Gwyn never thought of himself as a magician. Mostly he was just a regular boy with an irregular family—a nervous mother, a half-dotty grandmother, a sister missing for four years, and a father who blames him relentlessly for his sister's disappearance.
Hut on his tenth birthday, Gwyn's grandmother gives him five unusual gifts. "Time to find out if you arc a magician, Gwyn. Time to remember your ancestors. If you have inherited the power, you can use it to get your heart's desire."
How could he use a brooch, a piece of dried seaweed, a scarf, and a tin whistle? And what of the small, broken horse with the wild expression, wearing the tag Dim hon. Not this. Gwyn is a dangerous magician until he learns the self-reliance and understanding his magic requires.
Jenny Nimmo has woven a vividly imagined, unearthly world into the realities of family relationships, friendship, and love lost and regained.
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CONTENTS
I
THE FIVE GIFTS
2
ARIANWEN
3
THE GIRL IN THE WEB
4
THE SILVER SHIP
5
EIRLYS
6
A DROWNING
7
THE BROKEN HORSE
8
THE TRAP
9
RETURN
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Chapter 1
THE FIVE GIFTS
Gwyn's grandmother gave him five gifts for his tenth birthday. They were very unusual gifts, and if Gwyn had not been the sort of boy he was, he might have been disappointed.
"Happy Birthday!" his grandmother said, turning her basket upside down.
Gwyn stared at the five objects that spilled out on the kitchen floor. A piece of seaweed, a yellow scarf, a tin whistle, a twisted metal brooch, and a small, broken horse. None of them was wrapped in bright birthday paper.
"Thank you, Nain!" said Gwyn, calling his grandmother by the name she liked best.
"Time to find out if you are a magician, Gwydion Gwyn!" said Nain.
"A magician?" Gwyn inquired.
"Time to remember your ancestors: Math, Lord of Gwynedd, Gwydion, and Gilfaethwy!"
"Who?"
"The magicians, boy! They lived here, in these mountains, maybe a thousand years ago, and they could do anything they wanted—turn men into eagles and soldiers into dust. They could make dreams come true. And so, perhaps, can you!"
On special occasions Nain often said peculiar things. Gwyn could not think of a reply.
"There has been an ache in this house since your sister ... went," said Nain, "the ache of emptiness. You need help. If you have inherited the power of Gwydion, you can use it to get your heart's desire." She turned on her heel. "I won't stay for tea!"
"We've only just had breakfast, Nain!"
"Nevertheless . . ." She swept away, down the hallway and through the open front door, her black hair sparkling in the golden mist that hung over the garden, her dress as gaudy as the autumn flowers by the gate. Then she looked back and sang out, "Give them to the wind, Gwydion Gwyn, one by one, and you'll see!"
Gwyn took the gifts up to his bedroom and laid them on the windowsill. They seemed very unlikely props for a magician.
"What's she going on about now?" He scratched at his uncombed hair. From his tiny attic window he could see Nain's dark head bobbing down the mountain track. "She travels too fast for a grandmother," Gwyn muttered. "If my ancestors were magicians, does that make her a witch?"
His father's voice roared up the stairs, "Have you done the chickens, Gwyn? It's Saturday. What about the gate? The sheep will be in the garden again. Was that your grandmother? Why didn't she stay?"
Gwyn answered none of these questions. He gathered Nain's gifts together, put them in a drawer, and went downstairs. His father was outside, shouting at the cows as he drove them down the path to pasture.
Gwyn sighed and pulled on his boots. His grandmother had delayed him, but she had remembered his birthday. His father did not wish to remember. There was no rest on Saturday for Gwyn. No time for football matches, no bicycle ride to the town. He was the only help his father had on the farm, and weekends were days for catching up with all the work he had missed during the week.
Gwyn tried not to think of Bethan, his sister, as he scattered corn to the hens and searched for eggs in the barn. But when he went to examine the gate, he could not forget.
Beyond the vivid autumn daisies there was a cluster of white flowers nestling beneath the stone wall. Bethan had brought them up from the woods and planted them there, safe against the winds that tore across the mountain. Perhaps even then she had known that one day she would be gone, and had wanted to leave something for them to remember her by.
"Gwyn, I've something for you." His mother was leaning out of the kitchen window.
"I've got to do the gate, Dad says!"
"Do it later. It's your birthday, Gwyn. Come and see what I've got for you!"
Gwyn dropped his tool box and ran inside.
"I've only just wrapped it," his mother apologized. "Did Nain bring you anything?"
"Yes. I thought everyone else had forgotten."
"Of course not. I was so busy last night, I couldn't find the paper. Here you are!" His mother held out something very small, wrapped in shiny green paper.
Gwyn took the present, noticing that the paper had gold stars on it.
"I chose the paper specially." Mrs. Griffiths smiled anxiously.
"Wow!" Gwyn tore off the paper. Inside was a black watch in a transparent plastic box. Instead of numbers, tiny silver moons encircled its dark face. As Gwyn moved it, the hands sparkled like shooting stars.
"Oh, thanks, Mam!" He clasped the box to his chest and flung his free arm round his mother's neck.
"It's from us both, Gwyn. Your dad and me!"
"Yes, Mam," Gwyn said, though he knew his mother had not spoken the truth. His father did not give him gifts.
"I knew you'd like it. Always looking at the stars, you are, you funny boy. Take care of it now!"
" 'Course I will. It's more the sort of present for a magician. Nain gave me such strange things."
His mother drew away from him. "What things? What do you mean, a magician? Has Nain been spouting nonsense again?"
"Come and see!" Gwyn led his mother up to the attic and opened his top drawer. "There!" he pointed to Nain's gifts.
Mrs. Griffiths frowned at the five objects laid in a row on Gwyn's white school shirt. "Whatever is she up to now? I wish she wouldn't." She picked up the broken horse and turned it over in her hands.
"It has no ears," Gwyn remarked, "and no tail. Why did she give me a broken horse?"
"Goodness knows!" His mother held the horse closer and peered at a tiny label tied round its neck. "It's in Welsh," she said, "but it's not your grandmother's writing. It's so faint. Dim hon, I think that's what it says. 'Not this'!"
"What does it mean, Mam, Not this? Why did she give it to me if I'm not supposed to use it?"
His mother shook her head. "I never know why Nain does things."
"She said it was time to see if I was a magician like my ancestors."
"Don't pay too much attention to your grandmother," Mrs. Griffiths said wearily. "She's getting old and she dreams."
"Her hair is black," Gwyn reminded her.
"Her hair is black, but her eyes don't see things the way they used to!" Mam picked up the yellow scarf. "This too? Did Nain bring this?"
"Yes. It's Bethan's isn't it?"
His mother frowned. "It disappeared with her. She must have been wearing it the night she went, but the police found nothing the next morning, nothing at all. How strange! If Nain found it wh
y didn't she say?" She held the scarf close to her face.
"You can smell the flowers," said Gwyn. "D'you remember? She used to dry the roses and put them in her clothes."
His mother laid the scarf back in the drawer. "Don't talk of Bethan now, Gwyn," she said.
"Why not, Mam? We should talk of her. It was on my birthday she left. She might come back ... if we think of her."
"She won't come back! Don't you understand, Gwyn? We searched for days. The police searched— not only here, but everywhere. It was four years ago!" His mother turned away, then said more kindly, "I've asked Alun Lloyd to come up for tea. We'll have a proper celebration today, not like your other birthdays. You'd better get on with your work now."
When Mrs. Griffiths had left the room, Gwyn lifted the scarf out of the drawer and pressed it to his face. The scent of roses was still strong, and Bethan seemed very near. How good she had looked in her yellow scarf, with her dark hair and her red raincoat all bright and shining. He remembered now; she had been wearing the scarf that night, the night she had climbed the mountain and never come back. Why had Nain kept it secret all this time and only given it to him now, on his birthday?
"If Bethan left her scarf," Gwyn exclaimed aloud, "perhaps she meant to come back."
He laid the scarf over the broken horse, the seaweed, the whistle, and the brooch, and gently closed the drawer. He was humming cheerfully to himself when he went out into the garden again.
Mam kept her word. Alun Lloyd arrived at four o'clock, but he brought his twin brothers with him. That was not part of the arrangement.
There were nine Lloyds all crammed into a farmhouse only one room larger than the Griffiths'. Sometimes Mrs. Lloyd, ever eager to acquire a little more space, took it upon herself to send three or four children where only one had been invited. She was, however, prepared to pay for these few precious hours of peace. Alun, Gareth, and Sion had all brought gifts. Mrs. Griffiths, guessing the outcome of her invitation, had provided tea for seven.
Kneeling on the kitchen floor, Gwyn tore the colored paper off his presents: a red kite, a pen, and a pair of black plastic spectacles with a large pink nose, black eyebrows, and a black moustache attached.
"Looks like your dad, doesn't it?" Sion giggled, and he snatched up the spectacles, put them on, and began to prance up and down the room, chest out and fingers tucked behind imaginary suspenders.
Suddenly it was like other people's birthdays—the way a birthday should be, but Gwyn's never was.
Nain arrived with a box under her arm. "For your birthday," she said. "Records. I don't want them any more."
"But Nain, you've given your presents," said Gwyn.
"Don't look a gift horse in the mouth," Nain retorted. "Who are these nice little boys?"
"You know who they are. The Lloyds, Alun and Gareth and Sion, from Ty Llyr. Don't you ever see your neighbors?" chided Gwyn.
"Not the one with the specs. I don't know that one. Looks like your father." Nain chuckled. "Put on some music, Glenys!"
"Well, I don't know. . . ." Mrs. Griffiths looked worried. "Ivor put the record player away. We haven't used it since ..."
"Time to get it out then," said Nain.
Somewhat reluctantly, Mrs. Griffiths knelt in the corner of the kitchen and withdrew the record player from a small neglected cupboard. She placed it on the kitchen table while the boys gathered round.
"I can't remember where to plug it in," said Mrs. Griffiths.
"The light, Mam," Gwyn explained. "Look, the plug is for the light."
"But . . . it's beginning to get dark." His mother sounded almost afraid.
"Candles! We can have candles!" Gwyn began to feel ridiculously elated. He fetched a box of candles from the cupboard and set them up on saucers and bottles all around the room.
Then they put on one of Nain's records. It was very gay and very loud: a fiddle, a flute, a harp, and a singer. The sort of music to make you dance wildly, and the Lloyds went wild. They drummed on the table, jumped on the chairs, stamped on the floor, waved the dish towels, juggled with the cat. The cat objected, and Sion retired, temporarily, from the merrymaking, bloody-eared but unbowed.
In her purple dress and black lace stockings, Nain began to dance, her dark curls bouncing and her colored beads flying. She wore silver bracelets, too, which jangled when she raised her arms. Her black shawl swung out and made the candles flicker.
Mae gen i dipyn o dy bach twt
A’r gwynt i’r driws bob bore.
Hei di ho, di hei di hei di ho,
A’r gwynt i’r driws bob bore.. . .
sang the singers, and so sang Nain in her high quivering voice.
The Lloyds thought it the funniest thing they had ever seen. Clutching their sides, they rolled on the floor, gasping and giggling.
Gwyn smiled, but he did not laugh. There was something strange, almost magical, about the tall figure spinning in the candlelight.
Down in the field, Gwyn's father heard the music. For a few moments he paused and listened while his cows, eager to be milked, ambled on up to the farmyard. Mr. Griffiths regarded the mountain rising dark and bare beside the house and remembered his daughter.
When the boys had breath left neither for dancing nor laughter, Mrs. Griffiths tucked the record player away in its corner, stood up, and removed her apron. Then she patted her hair, smoothed her dress, and said rather quiet and coy, "Tea will be in here today, boys!" She walked across the hallway and opened the door into the front room.
Gwyn was perplexed. Teas, even fairly fancy teas with relatives, were always in the kitchen these days. He moved uncertainly towards the open door and looked in.
A white cloth had been laid on the long oak table, so white it almost hurt his eyes. And upon the cloth, the best blue china, red napkins, plates piled with brightly wrapped candies, with sugar mice and chocolate pigs. There were chips and popcorn, and cakes with colored icing on a silver stand. There were snappers too, decorated with gold and silver paper, and in the center of the table a magnificent sea of ice cream.
The Lloyds crowded into the doorway beside Gwyn and gazed at the splendid spread. Gwyn felt so proud. "Oh, Mam," he breathed. "Oh, Mam!"
Then Gareth and Sion rushed past him and pulled out their chairs exclaiming, "Gwyn! Gwyn, come on, let's start, we're starving!"
"It's the grandest birthday table I've ever seen," said Alun. "Our Mam has never done anything like that."
"Nor has his, until today," said Nain. "It was about time."
Gwyn took his place at the head of the table and they began. There was so much chatter, so much laughter, no one heard Mr. Griffiths come in from milking and go upstairs. And Mrs. Griffiths, happy and gratified, did not notice her husband's boots beside the back door, nor his coat upon the hook, when she went into the kitchen to get the birthday cake.
The cake was huge and white, with chocolate windows and silver banners and on each of the ten towers, a flaming candle.
"Turn out the lights!" cried Gareth. He sprang to the switch, plunging the party into cosy candlelight.
"Blow out the candles, Gwyn, and wish!" commanded Sion.
Gwyn drew a deep breath and then paused. "Let's cut the cake and leave the candles," he said. "They look so good. Let's leave them till they die."
They were still lit when Mr. Griffiths came downstairs again. Snappers were snapping, and no one heard his feet upon the tiled kitchen floor, tapping in unfamiliar shoes. When the door opened, the tiny flames glowed fiercely for a moment and then died.
Except for a white shirt Mr. Griffiths was dressed entirely in black. He stared at the table in cold disbelief.
The shock of the electric light jolted the party out of its homey cheerfulness. The birthday table looked spoiled and untidy. Someone had spilled orange juice on the white cloth.
"What's this? Celebrating are we?" Mr. Griffiths' mouth was tight, his face white with displeasure.
Sion was still wearing the spectacle mask, and his brothers be
gan to giggle. He did resemble Mr. Griffiths.
"It's Gwyn's birthday, Ivor," Mrs. Griffiths explained nervously. "You're just in time for—"
"I know what day it is." Her husband spoke the words slowly through clenched teeth, as though the taste were bitter. "There are candles wasting in the kitchen, chairs on the floor, and look at this . . . litter!" He flung out his hand, indicating the table.
"Sit down, Ivor Griffiths, you miserable man," said Nain, "and celebrate your son's birthday!"
"Miserable is it?" Mr. Griffiths' big red hands were clasped tight across his chest, one hand painfully rubbing and pressing the other. "Miserable is it, to be remembering my own daughter who is gone? My daughter who went on this day, four years ago?"
Suddenly Mrs. Griffiths stood up. "Enough! We've had enough, Ivor!" she protested. "We remember Bethan too. We've mourned her going every year on this day, for four years. But it's Gwyn's birthday, and we've had enough of mourning! Enough! Enough!" She was almost crying.
Gwyn turned away. He did not want to look at the bright colors on the table, nor to see his friends' faces. He knew that his birthday was over. His mother was talking, but he could not listen to the words as she ushered his friends out. He heard them shuffling into the kitchen, murmuring good-bye, but he could not move. His father was still standing by the table, sad and silent in his black suit.
"How could you do that, Ivor?" Nain reproached her son as the front door slammed.
"How could I? I have done nothing. It was that one!" He looked at Gwyn. "She is gone because of him, my Bethan is."
It was said.
Gwyn felt almost relieved. He got up slowly and pushed his chair neatly back to the table. Without looking at his father, he walked out to the kitchen.
His mother was standing by the sink, waving to the Lloyds through a narrow window. She swung round quickly when she heard her son. "I'm sorry, Gwyn," she said quietly. "So sorry." She came towards him and hugged him close. Her face was flushed and she had put her apron on again.