“Interference!” Foster said, with another laugh.
“Well, you can hardly call it less, can you?” Anthony asked. “I gather you’re on the side of the lion?”
“I am on the side of the things I have wanted to see,” the other answered, “and if these Powers destroy the world, I am willing to be destroyed. I have given myself to them.”
“Well, I haven’t,” Anthony said, getting up. “Not yet, anyhow. And Mr. Sabot hasn’t, nor Miss Tighe.”
“You fool,” Foster said, “can you stand against them?”
“If they are part of me, as you tell me, perhaps I might; I don’t know,” Anthony answered. “But if they are, then perhaps the authority which is in me over me shall be in me over them. I’m repeating myself, I beg your pardon.”
Mr. Foster got up, with a not quite good-humoured smile. “You’re like most of the world,” he said, “you don’t know necessity when you see it. Well, I’d better go now. Goodnight, and thank you.” He looked at Quentin and offered him no word.
“Necessity, as no doubt Abelard said,” Anthony remarked, “is the mother of invention—invenio, you know. The question is what shall I venio in. We’re none of us clear about that, I think.”
He drifted with their visitor to the hall, and returned to find Quentin again restlessly roaming about the room. “Look here,” he said, “you go to bed, old thing.”
“But what are you going to do?” Quentin asked wretchedly.
“O Lord,” said Anthony, “how do I know? I’m going to sit and meditate. No, I don’t want to talk any more and it’s no use going to Smetham till I’ve got my ideas clearer. Damaris can fend for herself to-night; at the rate things are going there doesn’t seem to be any immediate danger. O Lord, what danger can there be? Do go away, and let me think or I shall be no good to anyone. Was ever such a lion-hunt? Goodnight, and God bless you. If you’re waking in the morning, I shall probably have gone first, so don’t bother about calling me. Goodnight, my dear, don’t worry—the young lion and the dragon will we tread underfoot.”
Chapter Five
SERVILE FEAR
In the morning however it was Anthony who woke Quentin by entering his room before he was up—it might also be said before he slept, for what sleep he had was rather a sinking into silent terror than into normal repose. Anthony sat down on the bed and took a cigarette from a box on the table.
“Look here,” he said, “I’ve been thinking it all over. What about us both going down again for the week-end, and having a look round?”
Quentin, taken aback, stared at him, and then, “Do you think so?” he asked.
“I think we might as well,” Anthony said. “I should like to see Mr. Tighe again, and find out what he feels, and I should very much like to hear whether anyone else is seeing things. Besides, of course,” he added, “Damaris. But I’d like it a great deal better if you came too.”
As Quentin said nothing he went on, “Don’t you think you might? It wouldn’t be any more tiresome for you there, do you think? And we might, one way or another, get something clear. Do think about it. We’ve talked about ideas often enough, and we should be able to do something much better if we were together.”
Quentin, a little pale, went on thinking; then he looked at Anthony with a smile. “Well, we might try,” he said, “but if the lion is about you will have to save me.”
“God knows what I should do!” Anthony answered, “but you could tell me what you wanted. If I go alone I shall always have to ring you up, and that’ll take time. Imagine me among lions and snakes and butterflies and smells, asking everything to wait while I telephoned. Well, that’s all right. I think I shall go down to-day—after I’ve made arrangements at the office. I suppose you can’t come till to-morrow? About mid-day or so?”
“If London’s still here,” Quentin said, again faintly smiling. “Let me know where you’re staying.”
“I’ll ring you up here to-night—say about nine,” Anthony answered. “I shan’t do anything but hang round to-day, and to-morrow we’ll see.”
So the arrangement was carried out, and on the Saturday afternoon the two young men wandered out on to the Berringer road, as Anthony called it. Past the Tighe house, past the sedate public-house at the next corner, and the little Baptist chapel almost at the end of the town, out between the hedges they went, more silent than usual, more intensely alert in feet and eyes. The sun was hot, June was drawing to a rich close.
“And nothing fresh has happened?” Quentin said, after they had for some time exchanged trivialities about nature, the world, philosophy, and art.
“No,” Anthony murmured thoughtfully, “nothing has happened exactly, unless—I don’t really know if it could be called a happening—but Mr. Tighe has given up entomology.”
“But I thought he was so keen!” Quentin exclaimed.
“So he was,” Anthony answered. “That’s what makes it funny. I called on him yesterday—yes, Quentin, I really did call on him—and very tactfully asked him.… O this and that and how he felt. He was sitting in the garden looking at the sky. So he said he felt very well, and I asked him if he had been out after butterflies during the day. He said, ‘O no, I shan’t do that again.’ I suppose I stared or said something or other, because he looked round at me and said, ‘But I’ve nothing to do with them now.’ Then he said, quite sweetly, ‘I can see now they were only an occupation.’ I said: didn’t he think it might be quite a good idea to have an occupation? and he said: yes, he supposed it might be if you needed it, but he didn’t. So then he went on looking at the sky, and I came away.”
“And Damaris?” Quentin asked.
“O Damaris seemed all right,” Anthony answered evasively. It was true that, in one sense of the words, Damaris had seemed all right. She had been in a state of extreme irritation with her father, and indeed with everybody. People had been calling—Mrs. Rockbotham to see her, Mr. Foster to see her father; she could get no peace. Time was going by, and she was continually being interrupted, and she had in consequence lost touch with the precise relationship of the theory of Pythagoras about number with certain sayings attributed to Abelard’s master William of Champagne. Nobody seemed to have the least idea of the importance of a correct evaluation of the concentric cultural circles of Hellenic and pre-medieval cosmology. And now if her father were going to hang about the house all day! There appeared to have been a most unpleasant scene that morning between them, when Damaris had been compelled to grasp the fact that Mr. Tighe proposed to abandon practical entomology entirely. She had (Anthony had gathered) asked him what he proposed to do—to which he had replied that there was no need to do anything. She had warned him that she herself must not be interrupted—to which again he had said merely: “No, no, my dear, go on playing, but take care you don’t hurt yourself.” At this Damaris had entirely lost her temper—not that she had said so in so many words, but Anthony quite justly interpreted her ‘I had to speak pretty plainly to him,’ as meaning that.
In consequence he had not been able to do more than hint very vaguely at Mr. Foster’s theories. Theories which were interesting in Plato became silly when regarded as having anything to do with actual occurrences. Philosophy was a subject—her subject; and it would have been ridiculous to think of her subject as getting out of hand. Or her father, for that matter; only he was.
Anthony would have been delighted to feel that she was right; she was, of course, right. But he did uneasily feel that she was a little out of touch with philosophy. He had done his best to train his own mind to regard philosophy as something greater and more important than itself. Damans, who adopted that as an axiom of speech, never seemed to follow it as a maxim of intellectual behaviour. If philosophies could get out of hand … he looked unhappily at the Berringer house as they drew near to it.
But at the gate both he and Quentin exclaimed. The garden was changed. The flowers were withered, the grass was dry and brown; in places the earth showed, hard and cracked. The place l
ooked as if a hot sun had blazed on it for weeks without intermission. Everything living was dead within its borders, and (they noticed) for a little way beyond its borders. The hedges were leafless and brittle; the very air seemed hotter than even the June day could justify. Anthony drew a deep breath.
“My God, how hot it is!” he said.
Quentin touched the gate. “It is hot,” he said. “I didn’t notice it so much when we were walking.”
“No,” Anthony answered. “I don’t, you know, think it was so hot there. This place is beginning”—he had been on the point of saying “to terrify me,” when he remembered Quentin and changed it into “to seem quite funny.” His friend however took no notice even of this; he was far too occupied in maintaining an apparently casual demeanour, of which his pallid cheeks, quick breathing, and nervous movements showed the strain. Anthony turned round and leant against the gate with his back to the house.
“It looks quiet and ordinary enough,” he said.
The fields stretched up before them, meadow and cornfield in a gentle slope; along the top of the rising ground lay a series of groups of trees. The road on their left ran straight on for some quarter of a mile, then it swept round towards the right and itself climbed the hill, which it crossed beyond the last fragments of the scattered wood. The house by which they stood was indeed almost directly in the middle of a circular dip in the countryside. In one of the fields a number of sheep were feeding. Anthony’s eyes rested on them.
“They don’t seem to have been disturbed,” he said.
“What do you really think about it all?” Quentin asked suddenly. “It’s all nonsense, isn’t it?”
Anthony answered thoughtfully. “I should think it was all nonsense if we hadn’t both thought we saw the lion—and if I and Damaris’s father hadn’t both thought we saw the butterflies. But I really can’t see how to get over that.”
“But is the world slipping?” Quentin exclaimed. “Look at it. Is it?”
“No, of course not,” Anthony said. “But—I don’t want to be silly, you know—but, if we were to believe what the Foster fellow said, it wouldn’t be that kind of slipping anyhow. It’d be more like something behind coming out into the open. And as I got him, all the more quickly when there are material forms to help it. The lioness was the first chance, and I suppose the butterflies were the next easiest—the next thing at hand.”
“What about birds?” Quentin asked.
“I thought of them,” Anthony said, “and—look here, we’d better talk it out, so I’ll tell you—— It’s a minor matter, and I daresay I shouldn’t have noticed them, but as a matter of fact, I haven’t seen or heard any birds round here at all.”
Quentin took this calmly. “Well, we don’t notice them much, do we?” he said. “And what about the sheep?”
“The sheep I give you,” Anthony answered. “Either Foster’s mad, or else there must be something to explain that. Perhaps there isn’t an Archetypal Sheep.” His voice was steady, and he smiled, but the mild jest fell very flat.
“And what,” Quentin asked, “do you think of doing?”
Anthony turned to face him. “I think you’ve probably seen it too,” he said. “I’m going to do my best to find that lion.”
“Why?” the other asked.
“Because—if it were true—we must meet it,” Anthony said, “and I will have a word in the meeting.”
“You do believe it,” Quentin said.
“I can’t entirely disbelieve it without refusing to believe in ideas,” Anthony answered, “and I can’t do that. I can’t go back on the notion that all these abstractions do mean something important to us. And mayn’t they have a way of existing that I didn’t know? Haven’t we agreed about the importance of ideas often enough?”
“But ideas——” Quentin began, and stopped. “You’re right, of course,” he added. “If this is so we must be prepared—if we meant anything.”
“And as we certainly meant something——” Anthony said, relaxing to his former position. “My God, look!”
Up on the top of the rise the lion was moving. It was passing slowly along among the trees, now a little this side, now hidden by the trunks—or partly hidden. For its gigantic and golden body, its enormous head and terrific mane, were of too vast proportions to be hidden. It moved with a kind of stately ferocity, its eyes fixed in front of it, though every now and then its head turned one way or the other, in an awful ease. Once its eyes seemed to pass over the two young men, but if it saw them it ignored them, and proceeded slowly upon its own path. Half terrified, half attracted, they gazed at it.
Quentin moved suddenly, “O let’s get away!”
Anthony’s hand closed on his arm. “No,” he said, though his voice shook, “we’re going up that road to meet it. Or else I shall never be able to speak of ideas and truths again. Come along.”
“I daren’t,” Quentin muttered shrinking.
“But what’s lucidity then?” Anthony asked. “Let’s be as quick as we can. For if that is what is in me, then I may be able to control it; and if not——”
“Yes, if not——” Quentin cried out.
“Then we will see what a Service revolver will do,” Anthony answered, putting his hand in the pocket of his loose coat. “One way or the other. Come on.”
Quentin moved unhappily, but he did not refuse. Their eyes still set on the monster, they left the gate and went on along the road; and up on the ridge it continued its own steady progress. The trees however after a few minutes shut it out of their sight, and even when they came round the curve in the road and began to move up the gentle rise they did not again see it. This added to the strain of expectation they both felt, and as they stepped on Quentin exclaimed suddenly: “Even if it’s what you say, how do you know you were meant to see it? We’re only men—how should we be meant to look at—these things?”
“The face of God …” Anthony murmured. “Well, even now perhaps I’d as soon die that way as any. But Tighe didn’t die when he saw the butterfly, nor we when we saw it before.”
“But it’s madness to go like this and look for it,” Quentin said. “I daren’t, that’s the truth, if you want it. I daren’t. I can’t.” He stood still, trembling violently.
“I don’t know that I dare exactly,” Anthony said, also pausing. “But I shall. What the devil’s that?”
It was not the form of the lion but the road some little distance in front of them at which he was staring. For across it, almost where it topped the rise and disappeared down the other side, there passed a continuous steady ripple. It seemed to be moving crosswise; wave after gentle wave followed each other from the fields on one side to the fields opposite; they could see the disturbed dust shaken off and up, and settling again only to be again disturbed. The movement did not stop at the road-side, it seemed to pass on into the fields, and be there lost to sight. The two young men stood staring.
“The damn road’s moving!” Anthony exclaimed, as if driven to unwilling assent.
Quentin began to laugh, as he had laughed that other evening, hysterically, madly. “Quite right,” he shrieked in the midst of his laughter, “quite right, Anthony. The road’s moving: didn’t you know it would? It’s scratching its own back or something. Let’s help it, shall we?”
“Don’t be a bloody fool,” Anthony cried to him. “Stop it, Quentin, before I knock you silly.”
“Ha!” said Quentin with another shriek, “I’ll show you what’s silly. It isn’t us! it’s the world! The earth’s mad, didn’t you know? All mad underneath. It pretends to behave properly, like you and me, but really it’s as mad as we are! And now it’s beginning to break out. Look, Anthony, we’re the first to see the earth going quite, quite mad. That’s your bright idea, that’s what you’re running uphill to see. Wait till you feel it in you!”
He had run a few steps on as he talked, and now paused with his head tossed up, his feet pirouetting, his mouth emitting fresh outbursts of laughter. Anthony felt h
is own steadiness beginning to give way. He looked up at the sky and the strong afternoon sun—in that at least there was as yet no change. High above him some winged thing went through the air; he could not tell what it was but he felt comforted to see it. He was not entirely alone, it seemed; the pure balance of that distant flight entered into him as if it had been salvation. It was incredible that life should sustain itself by such equipoise, so lightly, so dangerously, but it did, and darted onward to its purpose so. His mind and body rose to the challenging revelation; the bird, whatever it was, disappeared in the blue sky in a moment, and Anthony, curiously calmed, looked back at the earth in front of him. Across the road the movement was still passing, but it seemed smaller, and even while he looked it had ceased. Still and motionless the road stretched in front of him, and though his blood was running cold his eyes were quiet as he turned them on his friend.
Quentin jerked his head. “You think it’s stopped, don’t you?” he jeered. “You great fool, wait, only wait! I haven’t told you, but I’ve known it a long time. I’ve heard it when I lay awake at night, the earth chuckling away at its imbecile jokes. It’s slobbering over us now. O you’re going to find out things soon! Wait till it scratches you. Haven’t you felt it scratching you when you thought about that woman, you fool? When you can’t sleep for thinking of her? and the earth scratches you again? Ho, and you didn’t know what it was. But I know.”
Anthony looked at him long and equably. “You know, Quentin,” he said, “you do have the most marvellous notions. When I think that I really know you I get almost proud. The beauty of it is that for all I know you’re right, only if you are there’s nothing for us to discuss. And though I don’t say there is, I insist on behaving as if there was. Because I will not believe in a world where you and I can’t talk.” He came a step nearer and added: “Will you? It’ll be an awful nuisance for me if you do.”