He said, ‘Who are they then? Who are the Mer?’ and I didn’t want to tell him any more so I said they were part of a game and then he came up really close and he said… He said…”
Digory is crying hard now. I feel really sorry for him, but I’ve got to know.
“What did he say? Try and tell me.”
“He said he’d throw me in the sea if I didn’t tell him who the Mer are,” whispers Digory, as if he’s still frightened Bran might hear him. “But Mor, I think he already knows.”
“He wouldn’t do it. He was just trying to frighten you.” I can’t bear the thought of Digory on his own with none of us there to help while Bran threatened him.
“I was so scared. There weren’t any people anywhere.”
I put my arms tight around him. He’s shaking with sobs and terror. “It’s OK. You didn’t do any bad things. It was Bran who was bad, not you. Stop crying and I’ll get you a biscuit off the top shelf.”
If Mum buys chocolate biscuits she hides them on the top shelf, otherwise Digory eats them all. But for once even the promise of chocolate doesn’t help.
“I told him – I told him – that if he threw me in the sea then the Mer would rescue me because they were my friends and they were much bigger than him. And I knew they were close because when I was playing, they joined in and played too.”
I wipe his face with the sleeve of my nightdress. “You were so brave to say that,” I tell him. But my mind is clicking away like a computer, working out the logic of it. Digory thinks that Bran already knew about the Mer. How could that be? Of course there are a lot of stories and Bran will know them all. He will know the legend of how our island came into being, and how the Mer helped our ancestors. But those are legends and they’re safe in the past. Surely Bran won’t make the jump to guessing that the Mer are here, in the present day?
“And then Bran said, ‘You play that violin.
I want to hear your friends. If they’re as close as you say, they’ll play too, won’t they? Unless you’re telling me a load of lies and you don’t want to know what I do to liars.’”
I hate hearing Bran’s words in Digory’s mouth. It’s as if he’s got inside my brother’s head. “I didn’t want to play, Morveren, but I had to. I played a little bit and I tried to make it all sad and warning so they’d know they had to escape, but the Mer didn’t understand. They started playing too, just like before. Bran heard them.”
“How do you know he heard them? He can’t have done.”
“He pretended he didn’t. He didn’t want me to know, but his eyes went all still, and the black bit in the middle changed shape. I kept on playing and then he said stop. He said, ‘If you open your mouth about this, your mum and dad will find you floating like that Polish sailor.’”
“I’ll kill him.”
“I had to promise him I wouldn’t tell anyone. But I did tell you, Mor. He can’t really throw me in the sea, can he?”
“No. No one can do stuff like that.”
But I’m afraid. There are rumours about what happens to people who fall out with Bran’s dad. He’s violent, and he’s the kind of man you keep away from unless your business is the same as his business. It’s like there are two worlds, and they touch sometimes but mostly they are separate. Bran lives in his dad’s world, most of the time. He speaks its language, except when he’s with Jenna. I can’t believe he’d really try and hurt Digory…Jenna’s little brother… Or maybe I can.
I hold Digory tight. What’s happened is so bad I can’t even begin to think of a way to sort it out. If only Digory hadn’t been so determined to play his violin to Malin. If only Bran hadn’t guessed that something more was going on than a little kid practising. If only he’d believed Digory when he said it was just a game. But Digory thinks Bran heard the Mer music. That can’t be possible. Digory must be confused.
But whatever really happened, it’s clear that Bran suspects something, and that he’s a danger to Malin. I’ve got to get to Malin as soon as I can, and tell him King Ragworm Pool isn’t safe any more.
I wipe Digory’s face again and give him a biscuit. When he’s calmed down, I lead him quietly upstairs to bed. He looks exhausted. He must have been awake nearly all night, scared to death because he thought he’d betrayed Malin. None of this is his fault. He’s got caught up in it, like a little boat getting swept into a storm.
“Poor old duck,” I whisper, as I tuck his duvet round him.
“Are you going to tell Jenna?” he whispers sleepily.
Fear runs through me. “No,” I say. “We won’t tell Jenna. She’d be scared, wouldn’t she?”
“And we can’t tell Mum and Dad, can we?” mutters Digory. “Cos humans catch the Mer. They told me that. That’s why no one must know,“ he yawns so widely that the words are almost swallowed, “about… Malin…”
“That’s right. You go to sleep. I’ll work it out.”
I go back into our room. Jenna is sleeping peacefully. My sister. My twin sister who knows everything about me, who can even read my thoughts. Unless I stop her reading them. I was hurt when Jenna said we shouldn’t be so open with each other any more, but now I’m glad. There is far too much I need to hide from her.
And so I don’t wake Jenna and tell her everything. I slip back into my bed and lie awake, my head pillowed on my hands, thinking furiously. I have got to work out what to do.
But what I don’t know is that someone else is up at first light, and already that person is on his way down to the shore, moving as silently as a shadow in the dawn. And I tell Jenna nothing, because I don’t trust her, and yet she is the one person, maybe, who could have stopped what is about to happen. This is my first big mistake.
y second mistake is to fall asleep. One moment I’m lying there, staring at the ceiling, my mind buzzing, and the next my eyes have closed. I’m still not quite asleep though, because I know that I’ve got to get up, got to get to Malin as soon as I can, got to find out what Bran knows, got to make sure Digory doesn’t say anything… got to… got to…
I sleep. I sleep for two whole hours, as if someone has put a spell on me. I dream of Malin, not injured and trapped in King Ragworm Pool, but free and strong. In my dream he flies through Ingo, riding the currents, carrying messages from ocean to ocean. Water rushes past him, green and blue, turquoise and storm grey. I see dolphins and porpoises, minke whales and bull sharks. They swim with Malin like friends, or brothers. Far above, the hulls of ocean liners and oil tankers cast shadows down into the water. Malin swims on, faster than the fastest of them. Sometimes he sleeps for a while, rocking inside a current. In my dream I am there too, swimming as Malin swims, as if the ocean is my home.
I smile in my sleep. I don’t know what’s happening outside the world of my dreams. If I knew, I’d be out of bed, out of the house, through the village and down to the shore. I’d scream out a warning.
Sometimes a dream turns to a nightmare and you want to scream but you can’t. Suddenly my dream changes. A huge, dark shadow advances over Ingo and I can’t see Malin any more. I try to call to him, but water fills my lungs. I choke and struggle, but the dream still holds me.
The light is strong outside our window. I wake suddenly, with a jolt that makes me sit up. My heart is banging. I try to calm down but my dream clings to me, full of panic.
“Mum!” I shout.
The door opens, but it’s Jenna. She’s up and dressed. She frowns at me. “What’s the matter? Why were you shouting?”
I feel myself flush. “It’s nothing. I just had a bad dream.”
Weirdly, Jenna doesn’t look as if she cares much. “You’d better get up,” she says, “it’s the funeral today.”
“I know that.”
“Mum wants us to wear our black school skirts and white shirts. We’ve got to be at the church at quarter to ten, but you’d better use the bathroom quickly cos Dad’ll want a wash.”
“Where is he?”
“Gone to check the crab pots. Mum’s at the church helping Marie with the flowers.”
A thought strikes me. “It’s a bit strange that he’s being buried here, isn’t it? Adam Dubrovski, I mean. You’d think his family would want him buried at home.”
“His grandparents brought him up, and the rest of his family emigrated, so his friends thought he should be buried here,” says Jenna, in an annoying “You should know this” voice, even though she’ll only be echoing what Mum told her. “Get up, Morveren, it’s late. Digory’s had his breakfast and he’s all ready.”
“Do you have to be so bossy?” I mutter as I push back the duvet.
“Yes, I do!” shouts Jenna. “I do everything while you lie in bed doing nothing! I’m sick of it.”
I stare at her in amazement. She’s pale, maybe with anger, but I think there’s something else in her face. Something has happened to upset her a lot. With a conscious effort not to fly into a rage myself, I ask, “Jen… Is something wrong? What’s happened?”
“Nothing’s wrong!” she snaps.
“It’s something to do with Bran,” I think, and immediately realise I’ve spoken my thought aloud. Jenna’s face floods with colour.
“Why don’t you think about someone else apart from yourself for once and just get out of bed,” she says furiously. “I’ve got Digory ready and cleared the kitchen and done everything as usual. Ynys Musyk is playing at the funeral, in case you’d forgotten.”
“I hadn’t forgotten,” I say coldly, turning my back on her. I can feel her standing in the doorway, hesitating. Maybe she’s wondering if we’re going to make up. But we’re not, not until much later, when we see the bank of white and yellow chrysanthemums that Mum and the others have arranged with such care around the altar where Adam Dubrovski’s coffin will stand, and Jenna bursts into tears.
No one else notices. Jenna has her head down. I can see her shoulders shaking, just a little. Jenna’s crying, and she hasn’t got a
tissue. She sniffs and wipes away her tears with the back of her hand. The gesture makes her look about six years old, and even though I’m still angry with her, my heart melts.
“Jenna,” I whisper, and I pass across the old cotton hankie of Dad’s that I keep in my violin case. That’s one of my traditions. Jenna wipes her face, blows her nose and glances sideways at me.
“You OK?” I mouth silently, and she nods, swallowing hard.
“Good,” I whisper.
I don’t think she’s crying about Adam Dubrovski, even though the church is full of flowers and sadness. She picks up her flute. Don’t cry any more, Jen, you won’t be able to play if you do, I think, and I know that the thought reaches her, because she gives me a small, watery smile.
I’m wearing my school swimming costume under a long-sleeved white T-shirt, and then my school black skirt and white blouse. The T-shirt is so that the swimming costume won’t show through the blouse. I wish I could have put on my short wetsuit as well, but I’d have been way too hot in the church. I’m pleased with myself for planning ahead like this: I even put some spare underwear in my jacket pocket.
Matt Jackson plays his A and we all tune to it. Whenever it’s damp my violin goes out of tune. I have good pitch, but not perfect pitch like Digory. Tamsin Mellon leans across to me.
“Your Digory’s playing the lament, isn’t he?”
“I don’t know.”
The bearers are at the door. They are carrying Adam Dubrovski’s coffin on their shoulders as they pace slowly up the short aisle of our little church, and then they lay the coffin down gently on its bier.
The church is full. Adam Dubrovski’s shipmates stand in the front pew, in new black suits. A priest has come over from the mainland, and when he stands up to give his sermon, my heart sinks. The tradition on our island is that if there’s a funeral, everybody goes, and so I’ve already been to quite a few. I don’t like it when they talk about the dead person, because it never seems real. But this priest doesn’t pretend. First he talks directly to the surviving sailors, about the saving of their own lives, and the loss of their friend’s. They he says that many of us are here to mourn a young man we didn’t know. But we, like Adam Dubrovski, make our living from the sea and so we feel not only human sympathy but the special solidarity of sea-going people. He says that the one thing the sea teaches us is that we do not control life. People in cities who flick on the central heating may keep the illusion that they are in control, but a man out at sea in a storm knows that there are forces far more powerful than he is.