Grimm drew Occam to a halt. Zeke was half crying the broken words of an old lullaby. Grimm wondered who had managed to hurt his feelings this early in the morning. He watched the lad, trying to decide what was the best way to approach him without offending the child’s dignity. As he hesitated in the shadows, any decision on his part was rendered obsolete as the crackling of brush and bracken alerted him to an intruder. He scanned the surrounding forest, but before he had detected the source, a snarling animal sprang from the woods a few feet behind Zeke. A great, mangy mountain cat burst onto the bank of the loch, thick white spittle foaming on its snout. It snarled, baring lethal white fangs. Zeke turned, and his song warbled to a stop. His eyes widened in horror.
Grimm instantly flung himself from Occam’s back, yanked his sgain dubh from his thigh, and drew it across his hand, causing blood to well in his palm. In less than a heartbeat, the sight of the crimson beads roused the Viking warrior and set the Berserker free.
Moving with inhuman speed, he snatched Zeke up and tossed him on his stallion and smacked Occam on the rump. Then he did what he so despised … he lost time.
“Somebody help!” Zeke shrieked as he rode into the bailey on Occam’s back. “You must help Grimm!”
Hatchard burst from the castle to find Zeke perched on Occam’s back, hanging on to his mane with whitened knuckles. “Where?” he shouted.
“The loch! There’s a crazed mountain cat and it almost ate me and he threw me on the horse and I rode by myself but it attacked Grimm and he’s going to be hurt!”
Hatchard sped off for the loch, unaware of two other people who’d been alerted by the shouting and were hot on his heels.
Hatchard found Grimm standing motionless, a black shadow against the misty red sky. He was facing the water, standing amidst the scraps of what had once been an animal. His arms and face were covered with blood.
“Gavrael,” Hatchard said quietly, using his real name in hopes of reaching the man within the beast.
Grimm did not reply. His chest rose and fell rapidly. His body was pumped up with the massive quantities of oxygen a Berserker inhaled to compensate for the preternatural rage. The veins in his corded forearms pulsed dark blue against his skin, and, Hatchard marveled, he seemed twice as large as he normally was. Hatchard had seen Grimm in the thick of Berserker rage several times when he’d trained the fosterling, but the mature Grimm wore it far more dangerously than the stripling lad had.
“Gavrael Roderick Icarus McIllioch,” Hatchard said. He approached him from the side, trying to enter Grimm’s line of vision in as innocuous a manner as possible. Behind him, two figures stopped in the shadows of the forest. One of them gasped softly and echoed the name.
“Gavrael, it’s me, Hatchard,” Hatchard repeated gently.
Grimm turned and looked directly at the chief man-at-arms. The warrior’s blue eyes were incandescent, glowing like banked coals, and Hatchard received a disconcerting lesson in what it felt like to have someone look straight through him.
A strangled noise behind him compelled Hatchard’s attention. Turning, he realized Zeke had trailed him.
“Ohmigod,” Zeke breathed. He trundled closer, peering intently at the ground, then paused mere inches from Grimm. His eyes widened enormously as he scanned the small bits of what had once been a rabid mountain cat, savage enough to shred a grown man and, driven by the blood sickness, mad enough to attempt it. His astonished gaze drifted upward to Grimm’s brilliant blue eyes, and he nearly rose on his tiptoes, staring. “He’s a Berserker!” Zeke breathed reverently. “Look, his eyes are glowing! They do exist!”
“Fetch Quinn, Zeke. Now,” Hatchard commanded. “Bring no one else but Quinn, no matter what. Do you understand? And not a word of this to anyone!”
Zeke stole one last worshiping look. “Aye,” he said, then fled to get Quinn.
CHAPTER 18
“I TRULY DOUBT HE RIPPED THE ANIMAL TO PIECES, Zeke. It isn’t healthy to exaggerate,” Jillian reprimanded, masking her amusement to protect the boy’s sensitive feelings.
“I didn’t exaggerate,” Zeke said passionately, “I told the truth! I was down by the loch and a rabid mountain cat attacked me and Grimm threw me on his horse and caught the beastie in mid-leap and killed it with one flick o’ his wrist! He’s a Berserker, he is! I knew he was special! Hmmph!” The little boy snorted. “He doesn’t need to be a puny laird—he’s king o’ the warriors! He’s a legend!”
Hatchard took Zeke firmly by the arm and tugged him away from Jillian. “Go find your mother, lad, and do it now.” He fixed Zeke with a glower that dared him to disobey, then snorted as the boy fled the room. He met Jillian’s gaze and shrugged. “You know how wee lads are. They must have their fairy tales.”
“Is Grimm all right?” Jillian asked breathlessly. Her entire body ached in a most pleasurable way. Every move was a subtle reminder of the things he’d done to her, the things she’d begged him to do before the night had ended.
“Right as rain,” Hatchard replied dryly. “The animal was indeed rabid, but don’t worry, it didn’t manage to bite him.”
“Did Grimm kill it?” A rabid mountain cat could decimate an entire herd of sheep in less than a fortnight. They wouldn’t usually attack a man, but apparently Zeke had been small enough and the beast had been sick enough to try it.
“Yes,” Hatchard replied tersely. “He and Quinn are burying it now,” he lied with cool aplomb. There hadn’t been enough left to bury, but neither love nor gold could have persuaded Hatchard to tell Jillian that. He winced inwardly. Had the infected mountain cat bitten Zeke even once, the boy would have been contaminated by the ferocious animal’s blood sickness and died within days, foaming at the mouth in excruciating agony. Praise the saints Grimm had been there, and praise Odin for his special talents, or Caithness would have been singing funeral dirges and weeping.
“Zeke rode Occam all by himself,” Jillian marveled aloud.
Hatchard glanced up and smiled faintly. “That he did, and it saved his life, milady.”
Jillian’s expression was thoughtful as she headed for the door. “If Grimm hadn’t believed in the lad enough to try to teach him, Zeke might never have been able to escape.”
“Where are you going?” Hatchard said quickly.
Jillian paused at the entrance. “Why, to find Grimm, of course.” To tell him she was wrong to have doubted him. To see his face, to glimpse the newfound intimacy in his eyes.
“Milady, leave him be for a time. He and Quinn are talking and he needs to be alone.”
In a flash Jillian felt thirteen again, excluded from the company of the man she loved. “Did he say that? That he needed to be alone?”
“He’s washing up in the loch,” Hatchard said. “Just give him time, all right?”
Jillian sighed. She would wait for him to come to her.
“Grimm, I didn’t want to say anything before, but I paid that innkeeper a small fortune to get rid of the butcher,” Quinn said as he paced the edge of the loch. Grimm rose from the icy water, finally clean again, and scowled at the remains of the animal.
Quinn caught his look and said, “Don’t even start. You saved his life, Grimm. I won’t hear one word of your self-loathing for being a Berserker. It’s a gift, do you hear me? A gift!”
Grimm exhaled dismally and made no response.
Quinn continued where he’d left off. “As I was saying, I paid the man. If he didn’t get rid of the butcher, then I’m going to be heading back to Durrkesh to get some answers.”
Grimm waved his hand, dismissing Quinn’s concern. “Doona bother, Quinn. It wasn’t the butcher.”
“What? What do you mean, it wasn’t the butcher?”
“It wasn’t even the chicken. It was the whisky.”
Quinn blinked rapidly several times. “Then why did you say it was the chicken?”
“I trust you, Quinn. I doona know Ramsay. The poison was root of thmsynne. The root loses its poisonous properties if simmered, broiled,
or roasted. It must be crushed and diluted, and its effect is enhanced by alcohol. Besides, I found the remainder of the bottle downstairs the next morning. Whoever it was wasn’t very thorough.”
“But I didn’t drink any whisky with you,” Quinn protested.
“You didn’t know you drank whisky.” Grimm gave him a wry, apologetic twist of his lips. “I dumped my final mug of whisky, poured from the drugged bottle, over the chicken to get rid of it because I was sick of drinking and getting ready to leave. The poison is odorless until digested, and even my senses couldn’t pick it up. Once it mixes with the body’s fluids, however, it takes on a noxious odor.”
“Christ, man!” Quinn gave him a dark look. “Of all the luck. So who do you think did it?”
Grimm studied him intently. “I’ve given that a lot of thought over the past few days. The only thing I can conclude is that the McKane have ferreted me out again somehow.”
“Don’t they know poison doesn’t work on a Berserker?”
“They’ve never succeeded in taking one alive to question.”
“So they may not know what feats one of you is capable of? Even they don’t know how to kill you?”
“Correct.”
Quinn mulled this new information over a moment. Then his eyes clouded. “If that’s the case, if the McKane have indeed found you again, Grimm, what’s to stop them from following you to Caithness?” Quinn asked carefully. “Again.”
Grimm raised his head with a stricken look.
Jillian didn’t see Grimm the rest of the day. Quinn informed her that he’d gone riding and would likely not return until nightfall. Night came and the castle retired. Peering out the casement window, she spied Occam wandering the bailey. Grimm had returned.
Draping a plush woolen over her chemise, Jillian slipped from her chambers. The castle was quiet, its occupants sleeping.
“Jillian.”
Jillian stopped in mid-step. She turned, suppressing her impatience. She needed to see Grimm, to touch him again, to investigate their newfound intimacy and to revel in her womanhood.
Kaley Twillow was hurrying down the corridor toward her, tugging a wrapper around her shoulders in the chilly air. The older woman’s chestnut curls were unpinned and rumpled, and her face was flushed with sleep.
“I heard your door open,” Kaley said. “Did you want something from the kitchen? You should have called for me. I’ll be happy to get it for you. What did you want? Shall I prepare you a mug of warm milk? Some bread and honey?”
Jillian demurred and patted Kaley’s shoulder reassuringly. “Don’t worry, Kaley. You go back to bed. I’ll get it.”
“It’s no problem. I was considering a snack myself.” Worried eyes flickered over Jillian’s impromptu robe of soft woolen.
“Kaley,” Jillian tried again, “you needn’t worry about me. I’ll be fine. Really, I’m just a bit restless and—”
“You’re going to see Grimm.”
Jillian flushed. “I must. I need to speak with him. I can’t sleep. There are things I must say—”
“That can’t wait until the morning light?” Kaley eyed the sheer chemise peeking from beneath the woolen. “You’re not even properly dressed,” she said reprovingly. “If you find him clad in that, you’ll get more than you bargained for.”
“You don’t understand,” Jillian said, sighing.
“Oh, but my dear lass, I do. I saw the remains of the Greathall this morning.”
Jillian swallowed and said nothing.
“Shall we cut to the quick of it?” Kaley said tersely. “I’m not so old that I can’t recall what it’s like. I loved a man like him once. I understand what you’re feeling, perhaps even more so than you do, so let me put it into plain words. Quinn is sexual. Ramsay Logan is sexual, and the power they exude promises a rollicking good time.” Kaley took Jillian’s hands in hers and regarded her soberly. “But Grimm Roderick, ah, he’s an entirely different animal, he’s not merely sexual. He drips sensual power, and Jillian, sensual power can reshape a woman.”
“You do know what I mean!”
“I’m flesh and blood too, lass.” Kaley laid a gentle hand against her cheek. “Jillian, I’ve watched you mature with pride, love, and lately a touch of fear. I’m proud because you have a good, fearless heart and a strong will. I’m fearful because your will can make you headstrong beyond compare. Heed my words before you commit yourself to a course that is irrevocable: Sexual men can be forgotten, but a sensual man lingers in a woman’s heart forever.”
“Oh, Kaley, it’s too late,” Jillian confessed. “He’s in there already.”
Kaley drew her into her arms. “I was afraid of that. Jillian, what if he leaves you? How will you handle that? How will you go on? A man like Quinn would never leave. A man like Grimm, well, the men who are larger than life are also the most dangerous to a woman. Grimm is unpredictable.”
“Do you regret yours?”
“My what?”
“Your man like Grimm.”
Kaley’s features softened rapturously, and her expression was answer enough.
“And there you have it,” Jillian pointed out gently. “Kaley, if I knew that I could only have a few nights in that man’s arms or nothing, I would take those magic nights and use them to keep me warm for the rest of my life.”
Kaley swallowed audibly, her eyes filled with empathy. She smiled faintly. “I understand, lass,” she said finally.
“Good night, my dear Kaley. Go back to bed, and permit me the same sweet dreams you once dreamt yourself.”
“I love you, lass,” Kaley said gruffly.
“I love you too, Kaley,” Jillian replied with a smile as she slipped down the corridor to find Grimm.
Jillian entered his chambers quietly. He wasn’t there. She sighed, frustrated, and moved restlessly about his room. His chambers were spartan, as clean and disciplined as the man. Nothing was out of order except for a mussed pillow. Smiling, she stepped to the bed and picked it up to plump it. She pressed it to her face for a moment and inhaled his crisp masculine scent. Her smile faltered and became quiet wonder when she spied the tattered book the pillow had been concealing. Aesop’s Fables. It was the illustrated manuscript she’d given him nearly a dozen years before, that first snowy Christmas they’d spent together. She dropped the pillow and gathered the manuscript, stroking it tenderly with her fingertips. The pages were frayed, the illustrations faded, and little notes and oddities peeked out from the binding. He’d been carrying it all these years, tucking in his mementos, much as she had done with her volume. She cradled it wonderingly. This book told her everything she needed to know. Grimm Roderick was a warrior, a hunter, a guard, an often hard man who carried a tattered copy of Aesop’s Fables wherever he went, occasionally secreting dried flowers and verses between the pages. She flipped through, stopping at a note that had been crumpled and resmoothed dozens of times. I will be on the roof at gloaming. I must speak to you tonight, Grimm!
He’d never forgotten her.
Sensitive yet strong, capable yet vulnerable, earthy and sensual. She was hopelessly in love with him.
“I kept it.”
Jillian spun around. Once again she hadn’t heard a sound when he’d entered the room. He was framed in the doorway, his eyes dark and unreadable.
“I see that,” she replied in a hushed voice.
He crossed the room and dropped himself into a chair before the fire, his back to her. Jillian stood, hugging the precious book to her chest in silence. They were so close to the intimacy she’d always wanted from him that she was afraid to break the spell with words.
“I can’t believe you’re not bombarding me with questions,” he said carefully. “Like why did I keep it?”
“Why did you keep it, Grimm?” she asked, but it really didn’t matter why. He had carried it with him to this day, and that was enough.
“Come here, lass.”
Jillian gently placed the book on a table and approached him slowly. She hesi
tated a few paces from his side.
Grimm’s hand shot out and fastened on her wrist. “Jillian, please.” His voice was so low, it was almost inaudible.
“Please what?” she whispered.
Swiftly he flicked his wrist and she was standing before him, captured between his thighs. His eyes were fixed in the vicinity of her navel, as if he couldn’t summon the strength to raise them. “Kiss me, Jillian. Touch me. Show me I’m alive,” he whispered back.
Jillian bit her lip as his words slammed into her heart. The most valiant, intense man she’d ever known was afraid he wasn’t fully alive. He raised his head and she cried out softly at his expression. It was dark, his eyes swirling with shadows, memories of times she couldn’t even begin to comprehend. She cradled his face between her hands and kissed him, lingering on his lower lip, savoring the sensual curve.
“You’re the most incredibly alive man I’ve ever known.”
“Am I, Jillian? Am I?” he asked desperately.
How could he wonder about such a thing? His lips were warm and vital, his hands moved across her skin, awakening nerve endings she’d never suspected existed. “Why did you keep the book, Grimm?”
His hands fastened possessively on her waist. “I kept it to remind me that although there is evil, there is sometimes beauty and light. You, Jillian. You were always my light.”
Jillian’s heart soared. She’d come seeking confirmation of their fragile intimacy, to prove to herself that the tenderness and physical affection Grimm had offered her the night before had not been an isolated instance. She’d never dreamed that he might offer her words of … love? For what else were words like that if not words of love?
Her dreams were finally being realized. She’d always known there was a bond between herself and her wild-eyed beast-boy, but coming together as man and woman exceeded all her childhood fantasies.