“I can’t wait to see you, too.”
***
On New Year’s Eve, I took a shower, styled my hair, and put on the makeup I bought when I went shopping. My new lip stain wouldn’t come off when I kissed T.J., which I planned to do a lot. I snipped the tags off a new pair of jeans and a navy blue v-neck sweater, then pulled them on over a black push-up bra and lacy underwear.
When T.J. knocked, I ran to the door and opened it.
“Your hair!” I said. Cropped brown hair framed his face and I ran my fingers through it. Clean-shaven, he wore jeans and a gray sweater. I inhaled his cologne. “You smell good.”
“You look beautiful,” he said, bending down to kiss my lips. He had briefly met Sarah and David at the airport, but I introduced them again. The kids stole looks at T.J., peeking out from behind Sarah.
“You must be Joe and Chloe. I’ve heard a lot about you,” T.J. said.
“Hi,” Joe said.
“Hi,” Chloe echoed. She hid behind Sarah again, sneaking another look at T.J. a few seconds later.
“We better hurry, David, if we want to make those reservations,” Sarah said.
“You’re leaving?” I asked.
“For a couple hours. We thought we’d get the kids out of the house for a little while.” She grabbed her coat and smiled at me. I smiled back.
“Okay. See you later.”
I jumped into T.J.’s arms as soon as the door closed, wrapping my legs around his waist. He carried me down the hallway while I kissed his neck.
“Where?” he asked.
I grabbed the doorway when we reached the spare bedroom. “Here.”
T.J. kicked the door closed with his foot and deposited me on the bed.
“God, I’ve missed you.” He kissed me, slid his hands under my sweater, and whispered, “Let’s see what you’ve got on under here.”
We barely made it back out to the couch by the time Sarah, David and the kids came home two hours later.
“Are you having fun with your boyfriend, Aunt Anna?” Chloe asked.
Sarah and I looked at each other and she raised her eyebrows at me before disappearing into the kitchen.
“Yes, I’m having a lot of fun with him. Did you have a good dinner?”
“Uh huh. I had chicken nuggets and French fries and Mommy let me have orange soda!”
Joe came over and sat next to T.J.
“What about you?” T.J. asked him. “What did you have?”
“I had a steak,” he said. “I don’t order off the baby menu.”
“Wow, a steak,” T.J. said. “I’m impressed.”
“Yeah.”
Sarah came back into the room with a glass of wine for me and a beer for T.J. “We brought you dinner. It’s on the counter.”
We thanked her and went into the kitchen to warm up our food. Steak, baked potatoes, and broccoli with cheese sauce.
T.J. ate a piece of steak. “Your sister is awesome.”
Sarah put the kids to bed at 8:30 and the four of us sat around talking, the stereo on low.
“So you’re saying you had a pet chicken named Chicken?” David asked.
“It used to sit in Anna’s lap,” T.J. said.
“Amazing,” David said.
Later, when I went into the kitchen to refill our drinks, Sarah followed me.
“Is T.J. staying over?”
“I don’t know. Can he?”
“I don’t care. But you get to answer Miss Chloe’s questions in the morning because I guarantee you, she’ll have some.”
“Okay. Thanks, Sarah.”
We walked back into the living room, and T.J. pulled me onto his lap. David turned on the T.V. The ball was about to drop in Times Square and we counted backward from ten and yelled “Happy New Year.”
T.J. kissed me, and I thought I could never be happier than I was at that moment.
Chapter 52 – T.J.
My mom was sitting in the living room drinking coffee when I walked in the door at 9:00 a.m. on New Year’s Day.
“Hey Mom. Happy New Year.” I hugged her and sat down. “I stayed at Anna’s last night.”
“I thought you might.”
“Should I have called?” Other than going out with Ben, or to the appointments my mom had scheduled, I’d spent every minute since I got home with my family. I knew they’d understand my wanting to see Anna, but it hadn’t occurred to me to let anyone know I was going to be out all night.
“It would be nice if you did. Then I wouldn’t worry.”
Shit. I wondered how many sleepless nights she’d had in the last three-and-a-half years, and I felt like an even bigger asshole for not calling. “I’m sorry Mom. I wasn’t thinking. I’ll call next time.”
“Do you want some coffee? I can make you breakfast.”
“No thanks. I ate at Anna’s.” We sat in silence for a minute. “You haven’t said anything about me and Anna, Mom. How you feel about it?”
My mom shook her head. “It’s not what I would have chosen, T.J. No mother would. But I understand what it must have been like for the two of you on the island. It would be hard not to form a bond with someone under those circumstances.”
“She’s a great girl.”
“I know she is. We wouldn’t have hired her if we didn’t think so.” My mom set her coffee cup down on the table. “When your plane went down, part of me died, T.J. I felt like it was my fault. I knew how angry you were about spending the summer away from home, and I didn’t care. I told your dad we needed to vacation somewhere far away so you’d concentrate on your schoolwork, without any distraction. That was partly true. But mostly it was because I knew when we got home I’d lose you to your friends. You were finally healthy and you wanted nothing more than to go back to the way things were before you got sick. I was selfish, though. I just wanted to spend the summer with my son.” My mom’s eyes filled with tears. “You’re an adult now, T.J. You’ve been through more in your first twenty years than most people endure in a lifetime. Your relationship with Anna is not something I’m going to fight. Now that I have you back I just want you to be happy.”
I noticed for the first time how worn out my mom looked. She was forty-five but a stranger would probably guess her age as ten years older. “Thanks for being cool about it, Mom. She’s important to me.”
“I know she is. But you and Anna are at very different stages in your lives. I don’t want to see you get hurt.”
“I won’t.” I kissed my mom on the cheek and went to my room. I stretched out on my bed and thought about Anna, pushing everything my mom said about different stages right out of my head.
Chapter 53 – Anna
T.J. and I rode the elevator to his parents’ apartment on the twelfth floor. “Do not touch me. Do not even look at me inappropriately,” I warned him.
“Can I think super dirty thoughts about you?”
I shook my head. “That’s not helping. Oh, I feel sick.”
“My mom’s cool. I told you what she said about us. Just relax.”
Tom Callahan had called Sarah’s cell phone on New Year’s Day. When the name showed up on the caller ID, I thought it was T.J., but when I said hello, Tom greeted me and asked if I’d like to come over for dinner the next night.
“Jane and I have a few things to discuss with you.”
Please don’t let one of them be that I slept with your son.
”Sure, Tom. What time?”
“T.J. said he’d pick you up at 6:00.”
“Okay. I’ll see you tomorrow night.”
I spent the twenty-four hours since Tom’s call feeling like I was about to throw up. I couldn’t decide whether to bring Jane flowers or a candle, so I brought both. Now, in the elevator, my nervousness threatened to overtake me. I handed the gift bag and bouquet to T.J. and wiped my damp palms on my skirt.
The elevator doors opened. T.J. kissed me and said, “It’ll be fine.”
I took a deep breath and followed him.
The Calla
han’s Lake Shore Drive apartment was tastefully decorated in shades of beige and cream. A baby grand piano sat at an angle in a corner of the vast living room and Impressionist paintings hung on the walls. The plush couch, loveseat, and matching chairs – piled high with tasseled pillows – surrounded a large, ornate coffee table.
Tom poured pre-dinner drinks in the library. I sat in a leather club chair holding a glass of red wine. T.J. sat in the chair next to me. Tom and Jane were across from us on a loveseat, Jane sipping a glass of white wine and Tom drinking something that looked like scotch.
“Thank you for inviting me here,” I said. “Your home is beautiful.”
“Thank you for coming, Anna,” Jane said.
Everyone took a drink. Silence filled the room.
T.J. – the only relaxed person there – took a swig from the beer he’d helped himself to and draped an arm over the back of my chair.
“The media have asked if you and T.J. would be willing to hold a press conference,” Tom said. “In exchange, they’ll stop bothering you.”
“What do you think, Anna?” T.J. asked.
The idea filled me with dread but I was tired of fighting my way past the reporters. Maybe if we answered their questions, they’d leave us alone.
“Would it be televised?” I asked.
“No. I’ve already told them it would have to be a closed press conference. They’ll hold it at the news station, but they won’t broadcast it.”
“If the reporters agree to back off, I’ll do it.”
“So will I,” T.J. said.
“I’ll set it up,” Tom said. “There’s something else, Anna. T.J. already knows this but I’ve been on the phone with the attorney for the seaplane charter. Because the death of the pilot caused the crash but the supplier of the life raft didn’t provide the Coast Guard-mandated emergency beacon, there’s comparative fault. Both parties are considered negligent. Aviation litigation is very complex and the courts will have to determine the percentage of liability. These cases can drag on for years. However, the seaplane charter would like to settle with you both and then subrogate against the other party. In exchange, you’ll agree not to file a lawsuit.”
My head spun. I hadn’t thought about negligence or lawsuits. “I don’t know what to say. I wouldn’t have sued anyway.”
“Then I suggest you settle. There won’t be any trial. You may need to give a deposition, but you can do that here in Chicago. Since you were in my employ when the crash occurred, my attorney can handle the negotiations for you.”
“Yes. That would be fine.”
“It will probably take several months, or more, before it’s finalized.”
“Okay, Tom.”
Alexis and Grace joined us for dinner. Everyone had relaxed considerably by the time we sat down at the dining room table, helped in part by the second round of drinks we all said we didn’t want but drank anyway.
Jane served beef tenderloin, roasted vegetables, and au gratin potatoes. Alexis and Grace snuck looks at me and smiled. I helped Jane clear the table and serve a warm apple tart and ice cream for dessert.
When we got ready to leave, Tom handed me an envelope.
“What’s this?”
“It’s a check. We still owe you for the tutoring.”
“You don’t owe me anything. I didn’t do my job.” I tried to give the envelope back to him.
Gently, he pushed my hand away. “Jane and I insist.”
“Tom, please.”
“Just take it, Anna. It will make us happy.”
“Okay.” I slid the envelope into my purse.
“Thank you for everything,” I said to Jane.
I looked her in the eye and she met my gaze. Not many mothers would welcome their son’s much older girlfriend into their home so graciously and we both knew it.
“You’re welcome, Anna. Come again sometime.”
T.J. took me in his arms as soon as the elevator doors closed. I exhaled and rested my head on his chest. “Your parents are wonderful.”
“I told you they were cool.”
They were also generous. Because later that night, when I opened the envelope they’d given me, I pulled out a check for twenty-five thousand dollars.
***
The press conference was scheduled to begin at two o’clock. Tom and Jane Callahan stood off to the side, Tom holding a small video camera in his hand, the only one allowed to tape anything.
“I know what they’re going to ask,” I said.
“You don’t have to answer anything you don’t want to,” T.J. reminded me.
We sat at a long table facing a sea of reporters. I tapped my right foot up and down and T.J. leaned over and pressed down gently on my thigh. He knew better than to leave his hand there for very long.
Someone had taped a large map on the wall showing an aerial view of the twenty-six atolls of the Maldives. A public relations representative for the news channel, assigned to moderate the press conference, began by explaining to the reporters that the island T.J. and I lived on was uninhabited and likely sustained significant damage due to the tsunami. She used a laser pointer and identified the island of Malé as our starting point. “This was their destination,” she said, pointing to another island. “Because the pilot suffered a heart attack, the plane crash-landed somewhere in between.”
The first question came from a reporter standing in the back row. He had to shout so we could hear him.
“What went through your minds when you realized the pilot was having a heart attack?”
I leaned forward and spoke into the microphone. “We were scared he would die and worried that he wouldn’t be able to land the plane.”
“Did you try to help him?” another reporter asked.
“Anna did,” T.J. said. “The pilot asked us to put on life jackets and go back to our seats and buckle in. When he slumped over, Anna unbuckled and went forward to start CPR.”
“How long were you in the ocean before you made it to the island?”
T.J. answered that question. “I’m not sure. The sun set about an hour after we crashed and it came up after we made it to shore.”
We answered questions for the next hour. They asked us about everything from how we fed ourselves to what kind of shelter we built. We told them about T.J.’s broken collarbone and the illness that almost killed him. We described the storms and explained how the dolphins saved T.J. from the shark. We talked about the tsunami and our reunion at the hospital. They seemed genuinely in awe of the hardships we faced, and I relaxed a little.
Then a reporter in the front row, a middle-aged woman with a scowl on her face asked, “What kind of physical relationship did you have on the island?”
“That’s irrelevant,” I answered.
“Are you aware of the age of consent in the state of Illinois?” she asked.
I didn’t point out that the island wasn’t in Illinois. “Of course I am.” In case not everyone knew, she decided to enlighten them.
“The age of consent in Illinois is seventeen, unless the relationship involves a person of authority such as a teacher. Then the age is raised to eighteen.”
“No laws were broken,” T.J. said.
“Sometimes victims are coerced into lying,” the reporter countered. “Especially if the abuse occurred early on.”
“There was no abuse,” T.J. said.
She addressed me directly with her next question.
“How do you think Chicago taxpayers will feel about paying the salary of a teacher suspected of sexual misconduct toward a student?”
“There wasn’t any sexual misconduct,” T.J. yelled. “What part of this are you not getting?”
Though I knew they would ask about our relationship, I never considered the possibility that they’d accuse us of lying about it, or think I somehow forced myself on T.J. The seed of doubt the reporter planted would undoubtedly multiply, fed by rumors and speculation. Everyone that read our story would question my actions and my integrity.
At the very least, it might be difficult to find a school district willing to take a chance on me, effectively ending my career as a teacher.
When my brain finished processing what her questioning had done, I barely had enough time to scrape my chair back and run for the women’s restroom. I flung open the door of a stall and leaned over the toilet. I’d been unable to eat before the press conference and my empty stomach dry-heaved but nothing came up. Someone opened the door.
“I’m okay, T.J. I’ll be out in minute.”
“It’s me, Anna,” a female voice said.
I came out of the stall. Jane Callahan was standing there. She opened her arms to me and it was so like something my own mom would have done that I threw myself into them and burst into tears. When I stopped crying, Jane handed me a tissue and said, “The media sensationalizes everything. I think some of the general public will see through it.”
I wiped my eyes. “I hope so.”
T.J. and Tom were waiting for us when we walked out of the restroom. T.J. led me to a chair and sat down beside me.
“Are you okay?” He put his arm around me, and I rested my head on his shoulder.
“I’m better now.”
“It’ll all work out, Anna.”
“Maybe,” I said. Or maybe not.
The next morning, I read the newspaper coverage of the press conference. It wasn’t as bad as I’d expected, but it wasn’t good either. The article didn’t question my teaching ability, but it echoed some of the points the reporter made about the likelihood of a school district agreeing to hire me. I handed it to Sarah when she walked into the room. She read it and made a disgusted noise.
“What are you going to do?” Sarah asked.
“I’m going to talk to Ken.”
Ken Tomlinson had been my principal for six years. A thirty-year veteran of the Illinois public school system, his dedication to the students and his support of the teachers made him one of the most respected men in the district. He didn’t spend a lot of time worrying about things that didn’t matter, and he told the best off-color jokes I’d ever heard.
I stuck my head into his office a little after 7:00 a.m. a few days after the press conference. He pushed his chair back and met me at the door.