“Bonaparte has been defeated?” How was that possible?
“As well, there are rumours—false, no doubt—of the First Consul’s death.”
I put my hand to my heart. Rumours, he’d said. “Is nothing known? Have there been any reports?”
“There has been a setback, apparently.”
“F?uché, please, be honest with me,” I said, my voice tremulous. “Is it possible that the stories are true?”
“It would be misleading to deny it.” Fouché cleared his throat. “You should know that there is also talk of your son—of his death,” he added quietly.
I clasped the arms of my chair. I would not be able to endure such a loss!
“It’s only gossip,” Fouché assured me, handing me a crumpled cambric handkerchief. “You must not dwell on it. All eyes will be on you tonight.”
The reception for the foreign ambassadors! “Minister Fouché, I can’t possibly go. I’ve already sent a message to the Minister of Foreign Affairs explaining that there has been a death in my family, that I am unable to do the honours. And now, what with this news …”
“But you must be there. The factions are poised, ready to attack. At the least hint that the First Consul has fallen, the nation will be plunged into civil war.” At this Fouché’s eyes widened. “Which is why we are counting on you to play the part of Victory.”
Nearly 2:00 in the morning.
I recalled Hortense’s acting lessons as I spoke my lines, presenting the backs of my hands, elevating them on the word “victory,” my eyes sweeping the room as my arms gradually ascended to the highest point. “The First Consul is not only alive, but victorious!”
Following a measured applause, I turned away (trembling). Had they believed me?
“I think so,” Fouché said, without moving his lips.
It was into this strained atmosphere that a messenger was announced shortly after midnight. My heart jumped when I saw that it was Moustache, Bonaparte’s courier. Grinning under the impressive facial appendage which had earned him his nickname, the mud-splattered rider laid two tattered Austrian flags at my feet. Bonaparte had been victorious!
June 22, Sunday.
Salvoes of artillery announced the victory at noon. Giddy with delirium, the servants danced down the halls. “The Funds have gone up seven points,” Mimi announced, calculating an excellent profit.
Milan
Chère Maman,
Before the Austrians knew it, we were upon them! I led a charge and captured an Austrian officer—che buona fortuna! Papa has promoted me to head of my squadron.
We had a good skirmish in spite of the difficulties. The plains of Marengo were not very good for cavalry—too many streams and ditches. Pegasus was cut on the flank but will heal—luckily, for many horses were lost. I was fortunate to get away with only two sabre cuts on my saddle cloth.
The citizens of this country have hailed us as heroes—you should see the celebrating!
Papa said to tell you he will write soon.
A million kisses,
Your proud son, Eugène
Note—It’s true what they say, Maman: Italian women are very pretty.
June 24.
“I’m told that the people of Milan have gone mad with gratitude, that the women literally throw themselves at the feet of our soldiers,” the artist Isabey said, studying his cards.
“Italian women are so hot-blooded,” the actor Talma said.
“All women have a weakness for a conqueror,” the writer Madame de Souza said, artfully using her cards as a fan.
“Oh?” I said, pulling in my winnings. Bonaparte has not been writing.
July 2, or rather July 3, after 3.00 in the morning (can’t sleep).
Bonaparte returned quietly, before midnight. Within an hour, crowds had gathered in the gardens, men, women and children waving flambeaux: an eerie, ghostly sight.
“We rejoice in you,” I said, wrapping my arms around my husband, holding him. Holding him.
July 4.
Bonaparte is home; he is victorious, all is well. Why, then, do I feel so melancholy—so alone?
July 5—Malmaison for the day.
“How are you, darling?” my dear friend Thérèse asked, straightening her wig of infantine blond—her disguise.* I must have sighed heavily, for she spread her bejewelled fingers and exclaimed, “Mon Dieu, that bad?”
“Can’t I hide anything from you, Mama Tallita?” Thérèse and I have been through much together. One might even say she saved my life. Certainly, she enriches it with her wit and wisdom—and abundant heart.
“You know better than to even try,” she said, tapping my knuckles with her painted fan.
I confessed the reason for my depression of spirits: my suspicion that Bonaparte was having an amourette with another woman. “Since his return from Italy, he has been curt with me, impatient without reason.” Thérèse winced. “You’ve heard something?” I asked.
“It’s just a rumour—something about that Italian singer from Milan.”
“La Grassini.” Of course! Young and voluptuous, La Grassini is renowned for her passionate nature, her angelic voice. Two years ago I arranged for her to sing for us in Italy. I remember Bonaparte’s enthusiasm, remember the buxom Italian singer’s caressing eyes. Bonaparte had been oblivious to her all-too-obvious invitation—then.
July 6, 4:15 P.M.—Paris.
“Is it true that the prima donna of La Scala has come to Paris?”
“La Grassini?” Fouché withdrew a battered tin snuffbox from his vest pocket. “She arrived in a carriage drawn by eight black horses, rather hard to miss. All the people of Paris saw her.”
“And what else have all the people of Paris seen?”
He gazed at me with his heavy-lidded eyes. “Perhaps you should first tell me what you yourself see.”
“It is natural to become watchful, when suspicions are aroused.” I paused, turning my wedding ring. It had become oblong, rather than round; it fit my finger perfectly. Too perfectly, perhaps. I could no longer remove it. “Do you know what I would dislike? I would hate to be the last person to know if my husband were …” I felt my cheeks becoming heated.
“Exercising the right of kings?”
I nodded. More and more, I was learning about the “right of kings.” I counted silently to three and then looked up at him. “No doubt you would know.”
“It is my business to know.” Fouché spit into a spittoon. “As you suspect,” he said, wiping his mouth on his sleeve, “your husband has fallen for La Grassini’s charms.”
“A soldier’s wife understands these things,” I managed to say. “It will blow over, like a squall.”
“You are wise, Madame, the perfect wife.”
[Undated]
The perfect wife is angry! The perfect wife spent a fortune this afternoon, ordering five hats, six pairs of gloves, four pairs of slippers and two pairs of boots, not to mention a number of small linens in fine cambric, embroidered and laced and beribboned. Not to mention a new gown by Leroy, the most celebrated designer in Paris.
July 7, 3:45 P.M.—hot!
“A Bastille Day ensemble? A gown for the wife of the victor?” Leroy’s eyes glazed over, as if a vision had come to him, a vision of mystical dimensions. “Mais oui! I see antique ivory gauze, swirls of cascading silk with appliquéd gold laurel leaves, a plush golden velvet shawl, embroidered in gold and edged with ermine. Laced slippers, long gold gloves with pearl buttons—of course!—a bandeau of laurel leaves made of pearls …”
“Perfect.” Wife of the victor.
“But Madame Josephine,” Leroy said, tugging on the knot of his starched azure neckcloth, “the First Consul is frugal, and …”
The frugal First Consul is spending twenty thousand francs a month on a mistress, I happen to know. “You were saying, Citoyen?”
“Well, it’s only fair to warn you that ermine is … Well, right now I’m afraid it is perhaps a little dear, perhaps too …?”
“Spare no expense.”
July 9—Tuileries.
Madame de Souza announced at whist this afternoon that after the age of thirty a woman cannot expect to have first place in her husband’s heart, that she should be content to be second.
“That would be worse than death itself,” I said heatedly (losing the round).
July 10—Malmaison (bright moon, dark thoughts).
“I hate to tell you this, darling, but she’s right,” Thérèse said, giving me a vial of Compound Spirit of Lavender—a remedy for women feeling a great sinking. “If it’s not La Grassini, it’s bound to be some other trollop. Husbands are like that. It’s one of the things a wife must accept. Has he been doing his duty by you?”
I nodded. If anything, Bonaparte’s attentions have been more ardent than before.
“Then what do you have to complain of? Just because he has a mistress doesn’t mean he doesn’t love you.”
Love? Bonaparte had not loved me—he’d worshipped me. “You don’t understand!” How could I possibly explain what it was like to be loved by a man such as Bonaparte, to be his muse, his angel, the object of his all-consuming passion? Am I to lie beside him now while he dreams of La Grassini, smell her musky scent on him, hear the joy in his voice as he sings, knowing that it is love for another that inspires him? “Accept it, Thérèse? Never!”
“Do you want your husband’s enduring love?”
“Of course,” I said angrily.
“Then repeat after me: I accept—with love, grace and magnanimity.” She laughed. “And no gritting of teeth.”
[Undated]
Three hats, two gowns, seven pairs of slippers, five pairs of silk stockings, two shawls, a necklace of rubies and pearls.
July 14, Bastille Day, almost midnight.
It was almost time to leave for the Bastille Day fête when Eugène arrived from Milan. “You made it!” I threw my arms around my son. He smelled of horses—horses and campfire smoke.
“Oh là là, Maman!”
“Is something wrong?” I asked, alarmed by his outburst.
“No, not at all. It’s you. You look … beautiful!”
Eugène and his chasseurs escorted Bonaparte and me to the Invalides. A deafening cheer went up as we pulled through the gates of the Champs-de-Mars, the enormous field a sea of faces.
Inside, the Invalides was packed, the air oppressive. I was moved to tears as Eugène solemnly presented the captured enemy flags. Then Mademoiselle Grassini sang, filling the vault with (I had to admit) heavenly sounds. It pleased me to note that she has developed a double chin and was wearing too much Spanish Red.*
* May 10. A new calendar had been established during the Revolution. The months were named after the natural world. (Floréal, for example, meant month of flowers.) The weeks were ten days long and ended with “Décadi,” the day of rest. Confusion resulted because people continued to use the traditional calendar.
* Thérèse was separated from her husband (Tallien) and living openly with a married man (Ouvrard), by whom she had a number of children. Publicly, she was perceived as a “fallen woman,” and Napoleon did not want Josephine to associate with her. Nevertheless, the two friends continued to meet secretly at Malmaison.
* Spanish Red: red dye in a horsehair pad, used as a blusher.
In which we are very nearly killed
July 22, 1800—Paris.
At the Théâtre Français tonight, the police apprehended a man aiming at Bonaparte with a peashooter.
Bonaparte laughed when Fouché informed him. “You’re serious—a peashooter? They’re going to have to do better than that.”
August 7.
I can’t sleep. This morning ruffians were caught lurking in the quarry on the high road to Malmaison. Their intention was to attack Bonaparte as we returned to Paris.
August 9—very hot.
Fouché sidled up to me at tonight’s salon. “No, don’t tell me,” I said, my heart jumping in my chest. “I can’t take it!”
“Calm yourself. I merely wish to inform you that La Grassini is discontented with your husband.”
“Oh, thank God! I thought perhaps there had been another attempt on Bonaparte’s life.” In every shadow I saw a man with a knife. The slightest noise confirmed my fears. “What did you say about La Grassini?”
“She complained of the First Consul at the salon of the Minister of Foreign Affairs last night.”
“You were at Talleyrand’s?” Talleyrand and Fouché are arch-enemies.
“My spies keep me informed. La Grassini confided to those assembled at the whist table that the First Consul’s lovemaking was … unsatisfying was how she put it.” He pronounced the word “unsatisfying” with unseemly relish.
“I take no comfort whatsoever in her indiscretion.” How dare she!
October 10—Paris, very late.
On returning from the Opéra tonight, Bonaparte and I found Fouché waiting for us in the Yellow Salon, tapping his foot. The Minister of Police was not happy. The commotion we’d heard during the performance had been his men apprehending assassins armed with daggers and pistols—men intent on murdering Bonaparte!
I scooped up my train and sat down on the edge of a stool. “Assassins?” But what shocked me even more was that Bonaparte had known about the plot for weeks, but had not informed Fouché, thinking that he would lure the conspirators out into the open himself. “Bonaparte, you knew those men would be at the Opéra?” I was stunned—and angry. How could he be so cavalier? Not only had he put himself at risk, he’d put me at risk as well.
“Your husband not only knew the assassins would be there tonight,” Fouché said, “he arranged to provide them with the money they needed in order to carry out their scheme. Have you any idea, First Consul, how close you came to getting murdered?”
I trembled for Fouché. Bonaparte does not take a scolding well, however justified.
“The plan worked, Minister Fouché.” Bonaparte paced under the crystal chandelier. “I’m fed up with Revolutionaries intent on my demise—and so I took action. If this little episode proved anything, it proved that there is a great deal going on in this city that you are entirely unaware of. You don’t know anything!”
“Respectfully, First Consul, I know a very great deal,” Fouché said, his lips thin. “I know, for example, that a man in a greatcoat regularly emerges from the palace, gets into a hired fiacre and goes to 762 Rue Caumartin, an abode which he has leased for the use of a well-applauded Italian singer. A short time after, the man in the greatcoat reappears and returns to the palace. Within an hour of his departure, a tall young man, a violinist, is seen to enter the home of the energetic Grassini, who—” “Get out!” Bonaparte kicked a burning log.
I followed Fouché into the antechamber. “How could you do that to him!”
“Devotion wears many masks. The First Consul endangers himself by such conduct.”
“You humiliate him in the name of duty?” I turned on my heel, trembling with emotion.
I found Bonaparte in the bedchamber, sitting on our big bed, unlacing his boots himself. “We can pretend I was not witness to that scene,” I said, sitting down at my embroidery frame by the fire.
“Just as you have pretended not to know, Josephine?”
I picked up my embroidery needle, checked the colour of the thread, a shimmering light blue, the colour of a summer sky. My hand was shaking. “Yes.” I put down the needle. “Please, Bonaparte, get up and pace the way you usually do. I don’t like it when you are so still.”
“I’m surprised you aren’t angry.”
“I’ve been angry. Now I’m angry at her.” La Signorina Grassini had not only seduced my husband—worse, she had made a cuckold of him. “I’ve been a fool.”
I put aside my frame and went to him. “Don’t be angry at Fouché,” I said, taking his hands in mine—his soft, feminine hands of which he is so proud. “He spoke out of devotion for you.”
“Do you know how much I love you,
Josephine?” The firelight danced in his grey eyes.
Later, in Bonaparte’s arms, I took advantage of his gratitude to persuade him to take at least a few precautions against attack. And no more trying to ferret out assassins on his own! Reluctantly, he consented. “You love me too much,” he complained.
“We all do!”
October 18—Tuileries Palace, Paris.
Early this morning, Fouché was shown into our bedchamber. I sat up, alarmed. It was dark still. “This must be urgent, Citoyen Minister of Police,” Bonaparte said, instantly alert.
“A bomb stuffed with nails and grapeshot exploded behind the Salpêtrière convent a few hours ago. The culprits got away, but I have reason to think they had you in mind, First Consul. I thought you would want to know.”
“Mon Dieu, Bonaparte—a bomb?” Would there never be an end to it?
Christmas Eve—Paris.
The worst has happened. At least we are alive, I remind myself.
It is three in the morning now as I write this. I’m in the little sitting room next to our bedchamber. The embers cast a dying light. I’ve given up trying to sleep. Perhaps if I write it out, the memory of this evening will stop haunting me.
Caroline, eight months along now, joined Hortense, Bonaparte and me for dinner. We were looking forward to going to the opening of Haydn’s La Création—all of us but Bonaparte, that is, who announced that he’d changed his mind, he had work to do. (Even on Christmas Eve.)
“Please come,” I begged him, knowing how disappointed the public would be not to see him, how unhappy they would be to see only me. “You’ve been working so hard lately.” Day and night, his energy was boundless. “It’s going to be splendid.” (Oh, recalling those words! If anything had happened to him, if he had been killed!) “It would please me,” I said finally, knowing he would not refuse.
The coaches were lined up in the courtyard in readiness. A footman jumped to open the door of the first carriage for Bonaparte and his aides. “The ladies will follow with Colonel Rapp,” Bonaparte instructed César, his coachman, who grinned broadly, clearly in his cups. César cracked his whip and the horses charged out the gate.