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grows just where the sand creek turns off the road, and you dig a

  little grave for Blue Boy, an' bury him right."

  They had seldom seen such resentment in their grandmother.

  Albert's throat choked up, he rubbed the tears away with his fist.

  "Yes'm, Gram'ma, we will, we will," he gulped.

  VII

  Only Mrs. Harris saw the boys go out next morning. She slipped a

  bread-and-butter sandwich into the hand of each, but she said

  nothing, and they said nothing.

  The boys did not get home until their parents were ready to leave

  the table. Mrs. Templeton made no fuss, but told them to sit down

  and eat their breakfast. When they had finished, she said

  commandingly:

  "Now you march into my room." That was where she heard

  explanations and administered punishment. When she whipped them,

  she did it thoroughly.

  She followed them and shut the door.

  "Now, what were you boys doing this morning?"

  "We went off to bury Blue Boy."

  "Why didn't you tell me you were going?"

  They looked down at their toes, but said nothing. Their mother

  studied their mournful faces, and her overbearing expression

  softened.

  "The next time you get up and go off anywhere, you come and tell me

  beforehand, do you understand?"

  "Yes'm."

  She opened the door, motioned them out, and went with them into the

  parlour. "I'm sorry about your cat, boys," she said. "That's why

  I don't like to have cats around; they're always getting sick and

  dying. Now run along and play. Maybe you'd like to have a circus

  in the back yard this afternoon? And we'll all come."

  The twins ran out in a joyful frame of mind. Their grandmother had

  been mistaken; their mother wasn't indifferent about Blue Boy, she

  was sorry. Now everything was all right, and they could make a

  circus ring.

  They knew their grandmother got put out about strange things,

  anyhow. A few months ago it was because their mother hadn't asked

  one of the visiting preachers who came to the church conference to

  stay with them. There was no place for the preacher to sleep

  except on the folding lounge in the parlour, and no place for him

  to wash--he would have been very uncomfortable, and so would all

  the household. But Mrs. Harris was terribly upset that there

  should be a conference in the town, and they not keeping a

  preacher! She was quite bitter about it.

  The twins called in the neighbour boys, and they made a ring in the

  back yard, around their turning-bar. Their mother came to the show

  and paid admission, bringing Mrs. Rosen and Grandma Harris. Mrs.

  Rosen thought if all the children in the neighbourhood were to be

  howling and running in a circle in the Templetons' back yard, she

  might as well be there, too, for she would have no peace at home.

  After the dog races and the Indian fight were over, Mrs. Templeton

  took Mrs. Rosen into the house to revive her with cake and

  lemonade. The parlour was cool and dusky. Mrs. Rosen was glad to

  get into it after sitting on a wooden bench in the sun.

  Grandmother stayed in the parlour with them, which was unusual.

  Mrs. Rosen sat waving a palm-leaf fan,--she felt the heat very

  much, because she wore her stays so tight--while Victoria went to

  make the lemonade.

  "De circuses are not so good, widout Vickie to manage them,

  Grandma," she said.

  "No'm. The boys complain right smart about losing Vickie from

  their plays. She's at her books all the time now. I don't know

  what's got into the child."

  "If she wants to go to college, she must prepare herself, Grandma.

  I am agreeably surprised in her. I didn't think she'd stick to

  it."

  Mrs. Templeton came in with a tray of tumblers and the glass

  pitcher all frosted over. Mrs. Rosen wistfully admired her

  neighbour's tall figure and good carriage; she was wearing no

  corsets at all today under her flowered organdie afternoon dress,

  Mrs. Rosen had noticed, and yet she could carry herself so smooth

  and straight,--after having had so many children, too! Mrs. Rosen

  was envious, but she gave credit where credit was due.

  When Mrs. Templeton brought in the cake, Mrs. Rosen was still

  talking to Grandmother about Vickie's studying. Mrs. Templeton

  shrugged carelessly.

  "There's such a thing as overdoing it, Mrs. Rosen," she observed as

  she poured the lemonade. "Vickie's very apt to run to extremes."

  "But, my dear lady, she can hardly be too extreme in dis matter.

  If she is to take a competitive examination with girls from much

  better schools than ours, she will have to do better than the

  others, or fail; no two ways about it. We must encourage her."

  Mrs. Templeton bridled a little. "I'm sure I don't interfere with

  her studying, Mrs. Rosen. I don't see where she got this notion,

  but I let her alone."

  Mrs. Rosen accepted a second piece of chocolate cake. "And what do

  you think about it, Grandma?"

  Mrs. Harris smiled politely. "None of our people, or Mr.

  Templeton's either, ever went to college. I expect it is all on

  account of the young gentleman who was here last summer."

  Mrs. Rosen laughed and lifted her eyebrows. "Something very

  personal in Vickie's admiration for Professor Chalmers we think,

  Grandma? A very sudden interest in de sciences, I should say!"

  Mrs. Templeton shrugged. "You're mistaken, Mrs. Rosen. There

  ain't a particle of romance in Vickie."

  "But there are several kinds of romance, Mrs. Templeton. She may

  not have your kind."

  "Yes'm, that's so," said Mrs. Harris in a low, grateful voice. She

  thought that a hard word Victoria had said of Vickie.

  "I didn't see a thing in that Professor Chalmers, myself," Victoria

  remarked. "He was a gawky kind of fellow, and never had a thing to

  say in company. Did you think he amounted to much?"

  "Oh, widout doubt Doctor Chalmers is a very scholarly man. A great

  many brilliant scholars are widout de social graces, you know."

  When Mrs. Rosen, from a much wider experience, corrected her

  neighbour, she did so somewhat playfully, as if insisting upon

  something Victoria capriciously chose to ignore.

  At this point old Mrs. Harris put her hands on the arms of the

  chair in preparation to rise. "If you ladies will excuse me, I

  think I will go and lie down a little before supper." She rose and

  went heavily out on her felt soles. She never really lay down in

  the afternoon, but she dozed in her own black rocker. Mrs. Rosen

  and Victoria sat chatting about Professor Chalmers and his boys.

  Last summer the young professor had come to Skyline with four of

  his students from the University of Michigan, and had stayed three

  months, digging for fossils out in the sandhills. Vickie had spent

  a great many mornings at their camp. They lived at the town hotel,

  and drove out to their camp every day in a light spring-wagon.

  Vickie used to wait for them at the edge of the town, in front of

  the Roadmaster's house,
and when the spring-wagon came rattling

  along, the boys would call: "There's our girl!" slow the horses,

  and give her a hand up. They said she was their mascot, and were

  very jolly with her. They had a splendid summer,--found a great

  bed of fossil elephant bones, where a whole herd must once have

  perished. Later on they came upon the bones of a new kind of

  elephant, scarcely larger than a pig. They were greatly excited

  about their finds, and so was Vickie. That was why they liked her.

  It was they who told her about a memorial scholarship at Ann Arbor,

  which was open to any girl from Colorado.

  VIII

  In August Vickie went down to Denver to take her examinations. Mr.

  Holliday, the Roadmaster, got her a pass, and arranged that she

  should stay with the family of one of his passenger conductors.

  For three days she wrote examination papers along with other

  contestants, in one of the Denver high schools, proctored by a

  teacher. Her father had given her five dollars for incidental

  expenses, and she came home with a box of mineral specimens for the

  twins, a singing top for Ronald, and a toy burro for Hughie.

  Then began days of suspense that stretched into weeks. Vickie went

  to the post-office every morning, opened her father's combination

  box, and looked over the letters, long before he got down town,--

  always hoping there might be a letter from Ann Arbor. The night

  mail came in at six, and after supper she hurried to the post-

  office and waited about until the shutter at the general-delivery

  window was drawn back, a signal that the mail had all been

  "distributed." While the tedious process of distribution was going

  on, she usually withdrew from the office, full of joking men and

  cigar smoke, and walked up and down under the big cottonwood trees

  that overhung the side street. When the crowd of men began to come

  out, then she knew the mail-bags were empty, and she went in to get

  whatever letters were in the Templeton box and take them home.

  After two weeks went by, she grew downhearted. Her young

  professor, she knew, was in England for his vacation. There would

  be no one at the University of Michigan who was interested in her

  fate. Perhaps the fortunate contestant had already been notified

  of her success. She never asked herself, as she walked up and down

  under the cottonwoods on those summer nights, what she would do if

  she didn't get the scholarship. There was no alternative. If she

  didn't get it, then everything was over.

  During the weeks when she lived only to go to the post-office, she

  managed to cut her finger and get ink into the cut. As a result,

  she had a badly infected hand and had to carry it in a sling. When

  she walked her nightly beat under the cottonwoods, it was a kind of

  comfort to feel that finger throb; it was companionship, made her

  case more complete.

  The strange thing was that one morning a letter came, addressed to

  Miss Victoria Templeton; in a long envelope such as her father

  called "legal size," with "University of Michigan" in the upper

  left-hand corner. When Vickie took it from the box, such a wave of

  fright and weakness went through her that she could scarcely get

  out of the post-office. She hid the letter under her striped

  blazer and went a weak, uncertain trail down the sidewalk under the

  big trees. Without seeing anything or knowing what road she took,

  she got to the Headmaster's green yard and her hammock, where she

  always felt not on the earth, yet of it.

  Three hours later, when Mrs. Rosen was just tasting one of those

  clear soups upon which the Templetons thought she wasted so much

  pains and good meat, Vickie walked in at the kitchen door and said

  in a low but somewhat unnatural voice:

  "Mrs. Rosen, I got the scholarship."

  Mrs. Rosen looked up at her sharply, then pushed the soup back to a

  cooler part of the stove.

  "What is dis you say, Vickie? You have heard from de University?"

  "Yes'm. I got the letter this morning." She produced it from

  under her blazer.

  Mrs. Rosen had been cutting noodles. She took Vickie's face in two

  hot, plump hands that were still floury, and looked at her

  intently. "Is dat true, Vickie? No mistake? I am delighted--and

  surprised! Yes, surprised. Den you will BE something, you won't

  just sit on de front porch." She squeezed the girl's round, good-

  natured cheeks, as if she could mould them into something definite

  then and there. "Now you must stay for lunch and tell us all about

  it. Go in and announce yourself to Mr. Rosen."

  Mr. Rosen had come home for lunch and was sitting, a book in his

  hand, in a corner of the darkened front parlour where a flood of

  yellow sun streamed in under the dark green blind. He smiled his

  friendly smile at Vickie and waved her to a seat, making her

  understand that he wanted to finish his paragraph. The dark

  engraving of the pointed cypresses and the Roman tomb was on the

  wall just behind him.

  Mrs. Rosen came into the back parlour, which was the dining-room,

  and began taking things out of the silver-drawer to lay a place for

  their visitor. She spoke to her husband rapidly in German.

  He put down his book, came over, and took Vickie's hand.

  "Is it true, Vickie? Did you really win the scholarship?"

  "Yes, sir."

  He stood looking down at her through his kind, remote smile,--a

  smile in the eyes, that seemed to come up through layers and layers

  of something--gentle doubts, kindly reservations.

  "Why do you want to go to college, Vickie?" he asked playfully.

  "To learn," she said with surprise.

  "But why do you want to learn? What do you want to do with it?"

  "I don't know. Nothing, I guess."

  "Then what do you want it for?"

  "I don't know. I just want it."

  For some reason Vickie's voice broke there. She had been terribly

  strung up all morning, lying in the hammock with her eyes tight

  shut. She had not been home at all, she had wanted to take her

  letter to the Rosens first. And now one of the gentlest men she

  knew made her choke by something strange and presageful in his

  voice.

  "Then if you want it without any purpose at all, you will not be

  disappointed." Mr. Rosen wished to distract her and help her to

  keep back the tears. "Listen: a great man once said: 'Le but

  n'est rien; le chemin, c'est tout.' That means: The end is

  nothing, the road is all. Let me write it down for you and give

  you your first French lesson."

  He went to the desk with its big silver inkwell, where he and his

  wife wrote so many letters in several languages, and inscribed the

  sentence on a sheet of purple paper, in his delicately shaded

  foreign script, signing under it a name: J. Michelet. He brought

  it back and shook it before Vickie's eyes. "There, keep it to

  remember me by. Slip it into the envelope with your college

  credentials,--that is a good place for it." From his deliberate

  smile and the twitch of
one eyebrow, Vickie knew he meant her to

  take it along as an antidote, a corrective for whatever colleges

  might do to her. But she had always known that Mr. Rosen was wiser

  than professors.

  Mrs. Rosen was frowning, she thought that sentence a bad precept to

  give any Templeton. Moreover, she always promptly called her

  husband back to earth when he soared a little; though it was

  exactly for this transcendental quality of mind that she reverenced

  him in her heart, and thought him so much finer than any of his

  successful brothers.

  "Luncheon is served," she said in the crisp tone that put people in

  their places. "And Miss Vickie, you are to eat your tomatoes with

  an oil dressing, as we do. If you are going off into the world, it

  is quite time you learn to like things that are everywhere

  accepted."

  Vickie said: "Yes'm," and slipped into the chair Mr. Rosen had

  placed for her. Today she didn't care what she ate, though

  ordinarily she thought a French dressing tasted a good deal like

  castor oil.

  IX

  Vickie was to discover that nothing comes easily in this world.

  Next day she got a letter from one of the jolly students of

  Professor Chalmers's party, who was watching over her case in his

  chief's absence. He told her the scholarship meant admission to

  the freshman class without further examinations, and two hundred

  dollars toward her expenses; she would have to bring along about

  three hundred more to put her through the year.

  She took this letter to her father's office. Seated in his

  revolving desk-chair, Mr. Templeton read it over several times and

  looked embarrassed.

  "I'm sorry, daughter," he said at last, "but really, just now, I

  couldn't spare that much. Not this year. I expect next year will

  be better for us."

  "But the scholarship is for this year, Father. It wouldn't count

  next year. I just have to go in September."

  "I really ain't got it, daughter." He spoke, oh so kindly! He had

  lovely manners with his daughter and his wife. "It's just all I

  can do to keep the store bills paid up. I'm away behind with Mr.

  Rosen's bill. Couldn't you study here this winter and get along

  about as fast? It isn't that I wouldn't like to let you have the

  money if I had it. And with young children, I can't let my life

  insurance go."

  Vickie didn't say anything more. She took her letter and wandered

  down Main Street with it, leaving young Mr. Templeton to a very bad

  half-hour.

  At dinner Vickie was silent, but everyone could see she had been

  crying. Mr. Templeton told Uncle Remus stories to keep up the

  family morale and make the giggly twins laugh. Mrs. Templeton

  glanced covertly at her daughter from time to time. She was

  sometimes a little afraid of Vickie, who seemed to her to have a

  hard streak. If it were a love-affair that the girl was crying

  about, that would be so much more natural--and more hopeful!

  At two o'clock Mrs. Templeton went to the Afternoon Euchre Club,

  the twins were to have another ride with the Roadmaster on his

  velocipede, the little boys took their nap on their mother's bed.

  The house was empty and quiet. Vickie felt an aversion for the

  hammock under the cottonwoods where she had been betrayed into such

  bright hopes. She lay down on her grandmother's lounge in the

  cluttered play-room and turned her face to the wall.

  When Mrs. Harris came in for her rest and began to wash her face at

  the tin basin, Vickie got up. She wanted to be alone. Mrs. Harris

  came over to her while she was still sitting on the edge of the

  lounge.

  "What's the matter, Vickie child?" She put her hand on her grand-

  daughter's shoulder, but Vickie shrank away. Young misery is like

  that, sometimes.