A drying thirst consumed him, and Naomi was like sweet water, water from a mountain spring that seemed to wash over him.
At the time he thought that lying on the mountaintop with Naomi quenching his peyote thirst was as close to heaven as he would ever get. When he awakened the following morning he had learned that sex was like soothing water, the woman a hidden spring, water that could be felt and not seen, like the streams of water that flowed beneath the rough flesh of the mountain, the sweet fulfilling water.
He ate a big breakfast, eggs and potatoes fried on the big skillet on top of the resurrected fire, shivering in the cold, drinking coffee, tasting the smoke and ashes of the fire. The guys kidded him, not loud, just kind of looking at him and saying, damn you’re a lucky guy, Sonny. They glanced at Naomi, snoring in his sleeping bag.
He asked about her later, but she was gone. Headed for the big time, selling her pottery in New York galleries. She didn’t have time for the likes of Sonny, a poor college student.
She moved out of his life and he continued at the university, and now ten years later she was back.
“I lost track of you.”
“I went away,” she said. “Went to school and became famous. I got married, about three times I think.” She laughed. “But I’m a single girl now.”
“Yeah.”
Married three times, traveled the world, but she still looked sexy for a world-weary thirty-something.
He turned and started back to his truck. Naomi followed.
“I know you have a woman—”
He nodded.
“Don’t you know it’s spring? Time for planting.”
“Too early,” he said. “I plant corn May first.”
She laughed. “You’re part of the ceremony now.”
“What ceremony?”
He was well aware that the muchachos who had pushed him around were vatos he knew and hunted with in the real world, but they sure as hell weren’t going to let him into their ceremonial world. Whatever they did was their thing.
“You’ve got the seed,” she said.
He stopped and looked at her. Oh, her ceremony. That’s what she had in mind. Maybe she had gotten them together to do a cleansing thing, a purification. That still didn’t tell him why he stumbled onto them. Synchronicity?
“Gotta go.”
“See you up the road,” she said, smiling.
She walked regally to her Subaru and got in. A grinding sound caused by a low battery filled the air.
Sonny turned to Mrs. Cota.
“Da-whona-umbeh,” she said. You be careful. You wind up with that woman and there’s only trouble. “Heya-owa,” she whispered, tossing the words into the fire.
So that’s what they called her. Snake Woman. Snake was related to water, and water was the lifeline of every Indian pueblo and Hispanic village in New Mexico. Long ago there was a rumor that one of the northern pueblos kept a giant twenty-foot snake in an underground cave. The Hopi had their snake ceremonies, dances to call the cloud spirits to bring the precious rain to the New Mexico fields of corn, chile, and squash.
Could be not so good if you had a fear of snakes and you hadn’t been cleansed of the fear. Snake dreams might cause anxiety. Nothing Freudian about it, Sonny thought.
The image of the snake appeared throughout the Americas. Serpent heads with huge fangs guarded the great pyramids of Mexico and Central America. Quetzalcoatl, god of the arts and agriculture, the winged serpent, combining the creature closest to the earth and the colorful bird that could fly up into the spirit world.
If Naomi was Snake Woman maybe it was because of some jealousy clinging from a past event, envy over this or that. People called each other names. If somebody was really envious of you some chopped hair might appear in your plate of corn and squash. Just like in the old Hispanic lore, the hair was used by witches to cast a spell. Envidia in Spanish was a strong concept. Envidia was a worm in the heart. The singular crab in the bucket trying to claw his way out was pulled back down by the others.
Envy made sure they were all cooked together.
Human nature, Sonny thought. No one group has a corner on envy, or any other human emotion.
He looked in the bed of the truck. The snake was gone. Time to move on.
Sonny looked over at Naomi still trying to start her SUV. He understood why she drew unwanted attention. She was good looking, but more than that, seductive, a Nefertiti of the desert.
“Nonu-da-aeh,” he said to Mrs. Cota.
“You be careful,” she replied.
She was nearly eighty, and she didn’t need to be out in the cold morning stirring the fire and getting the fry bread going, but she had done it for a long time, during hard times when the 25 cents she charged for a loaf of bread went a long way. She had put two of her boys through school. One was a Ph.D. in anthropology, the other worked for the BIA. Joe Sando, the well-known Jemez historian, had been their mentor, as he had mentored a lot of other kids.
So even a traditional pueblo like Jemez was sending a few of its children out into the world. The white man’s world. Some of the elders resisted. They wanted to keep the children in the circle of the pueblo, close to the traditional values and ceremonies of the ancestors, but the world they distrusted kept encroaching.
I don’t blame them, don Eliseo said. The world is too much with us, as the poet said.
Hey, where were you when I needed some help?
I took a nap. Besides, I did my share of fighting long ago.
Why in the hell are they painted up? Were they running?
None of your business.
Yeah. Sonny had learned not to ask questions about the pueblo ceremonies. People let you know something, that was up to them. But too many anthropologists had pried into the affairs of the pueblos, too many of the secret ceremonies had been publicized. Elsie Clews Parsons came to mind. Lordy, that woman had been in every kiva of the Southwest. Or she claimed she had been there. A little learning was a dangerous thing.
They knocked me down, and I felt a kind of energy. A surge of adrenaline in the blood. As if I had been knocked down by real animals, as if a bear had come close, I could smell him, feel the fur—
The old man didn’t seem impressed. He had been in the Pueblo world too long.
Then I saw it! The Zia sign! Carved on the rock! I swear I saw it! Then it disappeared. What gives?
The old man smiled. Yeah, right.
I saw it, Sonny insisted, touching the Zia medallion on his chest. Don’t you believe me?
Seguro que sí, I believe you. Why shouldn’t I? What’s the big deal? A lot of people have seen the elusive symbol. It’s there, like the Golden Fleece was for those argue-nauts. Or the Ark of the Covenant for the judios. The Holy Grail, the naked Sofia. Those things are always there, just in front of you.
You’ve seen it? You never told me.
We see it in visions, Sonny. I saw it up in Mesa Verde one time. I went to get eagle feathers with some boys from Zuni. Long ago, before the government stopped us collecting. We fasted, stayed in the blind, sang a little, pretty soon there were voices all around, the wind speaking. That’s when I saw it, carved on a boulder. I didn’t know much about the Zia Stone, just heard a few stories. It was like being hit by lightning. When I woke it was gone.
In visions, Sonny whispered.
It starts there. You can’t tell the skeptics about things like this. There’s more of them than us. And you can’t tell the church people, or any of the fundamentalists, you know, those evangelicals you see on TV. They have their own path. So we keep it to ourselves.
Until we find it?
It will reveal itself when the time is right. Maybe in Chaco, or Cañon de Chelly, or up on the West Mesa of Alburquerque. The old people left a lot of rock carvings. If those rocks could talk they would tell us many secrets, stories we need to know if we are going to survive. The world’s gone mad, Sonny, people clinging to this or that holy book, and in the name of their gods they make war. I??
?ll trust the message on the Zia Stone.
Like the Rosetta Stone?
Well, I read about the Rosetta. It helped translate one language to another. Everything we find helps translate the old hidden knowledge into our lives. The sign on the Zia Stone will help us translate time. How can we who live in time become spirit, see the beginning and the end?
Alpha and Omega?
That’s Greek to me, the old man replied and laughed.
That’s how he was, serious about life and death one moment, chuckling like a trickster the next. Sonny knew.
Our life on earth is short. But it’s related to the life of the universe. We know this in our blood. We see the stars and think of heaven, our home, our beginning. Our ancestors knew this, they had the time to read the glyphs, patterns of stars carved on the belly of the night sky.
The zodiac?
Everything’s there, Sonny, clear as a good meal of beans, chile con carne, and tortillas. We just can’t see anymore, Sonny. We lost the sight of one good eye. We half-see. The old people left their calling cards, sacred signs. They came from the womb of the earth, came into the light of the sun, into life. They brought this secret with them. Everything is connected. Just like Einstein said. His formulas tie the universe together. DNA ties the body together. But what of the spirit? We need the signs that will reveal our alma, our soul. The Zia Stone might be sitting right under our noses. In the meantime, don’t disturb the rocks. You might bury the revelation for another thousand years. By that time it will be too late for life on earth.
I’ve been scouring every petroglyph site from Mesa Verde to Casas Grande. Have I been wasting my time?
A man seeks what he has to find.
So what I saw was a coincidence, huh?
Goddamnit, Sonny, there’s no such thing as coincidence! All those scientists up at Los Alamos talking about random this and random that. There’s no random. The equations can be put on paper! E = mc2. There’s an order; we just can’t see it.
The old man shook his head and stalked off.
Lordy, lordy. I’ve never heard him curse. What did I say? Coincidence. He believes everything is connected. A universal dream, a higher-order dream where everything makes sense. Is the dream carved into the DNA, the helix that looks like a curling snake? Did they initiate me into a snake dream? Quetzalcoatl’s dream?
He looked at the imposing cliff. Something happened, he thought, and it’s moving me into a new time. Was it Bear and his boys, or Naomi? Or finding the snake?
In dreams, or nightmares, every image or gesture or word or color has meaning, don Eliseo had said. Dreams aren’t outside of reality, they are reality.
Sonny sighed. Too difficult for a mere mortal like me to understand. Being mortal meant he would keep on asking questions, though, like how in the hell did they know I would be here, at this time, that I would hear Naomi’s cry and rush in blindly? Should have plugged my ears with wax, not heard the siren’s call. Can’t do that, not when there’s a woman to be saved. A woman whose flesh he had tasted long ago in a dream.
“Hey, Sonny, you’re going to have to give me a ride.”
Naomi had taken a small bag from her SUV and was headed toward him.
“Back to the pueblo?”
“No, to Jemez Springs.”
He couldn’t refuse her. He was headed there, and in this part of the country you didn’t refuse a ride to anyone on the side of the road. Especially if that anyone was Naomi. Lordy, his friends at the Sal’s Bar would question his virility. “She asked you for a ride and you refused!” “Pendejo!” “What’s the matter with you?” “You need Viagra?”
Get in, he motioned, glancing at Mrs. Cota, who shrugged.
Naomi petted Chica. “Oh, a one-eyed dog. Is this the dog that dreams? I heard what’s been going on in Alburquerque. You know, I’ve got some of my pots at an Old Town gallery. That’s what everybody’s talking about. At La Placita, where they cook really good enchiladas, and at La Hacienda. Even at Monica’s Portal. By the way, I haven’t eaten at your girlfriend’s cafe. I heard she’s got hot chile.”
Then she stiffened. “Hey, Sonny, you got spirits in this truck?”
“Only an old friend,” Sonny replied, and smiled. If she couldn’t stand the presence of the old man, let her walk.
“You’re a spirit person, Sonny. Bet you dream a lot.”
“Yeah,” Sonny said and gunned the truck onto the highway.
6
The first breath of spring, and a crackling bright sun came roaring over the Red Rocks, glowing on the mesa to the west, awakening black bears from winter’s sleep. Thin cirrus clouds glared down on God’s earth, a swirling of the Cloud People who had spilled their meager, water-laden pitchers on the mountain. Now they gathered their skirts to move on, away from the magnetic energy of the mountain.
Too much beauty for one man, Sonny thought, studying the windswept formation of clouds and slipping on his sunglasses. Last night’s dusting of snow was already disappearing, except in shaded patches. The Cloud People were racing east, over the Sangre de Cristos and the Sandias, toward Clines Corner, Santa Rosa, Tucumcari, and the Texas Panhandle, where the cold wind of March could still chill the bones of the toughest vaquero. With luck, the equinox front would drop more of its moisture as it moved into the llano.
But weather came with its mixed blessing. It was shearing time on the llano. The winter wool of the sheep had to come off before lambing. If a winter storm kept the Texas Mexicano shearing crews from doing their work, things got complicated. The old timers prayed for snow and rain for the llano grasses, but the storms had to come at the right time. And who could order the weather?
As a boy Sonny had visited the Hindi ranch in Duran. The llano and the people had made a lasting impression. But he found no books that recorded the lives of the llano people. Now the last of the large sheep ranches that had once made New Mexico the center of the industry were dying out.
Beside him, Chica slept, dreaming that in the Garden at the Beginning of Time it was a dog, one of her primal ancestors, who barked joyfully, daring Eve to take the apple! Take a bite and let’s be off on an adventure, the dog had called to the bare-breasted mother of men.
If in the Beginning of Time dogs could talk, why could they not dream?
Naomi huddled against the door, staring at the cliff.
“I traveled in China,” she said. “Studied some of their pottery techniques. The Chinese say chi is a universal energy. It’s the same here. The canyon acts like a giant TV dish. It gathers the energy and funnels it into the earth.”
Sonny nodded. Interesting. He had always felt comforted by the feminine energy of the mountain. The mountain grew from the piedmont, los pies de la sierra, soft sandy toes that rose into giant, gnarled knees, thick, voluptuous legs that parted to reveal the many openings into the Jemez, the honeycombed vulvas of the mountain, fuzzy with fragrant piñon, juniper, and pine. There was something dark and mystical about the canyons and wide arroyos that slashed their way down from the rounded breasts of the mountain, across the pillowed belly. It was the smell of blood, earth-blood, the waters of the mountain that fertilized the spongy nooks and crannies of the arroyos.
“I read Frank Waters when I was at the university,” Sonny said. “He understood that energy.”
“Yes,” she replied. “But the old people also know about the spirit of the mountain. They just don’t write books.”
“Why are you going to Jemez Springs?”
“I could say I’m here to meet you.”
“You were there last night?”
She nodded.
“Then you know about the governor—”
“Yeah, I know. Somebody killed him.”
Sonny dared to ask, “Who?”
“You’re the private investigator. You find out,” she said, flippantly.
“I wasn’t there.”
“So why are you going? Don’t tell me, it’s Raven you want, isn’t it?”
How in the hell
does she know so much? Sonny wondered. I haven’t seen her in ten years, I run into her by chance while she’s playing around with Bear and his boys, and she knows about Raven.
“Yes,” he answered.
He looked up at the canyon walls. Entering the canyon meant becoming part of the chronology kept by the cliffs, a time recorded since the mountain erupted eons ago. The strata of granite, red clay, and volcanic ash recorded time.
“You hear voices,” she said.
Yes, there were voices up in the old deserted pueblo on the mesa. Voices that seeped down the canyon walls. The trees stirring in the breeze and the gurgling of the river carried the voices.
But in the present age everyone had been led to believe that only the neurotic heard voices. Psychiatrists tried to record their messages, hoping to learn the secrets of the deep and dark unconscious.
“Maybe I’m crazy,” he said.
“No, it’s a gift,” she replied. “The voices are like dreams. I think in a way they lead us along the path we take. It’s like we’re not completely in charge of our lives. Somebody out there is always watching out for us, always helping.”
Sonny nodded. It wasn’t just don Eliseo he heard. In the maelstrom of his depression and anger a voice had told him exactly where to find an old gunsmith, a man who knew the workings of the Colt .45 Sonny carried in his truck. The man had cast a special bullet, one that could kill Raven.
The voice in the dream led Sonny to the gunsmith, a man left over from an earlier time. His dark, deserted hut near Algodones smelled of cordite, sulfur, and melted lead. I make bullets for every occasion, the gunsmith told Sonny, but to kill a shadow you need lead melted from the bowels of hell, and powder mixed with ash from where atomic bombs were exploded. This is the way the world is ending.