“A year ago, when I wanted to be around someone like you, I had to, you know, make you up. And now …” He looked across the broad, sere expanse of the lawn, past Pye and Fellowes. A signature of foam scrawled itself across the surface of the waves. How could he begin to say how happy he had been, this last month or so, in the radiant focus of Bacon’s regard, how mistaken Bacon was in wasting that regard on him. No one as beautiful, as charming and poised and physically grand, as Bacon could possibly take an interest in him.
“If you’re asking me if you can be my sidekick,” Bacon said, “the answer’s yes. We’ll get you a mask of your own.”
“Say, thanks.”
“We’ll call you, oh, how does ‘Rusty’ sound? Rusty or Dusty.”
“Shut up.”
“Actually, Musty would be more appropriate.” When they were in bed together, Bacon was always sampling deep nostalgic drafts of Sammy’s penis, claiming it gave off the precise odor of a pile of old tarpaulins in his grandfather’s woodshed back in Muncie, Indiana. Once, the location of the shed had been given as Chillicothe, Illinois.
“I warn you.…” Sammy said, head inclined menacingly to one side, arms jutting out to execute a couple of judo chops, legs coiled to spring.
“Or, given the state of your linens, young man,” Bacon said, raising his arms to his face, already cringing, “maybe we ought seriously to consider Crusty.”
“That does it,” Sammy said, launching himself onto the bed. Bacon pretended to scream. Sammy scrambled on top of him and pinned his wrists to the bed. His face hung suspended twenty inches above Bacon’s.
“Now I’ve got you,” he said.
“Please,” said Bacon. “I’m an orphan.”
“This is what we used to do to wise guys in my neighborhood.”
Sammy pursed his lips and allowed a long strand of saliva to dangle downward, tipped by a thick bubbled bead. The bubble lowered itself like a spider on its thread until it hung just over Bacon’s face. Then Sammy reeled it back in. It had been years since he had last attempted the trick, and he was pleased to discover that his spittle retained its viscosity and he his pinpoint control of it.
“Ew,” said Bacon. He thrashed his head from side to side and struggled under the weight of Sammy on his wrists, while Sammy dangled the silvery thread over him again. Then, abruptly, Bacon stopped struggling. He looked at Sammy, level, calm, and with a dangerous glint in his eye; of course he could have freed himself easily, if he so desired, from the puny grip of his lover. His look said so. He opened his mouth. The pearl of spit dangled. Sammy cut the thread. A minute later, they lay naked beneath the four piled blankets on the narrow bed, disporting themselves in the precise manner that Dr. Fredric Wertham, in his fatal book, would one day allege to be universal among costumed heroes and their “wards.” They fell asleep holding each other, and were wakened by a smell, comforting and maternal, of boiled milk and salt water.
A number of fragmentary accounts survive of the events that transpired at Pawtaw on the sixth of December, 1941. The entry in James Love’s journal for 6 December is characteristically terse. It notes that Bob Perina had gained eighty-two yards for Princeton that afternoon, and gives details of the menu and highlights of conversation at dinner, with the rueful annotation “in rtrspct mr trivial than usl.” The guests, as always, are identified by their initials: JP, DF, TB, SC, RP, DD, QT. The entry ends with the single word DISASTER. Only the absence of any entry at all for the following day, and the preoccupation of Monday’s entry, when there was so much else going on in the world, with a visit to his attorney, give any further hint of what transpired. Roddy Parks, the composer, in an entry in his famous diary, supplies the name of another guest (his lover at the time, the photographer Donald Davis), and agrees with Love that the principal subjects of conversation at the table were a large exhibition of Fauvist paintings at the Marie Harriman Gallery, and the king of Belgium’s surprise marriage. He also notes that the oyster stew was a failure and that Donald had remarked earlier in the afternoon that something seemed to be troubling the housekeeper, whom Parks calls Ruth Appling. His account of the raid is nearly as terse as Love’s: “The police were called.”
A check of the report filed by the Monmouth County sheriff supplies the name of the final guest that weekend, a Mr. Quentin Towle, as well as a rather more detailed account of events that evening, including some insight into the impetus that sent Ruth, at long last, to the telephone. “Miss Ebling,” the report reads, “was exaspirated [sic] by the recent imprisonment of her brother Carl and happened in a bedroom to stumble upon a comic strip book of a type which she held responsible for many of the brother’s mental problems. At this point, having identified the author of said comic strip book as one of the suspects, she determined to notify the authorities of the activities taking place in the house.”
It is interesting to note that in spite of the emphasis, that night and during the course of the largely inconclusive legal proceedings that followed, on the role of the comic book in triggering Ruth Ebling’s act of retribution, the only guest at Pawtaw that evening for whom there is no existing arrest record is the book’s author.
Sammy got drunk at dinner for the first time in his life. Drunkenness came over him so slowly that at first he mistook it for the happiness of sexual fatigue. It had been a long day, one that had left a bodily imprint in his memory: the chill outside the Mayflower that morning as they waited for Mr. Love and his friends to pick them up; the elbow in his ribs, the roar and ashy smell of the Cadillac’s heater, the sharp shaft of December air blowing in through the car window on the way down; the burn of a shot of rye he accepted from John Pye’s flask; the lingering mark of Bacon’s teeth and the imprint of his thumbs on Sammy’s hips. As he sat at the dinner table, eating his stew and looking around him with an expression he knew, without anxiety, to be a stupid one, the day enveloped him in a pleasant confusion of aches and images like the one that overwhelms someone on the verge of sleep who has spent the entire day out of doors. He sank back into it and watched as the men around him unfurled the bright banners of their conversation. The wine was a ’37 Puligny-Montrachet, from a case that had been the gift, Jimmy Love said, of Paul Reynaud.
“So, when are you two leaving?”
“Tomorrow,” Bacon said. “Arriving Wednesday. I have an appearance. Someone from Republic is supposed to be coming on the train at Salt Lake City with my costume so it can be the Escapist who gets off in L.A.”
There followed some prolonged teasing of Tracy Bacon on the subject of tight pants, veering amid general amusement into the question of codpieces. Love expressed his satisfaction that Bacon would be able to keep doing the Escapist on the radio, with the broadcast originating in Los Angeles. Sammy sank deeper into his Burgundy-fueled reverie. There was a faint disturbance in the air to his back, a murmur, a muffled cry.
“But won’t they miss you at your cartoon factory?”
“What’s that?” Sammy sat up straight in his chair. “I think someone’s calling you, Mr. Love. I hear someone saying your—”
“I’m truly sorry to do this, Mr. Love,” said a clear flat voice behind Sammy. “But I’m afraid you and your ladyfriends are under arrest.”
A brief rout followed this announcement. The room filled with a bewildering variety of sheriff’s deputies, policemen from Asbury Park, state highway patrolmen, newspaper reporters, and a couple of vacationing G-men from Philly who had been drinking in the Fly Trap, a roadhouse in Sea Bright favored by representatives of coastal New Jersey law enforcement, when the word went around that they were going to flush a fairy nest out at the beach house of one of the richest men in America. When they saw how large and powerfully built many of the fairies appeared to be, not to mention how surprisingly ordinary-looking, they suffered a moment of hesitation during which Quentin Towle managed to slip out. He was later caught on the county road. Only the two big men put up any resistance at all. John Pye had been raided before, twice, and he was tired of
it. He knew that in the end it would cost him, but before he could be subdued, he managed to bloody the nose of one sheriff and break a bottle of Montrachet over the head of a second. He also smashed the camera of a photographer who sold to the Hearst papers, an act for which all of his friends were later grateful. Love, in particular, never forgot this service, and after Pye was killed in North Africa, where he had gone to drive an ambulance because the army would not take homosexuals, saw to it that Pye’s mother and sisters were provided for. As for Tracy Bacon, he did not give the question of fighting or not fighting the police a moment’s thought. Without revealing too much of the true history that he had so assiduously labored to erase and reconstitute, it can be said that Bacon had been falling afoul of the police since the age of nine, and defending himself with his fists since well before that. He waded into the writhing knot of nightsticks and broad-brimmed hats and cowering men, and began swinging. It took four men to subdue him, which they did with considerable brutality.
While Sammy, too drunk and confused to move, watched his lover and John Pye go down in a sea of tan shirts, he was engaged in a fierce struggle of his own. Someone had gotten hold of his legs and would not let go, no matter how hard Sammy kicked and flailed away at whoever it was. In the end, however, his attacker got the best of him, and Sammy found himself dragged down under the table.
“Idiot!” said Dave Fellowes, his eye closed and his nose bleeding from where Sammy had kicked him. “Get down.”
He forced Sammy to crouch beside him under the table, and together they watched the boots and bodies thudding against the carpet from beneath the lacy hem of the tablecloth. It was in this ignoble position that they were found, five minutes later, when the two vacationing FBI agents, schooled in thoroughness, made a last sweep through the house.
“Your friends are all waiting for you,” said one of them. He smiled at the other, who took hold of the collar of Fellowes’s shirt and dragged him out from under the table.
“Be right there,” said the other agent.
“I know you will,” said the one who was taking Dave Fellowes away, with a harsh laugh.
The G-man, down on one knee, gazed in at Sammy with mock tenderness, as if trying to lure a recalcitrant child out of hiding.
“Come on, sweetheart,” he said. “I won’t hurt you.”
The reality of the situation had begun to penetrate the fog of Sammy’s drunkenness. What had he done? How could he possibly tell his mother that he had been arrested, and why? He closed his eyes, but when he did, he was tormented by a vision of Bacon going down under a tide of fists and boot heels.
“Where’s Bacon?” he said. “What did you do to him?”
“The big fella? He’ll be all right. More of a man than the rest of you. You his girlfriend?”
Sammy blushed.
“You’re a lucky girl. He’s a good-looking piece of beef.”
Sammy felt a strange ripple in the air between him and the policeman. The room, the entire house, seemed to have gotten very quiet. If the cop was planning to arrest him, it seemed to Sammy as if he ought to have done it by now.
“Myself, I’m partial to darker types. Little guys.”
“What?”
“I’m a federal agent, did you know that?”
Sammy shook his head.
“That’s right. If I mention to those eager pie-hats out there that they ought to let you go, they will.”
“Why would you do that?”
The G-man glanced over his shoulder slowly, almost in a parody of a man checking to see if the coast were clear, then scrambled in under the table with Sammy. He put Sammy’s hand on the fly of his suit pants.
“Why indeed,” said the G-man.
Ten minutes later, the pair of vacationing federal agents were reunited in the foyer of the house. Dave Fellowes and Sammy, pushed along in front of their respective champions, could hardly look at each other, let alone at Ruth Ebling, who was supervising the cleanup efforts of her staff. The bitter taste of Agent Wyche’s semen was in Sammy’s mouth, along with the putrid sweet flavor of his own rectum, and he would always remember the feeling of doom in his heart, a sense that he had turned some irrevocable corner and would shortly come face-to-face with a dark and certain fate.
“They’ve all gone,” Ruth said, sounding surprised to see them. “You missed them.”
“These two men are not suspects,” Fellowes’s agent said. “They’re merely witnesses.”
“We need to interrogate them further,” said Agent Wyche, not bothering to disguise his amusement at his own implicit meaning. “Thank you, ma’am. We have our own vehicle.”
Sammy managed to raise his head and saw that Ruth was looking at him curiously, with the same faint air of pity he thought he had spotted there earlier that afternoon.
“I just want to know this,” she said. “How does it feel, Mr. Clay, to make your living preying off the weak-minded? That’s the only thing I want to know.”
Sammy sensed that he ought to know what she was talking about, and he was sure that under ordinary circumstances he would have. “I’m sorry, ma’am, I have no idea what—”
“A boy jumped off a building, I heard,” she said. “Tied a tablecloth around his neck and—”
A telephone rang in a nearby room, and she stopped. She turned and went to answer it. Agent Wyche yanked Sammy’s collar and dragged him to the door, and they went out into the burning cold night.
“Just a minute,” came the housekeeper’s voice from within. “There’s a call for a Mr. Klayman. That him?”
Afterward, Sammy would often wonder what might have become of him, what alley or ditch his broken and violated body might have ended up in, if his mother had not telephoned the house at Pawtaw with the news that Thomas Kavalier had died. Agent Wyche and his colleague looked at each other, their expressions no longer quite professionally blank.
“Aw, shoot, Frank,” said Fellowes’s agent. “How ’bout that. It’s his mom.”
When Sammy came out of the kitchen, Dave Fellowes stood slumped against the doorway, an arm over his red, damp face. The two G-men were gone; they had mothers of their own.
“I need to get back to the city right away,” Sammy said.
Fellowes wiped at his face with his sleeve, then reached into his pocket and pulled out the key to his Buick.
Although the traffic was light, it took them nearly three hours to get back to New York. They did not say a word to each other from the moment Fellowes started the car until he dropped Sammy off in front of his apartment.
AFTER HE RAN OUT of the Hotel Trevi, Joe became merely one of the 7,014 drowned men out stumbling through the streets of New York that night. He carried a pint of rye that he had bought in a bar on Fifty-eighth Street. His hair froze into icicles on his head and his blue tuxedo turned to cold granite, but he felt nothing. He kept walking, sipping from his bottle. The streets were alight with taxis, the theaters were emptying, the windows of restaurants were haloed with candlelight and the vapor of their patrons’ breathing. He recalled with shame the elation that had seized him as he walked to the subway earlier that evening, the rattling ride underground with everyone staring at the magician in their car, the general love of poodles and car horns and the tooth marks of the Essex House on the face of the moon that had suffused him as he walked in his top hat from the subway to the Trevi. If he had not drowned an hour ago, he thought, the memory of this vanished happiness might have been enough to make him hate himself. Good thing I’m dead, he thought.
Somehow he ended up in Brooklyn. He rode the train all the way out to Coney Island and then fell asleep and woke up in a place called Gravesend, with a policeman’s rough hand on his shoulder. Sometime around two o’clock in the morning, more drunk than he had been since the night he had appeared on the stairs in Bernard Kornblum’s house on Maisel Street, he showed up at 115 Ocean Avenue, at the door of apartment 2-B.
Ethel answered the door almost immediately. She was fully dressed and made
up, and her hair was tied neatly in a bun. If she was at all surprised to see her nephew at her door, frozen stiff, bleary-eyed, in full evening dress, she did not betray it. Without a word, she put her arm around him and helped him to her kitchen table. She poured him a cup of coffee from a blue pot enameled with white flecks. It was dreadful, thin as the water in which he cleaned his brushes and sour as turned wine, but it was fresh and painfully hot. Its effect on him was devastating. As soon as it hit his throat, all the facts and contingencies he had held under the water, until it seemed to him that they had finally stopped struggling, now bobbed back up to the surface, and he knew that he was alive, and that his brother, Thomas, lay dead at the bottom of the Atlantic Ocean.
“We should turn on the radio” was all he could think of to say.
Ethel sat down across from him with her own cup of coffee. She took a handkerchief from the pocket of her black cardigan and handed it to him. “First cry,” she said.
She gave him a gummy piece of honey cake and then, as she had on the night of his arrival, handed him a towel.
While he was showering, his grandmother shuffled into the bathroom, lifted the skirt of her nightgown, and, apparently unaware of Joe’s presence, lowered her pale blue behind onto the pot.
“You don’t listen to me, Yecheved,” she said in Yiddish, calling him by his aunt’s old-country name. “From the first day, I said I don’t like this boat. Didn’t I say it?”
Joe spoke English. “I’m sorry,” he said.
His grandmother nodded and got off the toilet. Without a word, she turned out the light and shuffled back out. Joe finished his shower in darkness.
After he had warmed himself into an uncontrollable spasm of weeping, his aunt wrapped him in a bathrobe that had once been Sammy’s father’s, and led him to Sammy’s old bed.
“All right,” she said. “All right.” She put a dry hand to his cheek and kept it there until he had stopped crying, and then until he stopped shaking, and then until he caught his stuttering breath. He lay still and snuffled. The hand on his cheek remained cool as brick.