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  There was nothing to be said and no one tried. The men went down in the cage every shift and returned with blackened faces and tramped up the terraces to home in silence and even the children were subdued on their straggling way to school, never rattling sticks along the railings, nor jumping with a wild shout off walls. Mount of Zeal waited in the shadow of death.

  He was transferred to a prison further away, and on the journey he felt the road unwinding beneath the wheels of the van and this was another ‘last time’. The engine running noisily, waiting for the gates to open. The engine being switched off and the way the van shuddered and went still.

  The corridors. One two one two one two, dark blue back of the warder in front, moving fast, one two one two. He lost all sense of where he had been and where he was and where he would be going. Turn this corner, turn that, one two one two.

  Stop.

  It was different from anywhere he had been in the first prison, where he had a narrow bunk, a narrow cell in which the air itself seemed gravel-grey. This was larger, had a table, two chairs, a low bed. But the blanket was the same gravel-grey and the cupboard against the wall was brown wood, dark, varnished. The high window let in more light, though it was inner light from a courtyard between high buildings, not the true light of day.

  He sat down at the table, the energy gone out of him like fast-flowing water down a sluice. The warder came and sat opposite, opened a drawer in the table and took out a pack of playing cards. Ted looked at them, strange objects from some other universe as they seemed to be.

  ‘Game?’

  He was heavy-shouldered, large-nosed, thick-fingered. At first he seemed to speak another language but slowly the meaning came up like lettering on a screen, and Ted understood.

  He shook his head.

  ‘You’ll need to do something,’ the man said. He spoke kindly. ‘Read. Play a game with me or one of the others. You can ask for a jigsaw. You’ll need to take your mind off things.’

  But his mind was frozen and could never be freed again.

  He had been in his old prison cell alone, with all the time in the world to think, but now he was not left, they changed duties, four of them, and he was never by himself in this world again.

  He ate the food they brought, wrote a letter to Evie, one to Rose, one to William. The chaplain came in. The governor. He answered what questions they put to him and asked for nothing.

  ‘You’re entitled to a visitor, anyone of your family.’

  His heart jumped, thinking of Rose. Rose would come and he longed to see her, almost as much as he longed for the hands of the clock to move backwards.

  But he said, ‘No. Thanks. No one.’

  For he would not put her through that. It would be the cruellest thing he could ever do.

  Reuben had taken to his bed for good some weeks earlier, and though the black Bible lay on the covers or the chair beside him, he no longer read it. Rose asked if he wanted her to find a passage for him but he shook his head with vehemence. No woman had ever read his Bible aloud to him. No woman ever would.

  He started to talk a little, chatting in a soft and amiable voice to Alice, and called Evie or Rose Alice when he caught sight of them. He told Alice she was a good girl, that he had enjoyed his supper, that she baked a good loaf, that he was glad to sit beside her, and though there was never any word of love, hearing him, Rose knew that his words were full of it. Men in Mount of Zeal had never talked in a feeling way.

  She ate little. She slept little. She thought only about Ted and had to force her mind round in the opposite direction for fear of letting the terrible imaginings flow in. But what was there left to think about? The past and the dead.

  Reuben died one night. Rose found him, cold as stone, when she came down at seven. He had never asked after Ted, as he had never asked after any of the others, seeming to accept each disappearance without the need for comment. She folded his hands and set the black Bible between them.

  He had made little noise for months but the house with just Evie and herself was now silent, an emptiness where he had so long been.

  Just women in the end, Rose thought. Evie was on the settle, knitting her fingers together. She did not know how much her mother thought about what was happening, whether she had let her mind go blank, and of course no one who came in to them spoke of it. Looks were all they gave.

  18

  THAT NIGHT, WILLIAM Barnes went out onto the hill among the sheep at ten and stayed there, knowing he would not sleep in his bed. He moved among the animals, touching one here and there, went to the top of the slope and sat, walked across to the far side, and sat again. One or two of the sheep ambled nearer so that he could feel the warmth of their breath on the air around him.

  He could not think of what was to happen, nor not think of it. He thought of Ted, the day he had arrived up here, of Ted when they had carried him back half-frozen stiff, of Ted rubbing a newborn lamb with a handful of straw to make it cough the mucus from its lungs to breathe.

  He had heard the story a dozen times. What had happened had happened, that was plain enough, but that Ted had meant it to happen, had hit out meaning to kill, he could never accept. Anger might have killed, anger or accident. Not intent.

  But it had come to this in the end and nothing had made a difference.

  He could not make sense of it and for the first time in his adult life, in the darkness, he wept and then sat, simply waiting for the morning.

  They had given him food but he had not eaten, and whisky which he had asked for but not drunk. The warder had tried to tempt him with the playing cards again but Ted’s hand had been shaking so much he had knocked the pack onto the floor and they had pattered down everywhere, sliding under the table and chairs and slipping into a corner and touching the front of the wooden cupboard. They had got down on their hands and knees to retrieve them but the warder had grabbed most and made Ted get back onto the chair.

  His bed was made but he did not lie on it.

  The chaplain had been and spoken to him and then read out of the Bible, a passage about mercy which Ted knew by heart, having heard Reuben say it aloud a hundred times or more. His lips had mouthed the words with the priest, who had looked at him intently, before reading on. He had asked if there was anything he had to say, or ask, or tell, and Ted had opened his mouth to cry out in terror and anguish and pleading, but he could make no sound come.

  The governor had been and tried his best to give him courage and Ted had felt for him because of the horror his job forced him to endure but the courage did not come. All night, his bowels kept opening until he thought there could surely be no waste left in his body. But still it came.

  The doctor came, with brandy, which he was suddenly greedy for and drank down so fast it took his breath and made him choke. He held out the glass and, after hesitating, the man poured more. Ted set it on the table in front of him. When they came for him he would swallow it, at the last minute, before he was taken again down the endless narrow corridors.

  There were no corridors. He was almost asleep, and in the claws of a nightmare, sitting at the table with his head in his hands, when he was wakened by the warder’s hand on his arm, shaking him hard, and then by the opening of the door. Two men entered, a tall warder behind a man of middle height, slight, with a small moustache. He wore a dark suit with a smart white handkerchief in the top pocket.

  Ted did not know where he was or what was happening, until his own warder handed him the brandy he had kept. ‘Drink it up quick,’ he said softly. He held it for him while he drank, as if Ted were a baby, because his hand shook too much. This time, though it burned his gullet, it did not choke him.

  ‘Follow me please.’

  The wooden cupboard had been pushed sideways. It slid easily, as if oiled. Ted hesitated, then stepped behind the man into the room beyond.

  And it was here. No corridors. No keys. Here. The small room.

  Time did not stop or go backwards, time went on in the old steady way
, but so little time, seconds, before he was standing where the man told him, the chaplain was making the sign of the cross, there was another man binding his arms, then bending down, and before another second had gone there was a strap tying his legs together. His bowels heaved and opened. He screamed but the scream was muffled by the cloth bag over his head, over his face.

  A muffled click and his head cracked open, as if it were hitting stone and the light inside the bag went out.

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