PART ELEVEN
I am. I think. I will.
My hands... My spirit... My sky... My forest... This earth of mine....What must I say besides? These are the words. This is the answer.
I stand here on the summit of the mountain. I lift my head and I spreadmy arms. This, my body and spirit, this is the end of the quest. Iwished to know the meaning of things. I am the meaning. I wished tofind a warrant for being. I need no warrant for being, and no word ofsanction upon my being. I am the warrant and the sanction.
It is my eyes which see, and the sight of my eyes grants beauty to theearth. It is my ears which hear, and the hearing of my ears gives itssong to the world. It is my mind which thinks, and the judgement ofmy mind is the only searchlight that can find the truth. It is mywill which chooses, and the choice of my will is the only edict I mustrespect.
Many words have been granted me, and some are wise, and some are false,but only three are holy: "I will it!"
Whatever road I take, the guiding star is within me; the guiding starand the loadstone which point the way. They point in but one direction.They point to me.
I know not if this earth on which I stand is the core of the universeor if it is but a speck of dust lost in eternity. I know not and Icare not. For I know what happiness is possible to me on earth. And myhappiness needs no higher aim to vindicate it. My happiness is notthe means to any end. It is the end. It is its own goal. It is its ownpurpose.
Neither am I the means to any end others may wish to accomplish. I amnot a tool for their use. I am not a servant of their needs. I am not abandage for their wounds. I am not a sacrifice on their altars.
I am a man. This miracle of me is mine to own and keep, and mine toguard, and mine to use, and mine to kneel before!
I do not surrender my treasures, nor do I share them. The fortune of myspirit is not to be blown into coins of brass and flung to the winds asalms for the poor of the spirit. I guard my treasures: my thought, mywill, my freedom. And the greatest of these is freedom.
I owe nothing to my brothers, nor do I gather debts from them. I asknone to live for me, nor do I live for any others. I covet no man'ssoul, nor is my soul theirs to covet.
I am neither foe nor friend to my brothers, but such as each of themshall deserve of me. And to earn my love, my brothers must do more thanto have been born. I do not grant my love without reason, nor to anychance passer-by who may wish to claim it. I honor men with my love. Buthonor is a thing to be earned.
I shall choose friends among men, but neither slaves nor masters. And Ishall choose only such as please me, and them I shall love and respect,but neither command nor obey. And we shall join our hands when we wish,or walk alone when we so desire. For in the temple of his spirit, eachman is alone. Let each man keep his temple untouched and undefiled. Thenlet him join hands with others if he wishes, but only beyond his holythreshold.
For the word "We" must never be spoken, save by one's choice and as asecond thought. This word must never be placed first within man's soul,else it becomes a monster, the root of all the evils on earth, the rootof man's torture by men, and of an unspeakable lie.
The word "We" is as lime poured over men, which sets and hardens tostone, and crushes all beneath it, and that which is white and thatwhich is black are lost equally in the grey of it. It is the word bywhich the depraved steal the virtue of the good, by which the weak stealthe might of the strong, by which the fools steal the wisdom of thesages.
What is my joy if all hands, even the unclean, can reach into it? Whatis my wisdom, if even the fools can dictate to me? What is my freedom,if all creatures, even the botched and the impotent, are my masters?What is my life, if I am but to bow, to agree and to obey?
But I am done with this creed of corruption.
I am done with the monster of "We," the word of serfdom, of plunder, ofmisery, falsehood and shame.
And now I see the face of god, and I raise this god over the earth, thisgod whom men have sought since men came into being, this god who willgrant them joy and peace and pride.
This god, this one word:
"I."