Noor turned her head away.
“When I was with other Germans in the camp for a year before the fall of Paris—the one the French call the Battle of France,” said Vogel, “I remember being afraid.” He laughed. “Yes, I—afraid. I was afraid not of the French or martyrdom, but that the Fatherland might abandon me in France. My Führer might decide I no longer belonged to Germany. Do such thoughts worry you, mischlinge?”
The scent of his desire, words of tender concern—so long as he had her sitting before him with chained feet. He was calling to the fear she had in common with women of all nations. Using it. The only surprise was that he’d waited till now. But there was something holding him back. It would be foolish to believe it was conscience.
Noor sat up taller. “Herr Vogel, you are a most astute gentleman. I can only say you have made a terrible mistake. I am no spy, just a visitor to Paris caught in the war, unable to return to the Kingdom of Baroda. Forgive me for lying to you, but I was afraid you would send me to a concentration camp, where many foreign citizens have gone. I belong in India.” She tossed her head. “There, someone like Cartaud would not be allowed in my presence.”
“Oh, why do you play with me, Princess? I can interpret you, better than you interpret yourself. Écoutez, when it’s better for you to be French, you say you are French, when it’s better to be Indian, you say you’re Indian. When you wish to be American, you will say you are American. And if it is ever advantageous to you to be German, I’m sure you will not hesitate.”
Vogel was accusing with dreads she had always had, of discovering Mother’s opportunism in herself, of being seduced by a need to belong.
“Not true,” she protested.
“But have you ever thought, mischlinge, that the reverse is true as well—that when it is advantageous for the British to call you British, they will, and when it is advantageous for Americans to include you, they will, and when Indians wish to claim you for a while, they will.”
Of course she had. But she wouldn’t admit that to Vogel—Vogel who was casting a covetous glance over her.
“I understand, you see, because I am a linguist. People who know many languages have many selves, just like mischlinges.” He lit a cigarette and pulled in smoke. “You’re so lucky I have been allowed to interrogate you without Herr Kieffer present. He interrogates by domination. I have different methods. You see, people are like words—they have meaning only in context, so I ask myself what does your context and that of the others have in common? I mentioned to Prosper that Colonel Buckmaster was more likely to be found in a club than in a pub, and to Archambault I wondered why Colonel Buckmaster of the SOE wasn’t sitting in the interrogation chair in place of his agent. But with you …”
Smoke puffed. He let the sentence trail away.
“For your interrogations, Princess, I have changed nuance and weight when I reported the answers you gave to Herr Kieffer. For your benefit I made tiny substitutions, supplied alternatives for a turn of a phrase.”
Which answers? Vogel must have conducted entire interrogations in his own mind. If her few words were five percent of the story, his imagination had to supply the remaining ninety-five. But at least her “princess” story had one advantage: Vogel had made no move to touch her.
“Why do I do this? I cannot say. It is not what I have done for any other terrorists, even women.”
He moved to the window and gazed down at the avenue. Ash grew on his cigarette. When he turned back, he seemed to have lost the thread of his thoughts.
“Language, separator of all men! To know even a single other language is to have a mistress to whom you cling in times when your wife and children only ask for bread at table, never how it got there. Language introduces you to men you would never have met but for her.”
He tossed the cigarette end into the fireplace. “French has a passion wholly lacking in our German life—it refuses to obey even its own rules. Its syllables are as sirens seducing my ear. I taste them like fine champagne.” He paused. “I am glad you are not French, little princess.”
If Frenchness could be measured by how much one resisted all who threatened France, Noor had never before felt quite so French. But which performance did Vogel wish to see? To be Indian was important at this moment. But being Indian was also being English. How long could she meet Vogel’s need for illusion?
She drew herself taller, summoning every ounce of majesty. “I appreciate your requesting my valise, Herr Vogel.”
“Not at all. It enabled us to arrest yet another dangerous miscreant, a saboteur, a bomber of some repute. You may know him, mademoiselle? He is notorious—he goes by several names, but his file is labelled Phono.”
Émile Garry! Oh, no, not Émile. Twenty-four hours! Émile had twenty-four hours to hide … Vogel is lying. What was Émile doing at Madame Aigrain’s home?
“He was waiting for you,” Vogel supplied, as if reading her mind. “He had a pistol. He was seated at your rentier’s dining table with a pistol before him.”
Noor kept her face self-assured and expressionless. Vogel was conducting her through an inferno of the lost souls of her friends. Chance had brought all Renée’s prophecies to fulfillment. Hadn’t Renée believed Noor would somehow, someday, lead the Gestapo to Émile? And she had, albeit unwittingly. She knew the pistol Émile had before him—the pistol she gave him. He had been waiting, but not for Noor. There could be only one reason Émile had been waiting at Madame Aigrain’s with a pistol: he was expecting Gilbert. A message from Émile signed “Madeleine” would have lured Gilbert to Madame Aigrain’s.
And Noor had sent the Gestapo to Madame Aigrain’s at exactly the wrong time.
Before her was a picture that might have been fixed in black and white for all time: Émile and Monique kissing, walking down the street kissing, Renée’s face, smiling for once, at their wedding. How terrible for Monique, bride of a few months, perhaps by now a mother-to-be. For Babette, who loved her uncle and godfather so dearly. Most of all, Émile’s arrest would devastate Renée. Renée was waiting eagerly for Guy, but right now she had neither husband nor brother. And beyond love and concern for these men, Noor knew that Renée, untravelled, dependent as she was, could not imagine anything worse than this.
“I don’t know this man Phono,” she said aloud. “It’s just your excuse to kidnap another Frenchman and send him to Germany. It’s a shanghaillage.”
“If so, you have only to volunteer to work in Germany along with two others and Phono will be returned to his family. But how could I forget?! That applies to prisoners of war, not to spies and terrorists like Phono. Monsieur de Gaulle is funding all of them with money from the English and the Americans. He can stop the attacks whenever he likes. But he does not condemn the violence.”
He was behind her chair, probably checking his reflection in the mirror.
“All we want is to stop the violence,” he said in a quietly aggrieved tone.
He came before her again.
“Where is Madame Aigrain?” cried Noor.
“I kept my word, Princess. Your rentier was not arrested.”
Blood pulled away from every extremity. Relief washed through Noor.
“I said to myself, ‘English women like a man who keeps his word.’”
English woman? An English subject, yes, but not many in England would think of her as an English woman. No matter, if it made Vogel keep his word.
“Since I don’t know this Phono, that is all that matters to me,” said Noor. “The rest is between you Germans and the French. We Indians have nothing to do with it.”
Vogel sat down behind his desk. “But you have American blood—now I have to treat you as an illegal combatant.” He opened a bulging manila folder. “Perhaps your soft heart has persuaded you, my captive Indian princess, that being against us means you are for France or Frenchmen. I assure you, Frenchmen are never who they say they are. Ach, they all look alike, they are all alike—treacherous, mademoiselle, treacherous! Yes, every day
I translate orders from German to French, but also I translate letters from corbeaux—people who write anonymous letters denouncing and betraying fellow Frenchmen.”
There was a pause. Then, in a voice of gloved steel he said, “If you’re not with us, you’re against us.”
No tears. Don’t let him see you cry.
The guard carried her valise and handbag as he pulled her down the corridor back to her room. With the door locked again, Noor sank down on the maid’s bed and allowed herself to feel the full force of guilt and sorrow at Émile’s arrest. The should-have-dones, the could-have-dones, the what-ifs. And all for naught—Gilbert was still at large.
She opened the valise and felt in the lining. Where was it? Had they found it? She scrabbled and tore. There. The little brocade pouch was there. And inside, the diamonds—all five.
That night, when prodded down the corridor to the lavatory, she slipped the pouch beneath the enamel triangle of the sink.
CHAPTER 35
Gestapo Headquarters, avenue Foch
Paris, France
Thursday, October 28, 1943
MAN. WOMAN. Man. Men, women. More men, more women.
The animal screams and pleadings Noor heard from other cells each night for eight nights were in French, the shouting sometimes in German, sometimes in French. She strained to recognize a single voice—Prosper, Archambault, Monsieur Hoogstraten or the Professor? Émile? Viennot? Not Odile? Not Josianne? Distance blurred words but retained the anguish of the sounds. At the end of each disturbed night came real coffee, rye bread and cheese for Noor. She ate it. Another beating might be coming. Interrogation scenes played over and over in her mind. Her cuts and bruises were healing. Every day, she had yet another wild plan for escape. But not a chance.
Now a guard was pushing her down the hall past closed doors of other rooms, down a servants’ back staircase to Vogel’s office. He shoved her into the chair before Vogel’s desk.
Sit up straight. Don’t cringe.
Rain ribboned the French windows overlooking the contre-allée, the side road that buffered the mansions from traffic on the avenue Foch. Outside, trees baffled and channelled an earthmusked breeze.
Vogel offered himself a smile in the mirror.
“Something to show you,” he said in English.
A manila folder slid across the desk and opened before her. Some kind of report stamped U.S. Board of Economic Warfare.
“Read it,” he commanded. “Read aloud where I have underlined.”
Noor read, “‘The average person in India is eating 600 to 800 calories per day. That is only a few ounces, consisting chiefly of starches. The average Englishman or American consumes between 3,500 and 3,800 calories daily … The minimum subsistence diet is 1,000 calories a day … Registration records show an increase of 47,000 deaths over the previous five-year average for the month.’”
“What does it recommend? Read the conclusion, underlined in red.”
“It recommends immediate relief shipments.”
“Yes, don’t you see, Princess? These are your Allies.”
“These are the occupiers of India, just as Germans are the occupiers of France.”
He took off his spectacles and stared at her. Then he put them back on and said, “Read the clipping from The New York Times. It’s dated August 1943. Read it aloud!”
“‘The mayor of Calcutta has sent a telegram to President Roosevelt. It reads: Acute distress prevails in the city of Calcutta and province of Bengal due to shortages. Hundreds dying of starvation. Appeal to you and Mr. Churchill in the name of starving humanity to arrange immediate shipment of food grains from America, Australia and other countries.’”
Noor’s cheeks grew warm, but she remained quiet.
“And this one.” He picked up another clipping. “Dated August 30, see—not that long ago. Read it aloud.”
Keeping her voice optimistic as that of a newsreel announcer, Noor read, “‘ … at a meeting of the Combined Food Board, the U.S. representative raised the issue of food with the British representative. He was told it is a matter of shipping, not of supply, and that Australia can supply India.’”
“Do you understand for whom you are fighting, now, Princess Noor? Allow me to read this one to you myself—top secret, intercepted from a consul general’s dispatch to the U.S. State Department. It says, “‘The problem of disposal of corpses from the streets of Calcutta is severely overtaxing the facilities available.’ Don’t you understand? Your countrymen are being exterminated, and the excuse is this war. See these—”
Her tongue turned heavy and helpless in her mouth.
Don’t let him see any reaction.
Clippings spread across his desk: “Bengal Food Crisis!” cried the London Times. “Famine in Bengal” proclaimed the Manchester Guardian. “Hospitals receive 5,000 cases of hunger-related diseases” said The New York Times. And finally, one dated today, October 28, 1943, from the Associated Press: “100,000 men, women and children are dying of starvation each week in Bengal and the figure is likely to rise weekly till December.”
Dadijaan’s teak-brown face in 1940, the day they fled—old Dadijaan refusing to return to India with Uncle Tajuddin because she had “a lot of work to do in London.” Dadijaan making her speeches at Hyde Park every Sunday.
Maybe, just maybe, someone who could understand Urdu had begun to listen. Dadijaan said, often and loudly, that the British-owned Statesman had been censored, barred from using the word “famine,” yet the Manchester Guardian actually used the word.
The clippings showed some progress, a capacity for self-correction. And though they would never bring back those starved for this war, maybe these reports would pressure Churchill to request UNRRA grain and famine relief from President Roosevelt.
Swallow back tears, or he wins.
“At least,” stammered Noor, “the English papers are freer than yours. People could be starving and enslaved in German camps and your Propagandastaffl’s newsreels would never report it.”
Vogel threw up his hands. “Now you don’t want to believe what your ‘free’ press is telling you? Usually there are so many conflicting points of view, one doesn’t know what to believe.” He glanced at himself, then came back to Noor. “You are Indian, but you do not care?”
Noor frowned at the clippings before her and willed her voice steady. “I do care. Not only because I am Indian, but because I am human.”
Vogel looked at her as if she had spoken in Urdu. “I have been so patient with you. Understand me: I report to Herr Kieffer every day how much you know. I tell him you have intimate knowledge of the PROSPER network, since all messages went through you. But you have to, you must, give me locations of hidden arms.”
How long could the illusion Vogel had created last? She didn’t know any locations. Vogel would never believe her, but the last time she had seen arms was in the library at Grignon. And the Germans must already have found those after the Grignon roundup. What she knew of the Free French networks for whom Viennot had enlisted her services was code names, addresses of safe houses. Resistants didn’t have any need to inform London where arms were hidden in France.
“It’s taken days, but we have deciphered Archambault’s messages and yours. Very interesting. Très intéressant! But only code names have been used in every message. We have some information from other sources, but you must help me with the code names we don’t know.”
Other sources. “Ask Gilbert!” she wanted to shout. But she couldn’t admit to knowing him. Gilbert would know only the names and addresses of SOE agents; he couldn’t help Vogel with names of Free French resistants. Viennot would know those details. Insh’allah, Viennot had lasted twenty-four hours to let his contacts go underground. Silence was her only defence.
Vogel’s face had actually reddened. “Herr Kieffer expects me to send you to Fresnes prison. Do you understand? That is no longer a prison—it’s a prison camp! Don’t oblige me to obey him. If not Fresnes, he commands that I send y
ou to some other prison camp, as I have sent everyone in Prosper’s network.”
They haven’t been executed! They must have used the diamonds to bribe someone in the Gestapo. Probably Vogel.
Though Émile was caught, at least some benefit had come of requesting her valise, some good for many others.
“If you give me nothing I can use, I will be forced to send you away. At present, I’ve told Herr Kieffer I can’t find a prison or camp that isn’t full.”
Seeming unaware of the implications of his statement, he gestured at the clippings on the table. A throbbing ache returned to her shoulder, radiated through her.
“Think, Princess, think what Churchill is doing to your people, for this war. We’ll have dinner together again when you’re ready to talk to me.”
The guard stepped forward, took her by her good arm and led her back to her cell.
CHAPTER 36
Gestapo Headquarters, avenue Foch
Paris, France
Thursday, November 25, 1943
PIERRE CARTAUD came for Noor after midday soup and bread, two Gestapo thugs behind him.
Fear swarmed in her stomach. She backed away, glancing up at the sloping skylight as she had every day, since her last interrogation. Too high.
“Where is Herr Vogel? I demand to be taken to him.”
“Herr Vogel,” sneered Cartaud, “is wounded. In hospital—one of your Canadian spies shot him.”
The two Canadians had landed in June, were escorted by Gilbert to the station and dispersed for their missions. They had disappeared soon after. If they hadn’t been interrogated till now, that could mean they’d been shut away in Fresnes prison for more than four months.
“Nonsense!” she said, pretending to be brave. “Tell him Princess Noor wants to see him immediately.”
This time he will rape me, without Vogel to stop him.
She was boiling and freezing inside.
Cartaud surprised her by explaining, almost politely, that he needed her room. “The Canadian must be kept under observation—he fired eight times. He threatened to shoot me too if I told him one more time how bad is his accent. And I only told him once—quelle barbarie!”