In the lobby, a Muslim boy was tending the desk, listening to the Qawwali on the radio; he appeared to be eating ice cream to the religious verses--his head nodding while he ate, the spoon conducting the air between the container and his mouth. But it wasn't ice cream, the boy told Dr. Daruwalla; he offered the doctor a spoon and invited him to take a taste. The texture differed from that of ice cream--a cardamom-scented, saffron-colored yogurt, sweetened with sugar. There was a refrigerator full of the stuff, and Farrokh took a container and spoon for Madhu. He left the vaccine and the immune globulin in the refrigerator, after assuring himself that the boy knew better than to eat it.
When the doctor returned to his room, Madhu had discarded the towel. He tried to give her the Gujarati dessert without looking at her; probably on purpose, she made it awkward for him to hand her the spoon and container--he was sure she was pretending that she didn't know where the mosquito net opened. She sat naked in bed, eating the sweetened yogurt and watching him while he arranged his writing materials.
There was an unsteady table, a thick candle affixed by wax to a dirty ashtray, a packet of matches alongside a mosquito coil. When Farrokh had spread out his pages and smoothed his hand over the pad of fresh paper, he lit the candle and the mosquito coil and turned off the overhead light. At high speed, the ceiling fan would have disturbed his work and Madhu's mosquito net, so the doctor kept the fan on low; although this was ineffectual, he hoped that the movement of the blade might make Madhu sleepy.
"What are you doing?" the child prostitute asked him.
"Writing," he told her.
"Read it to me," Madhu asked him.
"You wouldn't understand it," Farrokh replied.
"Are you going to be sleeping?" the girl asked.
"Maybe later," said Dr. Daruwalla.
He tried to block her out of his mind, but this was difficult. She kept watching him; the sound of her spoon in the container of yogurt was as regular as the drone of the fan. Her purposeful nakedness was oppressive, but not because he was actually tempted by her; it was more that the pure evil of having sex with her (the very idea of it) was suddenly his obsession. He didn't want to have sex with her--he felt only the most passing desire for her--but the sheer obviousness of her availability was numbing to his other senses. It struck him that an evil this pure, something so clearly wrong, wasn't often presented without consequence; the horror was that it seemed there could be no harmful result of sex between them. If he permitted her to seduce him, nothing would come of it--nothing beyond what he would remember and feel guilty for, forever.
The lucky girl was not HIV-positive; besides, he happened to be traveling in India, as usual--with condoms. And Madhu wasn't a girl who would ever tell anyone; she wasn't a talker. In her present situation, she might never have the occasion to tell anyone. It was not only the child's tarnished innocence that convinced him of the purity of this evil, like almost no other evil he'd ever imagined; it was also her strident amorality--whether this had been acquired in the brothel or, hideously, taught to her by Mr. Garg. Whatever one did to her, one wouldn't pay for it--not in this life, or only in the torments of one's soul. These were the darkest thoughts that Dr. Daruwalla had ever had, but he nevertheless thought his way through them; soon he was writing again.
By the movement of his pen (for she'd never stopped watching him), Madhu seemed to sense that she'd lost him. Also, her dessert was gone. She got out of the bed and walked naked to him; she peered over his shoulder, as if she knew how to read what he was writing. The screenwriter could feel her hair against his cheek and neck.
"Read it to me--just that part," Madhu said. She leaned more firmly against him as she reached and touched the paper with her hand; she touched his last sentence. The cardamom-scented yogurt smelled sickly on her breath, and there was something like the smell of dead flowers--possibly the saffron.
The screenwriter read aloud to her: " 'Two stretcher bearers in white dhotis are running with the body of Acid Man, who is curled in a fetal position on the stretcher--his face glazed in pain, smoke still drifting from the area of his crotch.' "
Madhu made him read it again; then she said, "In what position?"
"Fetal," said Dr. Daruwalla. "Like a baby inside its mother."
"Who is Acid Man?" the child prostitute asked him.
"A man who's been scarred by acid--like Mr. Garg," Farrokh told her. At the mention of Garg's name, there wasn't even a flicker of recognition in the girl's face. The doctor refused to look at her naked body, although Madhu still clung to his shoulder; where she pressed against him, he felt himself begin to sweat.
"The smoke is coming from what area?" Madhu asked.
"From his crotch," the screenwriter replied.
"Where's that?" the child prostitute asked him.
"You know where that is, Madhu--go back to bed," he told her.
She raised one arm to show him her armpit. "The hair is growing back," she said. "You can feel it."
"I can see that it's growing back--I don't need to feel it," Farrokh replied.
"It's growing back everywhere," Madhu said.
"Go back to bed," the doctor told her.
He could tell from the change in her breathing; he knew the moment when she finally fell asleep. Then he thought it was safe to lie down on the other bed. Although he was exhausted, he'd not yet fallen asleep when he felt the first of the fleas or the bedbugs. They didn't seem to jump like fleas, and they were invisible; probably they were bedbugs. Evidently, Madhu was used to them--she hadn't noticed.
Farrokh decided that he would rather try to sleep among the bird droppings on the balcony; possibly it was cool enough outside so there wouldn't be any mosquitoes. But when the doctor stepped out on his balcony, there on the adjacent balcony was a wide-awake Martin Mills.
"There are a million things in my bed!" the missionary whispered.
"In mine, too," Farrokh replied.
"I don't know how the boy manages to sleep through all the biting and crawling!" the scholastic said.
"There are probably a million fewer things here than he's used to in Bombay," Dr. Daruwalla said.
The night sky was yielding to the dawn; soon the sky would be the same milky-tea color as the ground. Against such gray-brown tones, the white of the missionary's new bandages was startling--his mittened hand, his wrapped neck, his patched ear.
"You're quite a sight," the doctor told him.
"You should see yourself," the missionary replied. "Have you slept at all?"
Since the children were sleeping so soundly--and they'd only recently fallen asleep--the two men decided to take a tour of the town. After all, Mr. Das had warned them not to come to the circus too early, or else they'd interrupt the television watching. It being a Sunday, the doctor presumed that the televisions in all the troupe tents would be tuned to the Mahabharata; the popular Hindu epic had been broadcast every Sunday morning for more than a year--altogether, there were 93 episodes, each an hour long, and the great journey to the gates of heaven (where the epic ends) wouldn't be over until the coming summer. It was the world's most successful soap opera, depicting religion as heroic action; it was a legend with countless homilies, not to mention blindness and illegitimate births, battles and women-stealing. A record number of robberies had occurred during the broadcasts because the thieves knew that almost everyone in India would be glued to the TV. The missionary would be consumed with Christian envy, Dr. Daruwalla thought.
In the lobby, the Muslim boy was no longer eating to the Qawwali on the radio; the religious verses had put him to sleep. There was no need to wake him. In the driveway of the Government Circuit House, a half-dozen three-wheeled rickshaws were parked for the night; their drivers, all but one, were asleep in the passenger seats. The one driver who was awake was finishing his prayers when the doctor and the missionary hired his services. Through the sleeping town, they rode in the rickshaw; such peacefulness was improbable in Bombay.
By the Junagadh railroad stati
on, they saw a yellow shack where several early risers were renting bicycles. They passed a coconut plantation. They saw a sign to the zoo, with a leopard on it. They passed a mosque, a hospital, the Hotel Relief, a vegetable market and an old fort; they saw two temples, two water tanks, some mango groves and what Dr. Daruwalla said was a baobab tree--Martin Mills said it wasn't. Their driver took them to a teak forest. This was the start of the climb up Girnar Hill, the driver told them; from this point on, they would have to proceed on foot. It was a 600-meter ascent up 10,000 stone steps; it would take them about two hours, their driver said.
"Why on earth does he think we want to climb ten thousand steps for two hours?" Martin asked Farrokh. But when the doctor explained that the hill was sacred to the Jains, the Jesuit wanted to climb it.
"It's just a bunch of temples!" Dr. Daruwalla cried. The place would probably be crawling with sadhus, practicing yoga. There would be unappetizing refreshment stalls and scavenging monkeys and the repugnant evidence of human feces along the way. (There would be eagles soaring overhead, their rickshaw driver informed them.)
There was no stopping the Jesuit from his holy climb; the doctor wondered if the arduous trek was a substitute for Mass. The climb took them barely an hour and a half, largely because the scholastic walked so fast. There were monkeys nearby, and these doubtless made the missionary walk faster; after his chimp experience, Martin was wary of ape-related animals--even small ones. They saw only one eagle. They passed several sadhus, who were climbing up the holy hill as the doctor and the Jesuit were walking down. It was too early for most of the refreshment stalls to be open; at one stall, they split an orange soda between them. The doctor had to agree that the marble temples near the summit were impressive, especially the largest and the oldest, which was a Jain temple from the 12th century.
By the time they descended, they were both panting, and Dr. Daruwalla remarked that his knees were killing him; no religion was worth 10,000 steps, Farrokh said. The occasional encounters with human feces had depressed him, and during the entire hike he'd worried that their driver would abandon them and they'd be forced to walk back to town. If Farrokh had tipped the driver too much before their climb, there would be no incentive for the driver to stay; if Farrokh had tipped him too little, the driver would be too insulted to wait for them.
"It will be a miracle if our driver hasn't absconded," Farrokh told Martin. But their driver was not only waiting for them; as they came upon him, they saw that the faithful man was cleaning his rickshaw.
"You really should restrict your use of this word 'miracle,' " the missionary said; his neck bandage was beginning to unravel because the hike had made him sweat.
It was time to wake the children and take them to the circus. It vexed Farrokh that Martin Mills had waited until now to say the obvious. The scholastic would say it only once. "Dear God," the Jesuit said, "I hope we're doing the right thing."
23
LEAVING THE CHILDREN
Not Charlton Heston
For weeks after the unusual foursome had departed from the Government Circuit House in Junagadh, the rabies vaccine and the vial of immune globulin, which Dr. Daruwalla had forgotten, remained in the lobby refrigerator. One night, the Muslim boy who regularly ate the saffron-colored yogurt remembered that the unclaimed package was the doctor's medicine; everyone was afraid to touch it, but someone mustered the courage and threw it out. As for the one sock and the lone left-footed sandal, which the elephant boy had intentionally left behind, these were donated to the town hospital, although it was improbable that anyone there could use them. At the circus, Ganesh knew, neither the sock nor the sandal would be of any value to him; they weren't necessary for a cook's helper, or for a skywalker.
The cripple was a barefoot boy when he limped into the ringmaster's troupe tent on Sunday morning; it was still before 10:00, and Mr. and Mrs. Das (and at least a dozen child acrobats) were sitting cross-legged on the rugs, watching the Mahabharata on TV. Despite their hike up Girnar Hill, the doctor and the missionary had brought the children to the circus too early. No one greeted them, which made Madhu instantly awkward; she bumped into a bigger girl, who still paid no attention to her. Mrs. Das, without taking her eyes from the television, waved both her arms--a confusing signal. Did she mean for them to go away or should they sit down? The ringmaster cleared up the matter. "Sit--anywhere!" Mr. Das commanded.
Ganesh and Madhu were immediately riveted to the TV; the seriousness of the Mahabharata was obvious to them. Even beggars knew the Sunday-morning routine; they often watched the program through storefront windows. Sometimes people without televisions assembled quietly outside the open windows of those apartments where the TV was on; it didn't matter if they couldn't see the screen--they could still hear the battles and the singing. Child prostitutes, too, the doctor assumed, were familiar with the famous show. Only Martin Mills was perplexed by the visible reverence in the troupe tent; the zealot failed to recognize that everyone's attention had been captured by a religious epic.
"Is this a popular musical?" the Jesuit whispered to Dr. Daruwalla.
"It's the Mahabharata--be quiet!" Farrokh told him.
"The Mahabharata is on television?" the missionary cried. "The whole thing? It must be ten times as long as the Bible!"
"Ssshhh!" the doctor replied. Mrs. Das waved both her arms again.
There on the screen was Lord Krishna, "the dark one"--an avatar of Vishnu. The child acrobats gaped in awe; Ganesh and Madhu were transfixed. Mrs. Das rocked back and forth; she was quietly humming. Even the ringmaster hung on Krishna's every word. The sound of weeping was in the background of the scene; apparently Lord Krishna's speech was emotionally stirring.
"Who's that guy?" Martin whispered.
"Lord Krishna," whispered Dr. Daruwalla.
There went both of Mrs. Das's arms again, but the scholastic was too excited to keep quiet. Just before the show was over, the Jesuit whispered once more in the doctor's ear; the zealot felt compelled to say that Lord Krishna reminded him of Charlton Heston.
But Sunday morning at the circus was special for more reasons than the Mahabharata. It was the only morning in the week when the child acrobats didn't practice their acts, or learn new items, or even do their strength and flexibility exercises. They did do their chores; they would sweep and neaten their bed areas, and they swept and cleaned the tiny kitchen in the troupe tent. If there were sequins missing from their costumes, they would get out the old tea tins that were filled with sequins--one color per tin--and sew new sequins on their singlets.
Mrs. Das wasn't unfriendly as she introduced Madhu to these chores; nor were the other girls in the troupe tent unwelcoming to Madhu. An older girl went through the costume trunks, pulling out the singlets that she thought might fit the child prostitute. Madhu was interested in the costumes; she was even eager to try them on.
Mrs. Das confided to Dr. Daruwalla that she was happy Madhu wasn't from Kerala. "Kerala girls want too much," said the ringmaster's wife. "They expect good food all the time, and coconut hair oil."
Mr. Das spoke to Dr. Daruwalla in hushed confidentiality; Kerala girls were reputed to be a hot lay, a virtue negated by the fact that these girls would attempt to unionize everyone. The circus was no place for a Communist-party revolt; the ringmaster concurred with his wife--it was a good thing Madhu wasn't a Kerala girl. This was as close as Mr. and Mrs. Das could come to sounding reassuring--by expressing a common prejudice against people from somewhere else.
The child acrobats were not unkind to Ganesh; they simply ignored him. Martin Mills in his bandages was more interesting to them; they'd all heard about the chimp attack--many of them had seen it. The elaborately bandaged wounds excited them, although they were disappointed that Dr. Daruwalla refused to unwrap the ear; they wanted to see what was missing.
"How much? This much?" one of the acrobats asked the missionary.
"Actually," Martin replied, "I didn't see how much was missing."
This
conversation deteriorated into speculation about whether or not Gautam had swallowed the piece of earlobe. Dr. Daruwalla observed that none of the child acrobats appeared to notice how the missionary resembled Inspector Dhar, although Hindi films were a part of their world. Their interest was in the missing piece of Martin's earlobe, and whether or not the ape had eaten it.
"Chimps aren't meat eaters," said an older boy. "If Gautam swallowed it, he'd be sick this morning." Some of them, those who'd finished their chores, went to see if Gautam was sick; they insisted that the missionary come with them. Dr. Daruwalla realized that he shouldn't linger; it wouldn't do Madhu any good.
"I'll say good-bye now," the doctor told the child prostitute. "I hope that your new life is happy. Please be careful."
When she put her arms around his neck, Farrokh flinched; he thought she was going to kiss him, but he was mistaken. All she wanted to do was whisper in his ear. "Take me home," Madhu whispered. But what was "home"--what could she mean? the doctor wondered. Before he could ask her, she told him. "I want to be with Acid Man," she whispered. Just that simply, Madhu had adopted Dr. Daruwalla's name for Mr. Garg. All the screenwriter could do was take her arms from his neck and give her a worried look. Then the older girl distracted Madhu with a brightly sequined singlet--the front was red, the back orange--and Farrokh was able to slip away.
Chandra had built a bed for the elephant boy in a wing of the cook's tent; Ganesh would sleep surrounded by sacks of onions and rice--a wall of tea tins was the makeshift headboard for his bed. So that the boy wouldn't be homesick, the cook had given him a Maharashtrian calendar; there was Parvati with her elephant-headed son, Ganesh--Lord Ganesha, "the lord of hosts," the one-tusked deity.
It was hard for Farrokh to say good-bye. He asked the cook's permission to take a walk with the elephant-footed boy. They went to look at the lions and tigers, but it was well before meat-feeding time; the big cats were either asleep or cranky. Then the doctor and the cripple strolled in the avenue of troupe tents. A dwarf clown was washing his hair in a bucket, another was shaving; Farrokh was relieved that none of the clowns had tried to imitate Ganesh's limp, although Vinod had warned the boy that this was sure to happen. They paused at Mr. and Mrs. Bhagwan's tent; in front was a display of the knife thrower's knives--apparently it was knife-sharpening day for Mr. Bhagwan--and in the doorway Mrs. Bhagwan was unbraiding her long black hair, which reached nearly to her waist.