So the toadies were there. Vindictively setting the jaw-muscles. Taking folks for fools! But, yes they would testify. Their injury was great. Let his silk-lined broadcloth look to itself. They meant to rip it from his back today. Think of it, folks! We rip up broadcloth and step on Stetsons. Costly walking-sticks can be made into wood for the cook stove.
Hattie was a goddess for the moment. She sat between the Cherubim on the altar of destruction. She chewed her gum and gloated. Those who held themselves above me, shall be abased. Him who pastored over a thousand shall rule over none. Even as I. His name shall be a hissing, and Hattie’s shall be the hand that struck the harp. Selah. Let the world hiss with Hattie. If he but looked with longing! But no, only hurt and scorn was in his eyes. Hurt that so many of his old cronies surrounded her and scorn of herself. Let him ache! If she could but ache him more!
Court was set. The waves of pang that palpitated in the room did not reach up to the judge’s bench. No. His honor took his seat as a walrus would among a bed of clams. He sat like a brooding thought with his eyes outside the room. It was just another day with the clerk and the stenographer.
“Hattie Pearson, pwop wah blah!”
John saw the smirking anticipation on the faces of the lawyers, the Court attendants, the white spectators, and felt as if he had fallen down a foul latrine.
“Now, how was it, Hattie?” The look around the room at the other whites, as if to say, “Now listen close. You’re going to hear something rich. These niggers!”
“So you wanta quit yo’ husband, do you, Hattie? How come? Wasn’t he all right? Is that him? Why he looks like he oughta be okeh. Had too many women, eh? Didn’t see you enough, is that it? Ha! ha! couldn’t you get yo’self another man on the side? What you worrying about a divorce for? Why didn’t you g’wan leave him and get yourself somebody else? You got divorce in yo’ heels, ain’t you? You must have the next one already picked out. Ha! ha! Bet he ain’t worth the sixty dollars.”
So it went on with each of the witnesses in turn. John laughed grimly to himself at the squirming of prospective witnesses who would have fled but found it too late. One by one he saw four of his erstwhile intimates take the stand against him.
Finally the Clerk cast about for defense witnesses, “Say, Reverend, where’s yo’ witnesses?”
“Ain’t got none.”
“Why? Couldn’t you find anybody to witness for you?”
“Yes suh, but who kin tell de truth and swear dat he know uh man ain’t done nothin’ lak dat?”
The Court laughed, but sobered with a certain respect.
“You want to enter a plea of denial?”
“Naw suh. Ahm goin’ tuh say Ah did it all.”
“You don’t care, then, if Hattie has her freedom?”
“Naw suh, Ah sho don’t. Matters uh difference tuh me whut she do, uh where she go.”
The fun was over in the Court. Whisperings. Formalities. Papers. It was all over. He saw former friends slinking off to avoid his eye. Hattie was outside, flourishing her papers with over-relish. Loud talking and waving them as if they were a certificate of her virtue.
Hambo’s short sturdy legs overtook John as he went down the marble steps, and Hambo’s big hand smacked his shoulders.
“Well, you, ole mullet-headed tumble-bug, you!”
John eyed him wearily, “How come didn’t but four uh y’all testify aginst me? Ah thought Ah had five friends.”
“You———!” Hambo went into a fit of most obscene swearing, “why didn’t you call me fuh uh witness? Didn’t Ah tell yuh to?”
“Yeah, but—”
“Take yo’ but out my face. Ah wanted tuh git up dere and talk some chat so bad ’til de seat wuz burning me. Ah wanted tuh tell ’bout de mens Ah’ve knowed Hattie tuh have. She could make up uh ’scursion train all by herself. Ah wanted tuh tell de judge ’bout all dat conjure and all dem roots she been workin’ on you. Feedin’ you outa her body—.”
“And dat’s how come Ah didn’t have ’em tuh call yuh. Ah didn’t want de white folks tuh hear ’bout nothin’ lak dat. Dey knows too much ’bout us as it is, but dey some things dey ain’t tuh know. Dey’s some strings on our harp fuh us tuh play on and sing all tuh ourselves. Dey thinks wese all ignorant as it is, and dey thinks wese all alike, and dat dey knows us inside and out, but you know better. Dey wouldn’t make no great ’miration if you had uh tole ’em Hattie had all dem mens. Dey spectin’ dat. Dey wouldn’t zarn ’tween uh woman lak Hattie and one lak Lucy, uh yo’ wife befo’ she died. Dey thinks all colored folks is de same dat way. De only difference dey makes is ’tween uh nigger dat works hard and don’t sass ’em, and one dat don’t. De hard worker is uh good nigger. De loafer is bad. Otherwise wese all de same. Dass how come Ah got up and said, ‘Yeah, Ah done it,’ ’cause dey b’lieved it anyhow, but dey b’lieved de same thing ’bout all de rest.”
It was late afternoon when John stumbled out of the courthouse with his freedom that had been granted to Hattie.
“You tellin’ de truth, John,” Hambo agreed at last, “but don’t you come puttin’ me in wid dem other crabs. Don’t you come talkin’ tuh me lak dat! Ah knock yuh so dead dat yuh can’t eben fall. Dey’ll have tuh push yuh over. Pick up dem damn big foots uh your’n and come on up tuh mah house. Ah got barbecued spare-ribs and death puddin’ ready cooked.”
On the way over there was a great deal of surface chatter out of Hambo. John kept silent except when he had to answer. At Hambo’s gate he paused. “Ain’t it funny, Hambo, you know all uhbout me. Us been friends fuh twenty years. Don’t it look funny, dat all mah ole pleasures done got tuh be new sins? Maybe iss ’cause Ahm gittin’ ole. Havin’ women didn’t useter be no sin. Jus’ got sinful since Ah got ole.”
“’Tain’t de sin so much, John. You know our people is jus’ lak uh passle uh crabs in uh basket. De minute dey see one climbin’ up too high, de rest of ’em reach up and grab ’em and pull ’im back. Dey ain’t gonna let nobody git nowhere if dey kin he’p it.”
CHAPTER 24
Second Sunday in the month came rolling around. Pastoral day. Covenant meeting. Communion service. But before all this must come Conference meeting on the Saturday night before, and John knew and everybody knew what the important business of the meeting would be. Zion Hope, after seventeen years, was going to vote on a pastor. Was John Pearson to be given a vote of confidence? Not if Hattie’s faction prevailed. Would Felton Cozy receive the call? Not if Hambo and the John Pearson faction was still alive.
Everybody was there. John opened the meeting as usual, then stepped down and turned the chair over to Deacon Hoffman. “I know we all come here tuhnight tuh discuss some things. Ah’d ruther not tuh preside. Deacon Hoffman.”
Hoffman took the chair. “Y’all know whut we come here for. Less get thru wid de most urgent business and den we kin take up new business.”
He fumbled with the pile of hymnals on the table and waited. There was an uneasy shuffling of feet all over the room, but nobody arose to put a motion. Finally Hattie got up about the middle of the center aisle.
“Brother Cherman.”
“Sister Pearson.”
“Ah wants tuh lay charges ’ginst mah husband.”
Hambo was on his feet.
“Brother Cherman! Brother Cherman!”
“Sister Pearson got de flo’, Brer Hambo.”
“She ain’t got no business wid it. She’s entirely out uh order.”
“She ain’t. She says she got charges tuh make uhginst her husband. Dat’s whut uh Conference meetin’ is for in uh Baptis’ Church—tuh hear charges and tuh rectify, ain’t it?”
“Yeah,” Hambo answered, “but dis woman ain’t got no husband in dis church, Brother Cherman. We ain’t got no right listenin’ tuh nothin’ she got tuh say. G’wan back where you come from, Hattie, and try to improve up from uh turpentine still.”
“Dat’s right, too,” shouted Sister Watson, “been divorced two weeks tuh mah knowin’.”
“Better set down, Sister Pearson, ’til we kin git dis straight,” Hoffman said, reluctantly.
“Iss straight already,” Andrew Berry shouted, “when uh woman done gone tuh de cotehouse and divorcted uh man she done got her satisfaction. She ain’t got no mo’ tuh say. Let de mess drop. Ah ain’t goin’ tuh hear it.”
“And another thing,” Hambo put in. “Elder Pearson, you oughta git up and tell whut you found in yo’ bed. Course he beat uh, and ’tain’t uh man under de sound uh mah voice but whut wouldn’t uh done de same. G’wan tell it, Rev’und.”
“Naw, no use tuh sturry up de stink. Let it rest. Y’all g’wan do whut yuh want tuh.”
There was a long, uncomfortable silence.
“G’wan talk, Harris, you and de rest dat’s so anxious tuh ground-mole de pastor, but be sho and tell where you wuz yo’self when you seen him do all of dis y’all talkin’ ’bout. Be sho and tell dat too. Humph! Youse jes’ ez deep in de mud ez he is in de mire.”
Another long silence. Finally Hoffman said, “De hour is growin’ late. Less table dis discussion and open up de house fuh new business.”
Soon the meeting was over. John, Hambo and Berry walked home together.
“If Harris and dem had uh called dat meetin’ de nex’ day after cote, it would a been uh smuttie rub, nelly eve’ybody would have been uhginst yuh, but two weeks is too long fuh colored tuh hold onto dey feeling. Most of ’em don’t keer one way uh ’nother by now.”
“Still plenty of ’em is ’ginst me,” John spoke at last. “It made mah flesh crawl—Ah felt it so when Ah wuz in dere.”
“But dey ain’t got no guts. Dey wants tuh do dey work under cover. Dey got tuh fight war if dey wants tuh win dis battle, and dey needs cannon-guns. You can’t fight war wid uh brick.”
John said nothing. His words had been very few since his divorce. He was going about learning old truths for himself as all men must, and the knowledge he got burnt his insides like acid. All his years as pastor at Zion Hope he had felt borne up on a silken coverlet of friendship, but the trial had shown him that he reclined upon a board, thinly disguised. Hambo had tried vainly to bring him around. A few others had done their share. A few he recognized among the congregation as foes, avowedly; a few friends in the same degree. The rest he saw would fall in line and toady if he triumphed, and execrate him if he failed. He felt inside as if he had been taking calomel. The world had suddenly turned cold. It was not new and shiny and full of laughter. Mouldy, maggoty, full of suck-holes—one had to watch out for one’s feet. Lucy must have had good eyes. She had seen so much and told him so much it had wearied him, but she hadn’t seen all this. Maybe she had, and spared him. She would. Always spreading carpets for his feet and breaking off the points of thorns. But and oh, her likes were no more on this earth! People whom he had never injured snatched at his shoddy bits of carpet and sharpened the thorns for his flesh.
Nobody pushed him uphill, but everybody was willing to lend a hand to the downward shove. Oh for the wings, for the wings of a dove! That he might see no more what men’s faces held!
Sunday afternoon, the sunlight filtered thru the colored glass on the packed and hushed church. Women all in white. Three huge bouquets of red hibiscus below him and behind the covered Communion table. As he stood looking down into the open Bible and upon the snow-white table, his feelings ran riot over his body. “He that soppeth in the dish with me.” He knew he could not preach that Last Supper. Not today. Not for many days to come. He turned the pages while he swallowed the lump in his throat and raised:
Beloved, Beloved, now are we the sons of God
And it doth not yet appear what we shall be
But we know, but we know
When He shall appear, when He shall appear
We shall be like Him
We shall see Him as He is.
The audience sang with him. They always sang with him well because group singers follow the leader.
Then he began in a clear, calm voice.
“Brothers and Sisters: De song we jus’ sung, and seein’ so many uh y’all out here tuh day, it reaches me in uh most particular manner. It wakes up uh whole family uh thoughts, and Ahm gointer speak tuh yuh outa de fullness uh mah heart. Ah want yuh tuh pray wid me whilst Ah break de bread uh life fuh de nourishment uh yo’ souls.
“Our theme this morning is the wounds of Jesus. When the father shall ast, ‘What are these wounds in thine hand?’ He shall answer, ‘Those are they with which I was wounded in the house of my friends.’ Zach. 13:6.
“We read in the 53rd Chapter of Isaiah where He was wounded for our transgressions and bruised for our iniquities, and the apostle Peter affirms that His blood was spilt from before the foundation of the world.
“I have seen gamblers wounded. I have seen desperadoes wounded; thieves and robbers and every other kind of characters, law-breakers and each one had a reason for his wounds. Some of them was unthoughtful, and some for being overbearing, and some by the doctor’s knife, but all wounds disfigure a person.
“Jesus was not unthoughtful. He was not overbearing. He was never a bully. He was never sick. He was never a criminal before the law and yet He was wounded. Now, a man usually gets wounded in the midst of his enemies, but this man was wounded, says the text, in the house of His friends. It is not your enemies that harm you all the time. Watch that close friend. Every believer in Christ is considered His friend, and every sin we commit is a wound to Jesus. The blues we play in our homes is a club to beat up Jesus, and these social card parties.
Jesus have always loved us from the foundation of the world
When God
Stood out on the apex of His power
Before the hammers of creation
Fell upon the anvils of Time and hammered out the ribs of the earth
Before He made any ropes
By the breath of fire
And set the boundaries of the ocean by the gravity of His
power
When God said, ha!
Let us make man
And the elders upon the altar cried, ha!
If you make man, ha!
He will sin
God my master, ha!
Father!! Ha-aa!
I am the teeth of time
That comprehended de dust of de earth
And weighed de hills in scales
That painted de rainbow dat marks de end of de parting storm
Measured de seas in de holler of my hand
That held de elements in a unbroken chain of controllment.
Make man, ha!
If he sin I will redeem him
I’ll break de chasm of hell
Where de fire’s never quenched
I’ll go into de grave
Where de worm never dies, Ah!
So God A ’mighty, Ha!
Got His stuff together
He dipped some water out of de mighty deep
He got Him a handful of dirt
From de foundation sills of de earth
He seized a thimble full of breath
From de drums of de wind, ha!
God, my master!
Now I’m ready to make man
Aa-aah!
Who shall I make him after? Ha!
Worlds within worlds begin to wheel and roll
De Sun, Ah!
Gethered up de fiery skirts of her garments
And wheeled around de throne, Ah!
Saying, Ah, make man after me, ha!
God gazed upon the sun
And sent her back to her blood-red socket
And shook His head, ha!
De Moon, ha!
Grabbed up de reins of de tides.
And dragged a thousand seas behind her
As she walked around de throne
Ah-h, please make man after me
But God said “NO!”
De stars bust out from their diamond sockets
And circled de glitterin’ throne cryin’
A-aah! Make m
an after me
God said, “NO!”
I’ll make man in my own image, ha!
I’ll put him in de garden
And Jesus said, ha!
And if he sin,
I’ll go his bond before yo’ mighty throne
Ah, He was yo’ friend
He made us all, ha!
Delegates to de judgment convention
Ah!
Faith hasn’t got no eyes, but she’ long-legged
But take de spy-glass of Faith
And look into dat upper room
When you are alone to yourself
When yo’ heart is burnt with fire, ha!
When de blood is lopin’ thru yo’ veins
Like de iron monasters (monsters) on de rail
Look into dat upper chamber, ha!
We notice at de supper table
As He gazed upon His friends, ha!
His eyes flowin’ wid tears, ha! He said
“My soul is exceedingly sorrowful unto death, ha!
For this night, ha!
One of you shall betray me, ha!
It were not a Roman officer, ha!
It were not a centurion
But one of you