He turned around again, unaware he was observed, and met the awed faces of the whole of the people that had gathered, marveling at the snow and now at another strange sight.
“This is the Lord Regent’s grave,” he said, for it was Uleman who deserved their reverence. “Did you know?”
“We chose this place by chance,” Aeself said. “Or believed we had. But could we settle in such a place by accident?”
“It was his accident,” Tristen said. “The Shadows in this place can be dangerous. He’s remade the wards all about your building: I saw them last night, and I couldn’t improve them. The Shadows here respect the Lord Regent above all. And if you do see an old woman or a little girl, respect them. They always give good advice.”
“My good lord,” Aeself said in a hushed voice.
“Might there be breakfast?” he asked then, for he hated the awkwardness of their reverence; he wanted only to have a warm cup and a friendly converse, and to be on their way. He had seen so much he wanted to think about, and so much he thought he should report to Emuin, and now for no reason in particular his thoughts, skittering like mice, had darted toward Tarien and toward Cevulirn and all there was yet to do. “We should be on our way.”
There was breakfast first, porridge and honey that lent a comfortable warmth all the way to their fingertips, and the men were glad to be setting out toward their own home in the evening—toward a place, perhaps, where the wind was less noisy and less threatening.
They were glad to saddle up, on this bright morning: even the horses seemed eager to be under way.
But as they were mounted and about to set out, Aeself, reaching up, pressed a small and much-used paper into Tristen’s hand. “We had but two scraps of paper, my lord, in all the camp, and forgive me the condition of them. The one is the muster of Althalen, for your use; and the other…the other is a letter to Lady Ninévrisë, on our behalf. I know you sometimes send to the king in Guelemara; and if it please Your Grace, send it on to her. The burden of it is the news we have of Ilefínian, such as we put together by all our accounts: you know from last night all we have to report, but read it: I send it unsealed. I’m her remotest cousin. She may know my name; to that end, I signed it. But I ask you put your seal on it, my lord, if you approve it, and recommend me to her.”
Aeself had never confessed before that he was in that degree Ninévrisë’s kin, never claimed rank in the Regent’s house, and in the tangled nature of the noble houses, perhaps he had never held it.
But now he held the post of seneschal of Althalen, at very least, the keeper and the protector of all the loyal Elwynim who made it across the river. He was the defender, and the man who saw to the commonest, most necessary things to keep alive the folk who came to him, against weather and Tasmôrden’s men. Auld Syes herself had taken Aeself under her protection, and perhaps safeguarded Crissand, too, against the worst they could do.
“You will have all I can give,” he said, “when we come into Elwynor.”
“To bring my lord into Elwynor is the honor I want,” Aeself said, looking up at him. “Grant me that.”
“When you see the fires alight,” Tristen said, “then ride to the bridge.”
“My lord,” Aeself said fervently, and Tristen took the two precious scraps of paper and put them in his belt as he rode away. The well-wishes of all the folk of Althalen were at his back, the banners out in front, and the Amefin guard about him, and a clean, clear sky above all.
“’At were well done,” Uwen said. “Well done, on your own part, m’lord. ’At’s a good man, that.”
Owl turned up, flying across their path. And Uwen blessed himself, and so, Tristen guessed, did many of the men in his company, but he did not turn to see.
In time, on the way, to Dys’ rolling gait, he read the unsealed papers, written with a crude pen in a fine, well-schooled hand.
There were the number of men Aeself had said in the muster, by name and quality, as fairly written as any such account his clerks brought him. The message to Ninévrisë was respectful and sadly informed her of the death of very many of the family, by name, and of the execution or death in battle of friends, by name.
And it told her of the fate of the treasury, put away in cisterns deep in Ilefínian, so, the missive said, the Usurper will have hard shift to bring it out again in the winter.
Aeself Endior, your cousin.
Aeself had been right to have given him the letter unsealed, and at his discretion. Knowing what news it had, he might send or not send—and he did not find it prudent to send the original into Guelemara, where his messengers were in danger. He feared the letter might fall into hostile hands, and inform Ryssand where the missing treasury was…although Tasmôrden might have guessed, and doubtless Tasmôrden had probed the wells: Cook had thought of a similar stratagem to save her utensils during Parsynan’s regime, and it was not the first time such things had been done. But in the winter, and near-freezing water, Aeself was right: it was not secrecy that would keep the treasury safe, it was the bitter cold of the water.
And by the time the water warmed enough to lower a man in, he intended the wells might have changed hands again…but not that Ryssand should find some way to the gold first. It was knowledge for Ninévrisë to have, first and foremost. He had a gift to give her, when they met in Ilefínian. He saw the moment clear before him, Cefwyn safe and well, and the Regent’s banner flying over the courtyard.
The weather in the Amefin hills around him held clear and the sun warmed his back in a way it had not done since the first of winter. Even the air held a different smell, of moisture and melt, and the snow underfoot lost the crispness of deep cold.
“The weather’s taken a turn,” Uwen said. “It even smells like spring.”
So he imagined, and thought a while, and tried to imagine consequences, as Emuin and Mauryl had taught him.
But at the last he saw there was nothing to gain by waiting.
So gathering up the courage to wish change on the world, and blind to all untried things it meant, he willed that the spring come in earnest and the snow depart.
Nothing seemed to oppose that wish, nothing this near, nothing at this moment opposed him.
He did not trust the ease with which the weather obliged him: he felt his wishes all unfettered, unopposed, unmatched in the world.
Therein, too…he had learned to question his own wisdom.
CHAPTER 11
Pigs in a gate, Cefwyn said to himself, kneeling amid a glow of candles, did not squeal louder or wiggle harder than the recalcitrant barons when they heard the order to bring their men to the bridge at Angesey.
Ryssand was doubtless the loudest…having Cuthan and Parsynan in hand, all prepared to confront the king in solemn council, after his defeat at the wedding party, and having raised a certain support for the notion of peace among the barons accustomed to support him. Instead, finding his schemes ignored and the order given to march without his having had a second hearing, Ryssand was so wroth he had struck one of his servants to the ground.
So Cefwyn heard, at least, from Efanor, who retained favor with Ryssand’s staff. For himself, after passing the order at night, after the wedding party, and with no consultation or counsel with any of his advisors on the matter…he had declared to all concerned his need to seek spiritual, not mortal, guidance for this war, and he had barricaded himself in the King’s Shrine within the Guelesfort.
He took no counsel but his brother’s and the Holy Father’s, and fasted…was in prayer, seeking the favor of the gods on his holy venture into Elwynor, and could not be disturbed.
Could the barons who carried the banner of orthodoxy and the doctrinists fault him for fasting and prayer?
He knelt and went through the forms of devotion, not that he believed, but that it seemed one thing to create the subterfuge; it was somehow mean and disrespectful, his conscience informed him, to sit in the shrine drinking and eating while he lied to the barons and mocked what good and decent men
supporting him thought holy.
So he did go so far as to pray during those long hours, if only the memorized recitals of formal catechism, and as he passed beyond hunger to light-headedness even fancied a certain spiritual elevation…he had had not a bite to eat, and no relief from the chill in this drafty little precinct.
He had no relief from thinking, either, in the tedious hours of kneeling, until at last his unaccustomed knees were beyond pain and his shoulders had acquired an ache that traveled from one aggrieved portion of his back to another like the stab of assassins’ knives.
For the first time he knew his body had lost the resiliency of his boyish years; for the first time he accounted how he would pay for all the little follies of youth…at seven, he had cracked his knee falling through the stable-loft floor: that came back to haunt him. The elbow he had affronted in weapons practice not five years gone, that afflicted his shoulder as well. The time Danvy had pitched him off over his head, the slip on the ice when he was twelve, the times his mother had warned him about leaping off the side of the staircase…you’ll break your feet, she had said, and he had not remembered his mother’s voice clearly in years, but he could now, in this long watch.
In what he fancied was the night he endured a silence so deep he heard echoes he had never heard, as if the Guelesfort itself had a secret life within it, ghosts, perhaps, distant shouts, sharp noises.
It was a shrine his grandfather had dedicated and never used. Efanor had used it, in his childhood, all too often, for a refuge from the shouting and the anger that had filled the royal apartments…shouting and anger that had said very many things a son had not wanted to hear about his mother.
To this day Cefwyn wanted not to think about it, not wishing to remember the worse aspects of his father, who had found fault in both the mothers of his sons. In the death of his own mother and his father’s preoccupation with a new wife, he had found alternate escapes, Emuin’s study among them, and far less savory nooks of the Guelesfort and the upper town. A brother’s at first grudging acceptance had sustained Efanor during the quarrels, the reconciliations, the tirades and the sorrows of his mother’s marriage, for no woman at close range could escape their father’s eternal discontent. But when Efanor’s mother had died, this echoing silence was the place that had consoled Efanor.
Efanor, the younger, bereft too early of a mother he had adored, and led far too often into sin by his rebellious elder brother, had seemed to lose heart somewhere in the extravagance of mourning afterward, being at that age boys began to think more deeply and ask themselves questions. Efanor had found peace first by retreat to this place of cold stone and then by agreement with their father—finding a father’s doting on him a great deal safer than the tirades and angers that came down on his brother’s head.
And perhaps he’d just grown tired. Cefwyn could find no way to blame him…Efanor, for whatever reason, had spent his adolescent hours in this room, thinking, in a state of mind Cefwyn only now understood.
Thinking, as no boy who valued his freedom or his reason should have to think, led by the priests into selfdoubt and fear. The Quinalt attributed evil to evil actions. Efanor’s mother had died, a sister stillborn. Was that not evil? And had Efanor’s sin and rebellion not caused it all? And was their father not quieter now, and grieving, and did not their father need him?
Peace ought to come of this self-questioning, so the priests avowed. But that was not what came of Cefwyn’s vigil: rather it was anger at their father, understanding of his brother such as no other place had taught him.
He found anger at Ryssand, too, who had seized on Ináreddrin’s weaknesses, fed his furies, undermined all trust that might ever have existed between Ináreddrin and his eldest son, and perhaps—though he could not find the proof—dealt with Heryn Aswydd in the plot that had sent Ináreddrin and almost Efanor to ambush and death.
Had not his own letter had a part in it—his revelation to his father that he had found in Tristen the Elwynim King To Come…and had bound him in fealty?
Gods, did Ryssand know that matter, and could Ryssand keep silent on it if he did?
Doubtless not.
Patently not.
But of cause that had brought Ináreddrin to that fatal battlefield, it was not his letter. It was not his letter, but Ryssand’s undermining his father’s trust, it was Heryn Aswydd’s feeding that fear, secretly reporting to his father…
He felt the numbness growing in his back, as pain passed beyond limits. And pain in his heart diminished. He was not his father’s murderer. He had almost saved him. Almost. Fate, or wizardry, or whatever guided the affairs of Ylesuin these days, had snatched responsibility out of his hands, and then snatched Tristen, too.
Unfair, but necessary, perhaps. There was no one less blamable for the ills of the court—ills that would not even reach Tristen’s understanding in Amefel—or that might have reached it, to Cuthan’s discomfort.
Tristen, unlike his king, had not a second’s hesitation in dealing with the unwholesome. Tristen had never learned to negotiate: there was the difference, while he had grown up negotiating for his father’s affection. Emuin had another boy now. He was glad of that… jealous, but glad; and swore if the boy was not grateful, he would bring the wrath down on the lad.
He had had the benefit of Emuin’s teaching. Of Annas’ patient management. They had saved him from going down Efanor’s road.
And there was Idrys. Thinking on it, in this long meditation on those who had shaped his life and brought him to this moment, he was not sure he was fond of Idrys. It was hard to be fond of the man, in the way it was hard to love a honed blade—but rely on it? Absolutely.
One need not grow maudlin, over Idrys least of all.
Yet… was there nothing for all the years, all the trust, all the hard duty, and all the concentration of a life bent only on saving his? The Crown and the kingdom owed this man more than he had ever gotten… he relied on Idrys, repository of all the unpleasant confidences a monarch could make to no one else, not his pious brother, not his wife, not his best friend’s grayeyed innocence; and thinking on it, damn it all, he was fond of Idrys, though he could never say so.
Idrys was out at this very moment, having necessarily extracted his last reliable spy and resource from within Ryssand’s house, trying to find out what Ryssand was up to from less dependable, external sources. While the king was at his prayers the king’s right hand was at work steering the events his order had set in motion, and if things outside this chamber had been going contrary to his orders, Cefwyn had every confidence that no sanctuary would deter Idrys from reporting.
Efanor came and went, however. As near kin, Efanor brought him the water custom allowed…and brought his own reports of the barons’ answer to his call to arms, barons who, deprived of access to the king, sought alternative routes of information and protest, barons who, still uncertain as to where Efanor himself stood, revealed more than they knew.
And on this day, too, Efanor came in very softly, still making quiet echoes, and sat down near him on a prayer bench.
“Marisal will march,” Efanor relayed to him. “Osanan is contriving excuses and wishes to hear the peace treaty.”
Cefwyn heaved a sigh. Of the nineteen provinces of Ylesuin, five were indisputably with Tristen, four were marginally with him, five at least dared stand with Ryssand, and the rest…danced an intricate step in place.
“Guelessar?” he asked. Efanor himself was duke of Guelessar.
Efanor hesitated the space of a breath, head bowed. “Guelessar is a title,” Efanor said, the truth both of them knew: that his power was not the real power in the province, only a title that gave him estates and honor. He had very little governance over the lesser lords who administered the districts. “The lords in Guelessar are meeting and have been meeting and two at least have sent messages to Ryssand. For my word, at my order, they will march, will they, nil they.” Then Efanor added, the bitter truth, but honest: “How reliable they will be to
go to the fore of a battle, and how reliable to stand…that remains to be seen.”
“Will we know that of any men on the field, until the moment comes? Relieve yourself of guilt on that account. Gods, gods, that I ever dismissed the south!”
“If you’d kept the southern barons here in court, there’d have been civil war, and you know it.”
All too well, though he hadn’t known it when he’d called on the south to defend their border before his father’s body was cold in his grave.
He had soared at the height of his power when he had stood on Lewen field, victorious over the sorcerous enemy. He had had a tattered and battered army, but five provinces of the nineteen all devoted to a newly crowned king, the likelihood Panys and Marisal and Marisyn would join him in a drive north, and the blessing of the Lady Regent of Elwynor into the bargain, not to mention the likelihood some of her provinces would join them an effort to go straight to her capital and end all the war.
But his southern army had been tired, winter threatened…and he had been king in deed only to half his kingdom.
Crowned in the south, heady with the support of barons ready for action, filled with the desire to restore his newfound beloved to her throne—and, he had to admit, to impress her—he had instead come north to claim the heart of his kingdom, this, in the foolish confidence he could take up all his father’s alliances intact. Then, he had thought, he would have had power enough in his hands to assure a well-conducted campaign in the spring with minimal losses on either side.
But he had discovered that his father’s compromises with the north had been more extensive and more damaging to the Crown’s authority than ever he had suspected. Earliest, he, too, had taken the advice of Murandys and Ryssand, his father’s trusted advisors, first of all in appointing Parsynan as viceroy over Amefel, and in so doing, he had fallen into the pattern and embroiled himself in his father’s compromises.