If I could have just a shred of that meat . . .
Those demons--a group of five males--were so lucky. They chose when to eat and where. They read symbols on a menu, then picked whatever they were in the mood for. They decided if they would like the table beside the hearth fire.
Beggar wanted to choose. Anything.
He didn't pick which clothes he wanted to wear; he had only the rags on his back. He didn't choose among which shoes he'd wear; he had none at all. The snow and ice bit into his bare feet.
Everyone called him Beggar, because that's how he'd survived. But only in the past. Now he'd learned how to scavenge too.
Cheeks heating, he admitted to himself he'd soon go back to shameful begging if the weather got any colder. One day, when he never had to wear rags or beg anymore, he would give himself a new name, a proud name--
A customer inside met gazes with him, a demon with gouged horns.
Now I'm in trouble! Last week, the tavern owner had chased him off with a broom! Beggar darted toward the back-alley crate he considered home.
"Hold there, pup," a male called in a nice-enough tone.
Beggar slowed and turned warily.
The demon with the gouged horns was crossing the icy street toward him. "Come here, son." Gouge carried a piled-high platter!
Sidling closer, Beggar stayed ready to bolt.
"You surely are a filthy little thing. Are you hungry?"
"Yes, sir." His stomach growled loudly, but he was too dazed to be embarrassed. Just a shred of meat . . . He could almost taste it. Beggar was so focused on the platter that he barely noticed Gouge's four friends emerging from the tavern as well.
"Do you want this meal, boy?" Gouge asked. "I'll let you have it."
"Y-you will???" This would be riches beyond his imaginings! He was ashamed when tears of gratitude welled in his eyes.
"In exchange for something."
Beggar drew back. He'd learned to hate the wealthy. They amused themselves with people like him, playing games with the poor just because they could. "For what?"
Gouge shared a smirk with his friends, then faced him again. "Follow us, and I'll tell you."
Chills raced over Beggar, but the scent of that food made him trail after the demons. Why were they heading toward the necessary? Nothing good could come from this.
So why am I still following?
Inside the stinking latrine, Gouge said, "If you want this feast, Beggar, you have to eat it with a little spice." He held up the platter.
Tears spilled down Beggar's face, because he knew what would come next. No, no, no--
Gouge turned the platter over, precious food dropping into the latrine.
Steam from piss rose along with the steam from food.
"I wouldn't tarry a moment, whelp," Gouge said, to his friends' laughter. "Each moment fouls your feast even more."
Sobbing, Beggar went to his hands and knees. Vowing that he would never know this humiliation again . . . he ate.
Mirceo shot upright, fangs and claws as sharp as razors. He darted his eyes, surprised not to be in that reeking latrine.
He would find those fucks, and he would godsdamned slaughter them!
Where was Caspion now? He surveyed the room, then scented the air for him. Not here.
But he'd return soon. Surely.
Grappling to rein in his emotions, Mirceo scrubbed his forearm over his eyes, recalling every detail of what he'd just experienced.
Caspion had been such a tiny pup, his emaciated body and rags no match for the cold. Mirceo now knew what it felt like to be chilled to the bone and wracked with ceaseless hunger. He now understood torment.
And then those demons had exploited that pain, adding more. Those dead demons. I will stalk them as mist and sever their fucking heads.
Was it any wonder that Caspion longed for the respect of the Abaddonae? Or that the demon was dominant? He'd lacked power for so long that he now needed to wield it over a partner.
With that dream, Mirceo had taken his mate's past inside him. In a way, he'd made that past his own. Nothing could ever break that bond. Yet for now, he would keep his new knowledge to himself. If Caspion learned Mirceo had seen his memory, he would grow furious.
Mirceo would add this secret to his others: You were once the subject of a wager, Caspion. And to get you in bed, I resorted to underhanded means. . . .
Where in the hells was the demon?
As Mirceo rose and yanked on his pants, he tried to piece together the fuzzy parts from last night. Hadn't Caspion explored his body? Or had that been a sweet reverie? Maybe Mirceo had only dreamed the demon's care.
No, the blankets still covered the windows. He traced to one, peeking past the material, wincing at the glare. Full day outside.
Where exactly am I? He spied a shell beach and sun-dappled, turquoise water. Movement at the shoreline caught his eye. Caspion.
He was rising from the waves, looking fresh from a swim. And I can't join him. Though the light burned his gaze, Mirceo still stared.
He wished that Caspion as a pup could somehow have known he would grow into this proud, magnificent warrior.
Caspion waded shoreward past the breakers, water sluicing over his glorious naked body and bronzed skin. His flat, rose-colored nipples were hardened. From the chill water? The sea's temperature had no effect on Caspion's member. That semihard shaft swayed with each of his steps. The curls at the base gleamed gold in the light.
As Mirceo's gaze lovingly took in every inch of that breathtaking body, he muttered to himself. "My mate's a fucking god."
I want him close always. I want to avenge his childhood pain. I want him in our bed, gazing down at me with those piercing eyes. I want his yells of pleasure ringing in my ears, and his blood heating my veins. . . .
But something was troubling the demon. Caspion's shoulders were knotted, his lips a thin line. He disappeared from the beach; seconds later the shower in the bungalow bathroom began to run.
Mirceo contemplated joining him, but something about Caspion's demeanor held him back. He turned from the window, his gaze flicking over the bag of coins on the bedstand--their bounty. Had Mirceo said or done something amiss during their night of celebration?
No. He rarely made mistakes. And whenever he did, others were eager to forgive him.
A short while later, the shower stopped. Caspion strode into the bedroom with a towel around his waist. He barely glanced at Mirceo.
"Demon, I . . ." I'm falling for you. I need to protect you always--
Caspion pushed past him without a word, then snagged a pair of jeans from a closet.
"What's going on, sweetheart?"
That towel dropped, revealing the sun-kissed curves of the demon's chiseled ass. Mirceo had to shuffle his feet to keep from falling over. Want to bite those mouthwatering cheeks . . .
Too soon, Caspion drew his pants up, buttoning the fly. He pulled on a black T-shirt, then faced Mirceo. "We need to talk." His demeanor remained icy.
"What's happened?"
"We are going to sort some things out." He strode from the bedroom into the kitchen. Sitting down at the rough-hewn table, he waved to the other chair.
Mirceo sat. "Caspion, you can't keep denying what you know is true. You know we're mates." Now the demon would rail that Mirceo wasn't his, and the two of them would quarrel--
"I want you to leave."
"Pardon?" Mirceo went cold. Damn it, they'd made strides yesterday! "What happened between the time I went to sleep and now?" Comprehension dawned. "You've accepted that I'm your mate, haven't you?" The dynamics between them had shifted last night!
Caspion steepled his fingers, a contemplative gesture, but his dark claws had grown razor-sharp. His blue eyes flickered to obsidian and back. The demon was in turmoil, only feigning control. "I have." At last! "Yet you will still leave. You're going to take a century to do whatever you need to do. Don't toe the line, don't live within boundaries. Fuck anyone who tempts you and contin
ue reveling with your hedonistic . . . friends. At the end of one hundred years, you and I will meet outside the castle in Abaddon. At that time, you will commit to me."
Mirceo's lips parted. "A century apart? Are you insane?"
"This is the only logical route."
"Logical? Vampires are supposed to be logical, not claim-deprived demons."
"I refuse to share my mate."
Even in the midst of all the craziness Caspion was spouting, Mirceo loved how "my mate" sounded coming from the demon. "As do I. We will both be faithful."
Caspion shook his head. "You're not capable of that. At least, not yet. You're too young, too rash, and too selfish. You and I met each other too soon."
"If you know I'm your mate, then you know you can't go that long without fulfilling your instinct to claim me. You'll grow crazed."
Caspion traced to his feet to pace, a muscle ticking in his jaw. "Let me worry about that."
Mirceo stood as well. "I'm not agreeing to this. Forget it."
Lips drawn back from his fangs, Caspion said, "Once I claim you, I will never let you go. I will mark you--for all time."
Mirceo had never seen him this livid. "That's what I want!"
Caspion lunged for him, pressing him up against the wall. "For once, THINK!" he roared. "This isn't a bloody game. If we don't part, I will claim you. Once you wear my mark, you will never fuck another. Never bite another. Your life will never be the same!"
"You lout, I want my life to never be the same! We will build a new life together." Adding to the House of Castellan. Pups. A family. Mirceo dared to lay his palm over the demon's thundering heart.
Caspion flinched as though burned, but allowed the contact. Gods, the emotions crossing those stormy eyes . . . need, hope, despair. "I see the future clearly, vampire, because I know you so well. Once I claim you, your panic will return, and you will leave. Then I'll be just like all of your other conquests, the ones who would give anything for just one more night with you."
"None of them was my mate! And you're my best friend on top of that. Why can't you believe in me?"
"Because you've taught me not to." Caspion released him and backed away. "Do you know what tracking is at its most basic form? It's the ability to recognize potential when you come across it. I see so much potential in you, vampire. But you are not there yet. For now, you are your own worst enemy."
"What will it take to change your mind?"
"Nothing. Your next step is to leave. A hundred years can pass quickly for an immortal who remains active."
Bullshit. "I'm going to take a short leave just to get you off my back about it. I will carefully consider every aspect of our future. And then I will return in four days."
Caspion shook his head hard. "One hundred years--"
"Four. Days." Mirceo pinned his gaze. "Face it, demon, neither of us will make it a week apart, much less a century."
TWENTY-FIVE
The first two days of their separation had been excruciating.
A low roar constantly sounded in Cas's ears. Part of him thought/hoped that Mirceo would consider everything, realize he couldn't yet commit, and stay away.
But another hot, aching part of Cas prayed to every dark god that the vampire would return in another two days.
Put me out of this misery. Cas hadn't been able to eat or sleep. He'd finally started bloodletting--slice marks in various stages of regeneration covered his forearms--but the relief was fleeting. As he'd stared at the crimson pouring down the sink drain, he'd regretted the waste, just as he would the waste of any nourishment. It reminded him of Gouge, a demon who'd offered food, only to throw it away.
Cas could concentrate on nothing, his instincts going haywire. Need a distraction. His gaze landed on the coin pouch. Cas would go see Bettina, dropping off the dragon gold.
Stuffing the pouch into his coat pocket, he traced into her light and airy workshop. Her specialty was body jewelry with hidden weaponry. Dress dummies had been arrayed with various pieces. Workbenches with intricate tools lined the walls.
Wearing protective goggles, Bettina sat hunched over one of her creations, engraving the piece. Sensing his presence, she lifted her head. "Caspion!" Her light-brown eyes shimmered behind her comical eyewear.
He opened his arms, and she ran into them. "I've missed you, Tina." He clasped her against him.
"How long were you gone?"
"Awhile," he said, finally releasing her.
She removed her goggles. "Let's have a drink out on the balcony." As they used to do. "You can tell me everything."
He followed her into the main area of her suite. A new framed piece of art--a pencil sketch of Trehan Daciano rendered by her hand--hung in a prominent place on the wall.
Sick of that vampire. Cas glanced from the portrait to Bettina, noting the pink in her cheeks and the light in her gaze.
She was . . . happy. The Prince of Shadow was actually making her happy.
From a bar area, she poured demon brew for Cas and a sweet wine for herself.
Drinks in hand, they headed out to her balcony. The moon was nearly full in the sky, its light beaming down over the fog that wisped through the medieval town.
That moonlit mist reminded him of the vampire. What doesn't?
This sleepy hamlet seemed so much smaller than Cas remembered it. Why did I care what these demons think of me? As if they mattered in the grand scheme of his life. Cas got more satisfaction from one of Mirceo's awed looks than he'd experienced when this entire fickle populace had cheered for him.
Cas would tell them all to go to hell in order to have his mate beside him. If my mate could be true.
Bettina sipped her wine. "I'm so glad you're back, Cas. A lot has happened over these weeks."
"Catch me up."
"Well . . ." She exhaled a breath. "It turns out Trehan believed I was the one who poisoned him--in order to save you. To be fair, I did hand him a goblet of wine that night, and I had threatened to poison him before." Not to mention that she designed poison rings. "Not long after you left, he and I reconciled and married."
Still despise that prick. "How do the Abaddonae feel about a vampire as their king?"
She tucked her dark hair behind her ear. "Well, you know . . . they saw him at the death matches, and . . ."
"They love him." Abaddon's motto was Might makes right. "Cas, I love him." She couldn't contain a beaming smile. "And he adores me."
"Why wouldn't he, Tina? Daciano doesn't deserve you."
Her brows drew together. "Cas . . ."
Changing the subject, he said, "Where's Salem?" Her insolent phantom bodyguard.
"He secretly tagged along with me into Dacia, then took off! Now he's loose somewhere in the kingdom."
"Gods help the Dacians."
"I know, right? Speaking of hidden kingdoms, we, uh, called a truce with the Vrekeners not long ago."
Cas's head snapped up. "What the hell? What did Raum say about this?" The grand duke of the Deathly Ones had eagerly turned over the dimension to Bettina.
"He wasn't thrilled, but when I explained things, he came around." Tilting her head, she asked, "Do you want to see him while you're here?"
Cas wasn't ready to face him yet. Maybe if he had a more solid footing in his life. Am I mated? Am I not? This limbo was maddening. "Don't change the subject. Tell me about the Vrekeners."
"So much has happened. The leader of the gang who attacked me was their king. After Trehan killed those assholes, a new ruler stepped up. Thronos Talos. His mate is a sorceress!"
Surprising. "She managed to get him to stand down?"
Bettina sipped her wine. "No, Thronos is a decent guy. I like him."
Cas's jaw slackened. She had detested and feared Vrekeners, every last one of them.
"The king who hurt me was the outlier," she said. "The rest aren't like him."
"That we know of." Give them time.
Moving away from that subject, she said, "Please tell me how long you were gon
e. I mean, technically."
He swigged his brew. "Five hundred years or so."
Now her jaw slackened. "Why would . . . how could you remain away that long?"
"Because that's what it took for me to accept everything that happened."
Confusion marked her expression. "It wasn't that bad!"
"I fought for my honor and the honor of our people. Then I lost. Spectacularly."
"For the love of gold, Caspion, he was so much older than you."
In a low tone, he said, "Not anymore."
She stilled. "You have to let go of your animosity against Trehan. He's my husband, and you're my dearest friend. I can't lose either of you."
"I don't see us mending fences." Even if he could ever forget the pain that vampire had delivered, Cas wouldn't want to be anywhere near a Daciano to remind him of Mirceo.
"Trey feels awful about how he treated you. He was under the influence of a serious toxin during that fight. Does that count for nothing?"
Cas shrugged.
"He even offered to give you his scry crystal"--no longer an option--"to make amends, but also in recognition of your stellar career."
As a tracker. Cas's hunt for her attackers had been the most important of his life, now never to be completed--because of bloody Trehan.
Realization hit: Not only had Trehan avenged Bettina, that Dacian had also avenged Cas's mate for the deaths of Mirceo's parents!
Really fucking sick of that vampire.
She laid her hand on his arm. "You'll have to put aside your anger if you want a future with Mirceo."
Cas stilled. "Trehan told you."
"Oh, Cas, is Mirceo truly yours? Could you and I both have found our mates?"
"Yes, he's mine."
"I admit I was surprised when I heard this. You were always with females, so I thought you were straight."
"I am. Or I was. I've never desired a male before, but with Mirceo . . ." Cas exhaled. "I am very much not straight. I've never desired anyone like I do him." He scrubbed a hand over his face. "It's like a fever."
"Have you attempted him?"
"No. I don't think he can be faithful. He doesn't understand commitment, is too young to enter into one." At that age, even Cas would've had difficulty, and he'd desired matehood.
"Have you let him drink from you? It can really bond two people." A secretive smile played about her lips.
Let? Not at first. "He's fed from me. You allow Trehan to drink from you?"