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  A leading Australian forensic psychologist who treated many of the men associated with VOICES spoke of typical symptoms such as flashbacks, chronic sleep disorders, an inability to form and maintain relationships, increased anxiety, low self-esteem and intense feelings of shame, guilt and suicidal tendencies. ‘By and large many of them are ruined human beings,’ he said.

  Many of the men have led lonely and deprived lives. Many succumbed to alcohol, some have known the hell of skid row, many have been in gaol, while one of the most common burdens they carry is a lack of education.

  When VOICES took its case to the NSW Supreme Court, an eminent QC acting for the Christian Brothers suggested that the motive for the men’s legal action was money. Under this savage grilling one middle-aged man, on the verge of tears, exclaimed to a hushed court, ‘No, I wasn’t after the money at all. I am not after any money. I want to learn how to read and bloody write.’

  Girls in the care of the Sisters fared no better than their brothers. Discussing conditions in orphanages run by the Sisters, a 1998 House of Commons report speaks of severe floggings with thick leather straps and of the fifteen-year-old girl stripped naked and savagely flogged in front of fifty other girls, suffering unbearable pain and humiliation. One survivor told the Australian Forde Inquiry:

  Living at that hellish place has left me with enduring nightmares, emotional pain and torture, resentment, insecurity and self-loathing. I have never shaken the feeling of worthlessness. They [staff] told me I was no good – that’s what I believe. I cannot express how these feelings have affected my life. I cannot shake feelings of self-hatred and guilt. My education and marriage have suffered, I could not be the mother I wanted to be to my children. On occasions, I know I have let them down by lacking the strength to stand up for the right thing. I get so depressed sometimes, because I know there wasn’t any way to change how things turned out for me, and for those who depended on me. [The orphanage] took away my childhood. It left me no hope.

  The House of Commons Committee investigating the Child Migration Scheme heard of one victim’s first experience in Australia: ‘Where it hit me particularly was when they dragged the brothers and sisters from one another, I can still hear the screams.’ In its report, the same House of Commons Committee commented on how survivors often referred to the Christian Brothers as Christian Buggers and the Sisters of Mercy as the Sisters without Mercy.

  The scandal of the Child Migration Scheme and the evil which pursued the unfortunate children into the orphanages is a sad story which can never have a happy ending and Trust Me reflects that sadness. But Lesley Pearse has a special gift which enables her to capture the personal turmoil in moving, gritty, authentic terms. Dulcie, May and Ross are real people permanently scarred by their childhood experiences. Trust Me may be fiction, but every word is engraved with the truth.

  Table of Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Acknowledgements

  Trust Me

  Part One: 1947–1955

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Part Two: 1956–1963

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-one

  Chapter Twenty-two

  Chapter Twenty-three

  Chapter Twenty-four

  Chapter Twenty-five

  Chapter Twenty-six

  Chapter Twenty-seven

  Chapter Twenty-eight

  Epilogue

  Afterword by Bruce Blyth

 


 

  Lesley Pearse, Trust Me

 


 

 
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