There was a gap in the wagons. They rode through it into the eddying calm of the center. Behind, a wagon rolled to close the gap.
“Dismount,” said Aleksi in a low voice. Tess dismounted, because she was suddenly so tired that she could not think. “Were you hit anywhere?” he demanded. She shook her head. Her hands shook. Without that helmet, she would have been pierced through the skull. Bile rose in her throat.
“Aleksi, I’m going to be sick.”
“Here.” He held her by the shoulders while she threw up. A moment later Anatoly appeared, and with him, his grandmother. A moment later Sonia ran up and knelt beside Tess.
“Tess—? Gods!”
“No, I’m all right. Just sick.”
“Ah.” Sonia rose as quickly. “Mother Sakhalin, come. We need all the women old enough to shoot placed along the wagons. We need to prop up shields for cover. Boys to the herds. Some kind of screen—some wagons upended, I think—for the littlest ones.” They hurried off.
“Aleksi,” said Anatoly. “Come with me. The women can hold them off for the time, but I’d like your opinion—should we sortie out to that other troop before the ones we routed have time to regroup?”
Aleksi patted Tess on the shoulder and let go of her and went away. Tess sank back on her heels and groped for her water flask at her belt. It was punctured, empty. She stood, feeling dizzy and swept in waves by nausea, and staggered over to Zhashi. Thank God, the flask on Zhashi was unharmed. Tess gulped down water and then cupped water in her hands to let the mare drink. She raised her head.
Chaos. No, not chaos at all. Herds bleated; a string of boys pressed the animals into one corner of the square. The song of bows serenaded her. Sweet-faced Katerina crouched down beside a limp khaja soldier tumbled in the dirt and stabbed him up under the palate, making sure he was dead. Three silver-haired men turned a fourth wagon up onto its side and herded a troop of little children inside. Tess recognized Mira among their number. The little girl was sober-eyed, not crying, clutching the hand of an older child, who carried a baby. There, at the edge of the wagons, two young women staggered in from the outside. Each wore a wicker shield bound onto her back, and between them they carried a jaran man. Tess saw his lips move and realized that he was alive, though wounded. They laid him on the ground next to another injured jaran man, and as they turned and went to run back out, Tess realized that they were Galina and Diana.
Katerina kicked a khaja soldier and unbuckled his helmet and threw it to one side. She glanced up. “Oh. Aunt Tess! Can you help me strip these two? And then help me drag them out of here?”
The man was dead. Thoroughly dead. Perhaps Tess had killed him herself. Tess felt a haze descend on her as she stripped his armor, his weapons, anything valuable from him. She and Katya dragged the two dead bodies over to one side where a considerable pile of the khaja dead had built up, brought here by other children.
“I think we got all of the ones who were inside the wagons,” said Katya, sounding as practical as her mother.
“You’d better check again,” said Tess. The girl nodded and trotted off. Tess went back to find Zhashi, but the mare was gone. Over to one side a set of wagons had been formed into a square within the square, and here the wounded congregated. Young Galina sat on the ground between two men. She held her left arm with her right hand, gripping her arm where an arrow protruded from the flesh. Her face was pale, her lips set tight with pain, but she talked with the men. Cara moved among the wounded: Niko mirrored her over on the other side, and Juli Danov shouted at someone—gods, it was one of the actors, the chestnut-haired girl—who was offering water to the wounded but spilling more than she gave because her hands shook so badly. Gwyn Jones knelt beside a black-haired jaran man, delicately turning an arrow out of his side by easing the unbroken silk of his red shirt back along the twisting path of entry. Farther, at the outer line of wagons, women stood and shot, a rhythmic, deadly pattern.
“Aunt Tess! Aunt Tess!” It was little Ivan, leading Zhashi. “I looked for you. Here is Zhashi.”
“Thank you, Vania.” Tess let Zhashi blow in her face and watched as the mare’s ears pricked up. She kissed Ivan on the cheek. “I want you to go make sure the little children are well. Where is Kolia?”
“But, Aunt Tess, I’m supposed to help with the herds.”
“Take care of yourself, then.” He ran off.
“Tess!” Aleksi hailed her. He rode over to her. “We’re about to make another sortie.”
“Another sortie?” She swung up on Zhashi more from habit than volition.
“We drove them back once, but they’ve re-formed again. That crazed woman Ursula says we should let the women hunt them.”
“Hunt them?” They trotted across to the far wall of wagons, where the remains of Anatoly’s jahar milled, forming up for another attack.
“Hunt them,” Aleksi repeated. “Distance, with arrows. She’s right, you know. I know Bakhtiian and the other men would never consider archery in battle, but they’re wrong. We’re not fighting feuds any longer, that it matters as a point of honor. I suggested to Sakhalin that we use archers. They’re only khaja, after all.”
Tess was greeted by the sight of about fifty mounted women, bows ready, each with a sheaf of arrows at her back, ready to ride out with the men. They wore their heavy felt coats as protection. Anatoly’s little sister rode with them and—to Tess’s surprise—Vera Veselov and little Valye Usova.
Anatoly, deep in discussion with Ursula nodded; his face lit with a grin. “Now, you women,” he said, and then flushed as if at his own presumption in ordering them about. “You will fire over our heads into their ranks. Once we engage, if there is room, circle them and fire into the rear where most of their archers stand.” He waved Aleksi over, and Tess and Aleksi took position in the second rank. Mother Sakhalin yelled out the order to move the wagons: a string of men, boys, girls, and women—some actors among the group, Tess saw—rolled four wagons aside. With a shout, Anatoly led the jahar out at a trot.
The khaja infantry unit had marched close enough to fire arrows into the square. The khaja soldiers jeered and let out a great shout at the appearance of the jaran riders.
The jahar broke into a canter. The women began to shoot. The sky went black with arrows. They broke into a gallop, and then hit the front rank of the khaja fighters and she was too busy to see what became of the women.
Until the khaja line disintegrated in front of her. The soldiers ran. Their entire back had vanished, shot through, decimated with archery fire. Out to either flank, Tess saw the women riding in circles, firing off to their left, cutting down the fleeing soldiers from behind with their devastating fire. The men rode the enemy down and cut them to ribbons. Not many escaped back into the hills.
The jahar re-formed quickly, but it took longer to get the women back in order. They rode a great circle around the wagons, and not one arrow disturbed their circuit. The women ululated in triumph. Tess caught a glimpse of Vera Veselov, her face lit with an expression of uncanny glee, as if she had come to life again after so many years in a daze.
“What have we started?” Tess asked Aleksi.
“By the gods,” said Aleksi. His face shone. “So will they all fall before us.”
The first outriders of the segment of wagons that traveled just behind them reached them soon after. These scouts reported that sporadic arrow fire had impeded the progress of the train, but several forays up into the hills had rooted out—killed or chased away—the khaja rebels. Mother Sakhalin ordered the wagons back into line, but there was delay with the wounded, and the road to be cleared behind them, so in the end, with night lowering down on them, they stayed where they were. They built the debris into a pyre and burned the twenty dead, as was fitting. One of the archers had died—a heart-faced young woman whose mother wept because the girl had left no children to follow her. Tess did not watch the pyre burn, but others attended it all night long.
The khaja dead they left lying, except to clear
them from the road and the camp. Of the rest, perhaps two-thirds of the fighters had received some kind of wound, although Tess had come through unscathed—this ascertained in a ruthless examination by Cara. Four children had been wounded by arrow fire. Tess was too tired to eat, but Aleksi made her eat anyway, and she slept next to him and the children under one of the wagons.
At dawn, Tess woke thinking at first that she had just had a bad dream, but when she staggered out from under the wagon, it all came back to her, much too clearly. The battle itself—her fighting, the skirmish—was all a blur, except for the man she had whipped across the face and the line of khaja soldiers wiped out by arrows in front of her. But it was the memory of Katerina stabbing the injured khaja soldier that haunted her. So young to be forced to such a horrible act, and the pragmatic nature of the act made it worse in a way: not done with rage, or viciousness, or sadism, but simply because it was necessary, and little Katya was the one available to do it.
Katerina came by at that moment, looking nothing like a murderer. “Aunt Tess, did you see? Part of the army is riding back in. Mama says a scout came in, and that it’s Cousin Ilya.”
“The scout is Ilya?” Tess felt hazy, a little dizzy.
Katerina’s face pulled in concern. “Have you eaten anything?” She put an arm around Tess’s waist. “Here, come with me. You’re looking very pale. The doctor said to bring you to her anyway. I’ll get you something to eat. Wait, here’s a bit of cheese.”
It was glariss cheese. The sight of it made Tess’s stomach turn, and then Katya, all unknowing, lifted the crumbling, pungent mass up to Tess’s face, just to be helpful. It reeked.
“Excuse me,” said Tess politely. She clapped a hand over her mouth and ran to get outside the wagons so she could throw up with some privacy. But the run, the adrenaline, the abrupt removal of the awful cheese, shut off some reflex. She fell to her knees, gagged, choked, coughed, but nothing came up. She sat back with her eyes shut and tried to concentrate on anything but the sick feeling in her stomach.
“Tess!”
Of course Ilya would find her like this. She opened her eyes to see him dismiss his entourage and run over to her.
“Dr. Hierakis said you weren’t hurt.” He sounded angry as he knelt beside her. She sighed and leaned against him and buried her face in his shirt. Thank the gods that he smelled good to her. She took deep breaths, inhaling his scent.
“I’m not hurt,” she said into his chest.
He tilted her head up and studied her with a frown. “You look pale. Anatoly says you fought well yesterday.” He offered her the praise grudgingly enough. “I know that—” He stopped, grimacing, and she could see what it cost him to go on. “—I have been unfair about this in the past. It’s only that I fear to lose you, Tess. But Anatoly needs new riders to make up those he lost in the battle. Archery in battle! Gods.” He lapsed into silence and just held her close.
She watched him. He had a slight smile on his face and a distant look in his eyes, a gleam, plotting, thinking, working out how he could use this new development to his advantage. As he would. Ilya would not let tradition hold him back now that the advantages of using mounted archers were so clearly shown, and now that someone else, not him, had been forced to use them for the first time. It was not his innovation; he himself had not broken with tradition. But now that it was done, now that Mother Sakhalin had seen her own granddaughter ride into battle, seen the women used so effectively, seen the devastating effect on a khaja unit larger than their own, Ilya could exploit it.
“So,” he said at last, his attention returning to her, “I will put no obstacles in your way if you wish to ride with Anatoly’s jahar.”
Gods, what he must have gone through to bring himself to this point. “But, Ilya, I have my own jahar. My envoys.”
“Yes,” he agreed, looking guilty, looking trapped.
She chuckled. “I know you offered that only to get me out of riding in the army.”
“That’s not the only reason,” he exclaimed, looking offended. “It’s perfectly true you’re well suited to it, but you have always been so determined to ride with the army to fight.”
She sighed and stood up, and he stood with her, still holding her. “Yes, well, and I fought. I’ll fight again, if I have to. But I’ve decided that a jahar of envoys is exactly what I want. Eventually, with good enough diplomats, your army won’t have to fight at all. Think how many lives that will spare. Ilya, why are you here, anyway?”
He surveyed the field of battle, the square of wagons even now unwinding into the line of march. The last smoke from the pyre dissipated into the cool morning air. “We discovered that a whole unit of khaja soldiers had circled wide around our line and gone back into the hills. Of course we came back, knowing that they might threaten the wagon train. With the line of wagons drawn out so thin along this narrow road, and the rearguard such a distance behind—” He shrugged. “But what were you doing out here, my love?”
“Trying to throw up.”
He shook his head, looking perplexed, and cupped her face in his hands. “You aren’t well? I was sick the first time I fought in a battle, too.”
Tess smiled. “Were you? That gives me hope.” She paused and thought back, calculating. She was over two months along, Earth standard. Surely that wasn’t too early to know. Aleksi had already guessed. “I’m pregnant.”
He let go of her as if she burned him. Then, an instant later, he hugged her so tightly that she could not breathe. She wheezed. He pushed her back, holding her by the shoulders, and just gazed at her. He was alight. He was radiant. He blazed.
“Oh, God,” said Tess, “I’d forgotten how insufferably smug you get when you’re happy.”
He laughed and kissed her, right out there in the open where anyone could see them. “Oh, Tess.” That was all. They just stood there for a while, not needing to say anything more.
Beyond, the first of the wagons lurched forward. “I’d better go,” said Tess. “Mother Sakhalin doesn’t wait for anyone, including me.”
“No. You’ll ride with me today.”
“Will I?” she asked, trying not to laugh at his autocratic tone.
“Yes, you will. If it pleases you to do so, my wife.”
“It pleases me to do so, my husband.” They went to find their horses.
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
DIANA WOULD NEVER HAVE believed that she could sleep so soundly after living through a battle, but she did. She slept snuggled in between Quinn and Oriana, for comfort, under one of the wagons, for safety, and if she dreamed, she did not recall it in the morning. Anatoly spent all night on guard. In the morning they hitched up the wagons and went on as if nothing untoward had happened: nothing except the lingering ash of the funeral pyre and the mound of khaja dead. She was happy to leave it behind.
And yet, handling the reins of the wagon, she felt—not happy, not that, but valiant. She had seen the worst, she had run out into the line of fire with no weapon but only a shield to protect her, and she had saved lives. Terror had racked her, but she had done it anyway. And the worst terror hadn’t been on her own account. The worst had been seeing Anatoly ride out of the protective square of wagons straight into the other army. Had she even breathed between the time of watching him ride away and seeing him return?
All day the wagons rolled on through a narrow valley whose heights rose in stark green relief against the hazy blue of the sky. In the late afternoon they drew up in a broad field that bordered a rushing stream, and the word came down the line that they were allowed to set up tents, for the sake of the wounded. Diana delivered her wagon to a Veselov girl and then walked back along the train to find the Company, to see if Owen intended to rehearse tonight. Although surely even Owen would allow them a break after what had happened yesterday.
She had to stop, though, to stare. Green still, the heights, ragged and steep and falling down to the flat bed of the valley through which they rode. In the forty days since Anatoly had returned,
their road had followed this kind of path: long valleys snaking along river bottoms through the hills and then a sudden ascent over a pass only to dip down again into another green valley. The heat grew stronger each day; perhaps the summer would soon bake the hills brown, but for now, it was beautiful. They had been harried a bit, but yesterday had been the first time a real skirmish had hit the train. Pockets of the basins were dense with cultivated fields and villages, but most of it seemed to be pastureland. The only city she had actually seen had been the ruined Farisa city, but Anatoly assured her that far greater cities, Habakar cities, lay ahead of them.
And there he came, leading his horse along the line of wagons, looking for her.
It was a little embarrassing, how quickly she smiled, seeing him. It was gratifying, how quickly he smiled, seeing her. He loved her. He said so every day, and she believed him. Because it was true. Because a Sakhalin prince had no cause to lie—that much she had learned about the jaran and their various tribes—and because Anatoly wasn’t the kind of person who needed or wanted to lie.
He came up to her, glanced around, and thought better of kissing her in public where anyone could see. But his eyes kissed her by the very light that shone in them, and his smile promised more.
“My heart,” she said in khush. “You must be tired.”
“Not when I see you.” Definitely promising more. “My grandmother wants to see you.”
If she had actually tripped and fallen, the sudden plunge could not have jarred her more. “But I don’t want to see your grandmother,” she said without thinking. The old harridan practically haunted her, asking every other day at least about supper arrangements and where Diana’s tent was sited in the Company camp. Making sure her precious grandson was being treated with the honor he deserved.