‘Thank you,’ the man said.
‘I have even more water for my house than I have for the trees,’ he went on, a white froth on his lips. ‘I have a swimming pool full of water at my house. You come and see my pool full of water?’
‘No. We have to get back for the boats.’
‘But tomorrow, Sunday, you come to my pool and swim.’ He made the breast-stroke movement. ‘We can swim naked in my pool. No one can see like at the sea, and after we eat peaches at a table by the pool’s edge and drink white wine, wine of my grapes.’
The man looked towards the woman in desperation but she stood dazed with shock or bewilderment. He didn’t know how to get out of this, and he’d heard that the magistrate was dangerous if crossed.
‘I come at twelve in the jeep and pick you up.’
‘No,’ the man said, desperate for time. ‘We’ll come later on the Vespa.’
‘It’s easier if I pick you up.’
‘No. I have to work first. We’ll come about two on the Vespa.’
‘At two we’ll swim and eat the peaches and drink white wine.’
‘Yes. We want to get back.’
‘I’ll drive you back to the boats.’
The man saw that the juice stains were wider now on the blue denim as they got into the jeep.
At the café, where José still sat motionless as any lizard, the magistrate said as he stopped the jeep, ‘You soon don’t see those scum any more.’
‘They are my friends,’ the man interrupted.
‘It is because you don’t know. Soon you know you have better friends. Tomorrow we swim and eat peaches and drink wine,’ he said, his eyes openly fondling the woman’s body.
‘At two,’ the man said.
XIV
José was stiff with dignity at the red café table.
‘You have been my friend, but if I see you again with that bastard … Kaput.’ He made a chopping stroke with his hand as if breaking the back of a rabbit’s neck.
‘It seemed to all happen as if I had no choice.’
‘This time yes but not the next time.’
The woman, who had remained more blank than silent, sobbed and turned. ‘You see what he did, José?’
‘He put the peaches in your pocket?’ José looked anxiously at the man; he did not want to get involved.
When the man moved to take the peaches from the breast pockets she stopped him. ‘I am able to take them out myself.’
She took them out one by one. The skins were broken and the flesh crushed. She set them on the table, where three rolled to the outer rim.
‘You don’t want his peaches.’ José quietly swept the peaches from the table and they tumbled out into the dust of the roadway.
‘No, no,’ the woman affirmed angrily. ‘I don’t.’
She no longer sobbed but her face was firm against the man, who was more in despair than shame.
The flop-flop of Tomás’s slippers came down the café to the red tables outside. When he heard the story of the orchard, José translated what he said.
‘He said he wouldn’t serve that bastard. He sent his son out with the cognacs’; and added, ‘He has to be careful though. He has a café.’
‘Why is he so hated?’ the man asked.
‘His family were always fascists. We shot his two brothers, and when the fascists won he went into the Murcia jail with a bundle of birches. And he went from cell to cell till he broke every birch he had on the prisoners’ backs. My brother was a prisoner there but not even a fascist pig beats shackled prisoners.’ José was clinched in hatred even when he broke off to translate for Tomás who nodded that it was true.
When the woman asked Tomás if she could use his back room to wash the peach juice from her dress he came with her to show her where it was, and while they were away José leaned towards the man, ‘If you are not careful you will lose wife. That fascist pig doesn’t want to give you peaches. He wants your wife. He wants to fuck your wife.’
‘I know,’ the man said. ‘Will you have a drink?’
‘I’ll have a cognac.’
The boy came with the cognacs and as the man paid he flinched at the look he thought he saw on the boy’s face. The fishing boats with their flotilla of gulls flashing in the late sun were closing on the harbour. When the woman came from the back room her hair was combed so that it shone gold and her face was made-up.
‘You want me to come and get some fish for you?’ José asked.
‘No. Not this evening,’ the man said. ‘I think we should go.’
‘I am ready,’ the woman said coldly.
As they turned away from the harbour the small figure of José got up from the table and made his way out of habit, the black beret at its usual angle, towards the incoming boats, as the greyhounds, their legs wavering under the cages of their ribs, started to come out of their porches to search for garbage in the cool.
XV
They rode in silence on the tar but when they came to the dirt-track the woman said, ‘Please stop.’ She got off the pillion seat. ‘I’m walking to the house. If I have to look for another husband I don’t want any more scars on my face,’ and she looked hard and cold and tense, the profile lifted. The man drove ahead without speaking. The shark stank less in the cool, the bones wore little flesh, but he’d not be here, he thought, to see them bleach and break up in the sun. The light was good enough for him to see the flash of the lizards on the path move from a point of complete stillness to the next, out of way of the Vespa.
He sat in the rocking chair with the door open waiting for her to come up the path. Her mood had not changed.
‘I’d like to leave tomorrow,’ he said when she put down the crocheted woollen bag with the silver clasp and chain. He counted five drops of water from the clay jars drip into the bowls before she said, ‘Where to?’ in a tense voice.
‘To London. You said you wanted to go back to London.’
‘Running is no solution. We’ve always been moving. And what’ll you do about your white wine and peaches?’
‘We won’t be here. It is why I played for two o’clock.’
‘Why didn’t you do something when he started to push in the peaches?’ she said fiercely, and then the first dry sob came between the slow drips of water.
‘If I hit him and wound up in a Spanish jail it’d do us all a lot of good,’ he said.
‘You always have some excuse. You never give me any support. You know how awful it is to be married to a weak man. If I was married to a strong man like my father it would be different.’
‘It would be some other way but you’d be the same.’
‘I’d have support then. And what’ll we do after London?’ she stopped crying to ask, sudden demanding aggression in the voice.
‘We can decide that when we get there.’
‘It may be decided for you this time,’ she threatened.
‘Well, then it’ll be decided for me,’ he said.
With an explosive word he couldn’t catch she climbed the stairs. He heard her turning on the bed as he got the suitcases out of the garage.
He hurriedly and raggedly got them out. When he’d the gas lamp lit and was looking about for what to put first in the suitcases open on the floor, he heard her loudly at the closet as if she’d started to take out her dresses.
Later, when the man went upstairs to the room, he found she’d taken all her clothes out of the wardrobe and had arranged them on the bed ready for packing, and she was muttering, ‘Yes. It was no more than I deserved. I didn’t see to the cabbages.’
Her face was hard and tense and she was not crying.
The Recruiting Officer
Two cars outside the low concrete wall of Arigna School, small and blue-slated between the coal mountains; rust of iron on the rocks of the trout stream that ran past the playground; the chant of children coming through the open windows into the rain-cleaned air: it was this lured me back into the schoolroom of this day – to watch my manager, Canon Reil
ly, thrash the boy Walshe; to wait for the Recruiting Officer to come – but a deeper reason than the quiet picture of the school between mountains in bringing me back, can only be finally placed on something deep in my own nature, a total paralysis of the will, and a feeling that any one thing in this life is almost as worthwhile doing as any other.
I had got out of the Christian Brothers, I no longer wore the black clothes and white half-collar, and was no longer surrounded by the rules of the order in its monastery; but then after the first freedom I was afraid, it was that I was alone.
I had come to visit one of my married sisters, when I saw the quiet school. I said I too would live out my life in the obscurity of these small places; if I was lucky I’d find a young girl. To grow old with her among a people seemed ambition enough, there might even be children and fields and garden.
I got a school immediately, without trouble. The newly trained teachers wanted places in the university towns, not in these backwaters.
Now I am growing old in the school where I began. I have not married. I lodge in a pub in Carrick-on-Shannon. I travel in and out the seven miles on a bike to escape the pupils and their parents once the school is shut, to escape from always having to play an expected role. It is rumoured that I drink too much.
With mostly indifference I stand at the window and watch Canon Reilly shake a confession out of the boy Walshe, much as a dog shakes life out of a rat; and having nothing to do but watch I think of the sea. We went to the sea in summer, a black straggle in front of Novicemaster O’Grady, in threes, less risk of buggery in threes than pairs, the boards of the bridge across to the Bull hollow under the tread of our black sandals, and below us the tide washing against the timber posts. Far out on the Wall we stripped, guarding our eyes on the rocks facing south across the bay to the Pidgeon House, and when O’Grady blew the whistle we made signs of the cross on ourselves with the salt water and jumped in. He blew it again when it was time for us to get out. We towelled and dressed on the rocks, guarding our eyes, glad no sand could get between our toes, and in threes trooped home ahead of O’Grady and past the wired-down idiotic palm trees along the front.
The bell for night prayers went at nine-thirty, the two rows of pews stretching to the altar, a row along each wall and the bare lino-covered space between empty of all furniture, and we knelt in the long rows in order of our rank, the higher the rank the closer to the altar. On Friday nights we knelt in the empty space between the pews and said: My very dear Brothers, I accuse myself of all the faults I have committed since my last accusation, I broke the rule of silence twice, three times I failed to guard my eyes. After a certain rank and age the guarding of the eyes wasn’t mentioned, you were supposed to be past all that by then, but I never reached that stage. I got myself booted out before I became impervious to a low view of passing girls, especially on windy days.
The sea and the bell, nothing seems ever ended, it is such nonsenses I’d like written on my gravestone in the hope they’d sow confusion.
‘You admit it now after you saw you couldn’t brazen your way out of it,’ Reilly shouts at the boy, holding him by the arm in the empty space between the table and the long benches where the classes sit in rows.
‘Now. Out with what you spent the money on.’
‘Lemonade,’ the low answer comes, the white-faced boy starting to blubber.
‘Lemonade, yes, lemonade, that’s how you let the cat out of the bag. The Walshes don’t have shillings to squander in the shops on lemonade every day of the week.’
Still gripping the boy by the arm he turns to the rows of faces in the benches.
‘What sins did Walshe commit – mind I say sins, not one sin – but I don’t know how to call it – this foul act?’
I watch the hands shoot up with more attention than I’d given to the dreary inquisition of the boy. I was under examination now.
‘The sin of stealing, Canon.’
‘Good, but mind I said sins. It is most important in an examination of conscience before confession to know all the sins of your soul. One foul act can entail several sins.’
‘Lies, Canon.’
‘Good, but I’m looking for the most grievous sin of all.’
He turned from the blank faces to look at me: why do they not know?
‘Where was the poorbox when it was broken open?’ I ask, having to force the question out. Even after the years of inspectors I’ve never got used to teaching in another’s presence, the humiliation and the sense of emptiness in turning oneself into a performing robot in a semblance of teaching.
‘In the church, sir.’
‘An offence against a holy person, place or thing – what is that sin called?’
‘Sacrilege.’ The hands at once go up.
‘Good, but if you know something properly you shouldn’t need all that spoonfeeding.’ The implied criticism of me he addresses to the children.
‘Stealing, lies, and blackest of all – sacrilege.’ He turns again to the boy in his grip.
‘If I hand you over to the guards do you know where that will lead, Walshe? To the reformatory. Would you like to go to the reformatory, Walshe?’
‘No, Canon.’
‘You have two choices. You can either take your medicine from me here in front of the class or you can come to the barracks. Which’ll you take?’
‘You, Canon.’ He tries to appease with an appearance of total abjection and misery.
‘It’s going to be no picnic. You’ll have to be taught once and for all in your life that the church of God is sacred.’ He raises his voice close to declamation, momentarily releases his grip on the arm, takes a length of electric wire from his pocket. The boy whimpers quietly as the priest folds it in two before taking a firm grip on the arm again.
‘It’s going to hurt, Walshe. But if you’re ever again tempted to steal from the church you’ll have something to remember!’
In a half-circle the beating moves, the boy trying to sink to the floor to escape the whistle and thud of the wire wrapping round his bare legs but held up by the arm, the boy’s screaming and the heavy breathing of the priest filling the silence of the faces watching from the long benches in frightened fascination. When he finally lets go of the arm the boy sinks in a heap on the floor, the moaning changing to an hysterical sobbing.
‘Get up and go to your place and I hope that’s the last lesson you’ll have to be ever taught.’ He puts the length of wire back in his pocket and takes out a blue cloth to wipe his forehead.
The boy cowers as he rises, arms automatically protecting his torn legs, moves in a beaten crawl to his place, plunges his face in rage and shame into the folds of his arms and continues sobbing hysterically.
‘Open your geographies and get on with your study of the Shannon,’ I say as the heads turn towards Walshe. There’s the flap of the books being opened. They find the page, stealing a quick furtive look towards the boy as they bend their heads. In the sobbing silence the clock ticks.
‘An example had to be made to nip that blackguardism in the bud.’ He turns to me at the window.
‘I suppose.’
‘How do you mean suppose?’ The eyes are dangerous.
‘I suppose it was necessary to do.’
‘It was necessary,’ he emphasizes, and after a pause, ‘What I’d like to see is religious instruction to counteract such influences after Second Mass every Sunday. Mr McMurrough always took it.’
‘It’s too far for me to come from the town to take.’
‘I can’t see any justification for you living in the town. I can’t see why you can’t live in the parish. The Miss Bambricks at the post office have mentioned to me that they’d be glad to put you up.’
The Miss Bambricks were two church-mad old maids who grew flowers for the altar and laundered the linen.
Old McMurrough, whom I had replaced and who now lay in the Sligo madhouse reciting poetry and church doctrine, had taken catechism in the church each Sunday, while the Canon wait
ed at the gate to bear any truant who tried to escape with the main congregation back in triumph by the ear to the class in the sidechapel.
‘I am happy where I am,’ I say.
‘And there are many in the parish who think a public house in town is no lodgings for a person who has charge of youth.’
‘I conduct myself there.’
‘I’d sincerely hope so, but, if I may say so, it’s not very cooperative.’
‘I am sorry but I do not want to change,’ I answer doggedly. With bent heads the class follows each word with furtive attention, but he changes in frustration at last, ‘The Christian Brother will come after lunch today.’
‘I’ll take the other children outside, then, while he speaks to the boys. Luckily, the day is fine.’
‘They’re getting it very tough to get vocations. Even tougher still to keep those they do get. They’re betwixt and between, neither priests nor laymen,’ he volunteers but I don’t want discussion.
‘They may be lucky.’
‘The backward rural areas are their great standby. Even if they don’t stay the course they’ll get an education which they’d not get otherwise.’
‘That’s how I got mine.’
The hurt from my own mouth was not as great if it had come from his.
‘Well, it was some use, then.’
‘Yes. It was some use.’
I watch him on his way. At the door he shouts a last warning to the sniffling Walshe, ‘I hope that’ll be one lesson your life will never forget and you can count yourself lucky that there was no guards on the job.’
There’d be no repercussions from the beating except Walshe’d probably get beaten again when the news travelled home, and, in a few days, if asked who’d scored his legs, he’d answer that he fell in briars.
I watch the black suit shiny from car leather climb the last steps to the road gate, pausing once to inspect a crack in the concrete, and I turned to wipe the blackboard, afraid of my own hatred.
‘Now, I’ll see what you’ve learned about the Shannon.’