Copyright © 2012 by Swsin Nielsen
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Nielsen, Susin, 1964-
The reluctant journal of Henry K. Larsen / by Susin Nielsen.
For ages 11-14.
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Acknowledgments
I’ve never met author Wally Lamb, but it was a line in his book I Know This Much Is True that inspired me to write this story. I thank him from afar. I also read and enjoyed Bret Hart’s book Hitman, which gave me good insight into the world of professional wrestling.
For their expertise and time, I must thank Chris Matisz, the Reach For The Top coach at Kitsilano Secondary School; Catherine MacMillan, counselor extraordinaire at Kitsilano Secondary School; Constable Lindsey Houghton, media relations officer with the Vancouver Police Department; Gordon Kopelow for his expert advice on all things legal; and Laurie Hollingdrake, a gifted therapist. Thanks also to Ian Weir for a good wrestling joke.
I also want to thank my early readers for their extremely helpful feedback: Göran and Oskar Fernlund, Robin Fowler, Sam Woodbridge, Susan Juby, and all of the bibliophiles from Christianne Hayward’s Lyceum.
Then there are the usual suspects: my wonderful agent, Hilary McMahon, and the entire team at Tundra, with special thanks going to Kathryn Cole, who, along with Sue Tate, championed my manuscript; my fantastic editor, Sue Tate; Tara Walker, for her valuable suggestions; Kelly Hill, for another wonderful cover; Pamela Osti, my terrific publicist; and Kathy Lowinger, without whom I would not have found such a happy home at Tundra.
And last but far from least: a very special thank-you to Seve Williams. Seve will probably one day rule the world, but in the meantime, he generously let me use his recycling for profit/fruit fly story, and for that I am eternally grateful.
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
Acknowledgments
Friday, January 18
Tuesday, January 29
Friday, February 1
Saturday, February 2
Monday, February 4
Tuesday, February 5
Wednesday, February 6
Friday, February 8
Wednesday, February 13
Friday, February 22
Saturday, February 23
Tuesday, February 26
Friday, March 8
Tuesday, March 19
Wednesday, March 20
Thursday, March 21
Friday, March 22
Tuesday, March 26
Sunday, March 31
Monday, April 1
Tuesday, April 2
Thursday, April 4
Monday, April 8
Wednesday, April 10
Friday, April 12
Wednesday, May 1
FRIDAY, JANUARY 18
INTRIGUING FACT: The word “psychology” comes from the Greek word “psyche.” It means the study of the mind.
I don’t want anyone to study my mind. That’s just creepy. But Dad says I no longer have a choice.
Cecil doesn’t look like a psychologist. For one thing, his name is Cecil. On his door at the Coastal Health Center, a plastic plaque says DR. LEVINE, but when I called him that at our first session, he said, “Please, call me Cecil.” When I got home, I looked up his name, and do you know what it means? Dim-sighted or blind.
Not a good sign.
Cecil has long stringy gray hair, and he uses a scrunchy to pull it back. A scrunchy! Today, at our third session, he was wearing yet another tie-dyed shirt, purple this time. Hey Cecil, I wanted to say, the ’60s called. They want their look back!
He says, “How does that make you feel?” a lot, like we’re on a TV show and not real life. He also says, “Holy Moly” a lot, as in “Holy Moly, you’re fifteen minutes late, two weeks in a row!”
I suspect Cecil is not the crème de la crème of psychologists. For one thing, he is free. Dad says the Province of British Columbia pays him, but I don’t think they pay him very much. His office is tiny and cramped, and the furniture is cheap, chipped, and stained. Also, it looks like he hasn’t been able to afford new clothes since 1969.
We haven’t talked about IT yet. He tries to steer me there. He asks leading questions. But when he does, I just respond in Robot-Voice: “I. Do Not Know. What You Mean. Humanoid.” And he backs right off.
Robot-Voice is what landed me here in the first place. After the whole thing with Mom at Christmas, my furies came back, and I started speaking in Robot 24/7. Right through the move to Vancouver, even. The thing about speaking Robot is, it strips emotion out of everything. “It. Is All. In Monotone.” It helps me. But by the eighth day of Robot-Henry, it was freaking everyone else out, so Dad made my first appointment. And he made me keep it, even after I’d gone back to being plain old Henry.
Cecil tries everything in his limited tool kit to get me to talk about IT. For example, last week I mentioned in passing that I like to write, so today he gave me this notebook. “I thought you might like a private place to record your thoughts and feelings. Journaling can be quite therapeutic.”
I told him I didn’t think “journaling” was a word. When I got home, I threw the notebook in the garbage.
Then I got it out later, but only because I was bored.
The thing is, Cecil knows all about IT. He had a long talk with my dad before my first session, and I’d bet my Great Dane poster that he Googled the whole thing afterward, too. And once he was done reading everything he could find, I bet he wondered why my parents didn’t get me into therapy right after IT happened, seven and a half months ago.
Holy Moly! I can imagine him thinking. What took them so long?
SATURDAY, JANUARY 19
Pizza for dinner again tonight. That’s three nights in a row. I guess you could say it’s one of the perks of bachelor life.
We watched “Saturday Night Smash-Up” while we ate. Dad had two slices. I ate the rest. Halfway through dinner, I had to change out of my pants and into my pajama bottoms so my wobblies could have a little more room to breathe.
When “Saturday Night Smash-Up” was over, I asked Dad to measure me. Still five foot three.
Thirteen years old, and I’m still a pygmy.
Midnight
My bedroom smells like curry, thanks to what’s-his-head next door.
2:00 a.m.
 
; I can hear Dad snoring.
2:30 a.m.
This journal is stupid.
MONDAY, JANUARY 21
INTRIGUING FACT: Killer whales travel around in pods. Each pod has a distinct set of clicking sounds, whistles, and cries. It helps them stick together.
It works the same in the first year of high school. A bunch of scared kids from a bunch of different elementary schools show up in September, and, within weeks, they form their pods. The jocks join teams; the nerds join clubs, like “chess” or “computer”; the stoners find a spot behind some bushes, just off school property.
So when a new kid shows up in January, nobody really notices. They already have their pods. And that suits me just fine. I’m happy to be like Luna, the killer whale that strayed from his pod and swam around by himself for a couple of years, off the coast of Vancouver Island. After all, he seemed pretty content. He had a perfectly good life.
Well. Until he was accidentally chopped to bits by a boat’s propeller.
But here’s the problem. There’s always at least one other kid who is also swimming solo, because none of the pods will let him in.
At Port Salish Secondary, that kid was my brother, Jesse.
At Trafalgar Secondary, that kid is Farley Wong.
I’m pretty sure he picked up my scent the day I started here, two weeks ago. But today he went in for the kill.
“Greetings and welcome to our planet, Earthling,” he said to me this morning, with a thick Chinese accent. I was putting my math book in my locker, which, as luck would have it, is only one door down from his. “Farley Wong.” He held out his hand.
“Henry,” I replied, skipping my last name. He tried to do an elaborate handshake, but I lost him after the first couple of moves.
“Where did you transfer from?”
“Vancouver Island,” I replied. Best to keep it vague.
“We have three classes together,” he said, counting them on his fingers. “Enriched Math, Phys Ed, and Enriched English.”
I knew this already, only because he’s pretty hard to miss. He’s the nerdiest-looking kid I have ever seen.
I know, I know. I’m one to talk. Pop-Pop likes to joke that I have so many freckles, it looks like I got a tan through a screen door. And yes, my hair is red and curly. And yes, I am short. And yes, I have to buy my clothes in “husky” size, which is a nice word for “fat.”
But I don’t advertise my nerdiness. Farley looks like the model for that nerd action figure you can buy in novelty stores. He has thick Coke-bottle glasses. He wears short-sleeved button-up shirts and lines the pockets with plastic protectors, so the pens he keeps clipped to them won’t leak on his clothes. His pants are always ironed, with a neat crease down the middle. He belts them up high, so the waist stops just under his nipples.
And he carries a briefcase!
“You want to walk to English together?” he said. “I know a shortcut.” He gazed at me, his magnified eyes full of hope.
I’m not dumb. I knew that being seen with Farley could be like committing social hari-kari. In high school, it’s all about first impressions. Just look at what happened to Jesse.
But, on the other hand …
Farley is the first kid in seven months to talk to me like I’m a regular human being. So I heard myself say, “Sure.”
Farley talked the whole way to class about a show called “Battlestar Galactica.”
“I have the entire series on DVD. It’s frakking brilliant.” The more he talked, the more bits of spittle formed at the sides of his mouth.
We rounded a corner, and a big guy in jeans that hung well below his bum bumped into Farley, accidentally-on-purpose. I recognized him; his locker is across the hall from mine.
“Nice slacks, Fartley,” he said. Then he kicked me. Not too hard, but still. “Sorry,” he said. “I thought it was Kick a Ginger Day.”
“I’ve seen that episode of ‘South Park,’ too,” I retorted. “Years ago. Pretty stale joke, don’t you think?”
Okay. I didn’t say that. But I thought it.
“That’s Troy Vasic,” Farley said after he’d sauntered away. “You wanna watch out for him.” He was quiet for the rest of our walk. “Oh, well,” he said when we reached English class. “I guess there’s a Troy Vasic at every school.”
True, I thought.
But at Jesse’s school, his name was Scott Marlin.
Farley latched on to me like a leech for the rest of the day. In the afternoon, we had gym together. I’m not very good at sports, but compared to Farley, I’m an Olympic athlete. He’s awful. The funny thing is, he doesn’t seem to care. We played volleyball, and when he finally managed to hit the ball over the net, he shouted, “Yes!” even though it was way out-of-bounds.
And guess what? He wore his gym shorts pulled up to his nipples, too.
So, you could say Farley is my first new friend. But it’s kind of like the first car you buy. It gets you from A to B, but from the moment you own it, you’re constantly dreaming of the day you can get an upgrade.
11:00 p.m.
The water stain on my bedroom ceiling looks like a puffer fish.
1:00 a.m.
I think I’ll write a little story about Jesse. Cecil would probably pee in his pants if he knew. But he never will because I will never tell him.
Why Jesse Larsen Was Never Accepted into a Pod
by Henry K. Larsen
The first week of high school at Port Salish Secondary, the new kids did “bonding activities” with the older kids – bowling parties, pizza parties, that kind of thing. It was the school’s way of making them feel welcome. On Friday, each new kid had to get up onstage in the auditorium and say a few words, in front of the entire school.
When it was Jesse’s turn, he said he liked playing on his PS3, reading manga, and watching the Global Wrestling Federation’s “Saturday Night Smash-Up.”
It was a little dorky maybe, but no big deal. So he couldn’t figure out why the entire audience was laughing like crazy.
When he left the stage, the principal took him aside and said, “Jesse Larsen, XYZ.”
“What?”
“XYZ. Examine Your Zipper!”
Jesse looked down. His fly had been unzipped during his entire speech.
Again – no big deal.
Except it was.
Mom had told Jesse the week before that she refused to do any of his laundry unless he put it into the hamper. And Jesse never got around to it. So when he discovered that morning that he was out of clean Y-Fronts, he decided that no underwear was better than dirty underwear.
That’s right. He went to school commando. Meaning, every single kid at Port Salish Secondary didn’t see his underwear through his fly.
They saw his you-know-whats: his family jewels, his nuggets, his love spuds. His balls.
A kid in the front row took pictures with his phone. I was still in elementary school and didn’t have a cell phone, but a lot of kids in my class did. So, along with every other kid in Port Salish and beyond, I saw the photographic evidence within the hour.
The school went into overdrive, of course. “This is a form of bullying, and we won’t tolerate bullying of any kind,” blah-blah-blah.
The photos got taken down pretty fast, at least the ones that were posted on Facebook. But the other stuff – the stuff the grown-ups couldn’t see or maybe didn’t want to see – had just begun.
Scott Marlin gave Jesse his nickname, the one that stuck through his first two years of high school, until he put an end to it for good.
Ballsack.
For almost two full years, the boy formerly known as Jesse was called Ballsack. Some kids even called him that in front of the teachers, who thought they were calling him Balzac, after some dead French writer.
I’m not saying Jesse didn’t have his quirks. Scott would have found other things to tease him about. His zits, which were bad. His obsession with the Global Wrestling Federation. The way he giggled when he got nervous.
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But the Ballsack event was the biggie. It was the match that lit the fuse that exploded in our faces last June.
As my Enriched English teacher, Mr. Schell, would say: “That, Henry, is what we call an inciting incident.”
THURSDAY, JANUARY 24
I stand corrected. Farley does have a pod.
It was lunchtime, and we were at our lockers. Troy was across the hall with a couple of friends. When he closed his locker and turned around, he was wearing a pair of “nerd” glasses – the dollar-store kind with thick black plastic rims and fake magnified eyeballs stuck on the lenses.
Meaning, they made him look a lot like Farley.
“Hey, guys,” Troy said, trying to imitate Farley’s Chinese accent. “How’s it hanging?”
His knuckle-dragging friends cracked up. A couple of girls started to laugh a little, too. You could tell they were trying not to, but it was hard. Troy’s impersonation was pretty good.
This was Farley’s brilliant comeback: “So funny I forgot to laugh.”
But nobody else forgot to laugh, because the real Farley sounded a lot like Troy’s fake Farley. Even I had to swallow an involuntary snort.
Troy and his friends walked away. From the back, they looked like triplets – their jean legs bunched at the ankles, the waists stopping midway down their butts, their shoulders sloped.
“What a bunch of Neanderthals,” I said as I turned back to Farley. That’s when I saw the look on his face.
I knew that look. I’d seen it on Jesse’s face lots of times, after he’d had another run-in with Scott. It was a complicated look. Part I hate Troy, part I hate myself.
“I was born with poor eyesight,” he said. “It’s not like there’s anything I can do about it.”
“At least you weren’t born with two heads, like this Mexican guy in the 1900s,” I told him as I closed my locker door. “Or with hypertrichosis.”
“What’s hypertrichosis?”
“It’s when your body produces crazy amounts of hair, even on your face. You’re like a human werewolf.”