“Tante Pauline?”
“That’s what everyone called her. I never knew her real name.” Martin smiled at the memory of the scrawny old woman with her gap-toothed grin. “She saved me from an empty belly many a time, sharing her bread and cheese with me. Besides selling her flowers, Tante Pauline claimed to be a bit of a gypsy, able to read palms. She even taught me how to fashion a charm to ward off witches.”
To her credit, Cat tried to keep a solemn face, but her lips quivered as she demanded, “What sort of charm?”
“A sack containing an extremely odiferous mixture of herbs and garlic.”
Cat shouted with laughter as he had feared she would.
“All right, it was pure superstitious nonsense. I know that now. During my youth, I might have been bold enough to risk my neck in the hangman’s noose, but I was petrified of anything to do with sorcery. There was nothing I feared so much as a witch.”
Cat’s brow furrowed. “Then why did you ever—”
“Ever what?” Martin stroked her back, enjoying the smooth warm feel of her skin.
Cat hesitated a moment before finishing. “Share a bed with Cassandra Lascelles.”
Martin’s hand stilled, the mention of the woman’s name like the swift thrust of a knife between his ribs.
“I believe that is a subject best left alone,” he said tersely.
He resumed his caress, but Cat squirmed away from him. She raised herself up enough to regard him gravely.
“You have left it alone far too long. I realize you find it uncomfortable to talk about Cassandra—”
“Uncomfortable?” Martin choked. “The memory of that woman sickens me.”
“She was not your lover then?”
“My lover? Christ, no. I only ever lay with her that one time. But that was enough to—to—”
“To father Meg.”
“Meg is the only good thing to come out of that night.” Martin ground his fingertips against his eyes in an effort to stem the nightmarish images trying to storm his mind. “The rest is all…poison.”
“The only way to get rid of poison is to purge it.” Cat brushed the hair back from his brow. “Tell me what happened.”
But Martin thrust her hand away and sat up. He kicked the coverlet off and swung his legs over the side of the bed.
Cat regretted she had ever spoken. But Cassandra Lascelles was a shadow darkening the lives of Martin and his daughter. She would continue to haunt both of them as long as Martin refused to acknowledge her presence.
Cat bit down upon her lip. Her time with both Martin and Meg was so short. She could not love and protect them to the end of her days as she longed to do. But if she could at least banish the specter of Cassandra—
Cat studied the rigid line of Martin’s back, reaching out to touch him, only to draw her hand back. She feared she had pushed him too far. She so little expected him to speak; she was startled when he did.
“I was only eighteen when I crossed paths with the Lascelles witch,” he began haltingly. “It was the same summer I met Miri Cheney. She was like something out of a dream with her pale gold hair, her fey eyes, and that strange mystical way about her. I was dazzled, completely in love with her.”
“Yes, why wouldn’t you be?” Cat asked wistfully.
“At that time, I shared a lodging in Paris with my good friend Captain Nicholas Remy. As close as you are to Ariane, you must be acquainted with him.”
“I know that he is considered a great hero,” Cat replied. “A champion of the Huguenot cause. He married Ariane’s sister, Gabrielle. But I have never actually met the man.”
“Remy is a genuine hero, brave and skilled in battle, honorable to the core. He was also the truest friend I’d ever had, like a brother to me.” Martin paused expelling a gusty breath before he was able to continue.
“Cassandra Lascelles was as mad as she was evil. She had this damnable notion that she was destined to give birth to a dark sorceress who would topple the thrones of men and restore the daughters of the earth to power.”
“Being a true wise woman has nothing to do with power,” Cat interrupted. “It is about acquiring wisdom and healing, learning to live in harmony with the earth, not spreading darkness and destruction.”
“Obviously, no one ever explained that to Cassandra.”
“From what I’ve heard about Cassandra, there was no explaining anything to the woman. She was obsessed with her insane dreams of glory.”
Martin sighed. “Unfortunately, her obsession included Remy. She wanted him to be the father of her child. She threatened to destroy the captain with her black arts if she could not have him in her bed. Incredible as it sounds, she had actually fashioned this cursed medallion to gain power over him.
“The night she had determined to seduce him, I went in his stead. Frightened as I was of witches, I thought I could deal with Cassandra far better than my honorable friend, Remy. I was very full of myself, even more than I am now.” Martin gave a mirthless laugh.
“That night was cursed with a storm far worse than this one. The sky roiled with black clouds, the heavens rent with such thunder and lightning as though the world stood poised on the brink of destruction.”
He paused, his arms braced rigidly on either side of him. “I crept into the inn room where Cassandra waited for Remy. I knew the witch had a fondness for strong drink. My plan was to get her so drunk she would forget about Remy and surrender the dark charm she threatened to use against him. But there was one thing I had not counted upon and that was the charms of Cassandra herself.”
He shuddered. “She was stunningly beautiful after her own cold fashion. Long black hair, dead white skin, and those unseeing dark eyes. I managed to get her drunk, but she wreaked havoc with my senses as well. She wore such a strange seductive perfume. It seemed to seep through my very pores, getting into my head, stealing away my reason, robbing me of my will. When the witch realized that Remy was not coming, she decided to—to have me instead.
“Before I knew what was happening, I had tumbled into bed with her, forgetting my love for Miri, my purpose for being there, forgetting everything except for the lust Cassandra aroused.”
Martin hung his head and concluded hoarsely, “After I left the inn that night, I remember falling to my knees, heaving my guts. I felt so—so tainted. It was a long time after before I could even look Miri in the eyes, let alone touch her.”
It was a humiliating confession for any man to make. Martin had never spoken about what had happened that night, even to Miri. He could not imagine how Cat had induced him to open up to her.
She should have had nothing but scorn for his weakness, but she wrapped her arms about him from behind, her voice as warm as her touch.
“Martin, I have known a great many daughters of the earth capable of brewing up a potion or perfume capable of seducing a man. I admit I used to think nothing of it. I was so bitter after Rory O’Meara broke faith with me; I used to say, ‘Bah! Let men look to themselves.’ But it is as wrong for a woman to take advantage of a man as it is the other way round.”
Martin shifted to face her and found her fierce blue eyes soft with understanding and compassion. The kiss that he brushed against her lips was as filled with gratitude as it was tenderness.
Much as he hated to admit it, Cat was right. It had helped to let go of some of those poisonous memories even if he had not been able to be completely honest with Cat. There was still one fear regarding Cassandra and his daughter that lingered to haunt him, a fear so great he could scarce acknowledge it to himself.
He pulled Cat into his arms and tumbled her back down onto the mattress. Their lips met in a kiss rife with warmth and passion until Martin was suddenly struck by something she had said.
Poised over her, he drew back to demand, “Who the devil is Rory O’Meara?”
“No one. A lad I once knew.”
She sought to distract him with another kiss, but Martin reared back. “That is hardly fair. I have shared all m
y darkest secrets with you.”
“Life is unfair,” she replied saucily, curling her fingers in his chest hair. “Has no one taught you that by now?”
“I learned enough to get what I want. By fair means or foul.”
Pinning her to the mattress, he dug his fingers in her ribs, subjecting her to a merciless tickling. Cat writhed, pummeling his arms and choking with laughter.
“All right, stop it, you French fiend,” she gasped. “I’ll tell you.”
When he ceased, she glared up at him. Ignoring her ferocious scowl, he kissed the bridge of her nose.
“Rory was my stepfather’s nephew,” she said reluctantly. “The tanist of the O’Meara clan.”
“Tanist?”
“It is a title bestowed on the heir apparent, the man who will eventually become the next chieftain, like the prince of his clan, and Rory seemed every bit the prince to me. He was sinfully handsome with his burnished red hair, blue eyes, and broad shoulders. All the lasses were mad about him.”
When Cat actually sighed at the memory, Martin frowned. “How strange. I’ve already taken a decided dislike to the man.”
Cat laughed, but her smile took on a rueful quality. “I never thought Rory would look twice at the likes of me with so many beautiful lasses swarming over him, much more feminine and graceful.
“And taller,” she added. “And yet the spring I turned fifteen he did notice me. It—it was like a miracle the first time he smiled at me. As though all the rest of the world fell away, all the misery, the slights and scorn I experienced in my stepfather’s household faded to nothing.”
Martin’s frown deepened, his dislike for this prince of Cat’s memory escalating to loathing. Maybe he didn’t want to hear anything more about Rory O’Meara.
But when Cat paused, he said, “Go on.”
“I was completely smitten with him. And he was charming enough to make me believe he loved me. I surrendered my virginity to him on a warm spring night in a field of heather.”
Her blue eyes clouded, and she shifted her head upon the mattress in an effort to avert her face. “After Rory got what he wanted from me, he scarce looked back. It is not a new tale, the same pathetic story that has befallen many a foolish maiden.”
Her lips tightened with self-disgust. “I thought I would have been far wiser than that. Within a week of bedding me, Rory plighted his troth to the daughter of the chieftain of a neighboring clan, a pretty plump creature far softer than my bony self and possessed of more wealth and importance.”
Cat hunched her shoulder in a slight shrug as though the matter were of no consequence. But when Martin caught her chin, obliging her to look at him, he could see the hurt girl in the woman’s eyes.
Martin brought one of her hands to his lips, kissing her fingertips. “So the villain broke your heart. I’d like to set sail for Ireland tomorrow and break his head.”
“That would be ill-advised. The last I heard of Rory he had become the chieftain of the clan when my stepfather died. Like most of the Irish, the O’Mearas can be a vengeful lot when their chief is threatened.”
She tipped up her chin proudly. “Besides, I don’t need you to break his head. What fun would that be? I’d prefer to do it myself.”
Cat’s lips tilted in a feline smile. “In fact, that is exactly what I did.”
Martin chuckled. “Ah, ma petite chatte. I should have guessed as much.”
“It was my gift to Rory on his wedding day, a good hard punch that broke his nose. My mother swooned from shame at my behavior and my stepfather soundly beat me for it. I didn’t care. It was worth it. By the time my aching back had healed, I never spared Rory another thought.”
“Truly?” Martin asked skeptically.
She regarded him with a sad smile. “Hearts don’t break, Martin. They just bruise a little. I learned to be more cautious.”
“So cautious you closed yourself off to other men ever since.”
“I have had other lovers.”
“But you never allowed yourself to take any risks again, indulge in that kind of love that transports you above the earth, consumes your entire being.”
Cat gave a scornful sniff. “You mean the way that you were with Miri Cheney.”
“After what happened with Cassandra, I hardly felt fit to touch Miri’s boots. But yes, I did spend years striving to be worthy of Miri.”
“Are you saying that during all that time you remained celibate?”
“Well…no. My travels and duties to the king of Navarre often took me far from Miri’s side. Occasionally, I had to indulge the lustier side of my nature, but that had nothing to do with my adoration of Miri.”
Cat’s sudden lunge caught him off guard. She shoved him onto his back and loomed over him with a look of fierce reproof.
“Do you know the trouble with you, Martin le Loup?”
“No.” Martin sighed. “But I feel certain you are about to tell me.”
“You view love as this exalted thing, worshipping the woman of your affections as though she were some distant star.” Cat punched her fist in the air in a frustrated gesture. “You need a woman who knows how to get right down there, thick in the muck of life, sweating and fighting alongside you, the two of you looking out for each other, nurturing and—and protecting.”
“And I suppose this romantic vision of yours includes two warm bodies rubbing together for their mutual benefit?” Martin asked with a sardonic lift of one brow.
“Yes, that is most certainly a part of it.”
“What about two hearts and souls touching as well? La grande passion? You don’t believe in that?” he demanded.
Cat rolled off of him. “I suppose it happens, but it is as rare as that comet streaking across the sky. All I am saying is, the next time you see Lady Danvers, instead of assaulting her with elegant speeches, you—you should grab her and kiss her like there is no tomorrow. Or you may well spend the next ten years courting her.”
Cat flung herself out of bed and strode over to the fire. She yanked on her breeches and started to get dressed.
Martin remained flat on his back for a moment, feeling stunned. Never in all of the times he had pleasured a woman had he ever had one leave his bed and bluntly order him to go make love to someone else.
He jerked upright, seething to tell Cat what she could do with her advice. There was only one woman in the world he wanted to kiss and that was the stubborn, infuriating redheaded sprite jamming herself back into his breeches.
Because he loved her.
Mon Dieu. Martin’s breath stilled, his anger fading before the staggering realization.
He…he loved Cat. What an idiot he was not to have figured it out sooner. She was the last sort of woman in the world he would have ever expected to seize hold of his heart this way. Strong, tough, too infernally independent and proud for her own good.
But when Cat revealed the gentler, more tender side of her nature, she left a man feeling as though he had been entrusted with a most precious gift.
Never had Martin known any woman so capable of infuriating him one moment, then arousing him the next. Watching her dress, the supple curves of her body bathed in firelight, was enough to get him hard all over again.
But what he felt for her was far more than mere desire. He could be himself with Cat, tell her anything, bare all his own weaknesses, with no need to pretend, no fear she would find him less of a man.
He loved Catriona O’Hanlon and Martin’s first impulse was to leap out of bed, seize her in his arms, and tell her so. He was checked by one thought.
She would never believe him. Why should she, after watching him court Jane Danvers all this while, after listening to him spout his adoration of Miri? She would think him a romantic fool who bandied about the word love with little restraint and she’d be right.
How could he convince her that what he felt for her was more real than anything he had ever known in his life? He couldn’t and he didn’t have the right to try.
He still had his daughter to consider. All Cat wanted to do was return to Faire Isle, a place of all those strange mystical associations he had to banish from Meg’s life. If Martin had any doubt of that, his recollections of Cassandra tonight were a bitter reminder.
Cat paused in lacing up her shirt long enough to cast him an impatient look. “The rain has stopped. We have to go.”
Martin nodded and levered himself out of bed. After his nightmarish interlude with Cassandra, he had come to loathe storms. Never had he thought to feel so bleak to see one come to an end.
THE GENTLEMAN USHER ALLOWED WALSINGHAM TO PASS INTO the queen’s inner sanctum, a privilege few were accorded, especially at such a late hour.
Like Walsingham himself, the queen was noted for laboring over reports and matters of state far into the night, the only person in the kingdom whose stamina rivaled his own.
But the queen was not at her desk as usual. Only a few candles were burning, the maids of honor huddled together, speaking in nervous whispers.
Walsingham could well imagine the state of the queen’s temper ever since she had read the translation of Mary Stuart’s infamous letter.
But it was difficult to gauge Her Majesty’s present mood. She had her back to him, her tall slender form swallowed up by the shadows near the window. Walsingham could make out little beyond the red gleam of her hair, the sharp outline of her profile as she stared outward, studying the night sky.
The storm had passed over; the clouds had dispersed enough to reveal a pale sliver of moon, the ominous streak of the comet.
Although her courtiers repeatedly begged her not to tempt fate by looking at the strange phenomenon, it was typical of Elizabeth’s defiance and courage that she persisted in gazing at the comet so boldly.
The stiffening of her shoulders told Walsingham she was well aware of his presence, but she refused to acknowledge him.