Page 4 of Right Livelihoods


  6. Hospital Preparedness in the Event of an Emergency Featuring High Casualties

  The foregoing took place over the course of one Saturday in late September. I mention the day in particular because weekends in the off-season can be notable for a certain romance of emptiness. You walk the muddy track of the bird sanctuary up island, and it’s just you and the migratory flocks. There is the occasional gun burst of the good old boys with their hunting dogs chasing after the pheasant with which they stock the local brush. Be sure you’re wearing high-visibility gear during these months.

  Yet if the weekends are noteworthy for cable-knit sweaters and fires in the fireplace and mulled cider, the middle of the week is a wasteland, as anyone will tell you. The contractors hasten to and fro in their panel trucks, well over the posted speed limit, on their way to do cut-rate work for which they overcharge. The unemployable sector of the island plans its evening benders, just the way the aristocracy does. There’s no movie theater, and the two or three stores that remain open in the winter open and close in the space of an hour or two. You can easily pass five days without talking to anyone who is not the postmistress or the woman who sells newspapers out of the coffee shop. They are each personal friends of mine. Still, after some chat about the weather or the local gossip, these conversations can inevitably grow repetitious. Why then would I stay? Why would I remain here on the island when I could just as easily relocate to a verdant suburb in the Nutmeg State?

  A month passed, a month in which it became apparent that I was now intimately involved with a conspiracy that threatened not only the island but also the very liberties we so cherish. By this I mean I was, during an interval of some days or weeks, forcibly restrained and incarcerated in some medical facility on the mainland. During this time, I did have periods in which it is fair to say I had something like visions. Some of these were patriotic visions, eagles crushing various opponents, plucking out the eyes of snakes, and so forth, and there were also periods when I imagined I heard the muezzin calling for prayer in a strange guttural tongue. Unfortunately, I was forced to take a sedative in order to aid me in this medical convalescence that I didn’t believe was justified. Phantom lights. Strangers calling me by my given names. Conversations with the dead.

  I had visitors, and while I want to believe that my wife had and has my best interests at heart, I am not always sure that this is the case. It was Skip who convinced me that I should cooperate with the medical experts who were overseeing my affairs. Skip didn’t actually say these things, because he is a man of few words, but it was obvious that Skip, who grows uncomfortable with any kind of change, was upset with the idea that I was not coming home with him and my wife, Helen, whose real name is not actually Helen. It was Skip who suffered when we were not taking our daily walks to the park, nor were we visiting the store together, nor were we pausing occasionally over the cartoon channels on our way to the twenty-four-hour cable news networks. Grudgingly, I agreed to partake in the proffered treatment. Or, rather, I woke one morning and found that I was already participating, whether I meant to or not.

  It was determined that there were fewer “temptations” on the island, especially in the middle of the week. I was, therefore, returned to my island address. Among my many dispiriting obligations in this period were meetings of a certain kind at the Unitarian Universalist church. The nefarious modernist architect (alluded to earlier) designed this edifice. He managed, in fact, to make our Unitarian Universalist church look startlingly like an enormous gravestone.

  My wife drove me to the first such meeting.

  Perhaps it is important to describe my beautiful wife of forty-eight years, Helen Morehouse Van Deusen. Helen has bad feet, as I have earlier mentioned, and she is too skinny for her own good, but she dresses like this is a day on which to be elegant, no matter which day it is, and this likely means that she wears too many dark colors for our island, which generally prefers the bright shades favored by depressive grandmothers and preteens. My wife is never without a certain dark red lipstick and she always wears pumps. She does not play golf.

  My wife is a reader; she always has her nose stuck in a book, and had I been smarter, I would have asked her if she had ever read Omega Force: Code White, by Stuart Hawkes-Mitchell. In this way, I would have gauged her knowledge of the danger that hovered all around us. However, my wife does not often read books such as Omega Force: Code White. She is more likely to be found with a novel from the nineteenth century in which a bad husband is traded in for one who rides well and has an annual income (from a dead uncle) of thirty thousand pounds a year. She does not take out books from the island library because the island doesn’t stock the sort of fare she prefers. She buys the books from a used-book shack on the mainland, and she lingers over them with a glass of white wine that never seems to be completed, and then she takes her fluffy Pekingese, Winston, and goes for a walk on the lawn. She needs to quit smoking but has not done so yet. She likes to invite young couples for the occasional lunches, and she likes to regale them with tales of artists we have met, none of whom I can remember.

  If my wife served as a foreign espionage agent, then she did so unbeknownst to me. If she were a foreign agent, then she was the best-dressed late-middle-aged foreign espionage agent ever in the history of the United States. To my knowledge, she did not know karate chops or kicks, could not garrote a Pakistani fanatic, and would not be willing to drink red sorghum beer or yak butter tea in order to impress local warlords of the Nile River Basin or the Communist Nepalese.

  In the car, out in front of the Unitarian Universalist church, my wife said, “James, promise not to bother them with all these ideas of yours.”

  Now, it’s possible that the seizures I’d been having had ushered in aphasia. If you believe the medical personnel, I did suffer from brain wave anomalies that could spontaneously clear up under certain ascetic conditions. It’s also possible that I’d had more serious problems during the inaugural period of my researches than originally known. It’s possible that I’d begun to have a rare and mysterious mood disorder, owing to the fact that I felt I knew certain things and was prevented from investigating further by the medical establishment. Whichever the cause, I had found for a time that it was no longer important for me to respond when addressed by most people, among these my wife.

  “James, you can fool everyone else, but you cannot fool me. Are you going to feel that you have to talk about your crackpot nonsense? I have no objection to your believing Whatever you want to believe, but I don’t want you making life difficult for me by creating a reputation for yourself as a—”

  I did not wish to cause my wife distress. I decided that I would not trouble my family further, and if this meant that I would allow dark-complected persons to land an aircraft on our island, from which they would then lift off and air-drop an incendiary device over the Plum Island Animal Disease Center, so that wind-borne pathogens such as the Ebola virus were then widely dispersed, killing tens of thousands in, for example, nearby East Hampton, who was I to interfere? Helen helped me from the car because I was not walking well. It is not unreasonable to suppose that I had fallen victim to Plum Island’s most celebrated export, and my joints were swelling, and my dendrites were occluded, and my ability to express myself was fading away into the autumnal night.

  The meeting at the Unitarian Universalist church featured three persons. Myself; a one-armed man, none other than the caretaker for the Hilliards; and a history teacher from the local school, who advertised right at the outset that she had no interest in talking about any higher power. And she didn’t care, she said, if the meetings recommended that she believe in such a higher power. This higher power, she opined, was a tinkerer and malingerer who had no purpose but to figure out who were the haves and who were the have-nots and to make sure that the have-nots suffered for the rest of their lives. The only way to improve in this program, she said, was to pull yourself up by your damned bootstraps. By way of example, she pointed at the one-armed man. Th
e implication seemed to be that it was time for him to stop feeling sorry for himself because he had only the one arm. It was time for him to experience a little gratitude that he had any arms at all! There were people out there, she told this one-armed man, who had to eat with their feet. Have you begun practicing with your feet? she asked the one-armed man, because you should have a plan in place, in case something happens to your other arm. What if you lose that arm too, and you have to eat with your feet, and you have to breathe into some computer contraption to make words on a computer screen appear, and then you would be grateful, I bet, that you used to be a one-armed man. You should be grateful, she said to the one-armed man, who as yet had not made even one retort. I mean, look at him, she said, and here she began gesturing at me. Anyone around here could tell you, she said, he used to be someone. Ask around. He used to work for the federal government, somewhere in the government, but look at him now, and who’s to blame for what he did, there’s no one to blame but him, and now he can barely walk, and he can barely put a sentence together, so it’s a good thing that he has a lot of money, because if he didn’t have people to look after him, he’d just be in assisted living somewhere, complaining that his retarded son doesn’t visit enough. Understand what I’m saying to you? I’m saying to you that you have to be grateful. Look at me. Do you think I waste time worrying about the things I don’t have? Do you think I waste time thinking I could have done more with my teaching than teach a bunch of kids on an island where they don’t even give a rat’s ass for anything they’re getting in school? Do you think I waste time thinking about that? No! I’ll tell you what I do! I count my blessings! I count my blessings that I’m not like him! All those men I could have ended up with, I’m glad I’m through with them! I’m glad I’m done with all of it!

  After she completed this elucidation of the self-help program that had brought us together here, she asked if anyone else had a “burning desire” to speak. The one-armed man and I looked guiltily at each other. Perhaps both of us would have had plenty to say, but now it seemed that a response would only prolong the misery. We sat in an uncomfortable silence for a good three or four minutes. The schoolteacher riffled through sheets of program-approved literature, as if this were going to ensure our continued submission, and then she said, “Why don’t we all say the serenity prayer?”

  Since the meeting ended thirty-eight minutes early, I had a good long time to sit on an old mossy bench in front of the Unitarian Universalist church. The one-armed man kept me company for a while, and what he told me, when he had a chance to speak without fear of retribution, was that he was thinking of leaving the island. The same people, the same roads, the same two ways of getting to town, the same enmities, the same movement to the seasons, the same waves breaking over the same rocks, the same unforgiving winter. He didn’t see what there was in it for him. He didn’t mind pruning rosebushes, and the little cottage that the Hilliards had built for him was charming enough, and that architect who designed it sure was a friendly guy, but—

  7. Modernism and Its Links to Contemporary Terror

  The architect! He was the link! That was it! I could scarcely wait for the one-armed man, with his shirtsleeve flapping like a semaphore, to go on his disconsolate way up the block. Why hadn’t I thought about it before? While waiting for my wife to return, I was on pins and needles! The missing causal agent, the conspirator sine qua non, the person who almost certainly passed secrets, and who knew what else, to the dark-complected hostiles, was now revealed to me. I experience these revelations, you see, as nearly catastrophic in their gravity. My ability to reason as methodically as I do must be considered a blessing from above, perhaps from the higher power. Though the schoolteacher at the meeting might argue that a higher power had no place in her newfound life as a motivational speaker, I could but conclude that there was indeed intelligent design, benevolent intelligent design, especially in the matter of conspiracy detection.

  Fact: Who was the leading architect on the island? I couldn’t remember his name, and the more I thought about it, the more this blockage seemed evidence of the fact that I was being drugged by a person or persons who were anxious to keep me from learning the truth about the Omega Force. And yet even without his legal name, it was clear that the leading architect on the island, by virtue of the number of structures lately built, plans submitted to the zoning board, was the modernist architect I have already discussed. His buildings, it goes without saying, were monstrosities that looked more like the gun emplacements and bunkers of the dilapidated military structure on our island than they looked like proper houses. There were always show-offy adornments like round windows, carved wooden eggs hanging from the eaves, newel posts shaped like lighthouses.

  Fact: Who, by virtue of his drafting and planning, had best access to the necessary topographical maps and surveys of the island? Certainly, here again, the conclusion is obvious. The modernist architect was the belle of the ball, invited to every party, every luncheon, where he was inevitably cooed over by the women of the island. This despite the fact that there were serious character flaws to the modernist architect. For example, no muscle tone. The modernist architect did not take regular exercise in any of the popular ways. I had never seen him playing tennis. I had never seen him playing golf. I had never seen him during the adult swim hour at the country club pool. I had never even seen him taking a walk. The modernist architect had no wife. And this was perhaps the most damning thing that could be said about him. A wife is the very foundation of a successful moral life. Of course, I have no objection to alternate lifestyles, and I knew a number of highly effective persons during my days in the Nixon and Ford presidential administrations who may or may not have dabbled in alternate lifestyles. They were fine men who went on to excel in the public sector. But there was no place for alternate lifestyles on the island, which exists primarily as a site for the socialization of the young.

  Fact: The refusal to join one of the country clubs is a judgment of the traditions of the island.

  Fact: There is the matter of his own house, which is in the Japanese style, low and squat, with only tiny windows facing the road and large hedges covered over in bittersweet. I was long repelled in my attempts to lay eyes on the structure, until late in one off-season I sneaked onto the property to assess its ugliness and vulgarity. I’m sure he used chopsticks when dining and served paltry vegetarian fare like bean curd and chickpeas.

  Fact: All of his designs, or many of them at any rate, featured the architectural form known as the loggia. What are these loggias but ways to insist that persons go outside, and once they are outside, are they not susceptible to any airborne virus that should happen by? Such as bovine herpes mammillitis? Or vesicular stomatitis? Or Newcastle disease? Weren’t the loggias attempts to create a vulnerability in island dwellers such that they were helpless in the event of foreign attack?

  Fact: The modernist architect (I remember now, he does have a name, Gerald F. Laughlin IV) occasionally wore a T-shirt emblazoned with the logo CCCP. Frankly, I find T-shirt wearing dubious among middle-aged persons, but that is neither here nor there. For those of you who have followed me so far, it is without doubt the case that the T-shirt in question signifies allegiance to the former USSR, or Soviet Union, as these are the letters, in the Cyrillic alphabet, for that despotic regime. On several occasions, he was seen wearing this T-shirt on the ferryboat, in full view of impressionable young people. The Soviet Union? They killed millions! Millions of people were starved by the thugs of the Soviet Union, and the modernist architect had the audacity to wear a T-shirt with this acronym emblazoned upon it? The CCCP was experimenting with biological agents to be used against our nation as early as the 1950s. Naturally, it was necessary for us to experiment to keep up, especially in the area of biological agents intended for use against livestock in their country.

  I concede that this evidence about the architect was circumstantial and would remain so, unless I was able to procure a photograph or perhaps a vi
deo recording of him delivering nautical maps and site plans and so forth to dark-complected persons. I had as yet no such material evidence. Furthermore, it would be difficult for me to obtain such things in my present condition, viz., reliant upon either a pair of canes or the dreaded walker, at least until I should recover a little from my seizure disorder.

  In the absence of direct evidence, I will confine myself today to a brief overview of modernism in general and its links to, well, if not terror, suspicious political behavior. According to my analysis, the kinds of personalities who would practice modernism, as I’m defining it, would certainly do such dreadful things as tip off dark-complected persons to the presence of a biological-weapons laboratory within six miles of the island on which I was dozing (on an outdoor bench) and waiting for my wife. There was that poet, for example, the fascist one; and there was that other poet, the father of so-called modernist poetry, a vicious anti-Semite; there was, as well, the Irish novelist, alcoholic with a schizophrenic daughter; Thomas Mann, definitely a homosexual if not a Communist, and he abandoned his own country during the war; Fyodor Dostoyevsky, certainly opposed to the czar, and thus a Communist. French artists and writers, that’s like shooting fish in the proverbial barrel. You have Sartre, certainly a Communist, his wife, certainly a Communist. Anyone who is French is Communist. If they aided the Vichy government, they were Communists, and if they opposed the Vichy government and aided the Resistance, they were Communists too. Anyone from Africa is a Communist, because all postcolonial writing is proto-Communist or pro-Communist or crypto-Communist; any Muslim artistic endeavor, such as the writing of African Americans, if it’s in support of the Nation of Islam, might as well be Communist. Anyone who is tenured at any of the Ivy League universities is a Communist, and so forth. I could go on.